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Re: Part 47

Postby zero » Wed Jun 05, 2002 9:49 pm

Katharyn, about the placement of the thumbs up...i thought the same thing you did the second after I posted it, and I'm not sure there's any response I can give that will help me now so I'm not even going to try!



*sits back and waits patiently for the next update*

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"Spatulas are for wimps!" Dawn, Wrecked

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Re: Part 47

Postby Katharyn » Wed Jun 05, 2002 10:16 pm

Thanks Blue, that was an opinion I needed to hear as I am getting afraid that VW/T are just too nice... Literally.



Bobo's Mom, I am not sure where "forever and always" came from exactly, but certainly not the writer you mentioned who I have actually never been near. *Illiterate me!*



Zero... that's what I thought. Least said...



Katharyn

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You hear that baby? I am going nowhere.

Katharyn
 


hey

Postby Rane018 » Wed Jun 05, 2002 10:38 pm

i find the story as a whole incredible but i must admit my favorite parts are the w/t alone ones. fascinating to read and psychologically interesting. you write it really well. i love it kath!

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Re: hey

Postby Katharyn » Thu Jun 06, 2002 11:03 am

Thanks Rane!



W/T (note W/T) are the point of the story so it is good that people seem to like what comes before that (VW/T) as that! Phew...



Next Part will be either 24 hours from now or 36... (I have given up with morning/night as the time zones just screw it up!)



Have fun Kittens



Katharyn

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You hear that baby? I am going nowhere.

Katharyn
 


Feeding the Bard (Cuz you said to)

Postby TrueXena » Thu Jun 06, 2002 12:26 pm

Hey there Katharyn. (may I call you that?)



Anyhoo, I'm totally not reading this particular fic. (so why am I posting here?) Good question, see I'm reading "The Beginning Cycle" at the moment. (well actually for about the last 12 hours solid really) ;) I don't think I'm even near halfway done with it. But totally wanted you to know how much I've enjoyed every moment of it so far. And when I complete it, I'll more than likely head over here to start reading this one. ;)



Just wanted you to know that. Anyway, thanks for shareing.

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Tara: "C-can you just be kissing me now?" - in 'Entropy'

Tara: "Its good to be a chicken casserole." -in 'Answering Darkness' By: Sassette

Tara: "Evil's....good." - in 'Seeing Red' (shooting script)

TrueXena
 


Re: Feeding the Bard (Cuz you said to)

Postby molsongrrrl » Thu Jun 06, 2002 1:20 pm

i really enjoyed the last part -- nice to get back to vw/t ... it was an interesting conversation ... eternity ... always ... now.



i also liked that vw acknowledges that her kitten may not be hers if she makes her into a vampire ... interesting.



and as far as the speed of parts posted -- hey its up to you! you are the writer ... i will read em when they get here and wait patiently for the next!



:cool








A little song, a little dance, a little seltzer down your pants




Edited by: molsongrrrl  at: 6/6/02 12:32:43 pm
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Re: Feeding the Bard (Cuz you said to)

Postby VampNo12 » Thu Jun 06, 2002 2:16 pm

I was thinking Katharyn something to do besides deal with my god awful food poisoning, and I thought about when Willow was sucking/small taste blood off of Tara's finger. With this in mind, I was wondering if at that moment Willow being a demon herself could of told Tara whether or not she too was a demon? Therefore, if Tara ever gets the courage to tell Willow this or if Willow finds out herself I guess I thought Willow would be able to at that moment to confirm or deny the "demon heritage" theory. Or maybe I am just looking at this small detail to deeply.

Edited by: VampNo12  at: 6/6/02 1:18:48 pm
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hey

Postby Rane018 » Thu Jun 06, 2002 11:58 pm

i meant vw/t when i wrote w/t. sorry. it's a very different couple but not at the same time. all i meant was W/T in general. hehe...



VN12- good point but even with this fic being AU Tara could still not be a demon at all, it could still be lies... or she could be a demon and vampire willow just uses that fact to continue to play with tara. who knows... lol.

Rane018
 


Part what? 48 is it? Phew

Postby Katharyn » Fri Jun 07, 2002 12:07 pm

Part 48 below. This is one of those parts that I REALLY enjoyed writing. That usually means that you, the reader, get to go "hmmm."

First a few comments:

TrueXena - Thanks for posting her and telling me you are not reading the fic... *Haha!* Seriously... thankyou.

molsongrrrl - more VW/T for you below... and something else.

vampno12 Get well soooon! That is such a good detail to pick up on. I believe I have had this discussion either with my invisible friend*S* or in chat? Step up if it was with you! Yes... I think it is certainly true that Willow might be able to tell. Arguably that would be possible after Tara's birthday though. BUt I would agree with before. Right now though Willow has no clue and thus no reason to tell Tara that. (this is not the first time she has tasted Tara's blood though - and Autumn calm down!)

to continue with that though...

Rane - thanks for the clarification but with regard to Tara and her "demoness you are right ot could be up in the air, but I tell you all now - the only thing that changed in this reality was that Buffy never came to Sunnydale. That was what 4 years prior to this? Tara is what our Tara is. The Hellmouth has done nothing to her.

You are not supposed to doubt that as I actually need you to know that it is the case!!

Anyway to Part 48 stand by for dreamy weirdness and thank you all. (Oh in case anyone is interested or daft enough to consider printing this... just passed part 500 in this part.)

EDITED TO ADD... probably no me on Kitten/Pens tomorrow and Sunday too... as I am trying to stay away from whatever spews from Wanda today... so if I do not answer any questions immediately that is why. I will answer them later though. Don't I always? Cos I am a feedback junkie... ya know?

Katharyn
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Title: The Sidestep Chronicle – Living the Dream (Part 48)
Author: Katharyn Rosser
Feedback: Constructive criticism always welcome. katharynrosser@hotmail.com
Spoiler Warning: Pretty limited. The story occurs in an alternate universe though reference is made to events that occur in both realities.
Summary: Return of the dream sequence.
Disclaimer: I still don’t own any of the copyrights or anything else associated with BTVS. All rights lie with the production company, writers etc, etc. I am making zilch from this series of stories.
Rating: 15
Couples: W/T, VW/T
Notes: Note this is composed of two separate dream threads that sort of meet in the middle. Tricky to integrate and still retain the integrity of both. That’s my excuse for the day if it doesn’t work.
Thanks To: You know… by now you really do.


The Sidestep Chronicle

Living The Dream

By

Katharyn Rosser


Willow stared in astonishment at a sight she had not seen for so long. This couldn’t be real. There was no way… just no way. She couldn’t be seeing that.

Sunlight… morning sunlight was coming straight though the unguarded window and illuminating the bedroom. It was still, as it had been when she had awoken, splashing over the bed. But that wasn’t what she was looking at all.

The room… it was, it was somewhere that she had never been. She had no idea where she was. None at all. She had no idea what she was. None at all. She just knew that she was. So she just kept looking, unable to take her eyes from the sight.

Her reflection.

That couldn’t be her. Could it? Was it? Is that what others saw? Was that what she saw?

She was looking at herself… and she’d forgotten what she looked like. It had been so long. So long without really seeing who she was… living as no more than a memory.

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Tara made her way down from the barn. It seemed like a happier, cheerier place than the last time she knew that she’d been there. The last time… that had been bad hadn’t it? But hadn’t she been there since then? She must have been. Like everyday for the horses? She lived her life here at the house didn’t she? And she knew that as part of that she would be in the barn everyday to care for the horses. Because there they were… so she had to have been.

That had to be the truth. So what was all this last time stuff about? Last time had been yesterday evening, surely?

The barn’s shutters were thrown open and it was flooded with daylight. Cobwebs glistened in bright sunshine that penetrated the interior. Willow, she knew, wouldn’t like those much at all. Her love didn’t mind the cobwebs per se… it was the big hairy spiders that made them that give her the wiggins. Wouldn’t they?

And the bugs that those spiders ate, which should have actually pleased Willow. Like one spider ate loads of bugs. It was a question of numbers. Unless it was about the extra legs.

Tara wondered just how she knew that about Willow. She couldn’t remember them ever talking about spiders… it was just that somehow she knew all about Willow and her approach to nature. Nature was better on the other side of the TV – so said Willow. Tara smiled to herself. Except, obviously, for nice nature… fawns and bunnies. Cuddly animals. Weren’t they were all part of nature though? One thing as much as anything else… Creatures, bugs, plants and people? When it came down to it, everything was a part of nature.

Or at least most things were.

There were some things that were unnatural… demons and monsters, things like that. Yet Willow feared spiders and horses… She was amazed that she had got Willow to agree to go riding at all. It had taken a minor miracle.

Hadn’t it? In fact Tara couldn’t even remember the conversation where they had decided how they would be how they would spend the day. When had it been? Where had they been? Was it at the shops? In bed?

She sort of knew what had been said – the way the conversation had gone… her promising Willow that she would be safe. That she would take care of her and that the horses wouldn’t bite her. She knew all that had been said. That the conversation had happened. She knew what had been agreed… but couldn’t remember actually having that talk.

And. For that matter, what was she doing here at all? On the farm…

She had left all of this behind after… after the badness in the barn. Whatever that had been. She was pretty sure that she had actually left. She wasn’t completely certain, but she did know that there had been badness there and that had driven her away from here.

Why was she back? When had she come back?

She lived here of course. They lived here. She must have finished… whatever it was that had kept her away from her home. Got rid of the badness.

It didn’t matter how or why. Here they were. Her and Willow. Here together. Together now and for always.

And they were going riding! ‘Woo and hoo’ as her partner, girlfriend and love of her life might have said. She couldn’t remember when Willow had become those things. She couldn’t remember Willow saying that either… but Tara was sure that she had. She was sure about all of it.

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Willow kept looking, examining herself in the mirror, prodding her face. Touching her hair. Had it always been that colour? Her skin… a touch of the rosy cheeks. That little dimple there…

Rosy cheeks? That couldn’t be right… She pushed at her cheek, pinched it. She felt the sensation in her cheek and in her finger. She saw the movement in the mirror. And when she let go, blood flowed back into the flesh she had squeezed.

Had she just fed? Pancakes for breakfast wasn’t going to put colour in her cheeks was it? So why wonder that?

And her eyes. Her eyes… she’d forgotten the colour of her eyes. Green… her eyes were green… sort of a greyish green in this light. How could she have forgotten that? What sort of person forgot the colour of their eyes? What sort of person didn’t look in a mirror?

