HATE AND LOVE updated 12/30/09

[key03grl]

"Amber," Tara said, breaking the kiss.

"What is babe?" Amber asked.

"We better head back, before one of the other girls starts talking," Tara said.

"Your right, just let me grab that lipstick," Amber said, opening the car door.

They headed back into the diner just as the food was beging brought to the table. They walk over to the table and sits down. Willow smiles up at Tara as she was sliding her chair out.

"Ok what's going on here?" Tara asked, seeing the looks on there faces.

"Nothing Tara," Corrie said, trying to hide the laughter.

"Ok you guys what did we miss?" Amber asked, studing there faces.

"Nothing to bad," Britney said, as they all started busting out laughing.

"Uh Tara I do believe we missed out on something funny," Amber said.

"Yeah I think so to, Willow what's so funny?" Tara asked, looking over at Willow.

"Um I not sure how to word," Willow said.

"Word what, what did you girls say?" Tara asked, getting worried that they told Willow she was seeing Amber.

'Oh how you thought a mud puddle was small, until you walked into and it went to your ass," Ashley said, as they all started laughing again.

"Oh yeah that was so fucking funny, you walked had mud on your ass as we all walked back to your room, trying to hide you," Amber said laughing.

"Hey that's not funny," Tara said, hit arm on the leg.

'So Tara what kind of lipstick did you order?" asked Willow.

"Oh it's called sexy silk," Tara said smiling at her.

"Mm should look real hot on you," Willow said, winking at her.

"Well when I tried it on at the store it looked real good on me,"Tara said.

"Yeah it brought out her eyes," Paris said.

"Damn, then you must wear it tonight Tara," Willow said.

"What's going on tonight?" Amber asked.

"Oh it's our 1 year annivasary," Tara said, looking over at her.

"Oh wow that's cool, where you two going?" Amber asked.

"Well to Tonies downtown, then to larouge." Willow said.

"Cool we will meet you guys at the larouge then," Paris said.

"Yeah that would be great, it'll be like a party," Willow said.

"Well Willow and I need to head back to my room and get ready for dinner, so we will see you bitches later," Tara said, as she got up she felt Amber slide something into her hand, she looks down and smile slipping it into her pocket.

They talked as they head back to Tara's dorm room. Once they were inside the room Willow turns and kisses Tara passionately. Walking her back to the bed.

After making love for two hours they get up Tara lets Willow go first to take a shower. Because she knows if they go together and shower that they would miss there dinner. As Willow leaves out Tara grabs her jeans she had on and pulls the letter out and reads it. She smiles and folds it back up placing it in her lock box and locking it back up placing it under the bed, just as Willow walks back into the room from her shower.

"What are tou doing on the floor?" Willow asked.

"I dropped my shirt," Tara said, reaching for a shirt that was under the bed.

"Ok well shower is all yours," Willow said.

Later that night they headed out for there romantic dinner. They walked hand in hand down the side walk to where they were headed, as they got to the door a waitress took them to there seats, and handed them there menus and took there drink orders.

"I'll be back with your drinks," the waitress said.

"Wow this place is so nice, how did you book this place on short notice?" asked Tara.

"Actually Tara I made resrvation two weeks ago," Willow said.

"Really, I mean how?" Tara asked.

"Well I called here and set it up," Willow said.

"Wow I'm impressed," Tara said.

"Are you two lovely ladies ready to order?" the waitress asked, setting there drinks down.

"I would like to have fish fillet dinner," Tara said.

"And I'll take the steak and salad dinner," Willow said.

" Ok I'll have that for you in a bit," the waitress said, taken the menus.

They sat there holding hand and talking to eachother, just catching up on old times while waiting on there food to arrive.

45 minutes later there food arrives and they eat and chat through dinner, after they were done eating Willow paid the bill and they headed out to the larouge.

As they were walking down the block to the larouge they spotted Tara's friends fly by in Ambers car that skidded to a stop as she went pass, and backed up and stopped right beside them.

"Hey hot stuffs get in," Amber said.

"C'mon Willow lets take a joy ride," Tara said, grabbing her hand.

"There's not enough room," Willow said.

"Sure there is, my lap," Tara said, as she sat down.

"I guess that will work," Willow said, climbing into Tara's lap.

They drove straight to the larouge parked and piled out of the car and headed into the bar. They found a corner booth for all of them and sat down, while three people went to the bar to get there drink orders.

"Wow this place is almost like the bronze," Willow said.

"Yeah it is except is much more fancier," Tara said.

"So I've seen," Willow said.

"Come on Willow lets dance," Paris said.

"No thanks Paris," Willow said.

"Go on Wil go dance," Tara said.

I'd rather dance with you sweetie," Willow said.

"You will right after me and these 3 go have a smoke," Tara said.

"I thought you gave that up," Willow said.

"No sweetie I just didn't do it around you," Tara said.

"C'mon Willow we will keep you company on the dance floor till she comes back," Katie said.

As Tara Amber Ashley Corrie walk outside to have a smoke, they stand around and smoke and talked awhile.

"So Tara, Willow seems pretty nice," Ashley said.

"Yeah she is," Tara said.

"Alright it's cold out here, who's coming in with me?" Corrie asked.

"I'm right behind you Corrie," Ashley said.

