Guru's poems

[robotguru]

This poem is pretty dark, not that that's new for me when i write poems, dunno why. Just the way it is.



As I walk around I see the same old shit

Teenagers gagging for a “hit”

No one cares, least of all Blair

He just wants this shit out of his hair

Anything to look good yet nothing useful

Nothing that leads to anything fruitful

This war on terror? Terror has already won

This proved time and again by men with guns



So why do we put up with it? Violence rules

Success is measured by the amount of jewels

Not by the fact that there’s something inside

Go a little deeper, the light is forced to hide

Tough fronts, can’t show weakness must be “hard”

Must defend when some breh approaches your yard

Can’t just be can’t be me stereotypes mar

All that hides away behind a scar



I want release but I’m scared and scarred

All that is me is on paper or card

My soul is charred no one wants to see

What I call who I am, me.

What can I do about it? Not a damn thing

Cos I must be false, no truth, just filling

Prejudice is all around, there is no escape

This shit is mental, its practise is rape

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There can be no rainbow without rain, you cannot know true happiness until you know sadness first.

[WickedReds]

Whoa.. thats powerful stuff there... its just whoa.. thats all i can say..



-reds



my banana dances for smut

Edited by: Warduke at: 9/27/04 7:30 am

[robotguru]

I think i've put my finger on why uni is getting me down right now, poetry helps me in so many ways like that, here goes.



Why do I feel that the world is on my shoulders

I can’t get this monkey off my back

It seems that everyone has it in for me

Everyone is on the attack

I can only try my best

Be who I’m meant to be

But I have to hide my true self

Cos no one wants what is really me



Stressful is an understatement

I’m usually open about myself

But people see only stereotypes

They don’t see me as I do myself

I forgot, gay guys aren’t welcome teachers

‘They rape little boys’ I’m sick of this BS

And people wonder as they see my face

Is this guy under stress?



How can I be someone I’m not

God made me who I am

But living communal life

My attitude is a sham

No wonder I’m stressed

24/7 I have to lie to my peers

It’s not just homesickness

That at night has me in tears

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There can be no rainbow without rain, you cannot know true happiness until you know sadness first.

[robotguru]

I've found all of my old poems. Here you go. I should warn you, most of these are dark.



EDIT for disclaimor.



Looking over these, some of them have a Christian message, i call myself a Christian Wiccan so that is always likely to happen. I just want you to know that i would never try to *convert* anyone, that's not the kind of person i am. I have friends that are Jewish, Jewish wicca, Pagan wicca (is pagan the word you'd use?) Sikh, Hindu, Muslim and there's probably some i've missed. Just as i follow my own beliefs, i respect all those that follow others. I just thought i'd say that.



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I hadn’t heard from you in two days

Unusual, we were always talking

Then your friend came on yahoo

Her status telling your friends to talk to her

When she told me my blood ran cold

I could feel your scars burned deep into my own flesh

Wrists, thighs, ankles, up and down

I could feel the blood and I was short of breath

Then she told me how close you came

Two minutes



You hit rock bottom hard with a thump

What did you feel when you held the razor in your hand?

What did you think when you slit your flesh?

So many questions that remain unasked

Because I’ve been in the same situation

Rock bottom hurts like a bitch



I cried that night and the two that followed

I woke up on a wet pillow

When you came back online I don’t know what I felt

Anger, sadness, relief all mixed all one

When you cut yourself

It felt like you cut me too



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Two minutes

One hundred and twenty short seconds

A student bites his pen in lesson, blissfully unaware

Until he sees crying at home

Two minutes

All it takes for a catastrophe to happen

The Twin Towers, war, Madrid

The thumb of a heartless soul

Sentencing hundreds, thousands, millions to death

And tenfold more to grief



Suffering is always around

Two minutes

People die, not through natural means

But through shrapnel, explosion

Bombs can rip through a train as you work out an equation in college

Over two hundred dead and only three found in one piece

Two minutes

Someone's world can end

Or change beyond recognition



Why?

What is the point?

People wail and moan as terrorists preach freedom

Freedom…brought with blood

Two minutes

One person, his body death to all near

The thumb of a heartless soul...

You could be reading a book on a plane

Then…pain

Black

Nothing

You no longer exist

Two minutes

What do we do? What can we do?

Trust a government who will sentence it's own men to death

As they "fight for peace"? The ultimate oxymoron!