It had been so long since she had. How had she gotten ready each day? How had she prettied herself up for the woman she loved?

Loved?

She had a reflection. But surely that meant… no it couldn’t be that.

Where the hell was she anyway?

And why were there marks on her neck… scars? When had she ever hurt her neck?

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Tara made her way down towards the house and spied her love through the window of their room. Smiling again. She had to stop doing that every time she thought of Willow. It looked like she was crazy. She stopped to look through the window. Then wondered again…

Their room? They had a room? Wow that was like… that was like living together. And that was… that was a very, very good thing.

Of course they were living together. How else would they be living?

She knew that they had sort of come here for some reason… and just, well, stayed. That was all. They stayed here together. She smiled, seeing Willow stood there, back to the window, doing… something. She never got tired of looking at the woman she loved. Back, front, side, top and bottom. She didn’t care. It was Willow and she couldn’t get tired of seeing her.

And bare Willow butt… ooh yes.

She never would tire of Willow. Besides just being so beautiful, Willow was hers. Now and for always.

And she was Willow’s too. They would do anything for each other. They had done to get here. Hadn’t they?

What had she done to get here? There was something… Shouldn’t they have been somewhere else? Weren’t they? Of course not… how could they be somewhere else if they were here? She just had a feeling… something… somewhere… was happening. Still happening. Had happened.

Something like memories, but this was all so perfect that she didn’t want to reach for memories. The memories seemed to be less perfect than real world was right now. If they were here then what did the rest matter? Not a fig.

She couldn’t remember getting here though. She knew that she had, they had, together. But she didn’t know how. There was so much that she didn’t know that she should. Heck, what did the journey matter as long as they were here, together, in the end.

Life is all about the journey Tara. I know that Daddy, thanks.

How was it that Willow was standing in direct sunlight? Shouldn’t that…? Nah, why shouldn’t she. She knew that they had been out in the sun lots of times. Everyday in fact – at least when there was sun… Sometimes it was cloudy of course, but when there was sun then see them there. In it.

But something nagged at her. How her love could be expected to go riding with her? The sun… the exposure – wasn’t it dangerous? Why was it dangerous?

This was so real. It was so perfect… but it wasn’t real was it? Oh god no… that was the problem. It was a dream. It was just another dream. Since finding Willow she hadn’t really had one… not like this? Not about them. Whose dream was it though? Was it here? Were they? Surely it had to be. This place. She knew it. It was where she had grown up… it was, with Willow here too, home in a way that it hadn’t been for a long, long time before she had left.

It wouldn’t be home unless there was someone there for her… That was what ‘home’ was. The place that was shared with the people who loved you. Or person… or beautiful woman. Just Willow would do to qualify really.

Where her Willow, her baby, was – that was home. Hadn’t that always been true?

Oh yes.

She couldn’t be in Willow’s dream though… Willow had never been here… besides she wasn’t sure that her Willow would even want to be here. No that was stupid thinking… her Willow was right there in the room that they shared. The room that they slept in. And where they did other fun things…

There was that crazy grin again.

And Willow wasn’t dressed yet, how could they go riding unless she was dressed?

Though the nudity did have the whole Lady Godiva thing going for it. That might be fun to see.

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Something was warm on Willow’s bare back as she looked in the mirror. Warming… she hadn’t been warmed like that since… since a long time ago.

It was sunlight.

The sun was shining through the window and warming her flesh… without it erupting into flames. Immolation – never very big on her list of things to do. Why wasn’t she burning up in the sun? Why would she even ask herself that question? The sun gave life, she knew that as a scientist. Why would she dream that it was going to kill her?

She tore her eyes away from her image in the mirror and turned to the window… looked out through it. Where was she? She felt the sunlight on her face and on her bare chest and stomach… All down her to her thighs where she was pressed up against the window sill. She knew that she should run and hide from it. But all she wanted to do was to reach out and touch it. Even though she never could. It was billions of miles away. The light had taken over eight minutes to get to her.

She knew that.

But what she didn’t know was what was she doing here at all?

And who was outside, crazy grin on her face as she looked onto the nude Willow… Oh it was the Kitten… She could see Tara out of the window looking right back at her. She must be in the Kitten’s dream… or the Kitten in hers. It was the only way that anything made any sense. She couldn’t be seeing these things. She couldn’t be here… like this and not be burning up.

Not unless she was….

Could she be? Not that surely… No one would be so cruel… Not to make her what she had been once more. Her long hair shifted, settling above her breasts in the breeze that touched her through the window.

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Tara came into the house, the smell of pancakes still lingered in the air in the kitchen despite her finishing up breakfast over an hour ago. She knew that she had served them to Willow in bed that morning. She didn’t remember doing it but she knew that she had anyway. She knew that Willow would have said something about them too… Willow loved her pancakes… She knew that too.

Wait just a second… Willow was eating? In what crazy world?

Why had those questions popped into her head? Why wouldn’t Willow be eating… it wasn’t like her baby needed to diet now was it. She was perfect just the way that she was. She always would be. And the view at the window… it had given Tara every desire to visit her love… and maybe help her dress. Just to be helpful. Not at all to get another wonderful eye full of naked Willow.

No… that would just be taking advantage. Besides it was far more fun undressing her baby.

With her would-be riding partner still not dressed she decided to give Willow a little more time and set about scrubbing the frying pan she had left to soak after the pancakes. That didn’t take so long though. All finished, she headed back to their bedroom.

That still sounded good in her mind. Their bedroom. Oh and naked Willow.

Yummy as pancakes.

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“You aren’t ready,” Tara said to her with just a hint of worry as she stood in the doorway.

Willow looked down at herself, she was still wearing only her underwear, which was funny as she didn’t really tend to wear those garments that much… but hey she had already figured out it was a dream. She wasn’t really sure whose yet. Perhaps the Kitten liked her in underwear and this was her dream then? Maybe… the clothes she wore in this dream weren’t as tight and better without… maybe they were all fuzzy if she was that Willow. She didn’t want to be that Willow again. That Willow was no fun at all. Even if she was with the Kitten.

“Y-you aren’t getting, you know, cold feet are you?” Tara asked her gently, taking her hand.

Cold feet? Her? She wasn’t frightened of anything. At least she shouldn’t be… but this whole weirdness thing… now that was kind of scary. She looked at the Kitten and had the strangest urge to call her Tara instead…

“Tara…” there she had said it. She had called the Kitten by her name. She hardly ever did that. She was going to say it again now. “Tara I’m not sure…” she trailed off. She had no idea what she was supposed to be doing. She wished that someone had explained this dream to her a little better. Or at all. If this was her mind playing these tricks on her then she was going to be really mad. It was too strange to have any fun.

Of course dreams could get… naughty. That might be kinda like play and she was already mostly undressed. Strangely enough though naughtiness wasn’t top of her list of priorities. She wasn’t sure what was on that list other than Tara – but she was sure that she had priorities. Not many… but some.

“It-it’s okay… I told you last night. You don’t have to… we said that. That we would just take it slow. That, you know, there’s no pressure,” Tara told her. “None at all.”

Why was she so reassured to hear that? Why did Tara’s, the Kitten’s, reassurance and smile mean so much to her?

Because this was Tara. This was the Kitten. Why else?

“I don’t… no pressure to do what?” Willow asked her.

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Good question lover. “You know… the riding thing sweetie. We were going to do that today.” Once more Tara wondered where that plan had come from – even though she was certain that it was the plan. Willow liked plans. She wrote charts that planned their weeks together. She even scheduled their…

Funny it was those that messed up the schedule entirely. When they got carried away and stayed in bed all day.

“Oh,” Willow said. “That… riding.”

Tara smiled, glad that Willow remembered even if she didn’t quite.

“Did we really say that?” Willow asked as she picked up the clothes that Tara knew she had recommended to the novice rider. Practical stuff.

“I’m pretty sure that we did yeah,” Tara knew that she didn’t sound as sure as she should have been. It looked like Willow was having trouble remembering stuff too. So if this was a dream then whose might it be? Surely one of them should have some sort of clue. “If you don’t want to go, you know that’s totally fine too.” She couldn’t push Willow into it.

Wouldn’t.

“It’s just,” Willow told her, “that I don’t remember it. I don’t remember much of anything here.” Willow gestured around the room and to the window. “I don’t remember any of this. I know I sleep in this room with you but I don’t remember it. I don’t like that. Not knowing.”

Tara nodded. “It’s my house. It’s our house. I know that. We live here. Together.”

Somehow.

“Now and always,” Willow said as she remembered it. Tara nodded. “I have that feeling too, but I don’t think I know what is out there. All I know here is you Kitten, sorry, I mean Tara.” Willow shook her head, looking bemused by her words and her thoughts.

Willow had called her Kitten. Somehow it seemed to fit, it didn’t seem wrong just old… but why had she done that?

“If you want to stay in, we can totally do that instead… we can play if you like,” Tara offered, wondering why she had said that. Play? What was she talking about? It was just, sort of, instinct that told her to say that… and to approach Willow.

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“…We can play if you like,” Tara offered her.

Willow wasn’t sure she knew what to make of that. She knew that she should like it. She should want it… she should know what Tara meant. The beautiful woman released her hand and placed her own around Willow’s neck pulling her into a kiss that was easily and enthusiastically reciprocated, and when before they broke Tara’s hands were on other parts of Willow’s body.

Just resting there… but resting in interesting places. Sort of twitching, but with a purpose.

“We can have fun… if you want to,” Tara told her. The witch’s face was an interesting mixture of disappointment and desire and whilst the latter interested Willow she somehow knew that Tara wanted to go out. Besides she was pretty sure that she should have remembered them being together last night. Too much of a good thing? No, never too much… but enough for now. And Tara did want to go out riding.

That just wasn’t her… that was what she did wasn’t it? She played and she… she what? She had the horrible idea that she hurt people…

Horrible?

It was just who she was… wasn’t it? Not here evidently. Here she was something else. She was another Willow. Obviously Willow. She knew she was Willow. Just a different Willow.

And she had never hurt the Kitten had she? She had never hurt Tara. No, she couldn’t have. She never would. Even if she wanted to… she couldn’t because of who she was.

Tara.

Bad thoughts. Stopping now.

“Instead… or before…” Tara told her, still talking about the fun.

Even with those options open, for some stupid reason Willow found that she wanted to go out with Tara. This woman was offering herself up for ‘play’ and Willow wanted to go out on the big arm biting thing from the stables. With Tara.

