Happy Thursday, Kittens.
I am not liking the weather lately. Lows in the 30s. Leaves falling everywhere. Autumn is my least favorite season and I find it seriously depressing. I hate the angle of sunlight during this time of year. I hate the way the air smells. I know lots of people love autumn, but it just stirs my shit up and I find it harder to feel happiness. Once my shit gets stirred up, it snowballs. Shitballs? It shitballs into a giant ball of shit, collecting bits and pieces of everything I have ever suffered. (The secret to overcoming these sorts of events, though, is realizing that I participate in this shitballing process.)
I had a good cry over it last night, wallowed around in some self-pity, and now today I feel...the same. Still got some work to do, obviously. Oh well.
(I don't think my mood issues this time of year suggest SAD, either, because I feel better once it seems like winter to me, and if I had SAD, I ought to feel shitty until spring. It's just this transition from summer to winter that gets me. Once all the leaves have fallen, it's okay. If I wanted to psychoanalyze myself - and I usually do - I'd say it's got something to do with my childhood and the things I learned then to associate with this time of year.)

If I could find a way to make money from wallowing in self-pity, I'd be a gazillionaire.
*wallows*
But, you know, as always, there are many things to be happy about or to be grateful for or at least that aren't so bad. For example, I have a fresh bag of coffee in the cold-brewer thingy draining into the decanter right now. That'll last me through the weekend. That is worth one million huzzahs.
lol, now I can't think of anything else. I thought I could come up with a whole list of things to be happy about, but I ain't feelin' it right yet.
My apologies for flinging poo into the Thursday thread, but I appreciate this being a safe and welcoming place. Ah, there, now there is something to be happy about - community.