They head back inside leaving Tara and Amber to by thereselfs outside. They started talking.

"So were alone now," Amber said.

"Yeah and Willow is right inside," Tara said.

"Yeah she is and she's dancing with Katie and paris," Amber said, as they leaned against the wall.

"She might come out here," Tara said, leaning into the kiss.

"She might," Amber said, closing the gap and kissing her.

"Hey guys where's Tara and Amber?" Willow asked, as she walked over for a sip of her beer.

"Knowing them two smoking another cigertte," Paris said.

"Isn't really cold out right now?" Willow asked.

"Oh yeah that's why we came in," Corrie said.

"Let me go see if I can warm Tara up a bit," Willow said,


As the kiss continued tongues dueling and moans were swallowed. Amber caress Tara's shoulder arms and finally cupping her face to deepen the kiss. Willow walks out the back door and looks around.

"Oh my god," Willow said.

"Oh gods Willow," Tara said, pulling away from the kiss to see Willow face as she turns and runs inside.

"Willow wait," Tara said.

"I'm sorry Tara," Amber said, as they headed inside.


Willow heads over to the back booth with tears in her eyes. all the girls look up and they see the tears, she grabs her jacket and purse and runs out.

"Hey Willow what's wrong?" Paris asked, following her out the front.

" I need to get out of here," Willow cried.

"Ok let me give you a ride," Paris said.

"No you came with Amber," Willow sobbed.

"No we just met up here, my car is over here," Paris said, walking Willow over to her car.

Tara runs into to the building with Amber on her heels. She stops at the table and doesn't see Willow. she notices her purse and jacket are gone.

"Hey where's Willow?" Tara asked.

"She ran out of here crying," Corrie said.

"And where did she go?" Tara asked.

"Don't know, but Paris went after her," Corrie said.

"What happen Tara, did she catch you two kissing," Sammy laughed, until she saw the looks on there faces. "Oh my god Tara how could you"

"I don't know it all happen so fast," Tara said.


"You knew didn't you?" Willow asked, wiping her tears.

"Knew what?" asked Paris glancing at Willow.

"That Tara and Amber were dating," Willow asked, crying again

"WHAT!! No gods no I just thought they were friends," Paris said.

"FUCK!! I can't believe she did this to me," Willow cried.

"Me either, and on your 1 year annivasary on top of that," Paris said.

"Why does this shit always happen to me," Willow screamed.

"Where do you want to go?" Paris asked.

"Take me to Tara's so I can grab my clothes and head back home," Willow said.

"Ok but its kinda late you can crash at my place for tonight, don't worry I live off campus," Paris said, seeing the look on her face.

"Ok thanks," Willow said.

As they pulled into the student parking outside Tara's dorm room. Willow runs up to Tara's room picking up all her stuff and throwing it in her bags and running back down to Paris's car. And Paris heads to her apartment.


"My god Tara how could you let her catch you?" Sammy asked.

"I don't know, do you guys know where she went?" Tara asked

[willowandtaraforever]

YAY UPDATE!!!! Can't wait to see what happens next

[Zampsa1975]

Yay for good update-y goodness... Tara sure has heck of a lot of explaining to do to regain Willow's love....

[sweet_southern_sex_kitten]

p-p-please dont wait so long for anouther update

[marlaman22]

poor willow but she had to know about tara and amber, willow deserves better and tara deserves what she is going to feel when willow is out of her life, whe she notice the difference between willow´s real love and amber´s feelings for tara that maybe where just because she was with somebody else but maybe tara doesnt need to see the diference because she already feels the empty space that is to live without willow.

[key03grl]

"You could always try calling Paris," Sammy said.

"Yeah, had me my purse," Tara said.

"Hey katie why didn't you warn us she was coming out?" Amber asked.

"I did and that's not even the point here," katie said.

"No you didn't I would of, oh never mind my phone was on silent," Amber said.

Tara walks outside and dials paris number.

"It's Tara, hello," paris said.

"Paris is Willow with you?" Tara asked.

"She was I dropped off at your dorm 30 minutes ago," paris said.

"Oh good so she must still be there," Tara said

"How many of the girls knew?" paris asked, looking over at Willow.

"Well Sammy, Brittney, Nichole Katie," Tara said.

"Damn Tara, well if you want to see Willow better hurry, she said she was going to pack and go home," Paris said.

"Yeah I better, thanks Paris," Tara said, hanging up the phone.

"Well is she with her?" Amber asked, as she walked back to the table.

"No she's in my room," Tara said.

"C'mon I'll give you a ride back to your room," Amber said.

As the girls walked back out to there cars getting in and going seperate ways. Amber drives over to Tara's dorm.

Amber pulls into a parking space and shuts off the engine.

"Do you want me to come up with?" Amber asked.

"No thanks, but wait here in case she isn't here," Tara said.

"Ok and Tara I'm sorry," Amber said.

"Look its ok," Tara said, leaning over to kiss her cheek.


Tara runs up the sidewalk and up the stairs to the double doors. Busting through and running pass the dorm mother's room and up the 2 flights of stairs and to straight into her room.

"WILLOW! Damn she isn't here," Tara said.

"Who isn't here, and why are you running ?" Casey asked.

"Oh Casey have you seen Willow tonight?" Tara asked.