She sighed, rested her brow against Tara’s then kissed the other woman on the nose. “No. We can… play… another time… Not play, we can… be together, like that… another time. Right now honey, I want to be out there with you. I want to give myself to you… to let you keep me safe.” Tara looked back at her, surprised. “You will keep me safe, won’t you Tara?”

“Always,” the other woman confirmed even as something inside Willow silently screamed in protest at the failure to make use of the Kitten’s offer to her. A part of her that couldn’t believe that Willow… after all she had done… was finding it hard to use the word ‘play.’

Was it the part of her that was dreaming or was it the part of her that was real?

Whatever the answer the other part of Willow knew that she didn’t want to leave where she was right now… she wanted this world to go on. As worlds did.

The thing inside of her… the bad part screamed in rage once more.

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The horses munched, as they had for a couple of hours now that neither remembered, on the green grasses near the tree under which Willow and Tara were reclining.

“My butt hurts,” Willow complained again.

Again – even though it was the first time that Tara remembered her actually saying it. She knew that Willow had said it. She knew that Willow’s butt should hurt – that they had been on the horses for a good few hours. She knew that it was hardly any surprise that Willow’s delicious behind, unaccustomed to the saddle, would be tender. Funny thing was that it seemed like they had just arrived here from the bedroom… where she had been caressing her underwear clad lover.

There had been the ride… but it didn’t seem to have happened either. Damn dreams… she would have liked to be with Willow during that time, keeping her safe… but she must have been – sort of – as here they both were. There the horses were too. Weren’t they? Were they both here or not? Was it just one of them – in the other’s dream? Or perhaps… they were both the figments of someone else’s imagination.

It was all too complicated. There were too many options. And there was no real answer to be had until whoever was dreaming woke up. Tara didn’t want to wake up. Not ever. Not from this. It was too perfect. Had they really been out all day?

They must have been… daylight was starting to fade and there was the flaring, deep orange of sunset rushing up on them… and then it was moving slower again.

“I don’t like the darkness… can we go back now… while it’s still light?” Willow asked her.

“Are you sure your butt can take it honey?” Tara asked her.

Willow looked at her, mischief in her eyes, “Would you like to check it out for me?”

“Later - I promise my love,” Tara told the other. Then she wondered at what Willow had said about the darkness. Willow didn’t like the darkness? Didn’t she exist in darkness? No… her Willow was one with the light. What did that thought mean?

Nothing.

It couldn’t mean anything. But wasn’t it the darkness in which she always saw Willow? Until today? Wasn’t the darkness their place? Perhaps they should have been looking to the light then?

Perhaps sunrise – rather than sunset – was just around some corner… perhaps they just had to find out where the corner was. Where it led.

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“Later - I promise my love,” Tara said to her.

Willow rolled onto her belly, keeping her tender butt away from the pressure of the ground and gravity pushing against her… at least until she got back on the horse.

This was some freaky dream. Not only was she out in the daytime… that was about to fade to night but now she also feared the night? She didn’t want it to swallow them up whole. Darkness did that. It consumed. She had seen it happen. Hadn’t she even done that?

She knew that she was right – she had seen it. She had been the one to do the consuming. Happy times… better than a sore butt.

Or not…

Willow had never minded a little pain – or a lot. But the horse and its saddle were a diabolical torture that she was sure she would never have dared to inflict upon anyone. Yet she was about to get right back on there and was actually looking forward to the ride with Tara… the Kitten… Tara.

She wanted to snarl. She wanted get up and destroy the animal… wait for the sun to go down and then ravage her Kitten here under the trees as their flesh chilled in the absence of the sun…

No she didn’t want to. And not just in the dream. She should want to… but she didn’t.

She had never felt so…

Even when she had been, way back then… she was never so…

Alive as she was now. With Tara.

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Willow jerked herself out of sleep and found that beyond the curtains in the Kitten’s bedroom that there was no daylight… no sunset or sunrise. It was night. It was her time and she felt… she felt dirty.

She felt soiled and wondered if somehow the Kitten had been into her head and made those dreams come to her. She rolled over and looked at the stirring witch. The Kitten had been asleep too… she hadn’t done anything. It was just a dream. Just a dream.

She had felt… alive?

And it wasn’t nice – apart… apart from the Kitten. She had liked being with the Kitten… she always did… but turning down a freely given chance to play? To go riding? It made her… it made her shudder.

She needed a good kill to get the taste of humanity out of her mouth, but when she checked the clock there were only a couple of hours to the sunrise, so instead Willow draped a hand over her Kitten’s shoulder and waited for the witch to wake up properly.

That process was going far too slowly though. She carefully pinched the Kitten in a tender spot and was pleased to find her fully awake in a couple of seconds.

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Tara had been making her way out that happy dream world, gradually becoming more and more aware of what was the dream and what was real… She was real. Willow was real… Just not the Willow from the dream. It was another Willow… a living Willow. The place was real… but she was not there right now.

The situation was… It wasn’t where they were. They had never done it… they never could. Willow could never go out in the daytime… not like that. And there was no way in the world that she would ever get Willow to ride a horse… the vampire did not play along with that many of Tara’s suggestions. Why should she? She seemed to so like being in control that Tara could not deny her… Even if sometimes… sometimes Tara thought that the vampire was not… no couldn’t be true.

Then the horse, still lingering in her dream, bit her. Right on the nipple. She was about to chastise it when…

She opened her eyes and found Willow’s own right in front of her. Even though Willow was not in the hated form of the vampire that she was, there was something about how her eyes looked in the darkness. When they caught what little light there was it was like… it was like a cat’s eyes. Almost glowing but not quite.

“I was dreaming of horses,” Willow said without waiting for Tara to say anything.

Tara could feel the cool hands resting on her. One round her shoulder and one on her breast, and belatedly… Owww. Willow had pinched her or something. Still, if that was what the vampire wanted to do then who was she to argue… that was the least of what the vampire might have done. But Tara trusted Willow…

Might she have been able to trust the Willow of her dreams more? The dream. The riding… the horses? Willow had been dreaming of horses too?

“Hate horses,” the vampire continued. “Bad.”

“You had… you had a sore butt?” Tara asked her, wondering if they could really have been sharing a dream. What was that if it was true? Magic… empathy… a real connection?

They already had a connection… just not the connection that Tara would have liked. She thought that she might have had a different one with that other Willow. She knew that she would.

“You promised to look at it for me,” Willow said filling her words with suggestion.

“I did, didn’t I?” Tara just wasn’t in the mood for that now though. If Willow insisted then, of course, she would do anything that the vampire asked of her… pretty much anything anyway. Fortunately Willow rarely even pushed the boundaries… she had found Tara’s thresholds long ago and played within them.

Would there have been ‘play’ with that other Willow? She had offered… and she had been turned down… There would have been play… but there would have been more than that. There would have been love-making.

When had she and this Willow ever really made love?

Tara knew that her immediate lack of passion and desire was just a momentary thing, it wouldn’t last long with naked Willow beside her… she knew that she always wanted this woman – this thing. But right now play seemed all too hollow. She just wanted to be… she just wanted to be held. She wanted to belong. She pulled herself closer to Willow and in deference to the other’s suggestions ran her hand gently over the vampire’s naked butt… caressing and teasing her into moving closer still… but only so they could hold each other. Willow’s foot ran up along her leg and then the vampire’s leg was wrapped over hers.

Willow gave a disgusted snort as she realised that Tara wasn’t going to play with her properly but she acquiesced to the embrace anyway and that was how they fell asleep once more. Tara’s body heat soaked into the vampire and warmed her flesh… so that when occasionally Tara woke Willow seemed to be warm. She seemed to be more alive.

Tara was dreaming alone this time…

So was Willow.

So was Miss Kitty in the corner.

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You hear that baby? I am going nowhere.
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Re: Part what? 48 is it? Phew

Postby molsongrrrl » Fri Jun 07, 2002 12:22 pm

great update! loved the dreams ... and the thoughts afterward ... this story just gets better and better ...






A little song, a little dance, a little seltzer down your pants




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Re: Part what? 48 is it? Phew

Postby LeatherQueen » Fri Jun 07, 2002 5:05 pm

Hey, Katharyn. Excellent update! That was so very well put together. I loved this dream sequence. And interesting that it was VW that felt dirty after this.



And just for you, my 501st post, making me a Teeny Tinkerbell Light. :D






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"But when they're playing your song on the jukebox in Hell, you might as well dance." - K. Simpson


"Futile... like a FOX, baby!" - Tara in The Late Shift by wiccachica

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Re: Part 48

Postby Sassette » Fri Jun 07, 2002 5:55 pm

Ahh, Katharyn - I feel I have been neglectful, as I haven't commented in awhile. I have, however, been reading - just haven't had time to compose a reply.



Not that this is going to be in-depth or anything *G*



Anyway, I've been loving where this story is going - and most particularly (probably because it's freshest in my mind) I loved this last part. It was a much needed contrast between the VW/T relationship and the W/T relationship. As much as VW is the only available Willow of any kind in this AU, and we therefore want VW to be with Tara, it's an important distinction to make between the two ... it's important to illustrate just how much this really is the proverbial short end of the stick for Tara. Yes, VW is the only Willow there, but VW is not the Willow that Tara deserves.



You've done a really good job of keeping that clear, no matter what else was going on, but this really >really< hammered it home in a beautiful way, letting VW and T get an extra glimpse into the life they >should< be leading together, instead of the one that circumstance is forcing them to.



Anyway - I loved it *G*



-Sass

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Re: Part what? 48 is it? Phew

Postby Kalita » Fri Jun 07, 2002 6:21 pm

Dreams. With horses. And pancakes. And sore Willowbutt.



Utterly enthralling. A masterpiece to itself. It's like what a Joss ep used to feel like, before S6, y'know? Special and unique.



In case you weren't sure, I loved it. Really, really did. Wow.

"Why, you’re just new all over, aren’t you?" - Lilah on Wes, "Tomorrow"

Kalita
 


Dreaming

Postby Zahir al Daoud » Fri Jun 07, 2002 8:09 pm

There is truth in dreams, they say. How did Joseph Campbell put it? "Mythology is the society's dreams, just as dreams are the individual's mythology."



But is this truth in their selves, the truth of what may have been, or what will and must be?



Methinks I already know the answer, but watching Willow and Tara learn it continues to be a magnificent little epic of the human heart.