The threat is unseen

Security? What a joke!

Two minutes

The world will change

People will die

One person causing the death of thousands

Chain reaction, irreversible

All in…two minutes



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How easy it is to sow hate

Even when you don't know what you hate

Or even if you know by name

Not by nature.





How can you call something evil

When you only see face value?

Black, Asian, Pagan, Gay

Minorities.





Is there a reason for hate?

Has something touched your life?

Or is it because a minority is vulnerable

Unable to defend, one person against a mob.





You see a weakness

A chink in armour

Something that can be used

Abused.



Then you defile a person

Make him seem the cause of evil

Today's Hitler when you are more apt for the title

Fascist





Every day there are signs

Prejudice, discrimination

When you don't know the person

One, individual, different.





Is every person not a minority?

We are all different

Skin, Love, religon, why does this divide?

When we should be together, all kin.





God made us different

He also made us brothers and sisters

Under one name

Human.





Look under the skin and see

Ask your heart the truth

We were not made to hate

But to love.



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This one is dedicated to those that help me live, you all know who you are.



There was a time

When darkness held my soul

In an iron grip

Unrelenting, merciless

No sun, no light

Just the search for a way out





I was saved, given another chance

My life is in debt

To He above

Now a fire burns inside

I'm too competitive to give up

I won't go without a fight





And now I look to the future

And I see a small light

A glow coming from people close

Making those who tried to break me

Seem far away, aflame

I'm unbreakable with those I love





Like a phoenix from the ashes

I have risen from the grave

From rock bottom

I have found new life

I have so many to thank

And I do so by living



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This one is happier, you deserve a reward for putting up with my angst



I lived in a void

Unable to see

What life

Really held for me

We never understand

What God has in store

You receive pain

So you enjoy success more



Take the marathon

That’s how to see life

Not taken at a sprint

That will cause more strife

You are bound to feel pain

But you will always achieve

All it takes

Is for you to believe



We all have tests

Trials of the soul

And at times it seems

We’re stuck down a deep hole

But there’s always light

Help from the depths

There’s people that will love you always

Until separated by death



So don’t look at the bad

It’s just a way to get you down

Remember this

Any time you frown

Pain is only temporary

Wherever there is love

Cos love is a gift

From He who smiles from above



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Why can’t I be happy?

Why can’t I be free?

Why can I never

Just be me

Wherever I go

I have to defend who I am

Whether it’s as a Christian

Or because I’m gay



People are narrow minded

It gets to me every day

The fact I am always on defence

It grinds me mentally

I have to be tough inside

Never show emotion

Never show weakness

Close myself to the world



I log into a chat room

“F’in hell…here’s the queer

Gents watch your rear”

Is what I’m greeted with

By ignorant fools

Some have never felt love

So what right do they have

To question me



I live through it

I have to

Too many people care

Or I wouldn’t be here

Rocks to lean on

To take away my fears

My friends around

Only with them I share my tears



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The quote at the bottom belongs to William Blake. This guy was an amazing poet, if you don't normally read older pieces, i'd recomend reading some of his poetry.



I don’t have to prove my religion

To you

Only know that I believe

Now and always

Always and for ever



I leave you to your beliefs

Why can’t you do so for me?

Don’t preach to he who cannot be converted

For conversion is never true belief

Not born naturally

So none existent

A show



I could quote bible

I could say how I’ve been touched

How I nearly died

But I have no proof

Faith doesn’t need it



I am who I am

You might not like it

You just gotta live with it

As I do





"It is a blockhead that asks for proof on that he cannot perceive

And a fool that tries to make the blockhead belive"

(William Blake)



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This one was wrote for a kitten i call "My Hermana" Love you sis



Baby don’t cry

Let me hold you tight

Water separates us

So don’t add to the divide

Though I can’t be there

Know that I always will be

For we are one

Inside

Brother and sister

We don’t need blood

Because we know

Always



It kills me when you’re upset

But I’d rather know

I want to share the pain

Make it go away

But I can’t

I don’t understand

So make me

Cos I love you sis

Always



Tell me what burns

Deep inside

Causing worry and grief

Allow me to say what I can

Then one day

Allow me to help in person

So I can be there

As I want to be

Always



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Dark again, i swore to someone close to me that i would never cut myself, this addresses that issue.