"Yeah she came in pack her stuff and left, is everything ok?" Casey asked, seeing the tears run down her face.

"No Casey she saw Amber and me kissing at the larouge," Tara said, crying.

"Tara Tara you should of known better," Casey said.

"I did, I just didn't think she would catch us on our 1 yr together," Tara said.

"You and Willow been together a year today, that's bad," Casey said.

"Yeah I know, and I have no idea where she went," Tara said.

"Well you better look for her," Casey said.

"Yeah that's where I'm heading now," Tara said.

Tara heads back out to Ambers car.

"She wasn't there huh?" Amber asked.

"No she wasn't... damn it where could she be," Tara said.


Paris pulls into her apartment complex and parks her car. She grabs willows bag and they head up to her apartment, unlocking the door she takes willows bag to the guest room.

"Thanks again Paris," Willow said.

"It's not a problem, I just can't believe Tara did this," Paris said.

TBC ~key03grl~

[Zampsa1975]

Yay for good update-y goodness... I hope Willow and Tara are able to talk before Willow goes home...

[marlaman22]

I don know what tara has to explain to willo, willow saw her with her eyes.

Willow has to give her back the ring, that ring simbolyze the love between them, the promise of a future life, together, a faithful love, inconditional feelings based on trust, tara lost everything that that ring means, so willow has ti give the ring to tara, maybe amber can use it better hehehe.

Poor tara, she lost an amazing love for good for lust, but she said to amber that what they have, werent just for a moment ?? maybe tara has to swallow her words now that willow is out of her life, remember how willow was after her ex dead and befor tara, will willow come back to that or less or worse???

and tara wuil build a great carrer too, to show that she deserves willow´s love and be at willow´s level.

I want to see what tara is able to do to get willo back.

what if willow will build an amazing carrer where she will be well known maybe she change for better, I mean, she is a great perosn with everyone but doesnt belive in relationships anymore.

but why tara wants to find willow if tara is going to keep seeing amber anyway?? I dont understand that, when willow was coming bact home, tara would be seeing amber like she said "Monday, willow is back home
", so tara wants this situation, or maybe she realizes now that she still is in love with her willow??

what if Paris is going to be part of her future life??
and you know what?? I dont know how you can fix this hehehe, willow is so sensitive to this things after this, and when willow is going to give her back the ring, maybe in the airport??

PLEASE UPDATE SOONNNNNN, I AM WAITING ALL DAY FOR YOUR UPDATE PLEASEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[willowandtaraforever]

YAY UPDATE!!!!!!!!!!I hope Willow and Tara talk before she leaves home.

[sweet_southern_sex_kitten]

ty for this very real story. its a great diff. way of writeing on here. i hope it will be updated soon.

[key03grl]

"Me either and she was the one after me a year ago," Willow said.

"What do you mean by that?" Paris asked.

"Well a year ago Tara started at my school.. I could stand her for the world, I was calling her freak and everything else, we even got into a fist fight," Willow said.

"Oh my god really, can I ask why?" Paris asked.

"Did you hear about a ship that blew up in GA?" Willow asked.

"Yeah it was all over the news, luckily noone was hurt," Paris said.

"Well that's where you are wrong I was on that ship.. Well me and my girlfriend at the time, she was shot in the back as we were jumping overboard as it blew up," Willow said, near tears

"Oh my god what happen to her?" Paris asked, seeing the tears.

"She died in my arms,"Willow said.

"Oh Willow I'm so sorry, and now Tara has done this to you," Paris said.

"Yeah I know, I should have known something was up when she told me she was the libaray the other night," Willow said.

"She flat out told you she was at the libaray friday night?" Paris asked, completely shocked.

"Yeah she did, don't get me wrong here Paris I love her to death, but after this I don't think I can be with her," Willow said, tears now falling freely.

"I can understand that," Paris said, hugging Willow.

KNOCK KNOCK

"Who is it," Paris yelled, through the door.

"Paris it's me Tara," she said.

"Why is she here?" Willow asked, in a whisper.

"I don't know, just a minute Tara," Paris said.

"I don't want to see her," Willow said.

"Grab your bags and go into that room over there, oh here's the key I ususally keep it locked so noone will go in there," Paris said.

"Sorry it took so long I was in the bathroom," paris said, as she opened the door.

"Can I come in?" Tara asked.

"Sure come on in," Paris said.

"Thanks Paris," Tara said.

"How about me?" Amber asked.

"You've got the nerve of showing up here," Paris said.

"She's with me Paris," Tara said.

"Oh now I see Tara you hurt Willow by cheating and both of you show up on my door step that's is so wrong," Paris said.

"Look Paris Amber is helping me to find Willow ok so leave her alone," Tara said.

"Ok fine but I do know this Willow doesn't won't to see you," Paris said.

"Where is she Paris?" Tara asked.

"I already told you I left her at your place," Paris said.

"Well she isn't there we just came from there," Tara said.

"Well I don't know what to tell you Tara, but she isn't here," Paris said.

"I bet you anything she is," Tara said.

"Don't believe look for your self," Paris said, stepping aside.

"Fine I will," Tara said.


Tara walks into all the rooms and checks under the beds and in the closets, she checks the bathroom, the closet where the towles even go. She walks back out.

"Are you happy now?" Paris asked.

