Yes, Mac is that fully sexual being with no real connection to real feeling. She’s just brash and outspoken and entitled. Rose is doing a wonderful job of slowing down Mac’s passion, particularly given her attraction for the other woman. I mean it would be so easy for her to just tumble into bed with Mac but she’s in control here and she’s timing things.
I’m glad you enjoy Rose’s gran. She has kind of dropped off here but she’s a fun illustration of who/what Willow is.
Omg. You’re reading my story drafts aren’t you? They actually were going to go on a date on the airplane and Tara was going to want to have airplane sex but Rose was going to turn her down. Well, not to give away too many spoilers but they aren’t going on that particular date but how funny that you mentioned it.Though I think it’s high time for her to spread her wings and have airplane sex with Tara.
Thanks for reading and here’s the next chapter.
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Story Title – Love comes to LongLick Revisited
Chapter – 9 – Broken Part I
Chapter Rating – G
Author, Pairing, Feedback, Spoilers, Distribution, Disclaimer – see chapter 1.
Note 1 – I tried to employ a consistency re: Tara’s letters being italicized and Willow’s letters and journals not. I hope I was consistent.
Note 2 – I apologize not at all for the cliffhanger. I’m tempted to either hold the next update hostage for the next update to Impulse or 10 feedbacks but I’m too impatient for that. Expect the breaking of the cliffhanger in 5 days or a week.
Mac stared at her clock willing it to move forward. It wasn’t 7:00 yet but she had been awake for hours. After leaving the library she brought home Rose’s computer and read and then reread available documents until she had forced herself to go to sleep at 3:30 so she could be semi-coherent for the morning. Maddeningly, Rose had allocated her a certain amount to read. While there would be no reason for Rose to assume that Mac would be so caught up in the narrative that she would read all night, Mac felt irritated that the redhead had given her only a certain number of documents. The end point had left her confused and angry but she couldn’t tell if she was angry at Rose or the characters in the story. She looked at he clock again before picking it up and angrily throwing it against the opposite wall, pleased with the sharp explosive sound as it shattered into 100s of parts. “Fuck it. I’m going to work out.” She quickly dressed for her workout, grabbed her IPod, and went down the hall to the private exercise room on the far corner of the floor.
Yanking the door open, she wasn’t paying enough attention to note her father on a recumbent bike until she’d stepped inside the room and let the door slam. “Maclay Willingham? Do you know what time it is?” He laughed. “I don’t know that I’ve seen you awake this early in the morning in years.” Mac took a breath to control her emotions. She smiled at the man and crossed the room to look at the computerized readout on the bike, pulling on the corner of the Wall Street Journal he was currently reading to see the figures. “Pretty good for an old man, huh?” He patted his stomach.
“You’re 43, dad. Hardly pushing the grave, you know.” She stepped onto the stair-climber and programmed her routine as she spoke.
James laughed as he sipped at his sports drink. “You’re probably right.” He glanced at his watch and Mac knew what was coming. “So have you considered my suggestion?”
Mac nodded. “I actually have been doing a lot of thinking lately. I’d like to take another week or two but yes, I think it’s a good idea.”
James looked shocked. “Really? I’m surprised. Pleasantly but surprised nonetheless. May I ask what has brought on this change of heart?”
Mac hit the button to speed up her machine as she considered how to answer the question. “I don’t know. I just… I’ve been doing some reading on the origins of Sunnydale and Sunnyland Farms.”
Again her father looked surprised. “Over at the library? We have all those documents if you want to read here or by the pool you know. I can’t see that the archivist would have anything we wouldn’t have in our private library.”
Mac shrugged. “That may be, Daddy. But there’s a researcher over there who seems very thorough. She’s still uncovering documents from the last 150 years.”
James laughed. “And now we come to the basis of your interest. Let me guess, she’s cute, young, single?”
Mac laughed as well as she watched her father hit the buttons that would download the statistics from his exercise into the computer for analysis later. “I can’t deny that she’s all those things.” She almost surprised herself as she told him honestly. “She has something… some charisma and passion that I’ve never… and mystery.”
James swung his leg over the crossbar and stood up, gathering his papers and throwing the towel into the bin. “I’m sure she’s all that, darling. If the time comes, you know I want to meet her.” He was almost to the door when he added. “Any woman that has you out of bed before 6:30 in the morning must be noted and congratulated.” He paused before adding, “… perhaps sent a fruit basket.” He ducked out the door before she could playfully throw her towel at him.