"O Let my name be in the Book of Love!
If it be there I care not of that other Book above.
Strike it out! Or write it in anew, but
Let my name be in the Book of Love!"
--Omar Kayam

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Re: Dreaming

Postby xita » Fri Jun 07, 2002 9:51 pm

Ah, this is a wonderful chapter, finally highlighting all those things that cannot be between vw/t.



Interesting bits

Quote:


She wanted to snarl. She wanted get up and destroy the animal… wait for the sun to go down and then ravage her Kitten here under the trees as their flesh chilled in the absence of the sun…



No she didn’t want to. And not just in the dream. She should want to… but she didn’t.



She had never felt so…



Even when she had been, way back then… she was never so…



Alive as she was now. With Tara.




That is interesting for vw to feel in the dream because she doesn't feel it outside of the dream. Is it inside her? Or does she somehow have a connection with that other Willow. Though the part that says and not just in the dream seems to suggest it is inside vw.



This other line is interesting "When had she and this Willow ever really made love?" Even though Tara admits to loving vw, it seems interesting that she doesn't think they do anything more than have sex.

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Willow and Tara Love

Truly and Forever

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Re: Part what? 48 is it? Phew

Postby Katharyn » Fri Jun 07, 2002 10:51 pm

That seems to have gone down well. *Katharyn sneaks into Pens avoiding all hints of W*



molsongrrrl - Never sure how many r's in grrrl*S* The thoughts after are quite interesting, how the dreams affected them. THough I must say - you know how dreams are when you wake from them. They are so real and then often they fade.



Leatherqueen - Congrats on TTL... Looking forward to Gay Now myself... though actually I think I sort of like Vixen. Can't imagine why! And Willow feeling dirty... yeah sort of brings home what she is more than her actually killing someone. To me at least (which is why she has not done so "onscreen" for a while.



Sassette - Neglectful Sass? Nah... see if you are actually reading the fic then you are not neglecting. Neglect is when you do not even read it... *cough* like me. I haven't been near many fics recently... your own vignettes excepted.



I am glad the VW/W comparison sort of worked here. I needed it to without just getting gruesome.





Kalita - I never really worked out the combination but with the possible exclusion of sassy eggs does it get better than dreams, horses , pancakes and sore willow butt?

And a masterpiece? Ha! Though it is a part that I am pleased and happy with to a greater extent than alot of others.



Zahir - Que sera sera...



Xita - Finally highlighting.... yes it does... remember what is highlighted.



The making love/sex thing... It is perhaps just Tara's opinion, but given that she has never made love/had sex with anyone else I think it is quite telling. More than I thought when I wrote it as a throwaway line (that I am true to)



Thanks all



Katharyn

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You hear that baby? I am going nowhere.

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Re: Part what? 48 is it? Phew

Postby darkmagicwillow » Fri Jun 07, 2002 10:57 pm

Great update, as usual. The constrasts between the W/T pairing of the dream and VW/T pairing of reality were very interesting. Willow has an empathy and a vulnerability that allows her to share a more loving relationship with Tara, but I wonder if it would be as perfect as the dream imagines, if there might be something that VW/T have that a living Willow/Tara relationship does not.



It's interesting that in the dream VW enjoyed some of the sensations of being alive--her reflection, the feel of sunlight--though she doesn't recall that enjoyment when waking. It's understandable that she focuses on the much larger change of her personality changes, but I wonder how many of those changes have already happened. What Willow wants to be and claims to be isn't quite what she is any more

though I know she's a long way from warm-and-fuzzy.

darkmagicwillow
 


Re: Part what? 48 is it? Phew

Postby VampNo12 » Sat Jun 08, 2002 12:53 am

First thanks Katharyn I am feeling much better after my horrid bout with food poisoning. On to more pleasant subjects this part was quite intriguing. In a sense the dreams gives off the feeling of journey both W&T have traveled in order to end-up at Tara's house (where they both feel safe), and attain a real/fulfilling relationship.



I enjoyed the duality in this part. In other words, Tara knowing Willow fears horses (ie Willow) and spiders (VW), Willow seeing her reflection in the mirror (ie Willow), and knowing this isn't possible (ie being a vampire), but in this safe place it seems possible, both W&T enjoying the sunlight, but at the back of both their minds wondering how a vampire could be in the sun and not burn to ash, pancakes where Tara knows her Willow loves to eat these, but then realizing VW doesn't eat in that manner, Willow calling Tara "kitten", but then finding in this place it doesn't feel right so she calls her by her real name, Tara's offer of "play", and Willow knowing she should want to, but than chooses riding instead, and etc.



Then the lines I found interesting with Willow saying "I don't like the darkness... can we go back now... while its still light?" as well as "She was never so... Alive as she was now. With Tara". With this in mind, I get a sense that Willow is coming to realize (at least in her subconscious) that she has lived in darkness for so long, but with Tara she is her light, a light that can lead her to happiness if she lets Tara be her guide.



Lastly, I find that for Tara in her dream this is her ideal of what she wants/needs from Willow, but isn't truly getting this from the Willow in her life. Willow on the other hand, in the dream (although confused) wants/desires these "normal" feelings/relationship, but once she wakes-up "feels dirty". With this mind, although Willow is subtly changing through her connection/relationship with Tara, she isn't yet ready to fully become what Tara needs to find complete happiness. Therefore, the dream is a hope/premonition of what W&T can truly find with each other, but the question is what needs to happen for W&T to make the dream a reality? Looking forward to finding the answer to the question as the story goes along.

VampNo12
 


Re: Part what? 48 is it? Phew

Postby tommo » Sat Jun 08, 2002 1:18 am

I just caught up with the last three parts. I'm really enjoying the flow of this story and how you're taking us through the slow progression of the characters this way. Interesting points about Tara, and her ability to not mind the darkness so much. Shades of gray. It's all shades of gray. And I'm impressed that you brought that out succinctly and carefully.



As for the scenes between Tara and Vamp Willow; I always enjoy those the most. The fact that there's confusion about their feelings and yet they are both so desperate to affirm them without actually saying the words. There's always a certain dancing around that they do and I really like that, combined with the assurity they give to one another. It's all semantics I know, but hey, I'm a linguistics student. I like that kind of thing.



Loved the dream sequence; it confused the heck out of me at first but it fit so well in the greater scheme of things. I actually felt somewhat sorry and I suppose regretful that they woke up.


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"Smut now." - Dark Madfic Tommo

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Re: Part what? 48 is it? Phew

Postby miss calendar » Sat Jun 08, 2002 8:05 am

Hello Katharyn,

I'm a newbie kitten and until this week I hadn't read any fanfic of any kind. I've spent the last 3 days glued to my computer reading your fic, it's so compelling it was hard to tear myself away and, on those occasions I had to, it was still in my thoughts. I know that is a direct response to the quality of your writing so I wanted to say thank you for creating such a wonderful piece of fiction. While I 'm not going to attempt to give feedback on 48 parts I did want to say something a little more specific than 'Your writing rocks!!' (Which it does. Big time.) So I hope you don't mind some general ramblings about things I particularly admired.



Well first off, you are a wonderful storyteller (sorry about all the wonderfuls but that word keeps springing to mind). You have an interesting story to tell and all the skills needed to draw the reader in completely to your very fully imagined world. Pace, plotting, characterization they are all so good and I love how you take your time slowly building up to things, whether that's an event, a meeting between characters, a shift in the dynamics of a relationship, a character gaining an insight, Tara in jeans, Tara in lace, Tara in leather......



One thing that strikes me is that although I'm enjoying the use of Buffy/Angel characters and although I originally began reading because I was curious about a story set in the Wishverse you have made that universe and the characters your own. I don't feel that I am reading a story by someone using a borrowed setting and borrowed characters. I've enjoyed how well you've used the personalities of established characters (particularly Faith, Lilah and the Mayor) and then allowed them to develop in a way that makes sense in your setting. Somehow you manage to draw on a range of characters and events from the shows and integrate them into your story without it ever feeling unconvincing or contrived.



I guess Vamp Willow and Tara are particularly your own creations but it's interesting how you have created a constant interplay between the familiar Willow and Tara from the show and your Vamp Willow and Tara. Using readers knowledge and love of that very different relationship as a contrast and goal so that we know what it is your Tara is missing so badly, we all know how much better things could be if certain things were different and long for that to happen.



There is a deceptively simple quality to your prose which always serves the story never distracts from it. I love the fact that you have managed to make what is not said and what is not shown so much a part of the story being told. I like the way the way the writing is often disturbing yet can quickly change mood; now humorous, now tender, now erotic, but always with an edge to it.



I'm also enjoying all the different themes being explored, it's not just a good story it makes me stop to think and reflect. And those ideas and issues are just there, an integral part of the story never in your face. Yes I like all the grey areas, all the subtle explorations of light and dark, the word chiaroscuro comes to mind.



Anyway thanks again for a fabulous read. Even if I am now in trouble because of the 3 days of work I didn't do and will have to make up by next week it was well worth it.

miss calendar
 


Re: Part what? 48 is it? Phew

Postby La » Sat Jun 08, 2002 10:28 am

Wow, I really liked the dream sequences. A really good way to get into their minds. My favorite line:

Quote:
Life is all about the journey Tara. I know that Daddy, thanks.


Instead of "Yes sir" she says "I know that Daddy, thanks." Like in her dream, she's finally out of the shadow of her father. He's no longer the authority figure who has to be listened to, and answered with "yes sirs." She's grown up enough to almost answer back to him.

~La

You know you've been in Korea too long when you get a shock every once in awhile when you realize that everyone around you is Asian, and you're not.

La
 


Re: Part what? 48 is it? Phew

Postby Katharyn » Sat Jun 08, 2002 1:43 pm

Well thanks guys*S*



DarkMagicWillow - I have to say now that there is nothing that is good that VW/T have that a living W/T relationship would not. Infact there is a great deal less of that good. Sorry about that but it had to be said... That out of the way thanks!! All I will add to everyone is that dreams are freaky things. Waking from dreams is never straightforward (At least for me.) There is a lot in here kittens... but maybe not everything that looks to be.



VampNo12 - Glad you are better hun! You know I never considered the duality of the mirror - duh! This part though is filled with symbols, hints and foreshadowing. Gee does anyone think we will see this house again? Shocking idea...



Tommo - Grey I tell you. Grey!

They will get closer and closer to the words... even say some of them. But words are not everything.



And confusion... rules! AKA Messing with peoples heads a bit.