"Open that door over there," Tara said.

"Fine but there's nothing but junk in there," paris said, unlocking the door.


Tara turns the light on and looks around the room and in the closet. Then walks back out closing the door.

"I guess she isn't here, sorry Paris,"Tara said.

"Tara can I ask you something?" Paris asked.

"Sure what?" Tara asked.

"After all that Willow has been through, why did you do this?" Paris asked.

"I don't know, I guess I didn't think we would get caught, she told you about Jessica huh?" Tara asked.

"Yeah she did," Paris said.

TBC sorry to cut it short have to go to bed

~key03grl~

[Zampsa1975]

Yay for good update-y goodness... I hope Tara gives some kind of reasonable explanation for cheating on Willow... It's good that Willow has such a good friend as Paris... I wonder what Tara's other friend thinked when they knew Tara was Willow's girlfriend and sametime fooled around with Amber...

[willowandtaraforever]

YAY UPDATE!!!!!!! I hope Willow and Tara talk soon Im also curious about what Willow will tell everyone when she gets home.

[key03grl]

"Well if she calls you please let me know," Tara said.

"I sure will Tara, oh and Tara I hope you find her," Paris said.

"Yeah me to, come on Amber," Tara said, walking out the door.


They leave Paris watches them walk down the stair, closing the door she heads to the locked door and unlocks it.

"Willow," Paris said, switching on the light

"Right here," Willow said, standing up.

"I'm so sorry, I didn't know she was going to look in here," Paris said.

"It's ok Paris," Willow said, walking out of the room.

"Wait.. Where did you hide at in there?" Paris asked, looking around the room.

"Oh I went out on the ledge until they left," Willow said

"Wow I would never guess that," Paris said.

"Well that was the only place," Willow said.

RING RING

Willow reaches into her pocket and pulls out her cell phone. flips it open to reveal Tara's name, she pushes the end button and sends it to voice mail. Placeing it back into her pocket.

"Oh let me guess... it was Tara," Paris said.

"Yeah it was," Willow said.

"Why don't you jus...oh my god what is that?" Paris asked.

"What," Willow asked, turning around seeing a small light. "Oh shit I don't know" as they both started backing away.

"No need to be afraid Wil," it said.

"Oh my god.. Jessica?" Willow asked in shock.

"Yes it is me," Jessica said.

"Are you a ghost?" Paris asked, starring at her.

"Yes I am," she said, as Paris passed out cold.

"Why are here. What are you doing here?" Willow asked.

"Your even more beautiful then I remember," Jessica said, reaching out to caress her cheek.

"Jess.. Why are you here?" Willow asked.

"Well I was sent to talk some since into Tara before it's to late," jessica said.

"What do you mean before it's to late?" Willow asked.

"Before she lose's you forever," Jessica said.

"Jessica please just let it go," Willow said.

"I can't just let it go, it's written that you two are meant to be together," Jessica.

"Look if were meant to be we will find our way back together," Willow said.

"But Willow you two love eachother," Jessica said.

"Well maybe.. But right now it's over," Willow said.

"I'm sorry you feel that way sweetie, but I still have to talk to her," Jessica said, backing up and vanishing.

After Jessica leaves Willow walks over to Paris who is passed out on the floor. She shakes her.

"Ow, what happen?" Paris asked.

"You passed out after seeing a ghost," Willow said.

"Oh yeah where did she go" asked Paris, looking around.

"Looking for Tara," Willow said.

"What, why?" she asked.

"Something about talking to her before it's to late," Willow said.


Amber and Tara were driving down the streets. Looking out the windows for Willow, but not finding her anywhere.

"Hey babe are you mad at me?" Amber asked.

"What gods no, I could never be mad at you,"Tara said.

"Even though we can't find Willow," Amber said.

"It upsets me that we can't find her, but I'm not mad at you over," Tara said.

"That's good babe, what the hell," Amber said, slamming on her breaks and jumps out of the car before Tara knew what had happen.

"Are you stupid, I could of hit you," Amber said.

"No you wouldn't,"

"Amber what's going on, what are you doing here?" Tara asked seeing who it was when she got closer.

"You know who she is Tara?" Amber asked, looking between the two.

"It's a long story but yeah," Tara said.

"Why did you do this Tara?" Jessica asked.

"It's not like I meant to get caught," Tara said.

"That's not the point here Tara, you hurt her and you promised me you would never hurt her," Jessica said.

"Tara who the hell is this?" Amber asked.

"I would be Jessica, Willow's dead ex girlfriend," jessica said.

"WHAT!! Your a ghost?" Amber asked.

"Yes that..would..Be..And there goes another one," Jessica said, slightly laughing.

"And why are you laughing?" Tara asked.

"Because when I was talking to Willow the girl she was with passed out," Jessica said

"Whoa back up a minute, you talked to Willow?" Tara asked.

"Yes I have," Jessica said.

"Please tell me where is she?"asked Tara.

"You mean you don't even know where she is at" asked Jessica asked.

"No I don't she took off after she caught us kissing," Tara said.

"Well then I'm sorry I can't tell you," Jessica said.

"What do you mean you can't I really need to see tell her I'm sorry," Tara said,

"I'm going to tell you what Willow said to me and I quote her " if we were meant to be we will find our way back together. But right now it's over" see Tara," Jessica said.