She finished her workout and went back to her suite to shower and dress, ordering room service for breakfast. While she was unlikely to meet up with Tip and face the third degree this early, she didn’t even feel up to the chance of starting the interrogation. Although her father had been loving and encouraging, her anger and confusion over the documents she’d read the night before had still not left her and she could think of only one person who could possibly provide her with a satisfactory explanation. In spite of her attempts to exercise her emotion away she was still quite distraught as she knocked and then entered the small research room just after 9:00.
“Ok, what did she do? Or what did Ethan Rayne do? Someone did something and it wasn’t something good.” Tara set down the computer and grabbed a chair to pull it out with a bang.
Her anger was not abated as she witnessed the amused look on Rose’s face. “Who did what? Or who did what to whom? When? With whom?”
Mac’s expression hardened. “Don’t give me that crap, Rose Jennings. You know just what I’m talking about.”
Rose smiled again and settled into the seat next to the blonde. “Why don’t you show me.”
Mac shook her head but opened the laptop and began clicking on links then reading passages and sections of the documents out loud:
Willow’s diary February 14, 1881:
[blockquote]I got to get started on the surprise right away and no foolin’. I don’t know whether my love goin’ to be gone a month or six and I want to be able to surprise her when she gets back. The title I got settled and had long time ago. It’s gonna be the grandest house this town ever seen. Them boys ought to show up this week for layin’ out the wood and piecin’ it all together. A bunch ‘em gonna stay at the saloon which I guess Anya be happy for the extra business. Faith says the money comes rollin’ in. [/blockquote]
The entry was short but Mac recognized with no problem the rough and then exacting sketches in the book of the ground and second floors of her family home. Over the years, the kitchen had been expanded and various walls replaced with windows and the bathrooms had of course been updated but there was no mistaking it. Willow Rosenberg had designed the Rayne family mansion.
“Willow built our house for Tara?”
Rose nodded. “A lot of it with her own hands. She hired workers because she was in such a hurry but she did the design herself. And Xander loved carpentry so he put detail on banisters and floorboards and such. It was a labor of love.”
Mac thought back to Willow’s obituary. “She never lived in it though. I mean whatever happened was before she and Tara could move in.”
Rose nodded. “Quite true. Willow never entered the completed house until the day she was shot and killed by her uncle.”
Mac shook her head and opened another diary entry. This one dated February 23, 1881:
[blockquote]Progess on the house is goin’ fast. I haven’t heard nothin’ from Tara yet but I’m expectin’ a letter in her beautiful hand and words any day. I can’t even say how much I miss her. I bet 93 times a day, I find myself talkin’ to her and she’s not even there. This mornin’ I poured her a cup of coffee and added her sugar and turned to hand it to her and no Tara.
Gods. I’d do ‘bout anythin’ to have her in my arms.
I can remember that first time. That first afternoon we was together and our pledgin’ bein’ together the rest of our lives. I can’t grudge her family none wantin’ to see her a time like this but this country girl needs her city girl right back here where she belongs.[/blockquote]
Mac opened a letter from Tara to Willow dated February 18, 1881:
[blockquote]Dearest Willow,
I miss you more than I could find ink to put to paper. Our journey so far has been quite like journeys of this sort tend to be. In other words, long and hot despite the season. Mr. Rayne has been a perfect gentleman and has handled all matters quite as I would imagine you would if you had the chance. I have not touched a bag since we left Sunnydale. Our coach ride to San Francisco was quite the most bumpy part of the trip. I mentioned to Mr. Rayne that I could not believe he makes this journey 3 or more times a month and he said that it was worth it to sell our wonderful preserves. He flatters me too much and too insistently for my desires at times but his respect is such that I can hardly fault him for it.
In St. Louis we had to spend the night in a hotel as the train took on coal and had a thorough cleaning of our cars. You can not imagine the filth that can gather on the seats and floors. Even the ceiling of the cars holds a black dusting of coal and soot. The heat in the cars is preferable to the air if some poor fool should endeavor to open a car window. When I arrive at home my immediate activity (after greeting my loved ones of course) shall be to take a hot bath that last hours. Even then, I doubt I will feel clean for weeks.
Oh love. You would so love Philadelphia.
And love. You would love hot baths.
With me.
I miss you. I miss your arms and hands and eyes and your beautiful face.