Miss Calendar - Wow huge post! But then I suppose you are making up for 48 parts but I am honoured that you found that much to say!

Thanksyou for:

1) reading

2) wading through all that...

3) feeding back

4) liking the damn thing!



To me the characters have to be very real. As I have said before they sort of write themselves in many ways. I might come to a part with plot of what must happen, but the characters... they just flow, or spew, from me... or more from the mental sense of who they are and what they will do. This does not mean that I am being true to the "real" BTVS characters but I am true to the characters as I imagine them within the story. They make sure of it! Even if you think that a character is behaving oddly they should be doing that all the way through!



Hope you got caught up... and there is a couple of days to the next update so you have extra time.



La - Mmmm the Daddy lines. Yes. Tara is losing some of her "fear" of his memory. The interesting thing is that she (early on) credits her survical and success to what he taught her. IT helped make her what she is... so what does losing respect for that memory mean to her?



Thanks kitties!!



Katharyn

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You hear that baby? I am going nowhere.

Edited by: Katharyn at: 6/8/02 12:46:11 pm
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VW/T vs. W/T

Postby darkmagicwillow » Sat Jun 08, 2002 3:13 pm

Katharyn,



I didn't mean to imply that a VW/T relationship was better than a W/T relationship or even that I liked it better though I have been impressed with your handling of the VW/T relationship throughout this story. When I was thinking of what W/T would be missing compared to a VW/T relationship was the uninhibited passion of VW compared to Willow. Of course, the passion causes problems too. Whether they would miss it or not, they certainly have much more to gain than lose by VW becoming a living Willow.



Also, since I don't know how you're going to get from VW/T to W/T, I've wondered if Willow would miss that aspect of herself if she experiences a sudden transition to humanity. Would she mostly revert to shy 16-year old Willow? She wouldn't have the experiences that the canonical Willow had in working with Buffy and becoming a witch to increase her confidence. Would she then miss the strength and certainity that came of being a predator even if she feels guilt for all those she killed? I think I would in that situation though I'd feel guilty about missing it. Of course, I'm speculating as I don't know what will happen, but I hope this post provides a better explanation of what I was thinking earlier.

darkmagicwillow
 


Re: VW/T vs. W/T

Postby Katharyn » Sat Jun 08, 2002 11:15 pm

Hey DMW.... sorry about that the bold font last time was a bit much perhaps.*S* I sort of knew what you meant it was just that I am very, very wary of that things like the first paragraph being taken as the message of this fic. The rest of your post sort of confirmed that was not really what you thought, but I needed to reply to stop anyone latching onto the original statement and speculating on that. The idea that VW/T is in any way better than W/T... needs to be stamped on quickly. Perhaps I should let the fic speak for itself, but as you are not going to see W/T for a while yet that would be tricky.



The "change" from VW to W is a very interesting question. These are scenes that I am writing/rewriting at the moment as they were not done well enough (hence the reason for slowing the posting.) Your summation of her situation is very interesting, there are feelings there which possibly Willow might have but one thing I think is going to overwhelm all the others, at least initially.



So once more apologies for jumping on you, especailly when really you already knew that!



Katharyn

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You hear that baby? I am going nowhere.

Katharyn
 


Re: VW/T vs. W/T

Postby darkmagicwillow » Sat Jun 08, 2002 11:54 pm

It's okay--no offence was taken. I just wanted to explain myself a little more clearly than I had in my original post.



I think I know what feeling will be foremost in Willow's mind when she returns, but then again only you know where Willow's soul has been throughout the years that she was a vampire and that location could change her perspective greatly.

darkmagicwillow
 


Re: VW/T vs. W/T

Postby Lindy » Sat Jun 08, 2002 11:56 pm

Hey Katharyn..



Just wanted to let you know that I spend the last week catching up with this fic. Well, I did other things, too, heh, but I can tell you that I was glad I picked this fic up again.

I had already started reading it, when you began posting, but ahem, yeah, I couldn't stand the fact that I might had to wait till Tara and Willow finally met. Now I am pretty glad I catched up.. and they still haven't met, and it is all good.



I enjoy the way you take your time to explore a certain mood, in all it's darkness and/or tension. I get drawn into this mood; carried away. Especially the first times VW and Tara met were pretty intriguing in that sense. But the closer they both get the more disturbing it is for me. VW is a monster after all, and Tara seems to loose all her willpower infront of it.. her. It is actually a relationship that isn't good for Tara, and she knows it.. and the way their relationship works and the role the sex plays in it.. makes it all the more disturbing, although it is intriguing all the same.



I am more than curious to see where this is going. :)




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Re: VW/T vs. W/T

Postby Katharyn » Sun Jun 09, 2002 5:25 am

Wow DMW... "the location of Willow's soul..." very, very interesting point. Very interesting indeed & no one has asked that until now. I hope you like the answer.



Glad to have you aboard Lindy and yes it is disturbing. I have just written a new additional part (59) and alot of this is brought home from part 58 onwards.



Katharyn

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You hear that baby? I am going nowhere.

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Re: VW/T vs. W/T

Postby pikescoob » Sun Jun 09, 2002 8:39 pm

I love weird dream sequence stuff....it can be complicated but it's also a lot of fun. Excellent update Katharyn!! :)



--Michelle

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Part 49... almost the big 50.

Postby Katharyn » Sun Jun 09, 2002 10:41 pm

Thanks Michelle... dreams have always been important in this fic and damnit they are easy to write! I mean there does not even have to be continuity!

Part 49 below Kittens - this deals with a few loose ends and shows a little of what else is going on.

Enjoy!

Katharyn
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Title: The Sidestep Chronicle – Doo Dah Doo Dah (Part 49)
Author: Katharyn Rosser
Feedback: Constructive criticism always welcome. katharynrosser@hotmail.com
Spoiler Warning: Pretty limited. The story occurs in an alternate universe though reference is made to events that occur in both realities. However see notes below.
Summary: Tying up… a few storylines. Bringing others closer together.
Disclaimer: I still don’t own any of the copyrights or anything else associated with BTVS. All rights lie with the production company, writers etc, etc. I am making zilch from this series of stories.
Rating: 15
Couples: G/J, VW/T
Notes: This part contain material that is based on events and characters in S6. However they are not named or explicitly dealt with. This is not technically spoilery… but take care if you want to be a total S6 virgin.
Thanks To: Hey Xita!


The Sidestep Chronicle

Doo Dah Doo Dah

By

Katharyn Rosser


He was arisen. Finally brought to his rightful station in the existence that was to be his world. He was the chosen and he was the ruler of all that was within his sight. All that was beyond his sight. Every world… Every time. Everything.

Everything was his for the taking when and how he chose. All was his. He just had to make every person, every thing… aware of that.

Starting with that tasty morsel in the hot red dress strolling down the street. She was walking though his darkness as if she hadn’t a care in the world. She wouldn’t soon… That was within his power to deliver. He had that power… to bring her into his darkness.

Or possibly through it into the glorious black place that was his world.

It was the ultimate power… and if he chose he could bestow the greatest gift upon her. The gift that he had received himself from one who was not worthy of it. His creator was dust now. It was a fate that was fitting for the unworthy. The only one that was fitting was him. Suffer not the unworthy to continue to taint the world.

Not when it was his world.

He was the only one who was worthy. He was the only one who could decide if another was fit to join him. He was the only one who could bestow that gift in the proper manner. His greatness was magnificent. He could bring her to his side. He could create his disciples and they would assure him of his rightful place in the darkness. She would have no choice in the matter. But she would thank him for it very quickly… when she arose. Recreated in his own godlike image.

If she was worthy.

He knew that he would decide based purely upon her taste. It was all that she had that he wanted right now. If the taste of her elixir pleased him then he would choose to bless her. And if not… then there would be no loss. No wastage. She would simply be the nutrition he required of the cattle. And then he would go out to seek another to join him.

And another.

Until one day his army would be legion and Order of Gary would rule this place. Only the worthy. The Master and his brethren would be dust. But only after they had bowed to his greatness and acknowledged his place in the rightful scheme of things. Only then would he free them from their cursed existence.

He would see it all come to pass.

Starting right here.

Right now.

With her. He was arisen and the power suffused him. It had all come to him so quickly. What he had to do. Out of his grave but three days and already he had a purpose worthy of a god. And an eternity to make it come to pass. Not that he would need that long. Oh no… it would move much faster than that.

The Master’s Brethren who had turned him away… they would suffer before he released them from inadequacy.

He hoped that she would prove worthy. She had a lovely voice… she was singing to herself as she walked. Maybe she was singing to him. “Dooo dah… Dooo dah…” Out there in darkness she was singing. Bold. She was brave… or touched with madness. Either way… she might just satisfy his needs. But it would be the taste that that finalised her fate not the voice.

If she was given rebirth and his blessing as one of his servants then he might ask her to sing again. He had always enjoyed that song…

Now.

He reached out from just behind her and made to grab her shoulder – to see if her face pleased as well. Not that it mattered. It would be the taste that did it. Or not. This human face was simply the disguise that the demon she might become would hide behind. It was the demon that he would value. And command.

His hand never made contact with her shoulder – though she did spin around anyway. There was something between them. A force… and her eyes. The eyes. He liked those eyes. Maybe, if she did not please him he should keep those. They were pure black… and they were boring into his brain.

“Incende” she said and he did not understand. Was she foreign? Was that where the eyes came from? His human self knew about foreigners… they were strange and they were different. But did they have black eyes?

She didn’t have to talk. That was not necessary she just had to taste good, then obey or give him her eyes. Those black, black eyes.

The fires of hell would consume her just as –

He felt suddenly hot and then he felt nothing at all except for those black eyes burning through him and a faint protest in his brain… but there was so much still to do to rule this place.

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Amy smiled and started back towards her destination. The vampire was already forgotten. Just another little itty-bitty trick. Hardly a challenge and definitely not the sort of fun that the magic required of her as it filled every atom of her being. She knew that she was already starting to come down… the best time had already passed. The best time… that had been there. Right after… he had given her the gift. And taken his price. He continued to take… he enjoyed her high as much as she did. Bless him for it. She needed to find something… she needed to vent the magic. She needed to have fun. Otherwise the crash down was going to hurt. As it always did. “The Camptown racetrack’s two miles long…”

This was supposed to be a fun night… and so far it had been. The rush… the rush was still with her. Just… Why did it fade so quickly? Sooner, sooner every time. She had to go back to him more and more often. She needed more to feel it. She needed it more often to enjoy herself. She needed it just to exist…

And the price was getting higher, but she had to pay.