"NO! She can't do this to me to us for that matter," Tara cried.

"I'm sorry Tara, but I will tell you this she's with a friend of yours," Jessica said.

"What, which one please tell me?" Tara asked

"I'm sorry but I can't, go back to her before it is to late," Jessica said, walking away.

"Amber wake up,we need to go back over to Paris's place," Tara said, leaning down beside Amber.

"What why?" Amber asked.

"Willow is there I just know she is," Tara said, helping her up.

They ran back to Ambers car and headed back to Paris's apartment. As they arrived there they noticed a pizza guy walking up. Tara jumps out and runs up to him.

"Excuse me sir," Tara said,

"Who me?" he asked.

"Who is that pizza going to?" Tara asked.

"Uh to Paris Knight," he said.

"Great I'll take that, here's $20 dollars and keep the change," Tara said, handing him the money.

"Jeeze thanks you have a nice day," he said, as he turned to leave.

"Come on Amber, lets go play pizza man," Tara said.

"Tara wait a second how do you know Willow is here?" Amber asked.

"it's a feeling I have," Tara said.

********************************

"Man where is that pizza at?" Paris asked.

"It should be on it's way," Willow said.

"Man it needs to hurry I'm getting hungry," Paris said.

"I know me to," Willow said.

KNOCK KNOCK

"That's probably the pizza," Willow said.

"Sit tight Wil I'll get it... oh my god," Paris said, opening the door to see Tara on the other side.

"What is Paris?" Willow asked, walking to the door then dead stopping.

"Willow, she isn't here huh Paris," Tara said.

"I have nothing to say to you Tara," Willow said, walking into the living room.

"Please Willow hear me out," Tara begged, pushing pass Paris.

"Tara just go away what's done is done," Willow said,

"Willow please I'm sorry," Tara said.

"Your sorry I don't buy it Tara on bit," Willow said.

"You've got to believe me wil," Tara said.

"It's Willow only my friends call me Wil, and no I don't believe you," Willow said turning around.

"Willow please," Tara cried.

"There's no need for tears Tara, you've lied to me since I been here," Willow said.

"Willow you don't have to be so mean to her," Amber said, walking into the living room

"Tara shut your girlfriend or I'll shut her up, you know how hard I can hit," Willow said, looking between them.

"We are not grilfriends for you information, this thing between us was only a.....

"NO!! Amber please don't say it please," Tara begged.

Willow was looking between the two and the looks on there faces.

"No no no, please do tell Amber this is only a what," Willow said, walking up to her.

"Please Amber no," Tara said.

"I'm warning you Amber better to tell me," Willow said.

"Please no," Tara pleaded with her eyes.

"This thing between us was only a 6 month thing then she was going home to you," Amber said.

"Oh I now I see, you been cheating on me for a month now," Willow said, tears in her eyes.

TBC ~key03grl~

[willowandtaraforever]

YAY UPDATE!!!!!!! I hope stupid amber didn't ruin everything

[Zampsa1975]

Yay for good update-y goodness... I hope Willow and Tara are able to talk without interruptions from Paris and Amber...

[Starlight]

Yay update

I love this story

hopefully more soon...

xx

[marlaman22]

wow great updates, pleas continueee!!!! sooonnnn !!

[ceridwen]

I really like this story.

I think it's the first time i've seen a Tara who isn't an angel of virtue. It's not that I like her cheating on Willow, definitely not. But I like the fact that she has flaws in this fic (pretty big ones too), I find that refreshing and original.

I also like the fact that you update quite frequently. It's annoying when you have to wait a long time for an update, because you end up losing interest in the fic... or when you finally get an update you have to re-read the whole thing because you've forgotten what it was all about in the first place.

All I can say is: keep up the good work

[marlaman22]

I agree with ceridwen about updating often, maybe people dont post but read frenquently, you know some webs have counters where we can see how many viewwrs have read the story but dont post that much, I hope you keep updating please.

[key03grl]

"Willow, I'm really sorry," Tara said.

Shaking her head " I do believe it's to late for sorry now Tara," Willow said, walking over to where Paris was sitting and grabs a slice of pizza.

"So Wil am I taking you to the bus station in the morning, or taking you to sunnydale?" Paris asked, glancing over at Tara.

"I'll pay for gas if you take me," Willow said, smiling.

"Then it's settled I'm taking you," Paris said.

"Hang on a minute.. If anyone is taking Willow to sunnydale it'll be me," Tara said.

"In what Tara, you don't even have a car," Paris said.

"I'll borrow casey's car,"Tara said.

"I don't think so Tara," Willow said.

"Willow we really need to talk," Tara said.

"Gods what is wrong with you Tara?" asked Willow, slamming her soda down making everyone jump.

"I just want to talk, is that so hard for you?" Tara asked.

"FINE FUCK!! you want to talk so lets talk," Willow said, standing up.

"Not here, lets take a walk," Tara said.

"What are you kidding it's freezing out there," Willow said.

"We'll be fine," Tara said.

"Whatever Tara I'm not going to change my mind," Willow said, grabbing her coat.


They head out the door and down the street, Tara reaches for willows hand only to have Willow pull her hand away. Placing her hands in her pocket.

"You wanted to talk so bad so talk," Willow said.