Ahhh.
Curse this world that presents me with the task of leaving one I love so dearly to be with my family for a short time then leaving my family to be with one I love once again.
But you know I can not truly curse this world when it has you in it.
I fear my teardrops are smudging this paper and will set it aside to continue later. [/blockquote]
“I take it she didn’t finish it but posted it along the train ride?”
Rose nodded and tapped Mac’s nose with her fingertip. “On the button.”
[blockquote]February 28, 1881,
I got your letter and it come at just the right moment cause I was teary myself with missin’ you all day every day. I read your words over and over and tried to imagine it all. Your hands and your arms and a hot bath. I guess maybe I could run down to Mrs. Mayor Wilkins’ place and see if I could sneak in through the servants door to take one some day when she’s out doin’ her visitin’ and all. Could you imagine?
Is the train scary and loud? It sounds frightful to be on something so fast and big and you can’t even pull on the reins and make it turn or anythin’.
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The middle section of the letter was filled with details about Willow’s planting plans for the spring and the seed orders she had placed at her uncle’s store (paying the bill directly).
[blockquote]I got a surprise like you ain’t gonna ever believe for you. There I said it. I been plannin’ this for you for a long time but never had no idea on how to do it. But it’s started and you’re goin to love it.
I’m losin’ light already so I better fold this in and take it down to town in the mornin’
I love and miss you more’n I can even think of words.
Your devoted,
Willow
Oh yeah. I forgot to tell you Dawn turned back up a few days ago. She stepped off that stagecoach like everyone would have forgot all about her since she been gone. First thing is she went over to the saloon and visited with Faith I guess cause next thing is the two of them headed out to Buffy’s place. Not like Buffy can handle her wayward sister with that mess of little ones always tripin’ anyone walks in that house but maybe she don’t even want to chance things with Mrs. Summers. [/blockquote]
Mac folded her arms across her chest. “The whole thing’s a setup isn’t it?”
Rose shrugged and clicked on another letter from Tara to Willow dated March 12.
[blockquote] …
Although I miss you more than words can flow from the pen, it is wonderful to spend this time with my father. In the morning, I enter his room and sit and read to him for hours. At times he seems quite aware of me and holds my hand. At others, I do not think he knows me and asks if I know his daughter. A few days ago he told me that his daughter, Tara, moved far away and married a fine man and has three young children. He began to pat at the pockets of his gown as if he would find a letter confirming this fantasy until I could calm his excitement.
…
I suspect Dawn has had a hard time of it in her venturing out onto her own. While I lack respect for her work ethic, I must say that as a Christian, I want to take her in the fold and shelter her from the world she has unwisely exposed herself to. Whatever she has done in San Francisco, she is one of ours and must be protected from that world. If she has fallen in whatever way she may have fallen, it is our duty to lift her up and hold her if she can not do so herself.
…
Until I can have you in my arms again, please keep the words I love you.
Tara [/blockquote]
From Willow’s journal dated March 20.
[blockquote]I don’t know about this hirin’ Dawn back for work but she and Buffy seem liable to kill each other with no tellin’ which first. Plus which, with Tara gone, I can use the help down here.
I’d say from each 4 hours of Dawn workin’ I get bout 2 ½ or so. I guess that’s 2 ½ better than I woulda otherwise. She even done some work down on the house if I give her really clear instructions.
I caint say what happened in San Francisco but she ain’t our little Dawnie no more. She done asked me bout 400 questions about Tara and me, starting on do we sleep on the same bed and progressin’ to usin some words I ain’t never heard. I tried to tell her that I don’t appreciate no language like that but she just laughed. And I ain’t bout to tell her nothin’ bout me and Tara anyways. That’s our private business and Dawn acts like it’s all just fun and games. Buffy sent her to stay down here but half-times she winds up down at the saloon. Faith come up and asked can I fetch her back here every night so they don’t have to deal with her.
Sometimes I ain’t sure about this Christian feelins cause she can try my patience. I can’t tell none of this to Tara though cause she still thinks Dawn’s that innocent girl she used to teach at the schoolhouse and she deserves her chance for change. I can tell you from … well, she ain’t no innocent little girl no more. [/blockquote]
From Willow’s letter to Tara dated March 21
[blockquote]…
I fear that you are correct that Dawn has fallen indeed but am doing what I can for her. She is working for us agin as she did years ago. I think you will see changes in her when you get back and hope they will be for the better as I hope to help her out. …
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Tara’s letter of March 24:
[blockquote]Oh Dearest,
It will not be much longer I fear. I fear but at the same time my father suffers and I would wish that on no one. I still read to him in the mornings but it is not possible to tell if he can understand my words. Sometimes he is grasped by pain and squeezes my hand so tightly I have red marks on it for hours afterwards.