Without the magic…

Magic was not enough. She needed that extra buzz and she had been put on warning… her supplier was getting close to being bored with her already. She needed to give him something new… she needed new experiences to trade for the magic… She shuddered suddenly. Was that the thought of the trade or was the magic leaving her already? She looked at a trashcan and suddenly it was a canary singing in a cage. With black feathers…

Like a dark crow. But small.

The magic was still with her. Thank god… it was just the trade that had done it. Time to seek new experiences. Quickly. She didn’t want to come right down… she couldn’t take the crash. Not again. But to pay… she needed something new.

“Oh, de doo dah day.”

The world was so drab without it. What had life been before the magic? It didn’t bear thinking about. Stuck in her dear mother’s body… the victim of magic – not the practitioner. Feeling it working on her, constraining her but unable to harness it. Within her but not bending to her will.

Hell, pure hell. There couldn’t be anything worse than feeling the magic inside her and not being able to do anything with it… Direct its flow to the places that she had needed it to be.

Of course there was something worse… when there was no magic at all, before her Mother… and there was being cut off by him. She couldn’t be cut off. Not even for a day. She needed something new to trade. That was why she was heading for the club… there was always the chance of finding something new there. Something he hadn’t had before. Or something of which he wanted more.

“Dooo…” she trailed off. What were the next words? She wasn’t sure and with a single frustrated glance three lemmings appeared on the lip of the building she was walking past, flung themselves off and landed at her feet. One. Two. Three.

Amy stopped. Looked at them, fascinated for all of a few seconds. Then shook her head. Nothing that she could trade with him there. Nothing at all.

Shit.

He wasn’t even interested in what she did with the magic. He had more magic that than he could ever need…. He wanted experiences. For that he gave her the charge.

When she traded herself for the charge… the magic could flow. Just like that. It was so easy to use… it flowed now. But already it was stagnating… thickening in her veins. In her brain. When she had just gotten that charge it was as easy as blinking. As natural as drawing breath. So much power and it felt soooo good inside her… In every part of her. Every part.

Even he felt good when he was giving her that…

She missed it when she didn’t use it… and when she missed it, then it hurt. Amy didn’t like to be hurting. Not like that.

It was her life now… she had dropped out and just spent her days seeking the experiences she needed to give to him. She couldn’t even remember how she had found him.

Oh yes she could… her Mother used to go to him. Once upon a time. ‘Like mother, like daughter.’ Those were the first words he had said to her, without even knowing who she was. But she had realised. Her mother had taken her body here… she had put that body through things to feed him. And yet he was good enough to realise that she was not her mother. She had new things for him.

Same body.

New experiences.

She thought that he would have liked it if she had taken that witch that had visited her… he liked that sort of thing. That would have bought her some time. And it would have been come recompense for the loss of her mother’s hard earned detayat. Much as she liked having her body back, that detayat would have been very useful. Why was she thinking about that witch now? She had no idea… Oh yes. Maybe she did…

Sparks crackled at Amy’s fingertips as she recognised the witch she had just been thinking of entering the club with two other people… and one of those stank of power. He liked power. Maybe she could… find some new experiences for him. It might see her through the week… one good night and she might have enough for a whole week’s worth of visits to him.

He never took it all at once. He was very careful not to get overwhelmed and addicted to his customers. He just took what he needed from her. From all of his friends.

Just as she was stepping up to the doorman, seeing him recoil from her waving her by with a terrified ‘come in,’ someone grasped her arm… “Amy hi!! It’s been so long! I can’t believe this! Ooooh we are going to have such fun.”

And once more… Shit.

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Tara and Jenny stood in the corner just watching Faith at work. No one had ever claimed that the Slayer was a patient young woman. Nor inhibited. Anyone who had said that would have been called a blatant liar after this little display.

It was a bit like looking at a book of photographs and twisting your head, then the book, to figure out what the picture was showing you… except in Faith’s case it was actually pretty clear. She was out to have fun. Her brand of fun.

They had arranged the night out on a whim – which they had just agreed was actually Faith’s whim – after the now dancing Slayer had bemoaned the lack of any ‘fun’ for awhile. It was also sort of a celebration of them returning from the attach on El Eliminati without anyone getting hurt. Mr Giles had, of course, politely demurred. It seemed that he had more vivid memories than Jenny of the last fun his fiancée had indulged in with Faith. In this very club. Perhaps it was the alcoholic haze of the last occasion that had let Jenny accept the invitation.

The teacher had been up for a repeat – with, she promised, less alcohol this time – Faith had kept her safe and as she had put it, trying to persuade Tara to join them, ‘How much safer will I be with you and Faith?’ It had sort of seemed vital to Jenny that Tara be there too if her fiancé was to be mollified from his initial objections.

This was not the sort of place that Tara particularly liked to be though. It was crowded, it was noisy, and it was full of smoke. There were slippery floors where drinks had been spilled. There were all sorts of people here, doing things and substances, that she would not dream of imitating. The stink was going to be in her clothes for days and days and there was no Willow. Even if she had wanted to be here then the club was invitation only.

Not her idea of fun at all.

Of course Tara’s idea of fun had been shaped by a childhood of strict parental control, adolescence without that many friends and late teens living from night to night hunting vampires. Finally, and most recently it was the caress of one of those vampires that was shaping her.

Moulding her deliciously.

So what did she know about ‘normal’ fun? Before tonight maybe not too much… after a couple of hours in Faith’s company… there were definitely lessons being learned. Particularly about what she would not be doing at any point in her life.

Faith had showed up at the apartment with Jenny pretty early on in the evening and as Willow wasn’t there she had been able to invite them in. For a few moments she had been worried that the Slayer, with her unique nature, might be prevented from entering by the protection spell that she still maintained on the place. It was intended to protect against anything that was not human. How literally a Slayer could be interpreted as human… she hadn’t known. But now she did. Faith had just breezed in and made herself right at home with Tara’s bowl of chips, feet stretched out on the couch and watching the cartoon channel that Tara had on whilst getting herself dressed. She had been skimping on the cartoons lately. She had found something else to fill her time.

Someone else.

Meanwhile Jenny had looked the place over with the practiced eye of someone who liked to check out places that they might want to go and live. Not that Tara wanted to think about Mr Giles as a neighbour, mainly because she didn’t want to think of how she would be able to hide Willow in such circumstances. She was actually amazed that as yet no one seemed to know. Apart from the Mayor, Lilah, the doorman of the building and, according to Willow, maybe The Master.

No one who mattered then.

Willow had dropped that last one on her in the midst of a shower. As she sometimes did. The vampire really didn’t much care. And besides, they were safe here; from vampires at least. There was no way for them to get in.

Faith’s considered opinion, considered from the perspective of the couch, had simply been ‘swanky place T.’ Jenny had been a bit more analytical but no less impressed. It had made Tara feel uncomfortable, having a place like this. It was really, really nice – as good as the apartment Mr Giles and Jenny, and now Faith, shared. And yet she was barely more than a kid – living here alone, as far as they knew. She only had it because she had made a deal with a devil… and they all knew it. Every one of them.

They didn’t have to mention it for her to know that it had to be on their minds. After all it was always on hers… or at least lurking. Where was the girl who had slept in abandoned basements? On a concrete floor?

She was getting used to the comfort now. Too used to it. All of it.

Also making her uncomfortable was her choice of clothes – or rather lack of choice. Before their arrival she had dressed and redressed. When she had been to clubs and places like the Sanctuary before she had been there strictly for the hunt. It hadn’t mattered what she wore because she was only there to kill all the vampires and then to get out. Now that her time was divided between work and hunting there had been no need to change her wardrobe. Willow… being with Willow didn’t actually require her to have much in the way of clothes. They couldn’t go out… neither of them wanted to. And in here… clothes were not the most important thing.

That had meant that dressing had been a chore and it was only the slow fall of night that had hurried her along. The possibility played on her mind that Willow might show up, with Faith also there, after dark. Eventually she had pulled on her first choice of her black jeans and T-shirt and headed out with them. It had been quickest and the sort of clothes that would work anywhere at any time. She had even forgotten the pendant.

She had only remembered it when she thought back to Willow’s touch earlier that day. Only Willow had been able to take it off her. She had never dreamt of removing it herself… except once… but the vampire was right. In Willow’s presence it was a distraction. She didn’t need the pain of it to remind her of what she was doing. Penance maybe, but it was only while they were… intimate… that it came off. They could be intimate for hours and hours… intimacy had come to mean just being with Willow. As little as that counted now.

That intimate time and the occasion on which she had tried to give Willow the gift of magic. When she had failed and snapped. Those were the only times it had come off. It had saved her life so many times. Now it was becoming what? Inconvenient?

She felt naked without it. No not naked, just tremendously vulnerable. For some reason nudity no longer made her feel that way. And that too was a bad thing – she had come to accept the risks of being with Willow. Being naked had come to mean being with Willow… comfy… That should never have been with a vampire. Never.

It looked, right now, as if Faith was trying to get ‘comfy’ with any or all of the three guys and a girl that she was dancing with and around. Well maybe not the girl, who must have been the girlfriend of one of the guys. She was looking mad as hell at Faith which made Tara smile as the girl was still dancing with them. She really had no chance against Faith. The guys… the guys in a cartoon would have had their tongues hanging down around their ankles, so deeply had the Slayer sucked them into her orbit. Faith, after ‘working’ hours, was living a life of abandon. By her own admission she was a regular here.

The Slayer wasn’t Tara’s type – perhaps only Willow was, Willow-type. She liked that – but she could definitely tell why they found Faith so… appealing. The young woman oozed sexuality in a way that Tara had never seen in a living person. Just in Willow. In some ways they were so alike. Forces.

“Y-you’ve done this with her before?” Tara asked Jenny as they looked on wondering how the teacher could reconcile visiting Faith’s life like this with her tweed clad fiancé and day job.

“I never did that…” Jenny replied. They both tilted their heads again, all the better to see as Faith ended up in some impossible limbo pose between one guys legs before straightening up again.

“Do you think that hurts?” Tara asked as they straightened their necks again sipping their drinks in harmony.

“It has to ache in the morning,” Jenny told her. “I mean… like… the…” she demonstrated with her fingers and found that she couldn’t even do it with them, “you know, limbo thing.”