"I love you Willow," Tara said.

"I love you too, but it doesn't change anything Tara," Willow said.

"I know it doesn't. Can I ask you a question?"asked Tara.

"What is it?" Willow asked.

"Did you only agree to go out with me because jessica told you to?" Tara asked.

"What, no Tara I didn't, I went out with you because you were hot and beautiful," Willow said.

"Is that the only reason you went out with me?" Tara asked

"No I liked you," Willow said.

"Well can we just start over?" asked Tara.

"Maybe somewhere in the distance future, but not now and not at this moment," Willow said.

"But why not, I mean I love you so much Willow," Tara said.

"I know you do Tara, and I love you too but I can't look pass you cheating," Willow said.

"So this is it between us then," Tara said, with tears in her eyes.

"Yes I'm afraid so Tara,"Willow said, also tearing up.

"So what about in 5 months?" Tara asked, looking over at Willow.

"That's up to you if you want to come back," Willow said.

"What are you saying you don't won't me to come back?" Tara asked, getting mad.

"Look Tara at this point I really don't care one way or another," Willow said.

"What about this ring you gave me, do you want it back?"Tara asked, holding her hand up.

"No just keep it, it'll remind you of what we did have," Willow said.

Ring ring

"Hi Buffy," Willow said.

"Wil, are you ok you sounded upset on my voice mail," Buffy said.

"Yeah I just needed my bestfriend," Willow said.

"Willow what's wrong?" Buffy asked.

"Um..I'll call you when I get to my new friend paris's house," Willow said.

"Who's paris.. Did something happen to Tara?" Buffy asked.

"No Buff I'll just talk to you later," Willow said, closeing her phone.

They headed back to Paris's house in silence. Willow glances over at Tara who's wiping the tears that are slowly falling. She reaches into her pocket book and grabs a tissue and hands it over to Tara.

"Thanks," Tara said, blowing her nose

As they walked into Paris's apartment. They turn around and sees them Amber sees Tara with tears in her eyes, she gets up and walks over and hugs her.

"Is everything ok?" Amber asked.

"It's really over between Willow and me," Tara said.

"That's great right, I mean just this morning you were saying that you were faliing for me right?" asked Amber.

"Yeah," Tara said, glancing over at Willow.

"I don't believe this shit," Willow shouted, you told her this morning you were falling in love with her.

"I'm sorry.. But yeah I did," Tara said

"Shakes her head, you know Tara I was wrong there will never be anything between us again.. And another thing I don't won't you to come back to sunnydale in 5 months," Willow shouted.

"What are you saying Willow?" Tara asked.

"What am I saying, I hate you Tara," Willow said.

"Gods I can't believe you said that," Tara said, in shock.

"It's true.. And I wish...

"Let me guess you wish jessica never died," Tara said.

Willow walks around the couch and over to them and punches Tara square in the nose.

" I told you never say her name again, and yes I do wish," Willow shouted.

"You fucking bitch," Tara said, holding her nose.

"I rather be a fucking bitch then a cheating bitch,"Willow said.

"Oh that's it," Tara said, as she went up to her.

"Whoa whoa, there will be no fighting in my house," Paris said, jumping in the middle.

"Willow, please don't," Paris said, looking into her eyes.

"Fine I'll sit down, get them out,"Willow said.

"Wait a damn minute.. Paris are you after Willow?" asked Tara.

"Your funny Tara, paris isn't a lesbain," Willow said.

"Yes I am Willow, and what if I was?" Paris asked.

"I forbid you to go out with my girlfriend," Tara said.

"Uh news flash Tara she is your ex girlfriend," Paris said.

"Whatever," Tara said.

"Amber get her out of here," Paris said.

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The next morning Paris and Willow headed out to sunnydale. They whole trip they were talking getting to know eachother. And taking turns driving,

As they pulled into the dorm parking area, Paris helps Willow with take her bags up to her room. As they enter her room placing the bags on the bed Willow turns around and pulls out $40 dollars for gas so she could get back.

"You don't have to pay for gas," Paris said.

"It's the least I could do," Willow said.

"How about this instead when you go back out to duke I take you out to eat," Paris said.

"I don't plan on going back there," Willow said.

"Not even to see me?" Paris asked.

"Why Paris are you hitting on me?" asked Willow.

"A little, why is it working?" asked Paris, smiling.

Your sweet you know that," Willow said.

"I know I can't help it I like you Willow," Paris said

"You do?" Willow asked, some what shocked.

"Yes I do.. Would you ever consider begin my girlfriend?" Paris asked.

"WOW!! Can we take this slow?" Willow asked.

"Sure whatever you would like," Paris said.

"Ok here's my email and and cell number we will talk that for awhile," Willow said.

"Ok.. Well I better head back," Paris said, walking to the door.

"Ok, and Paris be careful and call me when you get in," Willow said.

"Ok thanks and I will," Paris said.

As she was walking down the hall Buffy was walking up the hall. She saw the girl come out of willows room.

"Willow, who was that girl, cause it sure wasn't tara?" Buffy asked.

"That was Paris," Willow said.

"You never called back last night," Buffy said.

"Yeah sorry about that," Willow said.

"So how was duke?" Buffy asked.

"Duke was nice," Willow said.

"Nice, that's all did you and Tara have that romantic dinner?" Buffy asked.