Blood runs through my veins

And as I live with pain

I wonder

What it would be like, one cut

But I made a promise

I could never do that

Cos one leads to another

The blood and pain become addictive

Necessary

One wrong cut

And life ebbs away

Until you become a body

And so much blood on the floor

Nothing more



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I can't be the only one who has gone through this



I sit

I smile

I put on my mask

Do I have a soul

When I can hide myself so well?



A careless word

Hurts deep within

But I just laugh it away

Mock pout

“Go in a huff”

A regular occurrence



The only indication comes

To those that look in my eye

No tears, but the pain is there

Nothing malicious

Just careless

They will never know



I goof off

Cos taking life seriously

Nearly killed me once

I act the clown and that’s how I am seen



Bottled up

Deep inside

Is the pain I try to hide

And few will ever know

What they have done to me

“All in fun”

Cos that’s how I present it

So it happens again

Accidentally





Behind my mask

Where few get to see

I feel the pain

On my own I cry it free

Cos I can’t be seen

To be weak mentally

And yet I am



I’m open in all

Except my pain

Cos it’s worse

To give ammunition

To show a chink in my armour

In my mask



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Anyway, that is about every poem i've ever wrote, i hope you enjoyed them. Ok, so most of them are dark, but poetry helps to vent these feelings.

Chris

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There can be no rainbow without rain, you cannot know true happiness until you know sadness first.

Edited by: robotguru at: 9/29/04 2:22 am

[robotguru]

The elements help us as we walk, here's a poem dedicated to them.



Gentle touch

Soft caress

The rain delicately strokes your skin

A promise of love

Unconditional

Where nothing harmless is thought a sin



Gentle Wind

Whistling around me

Promising that I can fly

Cooling me down as I walk

A cool breeze

As I look up into the sky



Warm Sun

Warming the earth

Keeping you safe under its gaze

A promise of healing

Of warmth and good feelings

When I lie feeling dead, it helps me rise



Mother Moon

Adored by those she protects

Watching over nature’s loves

Peaceful orb

A slight glow

The peace of a dove

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There can be no rainbow without rain, you cannot know true happiness until you know sadness first.

[WickedReds]

My god Chris... that was so deep... I've felt like that smoetimes... u hit a chord in me...



-reds



my banana dances for smut

Tara in a wet shirt, Tara in a wet shirt. Tara in. A. Wet. Shirt. “Of course.”-Willow From Remember to Breath By Yellow Crayon

[SJ]

Great poetry,thanks for sharing

[shadowygirl]

WOW Chris long time no see ! damn awesome poetry , the last one was just beautiful lovely work I hope to read more soon !



luv April

[angel of salvation]

wow great poetry, i understand your respect for other beilef's i'm like that too



Back to the poetry, its great and filled with emotion. Like to read more soon!



Jess xxx

'You're my angel of salvation, and hope, and strength...your my multi-angel'-Jay (My baby)

.:~*My anime site*~:.

[robotguru]

Because there is a very special kitten on this board. She knows who she is.



Because you are strong for me

Even when you need strength also

Because you can crack my mask

And see my face

Because I know that you are there

When I feel weak

Because your love is unconditional

And you know when to give me space



Because you’re you hermana

Special in every way

You share your joys

And we both share pain

Because I feel safe

Whenever I’m with you

Because we both have much to lose

Yet you show me how much we have to gain



Thank you.



Know this hermana, when you feel weak

When you have no one else to turn to

When you feel confused

When you need help to survive

Know that I am here

Know that I care

Know that whatever happens hermana

We are both still alive



When you struggle to see the point

When you can’t see the light at the end

When you find that your world crumbles

When you need some cheer

Know that I am with you

Know that I will never leave

Know that though water divides us

I am always near



You are not alone.

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There can be no rainbow without rain, you cannot know true happiness until you know sadness first.

Edited by: robotguru at: 11/30/04 2:44 pm

[Spikeizmine87]

wow chris this poem was just sooo amazing! I loved it and i REALLY want to steal it and post it on my blog such lovely emotion this has!!! I hope you write more soon!

-rose

I didnt know what being happy was till i found you, i didnt know what love meant till i loved you.

[Renee85]

I love your writing, I love your poems, and I loved these lines from the latest piece you posted.