Tara nodded. “Well I guess that she is, you know, the Slayer and all,” Tara suggested to explain both the obvious flexibility and the amount of energy that Faith was demonstrating.

“Yeah,” Jenny agreed, “the Slayer. That’ll be it.” They stood watching for a minute more until the music changed. “She knows how to have fun,” the teacher finally concluded.

“Is that fun?” Tara asked.

“I think so… I think it used to be,” Jenny was no longer shouting the second half of that reply as Faith sashayed her way over to them, one of the guys following on behind her, hands resting possessively on her hips. “I wouldn’t know anymore… I’ve been off of the market too long,” Jenny told her happily.

Tara smiled at that, and the fact that the teacher was so happy, then they turned their attention to Faith who reached out and grabbed both of their hands before she even said a word, pulling them towards the pulsating throng of people who were either desperate enough, brave or stupid enough to go out into the darkness of Sunnydale to have a good time despite all the dangers.

Just like lemmings Tara thought as she resisted Faith’s tug. Lemmings… weird thought to have. She looked around, suddenly feeling that something wasn’t quite right.

“Come on T,” Faith shouted, “It’s time to lighten up and have some fun.”

Tara waved her glass to indicate that she had a drink. In response Faith took it off her and downed what remained in one, before pulling her face at the taste. “Water!? You definitely need to find the fun Tar, come on!”

Faith could have pulled Tara bodily but she wasn’t applying that much force, just trying to persuade and cajole in a pretty determined way. And whilst Tara thought that she might resist, self-imposed rules about ‘don’t sing, don’t dance’ in her head, she kept shaking her head.

That worked only until Faith was joined in her efforts by Jenny, who took Tara’s other hand and as if synchronised they moved into step beside her, Faith’s guy grinning to himself, his hands still on her possessively. Tara knew without doubt that if anyone was going to be doing possessing – or otherwise taking advantage – it was going to be Faith. With the two of them instep beside her what choice did she have but to follow on?

It was moments like that this that made her really wish she were out in the cold hunting vampires and risking her life. At least she fitted in there.

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“Did I tell you yet how much I love your contacts Amy?” the annoying one asked her again.

Only about five times. In amongst all the other detritus that she was dredging up from that empty hole that she probably called a brain. Oh Goddess Hecate… Actually who even needed Hecate? All she had to do was look at the bitch… think of what she wanted and there it would be – there was charge enough for that.

Even a subconscious desire was likely to be enough. Yes, she still had enough of the charge within her. She could feel it bubbling, eager to work for her… and deplete itself. Then she would be forced to go back and get more.

Trading.

“Yes, yes you did.” Amy gulped down the drink she had in her hand. It wasn’t the drink that she had bought… It seemed easier to create the drink than magic up the ID. If she had been challenged then the barman would literally be a bar fly. All buzzy… she was still that charged. And with no barman how was everyone else going to get whacked enough to want what she wanted… the sort of fun that she had to offer to him to get what she needed. To get the charge.

So she had turned the water into wine. That was a miracle… especially when she then turned it into bourbon. And it was a shot that never seemed to go down no matter how much she drank. It was even taking the edge off the process of coming down. Wasn’t doing much about her former classmate though was it?

Oh no…

Would she never shut up? They had never been friends. Never… and now they were supposed to be so chummy and ‘old friends.’ The only thing that stopped her sending the stupid blonde into orbit was that she wasn’t sure how long the charge would last. She couldn’t deplete it just for that and mad as she was at the bitch she knew that she would do something impressive, and depleting, if she let herself. The drink… now that was important. That was taking the edge off. But doing something to this young woman would have forced her right back to him. She might even have had to go back to him tonight for more… she might have had to beg. Because right now she had nothing to offer him.

Nothing at all. He had taken everything he had wanted from her. She needed more. New experiences. The sort that he liked. The lust. The pain. The death. Any or all of those would do.

“Do you remember that statue of your Mom? That was so cool. I went out and bought a statue that I pretended was my Mom too.”

Oh yeah. Mommy. Dear Mommy… still comatose in a hospital bed somewhere in New England after the unfortunate car crash. A crash caused by Tara Maclay swapping them back. She really would have to do something about that body in the hospital. One day… when she was charged up… she would take herself there and she would wake Mommy up.

He would like that… the pain she would cause her Mommy. That would do her for several visits.

As for Maclay. The witch was still there with a couple of dark haired women. She had never really thanked the witch for swapping her back. And for breaking the detayat. She could have done such great things with that. Things he would have liked and traded much for.

Yes thank you Tara Maclay.

Wait a second. “You bought a statue and pretended it was of your Mom?” Amy asked wondering if it was a lingering high of the magic or if the slow fade of the charge was sending her crazy.

“Yeah, cool huh!?”

“Right… cool.” Whatever, she retreated back into her thoughts while the other woman yapped at her, like a small annoying dog. The sort for which people bought coats.

Tara Maclay was another reason that she didn’t lash out at the dumb, false, bint. She had been in the witch’s mind… and she knew the power that there was in there. Restrained maybe but she had picked apart one of Catherine Madison’s spells. Amy was the proof. Tara Maclay had skill and she had power and any big use of magic now, well the witch was bound to feel it. And even with the charge she wasn’t sure she wanted to go up against that woman.

Yeah if it had been a full charge… then… yeah, sure. She could have zapped her into a hell dimension in a heartbeat but now, part way down, she was getting antsy. Not that her annoying shadow was helping any. Besides she was kind of interested in the younger of the dark haired women. The wild one.

The one with the power who wasn’t afraid to display it… If one knew how to look for it.

Amy wondered if she was Tara’s girlfriend. They were there together. Perhaps it was the older one who looked like one of her old teachers… Yeah it was. Miss Calendar. Well what do you know? Of course Miss Calendar was with that librarian guy. Amy had been in Tara’s head and knew that she was jonesing for someone. Someone, back then, that she didn’t have.

Well if it was the young powerful one then she was definitely sharing her around. The girl was a slut-bomb. Just the sort of thing that she might have to do to get her charge from him and with the power that radiated from the dark haired woman… she might even enjoy it. Or not. She didn’t need to enjoy… she just had to gather the experiences for him. New experiences. She had already debased herself in a dozen different ways for him and he had drunk in every one. Now he wanted something different again.

And if that hurt Tara Maclay too then that would be an incredible bonus. She would do anything she had do. She had to build up some credit for her next charge. She just had to.

“Another drink Amy?” the vacuous blond asked her as Amy stared at the powerful one across the dance floor.

She was going to have to do something about the annoyance if she was going to get closer to the dark haired slut. But right now… she just waved her glass, which of course was still full. “No thanks Harmony, nice of you to ask though.”

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Tara looked at her watch, a little beyond one in the morning and she was shattered. She routinely stayed up into the small hours of the morning – sometimes after sun up – hunting and more recently returning to Willow’s attentions too. But something about this evening had sucked energy right out of her.

Nonetheless she appeared to have satisfied Faith that she had found the fun. The three of them plonked themselves down onto a two person sofa and, after a brief mock fight, Jenny ended up sat on the arm. It seemed unbelievable that she was a teacher. Tara had never though that teachers could be like that. They were usually more… well more like Mr Giles. With less tweed and less Englishness of course. Unless, she guessed, they were in England. English teachers might all be like that.

“I’m not dancing again,” Jenny announced. She was, by her own stated estimation, still just this side of happy and determined not to get at all drunk this time round. Merry would do her just fine. So she had said.

Tara nodded. “It’s… too hot and I’m too tired.”

“Wusses” Faith told them, but even she didn’t seem to be about to get up any again time soon.

“Where’s…?” Jenny searched for a name. Tara didn’t think that they had even been introduced.

“Studley?” Faith checked. For some reason that struck Tara as funny and, absolutely sober, she started to laugh. Until she noticed that the other two were looking at her as if she was mad. Then she stifled it, barely.

“Studley,” Tara said as if that explained it.

“Off to get a… stuff… drinks… other things,” Faith told them and then slapped her hand down on Jenny’s thigh. “So you’ve got your own Studley back home.”

“Oh yeah,” the teacher smiled, seeming lost in that thought.

Tara knew what was coming before that hand came down on her denim clad thigh.

“So what about you Tar?” Faith asked. Tara could feel Jenny looking, also curious. “Who is it that you keep sneaking off to when we get done hunting? Who’s scratching your deep down itch? What’s the name of your studdess girlfriend and why haven’t you brought her over to tea?” Jenny laughed as at the way that Faith asked the question.

“N-no one,” Tara told them.

“Okay,” Faith said, “hands up if you’re not convinced.”

“Leave it be Faith,” Jenny told her jerking her own raised hand down. “Tara doesn’t have to tell us anything. Just because you like to over share…”

“No. Come on Tar,” Faith pressed. “Just gimme a sign here. No names. Just give us a clue. Do we know her?”

Tara felt her face flush an even deeper shade of scarlet and struggled to form words. She wasn’t sure which words but they would almost certainly be words when they came out of her mouth. Maybe. Faith just kept going, totally ignoring Jenny’s slightly dutiful protests. The teacher was as interested as Faith. That was, Tara guessed, the down-side of friends. Keeping necessary secrets.

“Come on… I’ve seen you glow sometimes. I know that glow,” Faith told her. “How could I avoid it living with Jenny and G?” Faith grinned as Jenny started to protest and then seemed to remember the truth instead. “Either you have some hot little honey stashed away…”

Actually she was cold… dead cold.

“… Or,” Faith continued, “I want the name of the manufacturer and the model number.” The Slayer grinned.

“Faith!” Jenny exclaimed, sounding shocked but with a smile still on her face.

And suddenly Tara didn’t want it to be a total secret… she couldn’t tell them. God she never could do that. But she wanted them to know that there was someone… “Sh-sh…she’s All Natural Mark-One Redhead,” Tara finally said, looking down into her drink as she realised that joke might have sounded a little too much like what Faith had been insinuating. But the Slayer got it. They both did.

“You see,” Faith said to Jenny, “I knew there was something going on.” Then Faith seemed to stop and think. Placed her hand back on Tara’s arm. “Hey Tar… just having a little-” With the return of her Studley Faith’s attention was diverted. “Fun.” She got up and took a bottle of beer from him then dragged him with her back towards the dance floor. Quality alone time with a hundred or so people. The girl was a true romantic.

Tara looked up, face still deeply flushed, and glanced at Jenny, who was looking right back at her. She slipped into Faith’s vacated seat, a curious look on her face, before she gave a tiny shake of her head and the look changed to a little supportive smile. It sort of said that she knew all about the Slayer.