"Yeah we did," Willow said.

"Ok Willow what's wrong?" Buffy asked.

"I broke up with Tara," Willow said.

"Oh my god Wil, are you ok?" Buffy asked.

"Yeah I'm fine," Willow said.

"But why did you two break up?" Buffy asked.

"She was cheating on me with another girl, I guess I'm not ok" Willow said, as tears fell.

"How do you know she was cheating?" asked Buffy, hugging her.

"I caught them out back at the larouge kissing," Willow said.

"Oh Wil I'm so sorry," Buffy said.


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3 months later it was spring break for duke students Tara and all her friends were sitting on the bleachers talking and having fun.

"So Tara what are you and Amber doing for spring break? Katie asked.

"Were going to visit her parents," Tara said.

"That's cool, so Paris what are you doing?" katie asked.

"Uh I'm sorry what did you say," Paris said, looking up from here phone.

"I said what are you doing for spring break?" katie asked again.

"Oh, um I'm going to visit an old friend back home," Paris said, knowing she was lying.

"So Tara have you heard from Willow lately," sammy asked.

"Sadly no I haven't," Tara said.


Sammy looks over at Paris and sees she so grossed in whatever is on her phone. So she stands up and peeks over and sees that Willow and her are texting back and forth about spring break. She sits back down and text paris.


Texting


Sammy
Paris< yes we are.

Sammy< does Tara know this

Paris< no and please don't say anything

Sammy< so your going to sunnydale for break.

Paris< yes I am

Sammy< don't worry I'm not promise.

Paris< thanks I need to go pack.

TBC ~key03grl~

[Zampsa1975]

Yay for great update-y goodness... I guess Willow and Tara are back in the square one... hatered... I hope that when they eventually meet again they are able to talk without too much extra baggage... and most importantly there woud be no cheating... I kinda hope that it is Jessica who shows Willow and Tara a way back into love by acting as a messenger between them when they woudn't talk to each other...

[willowandtaraforever]

YAY UPDATE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I really hope that Willow and Tara will be able to fix things in the future and that Tara really realizes that she messed up everything she had with Willow for a stupid fling. Hopefully they will both forgive each other in the near future.

[ceridwen]

Tara can be really cruel in this fic, that's for sure. At this point i'm liking Paris more than Tara.

Thanks for another great update.

Keep 'em coming

[BentBrokenTheory]

Tara needs to get it together...and fast...

[sweet_southern_sex_kitten]

i like this updateing goodness. not a long wait. love it ty keep it going

[marlaman22]

you know, I think tara is sooo inmerse in what jessica meant in wilow´s life that tara cant belive that willow really loves her, maybe if willow in a future can show her how much love she has for tara that maybe is bigger than she felt for jesica and so different, maybe they dating other people make them see that how... I dont know that is your job hehehe.

I feel willow really loves tara becuase she was faithful during that time apart from tara and tara has to see that maybe she begins to make differences between willow and amber, and that will be a bonus to get bakc to willow, seeing the great love that willow had for hera adn that maybe she lost for good.

but I dont understand why tara said somthing to amber and wants willow with her too.

but what if paris is a faithful girl that really loves willow and amber is cheating on tara but of course tara didnt know and perhaps she wont find out soon??

so amber is with tara and willow is with paris what if throw the years they begin to know each other as friends and see wht is could have been if they weren apart, now that Paris is with willow.

[key03grl]

thanks to those who left feedback it means alot to know what you all thimk of this story. also sorry if i havent updated in a few days but the truth is i only update while i'm at work so i've been off the last few days for a much needed off day i will be updating this story soon.

thanks again to my loyal readers you guys ROCK

~key03grl~

[key03grl]

After packing her stuff, Paris heads down to her car placing her bag in the trunk. She turns around when she hears her name to see Tara Sammy and Amber walking her way.

"Hey guys what's up?" Paris asked.

"So where are headed?" Tara asked.

"To my parents place in palm springs," Paris said, knowing full well she was lying.

"That's cool, so have heard from Willow lately?" Tara asked.

"What makes you think Willow and I talk?" Paris asked.

"Just a hunch I guess," Tara said

"Well last time we talked was a month ago she was getting ready to go out with her friend Buffy tammy and faith I think," Paris said, smirking at the lie she just told.

"Who's tammy?" Tara asked.

"Uh that would be Buffy's grl," Paris said, trying to keep a straight face.

"I thought Buffy was dating faith," Tara said.

"They split up, now Willow and faith are dating," Paris said.

Oh really, "Willow is dating faith?" Tara asked.

"Yeah seems that way," paris said.

"Ok babe you ready to go?" Amber asked.

"Yeah lets get going," Tara said.


"Damn.. Bravo, how long were you going to keep that lie up?" Sammy asked, giggling.

"For as long as it took," Paris said. Well I better be on my way,

"See ya in two weeks,"Sammy said.


Paris climbs into her car starts the engine. and pulls out of the space she was in, she drives down the stretch of rode to get on the freeway.


3½ hours later she pulls up to the sunnydale campus, parks shutting of the car she gets out and walks to willows dorm room. She knocks on the door.

"Hey Paris, come on in, wait where are your bags?" Willow asked.

"There in the car," paris said.

"And why did you leave them in the car?" Willow asked, hugging her.