My heart breaks and the only thing that keeps me from falling apart is the thought of your arms. When I feel my lowest, I imagine you holding me tightly through anything. You are my everything, you know? You know this do you not?
I am excited to know you have a surprise for me but wondering at the same time how you could have kept a secret from me. I’m used to your annual land gifts but what can this be? And how can my love deceive me? I jest with you.
I am proud of you to hear of your efforts with Dawn. Surely she will see that hard work and dedication will bring her the rewards she seeks in this world and the next.
…[/blockquote]
The rest of the letter was a return to the condition of her father and her expectations for her stay.
Rose looked up. “Did you get past this part?”
Mac nodded and clicked another link – Willow’s journal dated April 4th.
[blockquote]I still don’t hold none with that saloon crowd but maybe it ain’t quite so bad as I always thought. I been goin’ down there few nights every week to drag Dawn back to the house. Course, she’s in no shape to climb up that ladder so I’m up there now too which keeps her from fallin’ across the bed coming down anyway. It’s like a party ever’ night up there with Faith pourin’ out drinks for these cowboys and the guys building my house and Xander leanin’ up against the piano and Dawn lookin’ about to dance on tables. I set in the corner and waited on her to get ready to leave 45 minutes of “just about ready, Willow” that first day before I took up a seat at the bar where at least I can visit with Faith.
She pours me a glass of whiskey “on the house” on account of the guys building Tara n’ my house spending half their pay over there and Anya says make me happy no matter what. That’s a change cause usually she looks at me like my breathin’ her air costs her a dollar a day or somethin’. Anyway, I just set and sip at that thing and visit with Faith cause there ain’t no use for hurrying Dawn. That girl gonna get down off tables when she feels the wish to get down off tables. I asked Faith don’t Anya get bothered but she kinda winked and said Dawn’s just creatin’ business for the other girls. I been just sippin’ at the drink to not be offendin’ toward Anya or nothin’ but I’d rather just get Dawn out of there and get me some sleep. Some nights I brung my paper and write a letter to Tara, not that I tell her where I am. [/blockquote]
Mac shook her head. “I didn’t like where this was going the first time through.”
Rose almost laughed. “I don’t think you should.”
From Tara’s letter dated April 2:
[blockquote]Love,
The end has come for my father. I can do no more and can comfort him no further. I feel a blackneses descending on this house and over me. I wish you had come with me for I feel a dark feeling about things in Sunnydale. I can not explain it but confusion fills me when I try to imagine you and the town I so love. I am sure this is just my sadness at losing Father.
Donnie is making arrangements and Jenny and the children are here with me. I will write at length later but I must post this now so you know of my sadness.
Missing you more than I can express,
Tara[/blockquote]
“I’m going to skip some here…” Mac explained as she scrolled down the document until she reached a letter from Willow to Tara dated April 24:
[blockquote]Dearest Tara,
I can not wait for your return. I have missed you so dearly I can not even express it. Your surprise is not complete but I believe you will be shocked anyway. Let me know when your coach will be arrivin’ so I can wait with my arms open for you. I’ll be standin’ there hours before and don’t care if it’s late or early or you’re covered head to toe in coal dust and dirt.
…[/blockquote]
“Then there’s a whole bit here about the farm and Dawn working well which we know is a big fat lie,” Mac practically snarled as she scrolled looking for another document. The blonde looked up to see that the angry look on her own face was matched by an equally sad one on Rose’s face. She gently took the other girl’s hand in her own and lifted it to her mouth to kiss it gently. Getting no resistance she slid her other hand behind Rose’s head and pulled gently until their lips met.
What started as a kiss motivated by a compendium of emotions including sadness, confusion, and anger, quickly grew to one of passion as Mac ran her tongue along the other girl’s lower lip. Rose sucked and Mac found her tongue inside the researcher’s mouth. She barely noticed Rose’s hands wrapping themselves around her shoulders and back and pulling her closer as she felt the same way. Closer. Closer was all she wanted. She had just moved her hand to attempt to pull Rose down with her to the floor when she felt the redhead stiffen and pull away.