Yet they both liked Faith anyway. She was just a force of nature. Like hurricane.

Like Willow.

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“And do you remember the cheerleader try-outs when Amber got incinerated? Waaay too freaky for my tastes,” Harmony just kept going on and on and on. Oh yeah, and on.

Actually Amy didn’t remember that at all, but she had a damn good idea what had caused it. Mommy dearest. She looked at Harmony and nodded as if she was paying attention. Some immolation would have gone down really well right now.

“Her not making the team, or like even making school again, let you become Captain though and we got all state! Yay us!”

It was riveting. An entire life in high-school about which she had no clue. Actually if Catherine had been forced to put up with this sort of shit then she might have had been the better end of the deal – and cheerleading? The idea of pom-poms was making her physically sick. Though that could also have been the booze. The edge was creeping up on her and she was drinking more and more to keep it at bay. The need was sobering her up as fast as she could keep herself drunk.

More likely the charge. It was almost gone… she could feel him calling to her already. ‘Come back for more… but bring me something good.’ The powerful one had vanished… but that still left Tara Maclay. With the magic she could tell what they had been saying. The powerful one was called Faith… and she wasn’t Maclay’s girlfriend at all. That wouldn’t hurt the witch. Telling her friends though… about what her Mother had done. About what she had found in that brain.

Willow.

That might have been fun. And she knew that she could have found something that he would have liked with the witch. But the charge was next to gone and without that she knew that she was nowhere near the witch that her mother had been. And Tara Maclay had beaten her mother.

Later for her. Later for Tara Maclay.

After the next charge. Or maybe the one after that. They were fading so fast that it might still be soon.

But she still had to do something that would get her the trade. She had to have currency. Maybe he would like some pain… She looked at Harmony again. Seeing the annoyance in a whole new light. Karma was a bitch after all and this girl had bad karma coming out of her ears. Sort of like Amy’s brains after listening to her for hours.

Fun… and then hurting… Maybe hurting and then fun.

He’d like that. He really, really would. She had figured out his tastes by now… the perverse, the unusual and the painful.

Harmony gave her the friendly, if somewhat vacant, smile that showed that she was well used to falsifying her emotions. He would like what Amy was going to do to her. Those emotions wouldn’t be so false.

Later for Tara Maclay and her powerful friend. Maybe he would like Amy to have a little Faith… a little of her.

Harmony turned to look at the DJ, rocking to the music whilst Amy noticed Faith come back to the other two, collect them and head towards the door. Someone walked into her as she was staring across the room at them and her was drink spilled all over her dress. She turned to the clumsy oaf and all of a sudden he was down there… about six inches tall. She smiled and lowered the spike of her heel right onto the bewildered midget’s head. She fancied there was a tiny scream but she could never have heard it. Not so close to the speakers.

She’d have to remember to clean her shoes. Wouldn’t want to be tramping midget skull into the waiting room. Harmony turned back to her. “Your dress is all wet,” she said.

Save me from the obvious.

“Let’s get out of here, Harmony. Do some more catching up where it’s quieter. ‘Kay?”

“Sure Amy! It’s good to find a friend again.”

Doo dah… doo dah.

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Jenny was between her and Faith their arms linked as they walked through town. The Slayer had teased the teacher about having to carry her part of the way home last time they had done this and Jenny had laughed it off. She had kept the promise she had made to herself. Three a.m. and she was just the right side of merry. They could all see that.

Whether that would hold for first period tomorrow was slightly more debatable. Merry might not be the order of the day. Dark glasses. Those might be better. At least, Tara knew, she and Faith didn’t have any such deadlines. It was a bonus to their lives.

“What happened to Studley?” Tara asked.

“Used him and moved on,” Faith replied, some disbelief in her voice that Tara would have to ask. As if to expect her to do any more was somehow ridiculous.

“Used him?” Tara was almost afraid to ask. And really, she didn’t need to.

“You know,” Jenny said flipping her hips, “Used him.”

Maybe just the other side of merry. Tara looked at Faith who just grinned and didn’t deny it at all. The look though just said ‘we have to get her home.’

“You going to your Natural Mark One Redhead?” Faith asked her as Jenny continued to giggle.

“N-None of your business Faith,” Tara told her, teasing, pretty much resigned to the fact that she was going to have to put up with this for a while yet. She had been let off easily in there when Faith had been distracted by Studley. Just so long as Faith never found out just what it was she was doing.

Really.

And with whom.

What.

Willow.

They walked on a little, Jenny calmer again and still supporting herself which was a good thing. The teacher, Tara guessed, was not at all a regular drinker and without a Slayer’s constitution had no chance of keeping pace with Faith. Which was good, it just meant that when she did have a social drink… it hit her a bit harder. “This is your stop Tar,” Faith told her as they reached the intersection.

“I’m taking her home,” Tara told her.

“We can manage,” Jenny announced with a good natured punch on Tara’s arm. “And who’s her? The cat’s mother?”

“What she said,” Faith said rolling her eyes. “We can manage, right Jen?”

“Absolutely. Besides, my intended is going to be mad,” Jenny cracked up again.

But she was probably right. “You’re sure?” Tara asked, uncertain. But Faith was the Slayer and there was Willow. There was always Willow waiting. Not that the vampire would be worried but… she wanted to get back. She wanted…

“Go get your itch scratched,” Faith told her with a grin. “I’ll be making a sweep after I get Jenny home. Sometimes we get to have nights off okay… I’ll be doing it strictly for the fun.”

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It wasn’t all about getting the itch scratched. Not even mainly that… though if she did have an itch, or even if she didn’t then Willow was the one to see to it. Always Willow. Sometimes the scratches were more passionate than other times.

When she opened the door and snuck in she wanted to find the vampire there. But she was hoping that she could just snuggle up to her. She wasn’t looking to get anything scratched right now. What she found was Willow, asleep on the couch. No surprise there, the vampire rarely went to the bed alone and without Tara. She would follow Tara as soon as she went. She liked her Kitten all ready for her. Actually all Tara wanted to do was to curl up beside her right where she was… but there was no room on the couch unless they were side by side. Curled up.

And talking of kittens. On Willow’s chest lay the small cat. Miss Kitty opened one eye and observed Tara entering the room and approaching the couch and Willow. She looked as if she was daring Tara to disturb her resting place.

Tara dared , picking her up and lowering her to the floor and the cat slunk away disgusted. There could only be one Kitten for Willow at a time.

She teased at Willow’s hair. When she was asleep… apart from being so pale. Who’d know? Really who would know what she was?

I would.

“Hello Kitten.”

“Hello sweetie. Snuggle now?” Tara asked.

“Snuggle now.” Willow let Tara lead her to the bed without even mentioning whoever she had eaten that night. And there would have been someone. Without the pendant to burn her, Tara almost wished that she would. I would always know.

And she’d know too.

But without the reminders it was a nice end to an interesting, and fun, night. Snuggles. Real snuggles and hopefully they could dream again too.

Dreams helped her forget what she was doing.

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It was time, Amy thought. She’d killed before but never quite like this was going to go. It had to be good for him. But not too good. Otherwise where would she go the next time? Not too much… she had to build up to it all. Just enough. But not too much.

Besides there was the whole… ‘how to begin’ thing. Maybe just a little immobilising spell. He would want Harmony conscious - that was vital. He would want to feel her pain through Amy… at least for as long as Amy could manage to keep her former classmate in that state. Eventually the brain would shut down to protect itself.

It would be a challenge, but the charge. She needed the charge. There was only that. She needed to be able to trade. Doo dah, doo dah…

“What’s that you keep singing?” Harmony asked her.

Amy hadn’t even realised that she had been doing that. She just needed some currency for him. Something to trade. She didn’t turn around, still not sure what it was that she was going to do to Harmony. “The Camptown Races…” she murmured. Inspiration would take her. Improvisation was good. Coming at it without a plan would keep it fresh surely?

“Nice,” Harmony said from right behind her. The blonde woman’s hand was on her neck, brushing her hair back. “I never learnt the words.”

Could it be that simple, Amy wondered? Did she even have to kill Harmony? Could she just make herself do this, what Harmony seemed to want and then let her go? That would be something new for him and then… another time… she could deal with the annoying bitch as she needed to…

After all Amy thought, there were lips, Harmony was kissing her neck. And she hated the cool touch. Cool? No…

Harmony sank her teeth into Amy’s throat, ripping the jugular open and drinking deep in a few, powerful, sucks then letting her former classmate fall to the ground. Scavengers would be along soon for the body. Maybe, if Amy was lucky, the police. She wiped her mouth clean and looked down at the fallen woman.

Harmony had never liked her though it seemed that the now dead woman might have had some feelings for her. Well ewwww. Still Amy had given her something. Harmony started to hum that little tune that had been going around in Amy’s head all night.

Turning to go she suddenly felt a slight itch, reached up to scratch it and found four inches of wood sticking out of her dress. Well that just wasn’t very friendly…

Faith pulled the stake back. She had been too late for the girl, but still, another night another vamp. She was getting all hungry again. Time for breakfast. “The Camptown Ladies sing this song. Doo dah, doo dah.”

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The location of the soul

Postby Jae » Sun Jun 09, 2002 10:48 pm

Heya... I uh.. haven't really been posting here, despite the fact I've been avidly reading your story. I'm sorry, I'm absolutely horrid about responding to the stuff I read. I suppose it just seems like I'd be repeating what everyone else has said. I absolutely adored The Beginnings Cycle, as I am this story. I'm so glad you decided to explore and expand the ideas that emerged from the Sidestep chapters in The Beginning Cycle; they fascinated me then, as they do now. Kudos to you for making the characters come alive and charting their progress in a way that feels realistic and true. Your character growth is so very natural and it is a delight to read. :) In the same vein, your plot is wonderful and I can't wait to find out what the prophecy is and how on earth you are going to make VW become Willow!



Anyway, you're probably wondering what brought me out of lurkerhood, besides my general adoration of your fic... just a random bit of trivial knowledge. According to Descartes, the soul is located in the pineal gland at the base of your skull. That -according to him- is why humans have souls and animals do not... this of course doesn't even remotely work with the idea of vampires, as they still possss that gland, even if it doesn't work. Right. So, that is enough trivial randomness from me that has no actual bearance upon the splendour that is this story...



Anyway, I shall truly try and post more often as you deserve much praise.



Jae

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