"I wasn't sure if I was staying here or a motel," Paris said.

"You silly, your staying here with me, come on lets go get you bags," Willow said.

"Oh yeah Tara asked about you," Paris said.

"Why did she ask about me?" Willow asked, a little confused.

"Oh if I heard from you is all," Paris said.

"What did you tell her?" Willow asked.

"That I haven't heard from you in a month and your dating faith," Paris said, as she unlocked the trunk.

"Oh my god Faith," Willow said, laughing.

"What about me?" Faith asked, as her and Buffy walked up.

"Hey Paris you made it," Buffy said.

"Hi Buffy yeah I did," paris said.

"Hey guys, Paris here told Tara we were dating," Willow said, laughing.

"Now that's funny Wil," Faith said.

"Are we bronzing it tonight?" Willow asked.

"Of course we are," Buffy said.

"Well were going to take these up to my room, catch up with you later," Willow said.

"Ok bye guys," Buffy said.

"So where will I sleep?" Paris asked.

"With me of course, unless you don't want to," Willow said.

"I do I just wasn't sure if you wanted to," paris said.

"Paris come here, we been daring for 3½ months and its about time I get you in my bed," Willow said, leaning in to kiss her.


Later that night they hit the bronze and had a few drinks and danced a little. Then they headed back to willows room where they made love for the first time.

The next morning they were woke up by pounding on the door. Willow gets up grabs her robe and answers the door to find Buffy on the other side.

"Buffy what is it?" Willow asked.

"Faith got arrested I need your help getting her out," Buffy said

"Ok give us 20 minutes to get ready," Willow said



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A week later Tara and Amber headed to sunnydale so Amber could meet Tara's folks. As they pull into the driveway her parents come running out to hug her.

"Its so good to see you sweetie, hi you must be Amber," her mom said.

"Yes ma'ma I am," Amber said, shaken there hands

"Well come on in, dinners almost ready were having your favorite," dad said.

"Where's Donnie?" Tara asked.

"He's helping Xander harris paint," her dad said.

"What are they painting?" Tara asked.

"If I'm not mistaking a nursey for Anya," her dad said.

"Wait Anya is pregnant?" Tara asked, in shock.

"Yeah and they got married last month," her dad said.

"I wasn't even invited," Tara said.

"It was a beautiful wedding, even Willow was beautiful, uh never mind," her mom said, seeing the look on her face.

"Um, I need to use the bathroom," Tara said, heading upstairs.


After using the bathroom she goes into her old room. As she enters she spots a box on the bed tape up, she picks it and carries it downstairs to the kitchen.

"Mom what's in this box?" Tara asked.

"I don't know shelia dropped it by 3 months ago," she said.

"Oh had me a knife," Tara said.

After cutting the tape off she opens the box to find a neatly wrapped gift along with some clothes she left with Willow hair brush, lotion, shoes, sunglasses, and journals she starts to tear up. Amber notices this

"Hey babe you ok?" Amber asked, rubbing her back.

"Yeah I'm fine," Tara said.

"Well open the gift," her dad said.

She opens it to reveal a picture of her and Willow at the beach. She places it back in the box and closes it back up, taken it to the hall closet and putting it on the top shelf.

"Hey xan wanna a beer?" Donnie asked, as he came through the door.

"Sure why not, just one though, so are we going to the bronze tonight?" Xander asked, guzzling his beer.

"Of course we are," Donnie said.

"Oh can we go to?" Tara asked, entering the room.

"Oh my god Tara come give your bro a hug," Donnie said,
and who might you be.

"Donnie this is my girlfriend Amber," Tara said.

"Oh, hi nice to meet you," Donnie said.

"And Xander why wasn't I invited?" Tara asked.

"I thought you were," Xander said.



Later that night Anya Xander Buffy faith and Willow and paris were at the bronze having fun. Willow and paris decide to go dance, just as Donnie Tara and Amber walk into the building amd up to the table

"Well hi there Tara," Buffy said.

"Hey Buffy," Tara said.

"What's going on over there?" Tara asked.

"Oh that it's probably someone dirty dancing again," Buffy said.

"Oh please you know its Willow and that girl she with," Anya said.

"What I thought she was dating well you faith," Tara said.

"Willow's here?" Tara asked.

"Yeah and heating thing up on the dance floor, wooooo you go Willow," Donnie yelled.

Tara turns and sees Willow dirty dancing with some blonde chic and smiling the whole time. The girl turns and Tara recnigezed her as her friend Paris. she whispered. They continued to watch even when Paris leaned in and kissed Willow passionately. As the song ended they headed back to the table. Paris sees Tara and dead stops.

"Hey Paris what's wrong?" Willow asked.

"Um..um.. It's Tara she's here," paris said.

"Hey don't worry just follow my lead, hey buff were going to head back to my room it got kinda hot out there," Willow said, winking at them.

"Ok guys night," Buffy said.

"Oooo hey Willow can I join?" Donnie asked.

"Only in your dreams big guy," Willow said.

As they passed by Amber and Tara Willow noticed tears in her eyes and just keep walking.

TBC ~key03grl~

[Zampsa1975]

Yay for good update-y goodness... Good that Tara still has feelings for Willow... I hope Willow is very soon reminded of her love for Tara...