my reply to the bi being the cool thing to do - i find it incredibly insulting most of the time. the girls i know go around pulling eachother to please the guys. they get attention out of it and dont have to suffer all the difficulties with actually being gay. they are just using the word for personal gain, they dont understand what its like being gay, they dont care.
well most are like that...you can tell if they are just abusing the word or really are curious (gaydar coming into play here hehe
). i encourage the ones that are curious tho
anyway, enough of my rant ^_^ im 16, in UK. go to typical all girls private school...only like...500 people in the whole school (thats from 3yrs old to 18yrs old). well in the senior part of the school (11yrs to 18yrs) there are like, 300/400 students, hardly any gays though. there isnt much communication within students so i dont think id know even if there was. i know in my year theres me, my gf, another girl and a bi girl i think...which i find suprising actually because there arent many people in my year. i know in the year below there are two bi girls. im friends with one of them, she says they are all pretty homophobic in her year tho so she tries to keep as much to boys as she can - poor girl! the other isnt out, i only know cause i met her at a random party and she soooo has a crush on my best friend
(they go to hockey club together hehe).
anyway, in my year i think people are settling down to there being gays in the world...i came there two years ago and was out immediately. there were no other openly gay or bisexual people. i think i really suprised everyone. they all enjoyed using me to wind up their friends by making out i fancied these friends and freaking them out etc etc. they also enjoyed taking me out with them and attracting guys by telling all the guys they met i was lesbian. they also used to gossip and spead rumours bout who in the year i fancied and which teachers i fancied etc. wasnt too nice actually...looking back on the first year i was there. almost got with one person, but everyone knew i fancied her so they made fun of her. i think they all scared her off so she went off with some guys instead. i got to know her really well tho, which was great
shes actually a very nice person ^_^
after the first year i got with my current gf
also in that year. people were suprised at that too cause she'd been bi and in the closet. they found out cause we kissed at party hehe
before long new rumours started about our sex lives of course. we had strap-ons etc had sex all the time, were only together for the sex blah blah. then these people making up the rumours came across our online diaries. decided to make their own, mocking us. saying how they were gay and together and wanted orgys with other girls and how they always having sex and all about their sex blah blah. i think they came across some reference of our sex life in our diaries or something - we dont go around telling everyone about it but its not like its a big secret either. havent really talked to them after that. i think they're running outta things to say about us now though because they're starting on a good friend of ours (shes straight). they've been spreading rumours that her gf cant get it up and stuff...she never says anything to them, she doesnt have sex with her bf anyway...
next year ive decided just to abandon hanging out with them - dont know why ive put up with it so long - and hang out with other people instead ^_^ (not that there are very many other people...slutty group, and two little nerdy groups...). although having read what everyone here has said about the gsa's, i wanna start one!!
tho i know im not going to hehe, tiny school i go to and there arent any other clubs. plus that stupid headmaster has no interest in anything really. no interest in womens rights or anything. dont know why they put a man in charge of a girls school!! thinks hes some almighty power i swear...
sorry, back to what ive been trying to write but keep getting diverted hehe - my school is generally pretty shut-up about homosexuality. people dont talk about it, or gay rights or anything. not many people ive seen walking around with gay badges or anything. i wouldnt say its homophobic as such, just not gay friendly particularly. they are all the kinda people who dont mind gay people, as long as they arent friends or family because then they get weirded-out.
i hope im helping other people to come out of the closet and face their own sexuality tho, even if i cant start a club or anything
Anyways... I have a lot of pride in school...I have rainbow shoelaces, a rainbow pin on my hat (When I don't feel like doing my hair that good) and I have stickers that say...'Honor Diversity', 'Your not my type (in rainbow 
at the thought. But in my Middle School I do the Day of Silence, wear my Kitten shirt ect, ect. My school won't let it go any farther than that. They say that "They don't want to endorse un-healthy lifestyles." Screw them! 
i bet it's good for all the people that can though. my school had already been so harsh towards students. last year during diversity week, people came to our classrooms and educated us about gay/bi issues, and it made the paper the next day, everyones parents were outraged and so were some of the students so my principle won't allow anything do do with it again. ever since then i dunno, i don't even know if the gsa will make it next year. besides like the art club & some of the teachers, everyone at my school is extremely homophobic. so i choose not to be a part of it, even though i want to....if that makes sense. 
) has dated girls in her past without telling anyone. The other girl, Yellowy (
) has been boycrazy all her life.
at: 6/12/03 2:02 am
at: 6/12/03 9:38 pm
) but as for being open about it at 
I won't have any of my friends there and I get the feeling it's not gonna be as open to stuff like that as the public hs will be.
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