Mac smiled at the other girl. “Was it something I said?”
Rose blushed and looked at the floor. “I think we should keep reading before we do something we regret.” Seeing the smirk on Mac’s face she added. “Ok, you never regret anything but I don’t want to regret it.”
Mac laughed. “Do people ever tell you you’re a little on the nose?” She turned back to the computer. “I think we’re getting to the crux of it all here with this letter to Jenny:”
[blockquote]May 3, 1881
Dear Miss Calendar,
I believe it was much harder leaving home this time than last. The last time I left, I was embarking on a grand adventure with no true understanding of the challenges of crossing this great land of ours. Now I suspect I shall never see Philadelphia nor you, Donnie, or the children again. As much as I race home to my Willow, I grieve the loss of my family as I grieve for Father.
Mr. Rayne has been, of course, a wonderful gentleman and companion. Of course you met him on his return to Philadelphia in the days before our departure and did you not think him surprisingly educated and fine for one reared in such a place as I’ve described? He reports that his business in New York was successfully completed and that he longs to return home and put new business ventures into motion. He notes, of course for how could he avoid it, my sadness which no one could miss and offers handkerchiefs and an ear if I should need but otherwise leaves me to my reading, letter writing, and needlework.
I must tell you of his greatest kindness and consideration however. He sees how much I miss my home and my Willow. While he clearly does not know nor could he comprehend the depth of our relationship, he sees that perhaps she can comfort me in my grief. I complained to him that she would stand on the streets of Sunnydale waiting for the infamously unpredictable coach. Rather than arriving on the sixth on the scheduled coach, he has arranged a private coach to take us from San Francisco to Sunnydale directly. We will share the coach with no other passengers but will arrive late on the 5th. All this he has arranged paying for the coach from his own funds and flatly refusing to take any share of the additional cost from my allowances. It has required his sending various telegrams at every stop so that you would think royalty would return to Sunnydale but he assures me we are guaranteed the transport.
While I know the final day of travel will be long and tiring, I comfort myself that I will only sleep away from my love two more nights. The night of the 5th I will fall into blessed slumber with the one I hope never to part from again.
Please forgive my maudlin sentiment but it has been a long season and the pleasure of family is now defeated by the missing of same. Knowing our only contact may be these letters, you will hear from my soon.
Missing you terribly,
Tara[/blockquote]
Mac read and reread the letter while shaking her head. She saw Rose leaning back in her chair with her arms crossed over her chest. “I hate to read the next entry or the next or the next.” She pointed at the screen at the link for the next document. “Where did you get Willow’s letters to Tara?”
Rose swallowed hard. “A big stack of them marked return to sender” were found in the dresser in Willow’s cabin and stored in a box.
Mac nodded sagely. “You opened them?”
Rather than answer Rose leaned across and clicked the link for a letter from Willow to Tara dated May 7, 1881.
[blockquote]Tara. My Love. My everything. Please speak to me. I can explain everythin’. I swear. It’s all a mistake and I swear on that. You know I would never… She’s like a kid and I wouldn’t ever… even if she wasn’t. If you would just let me come talk to you.
I come over but Cordelia met me on the porch and tole’ me I ain’t welcome in her house and never welcome in it again. Not that I come round there too much but how’m I gonna talk to you if you’re up in there and she’s all but puttin’ the dogs on me? I been down there 4 times until she finally made Xander come take me off.
Xander. My best friend of my whole life havin’ to drag me off from just wantin to talk to you.
Please, Tara.
Please.
I love you and can’t stand that this whole thing is where you won’t talk to me none and how we gonna’ move on without? How will you see the surprise I got for you all cause I love you so much.
Please.
I love you.
Always, your Willow[/blockquote]
I also think it’s fun to post while I still have all these questions and thoughts and more updates to go.




I don't supppose he gets what he deserves in the end?
This may sound strange but I never disliked Mac, I felt sorry for her. I guess it was because we knew early on, that she lost her mother and sister, her father whilst loving is never around, she goes away to boarding school from a young age and to me her behaviour is her acting out to get attention and in a sense human contact without the possibility of getting hurt or people leaving her. We are increasingly seeing her vulnerable side, she is changing and its cute to see that she doesn't just want to sleep with Rose, she actually wants to have a relationship with her
thanks.