Because I feel safe

Whenever I’m with you

Because we both have much to lose

Yet you show me how much we have to gain



What else I've noticed is that I've only seen this thread today, maybe I saw it and passed through it but I damn well shouldn't have! These are great and I do hope you post more soon. Thanks for sharing. :-)

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"For it was not into my ear you whispered, but into my heart. It was not my lips you kissed, but my soul." -Judy Garland

"Live as if you were to die tomorrow. Learn as if you were to live forever." -Mahatma Gandhi

[SJ]

Great poem

[Wired vixen]

Here i am absolutely adoring your poemness and i haven't left fb?! I am ashamed....baaaad person! lol- well i dunno what to say excepy super cute and there is a 'wowness' factor! So write more and we'll both be happy lil bunnies!



Stace xXx

"Um...dont mean to ruin the sexcapades...but we need the chips out there. Xanders being a chip whore." -She's my always by spikeizmine87

[robotguru]

I haven't been replying to feedback and i'm kinda tired now but i do appreciate it.



My poetry is filled with emoton, it's all a part of me, the good and the bad.



heh, you're all calling this good, i dunno, i just like to write, the first poem i wrote i wrote for poetry.com just to see if i could and boy was i shocked when a letter came asking if they could publish it lol, i actually want to get my own collection together though, my only fear is that one day, school children will curse my name as they look for meanings in my words lol.



I don't know what makes these poems 'good' but what i do know is that they are honest, all the light bits and all the dark bits, i've felt that, i guess that's what some people like.



Anyways, i've rambled enough, here are two more for you.



This is something that i hope to make a reality.



Labels



Can’t I escape?

Can I ever be?

What I want is

To be just ‘me’



Am I a trendy?

Am I a Goth?

Do I really care?

Why do people scoff?



When will I escape this?

When can I be?

When will I ever

Just be ‘me’?



I’m a guy

I’m white

I’m a pacifist

I don’t like to fight.



I’m gay

I don’t give a damn

I’m not crazy, just a goof

That’s the way I am



I will escape these labels

One day I will be

What I want

And that is ‘me’.



A bit of a lighter poem about a passtime i have grown to love.



The thud of the pads

The pain as you block

The uppercut

Hook, hook



The aching muscles

A work out session

The sweat in your eyes

The release of tension



I don’t want to hurt anyone

But I don’t want anyone to hurt me

So I go twice a week

To be the best I can be



The ragged breathing

The arm that can jab no more

The sweat that drips

Onto the floor



The energy drink

Nothing fizzy

After a workout

That can make you dizzy



Aggression and tension

The pain is mocking

But I love it so i will

Carry on kickboxing



More when i write it Be good, be safe and on that i say adieu.

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There can be no rainbow without rain, you cannot know true happiness until you know sadness first.

[SJ]

Great poem

[shadowygirl]

I want release but I’m scared and scarred

All that is me is on paper or card

My soul is charred no one wants to see

What I call who I am, me.





So far I love them all , the first one was one of my favs though esp that part , and so was the last one I can very much relate to pretty much all of them great job !



Miss you too damnit ! we haven't talked in some time ...



thanks for the FB on my poems as well hehe a lil insight to who I am hope it helped but if it confused you more then whoops lol



Love April *hugs* take care and we'll talk soon !

[robotguru]

This is only a short one, but it needs some explaining. As part of my next assignment in my Specialist Subject (English) i have to write a children's book. I'm thinking either a short story or poetry. I think i'm gonna do both and see which i like best (if you ask nicely (and i actually get it done), boys and girls , i might might actually post the story in a seperate thread)



Anyway, this is a short little poem i came up with after lesson, i call it (deep breath) A Teacher's Plea



Welcome class, I’ve prepared this for you,

I’ll have fun and I’m sure you will too,

But first I have a little request, my dears,

Keep your eyes on me and listen with your ears



Well, here it is, it's a lot different to my usual stuff, eh?

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There can be no rainbow without rain, you cannot know true happiness until you know sadness first.

[robotguru]

Ok, i've been naughty in not leaveing the replies to feedback.



Rose: What did people on your blog think of that poem?

Renee: I'm glad you liked that one, it meant a lot to me

SJ: I'mglad you like my poems

April: Damn right we haven't talked in ages, i miss ya

All of yas that have left feedback, i promise to be better from now on, thank you all.



heh, i was thinking of renaming this thread Kids Korner till i realised that a lot of the stuff isn't for kids The elements one would be good though



heh, new sig possibility



This has been a public service announcement by Your Friendly Neighbourhood Psychopath



I swear that i shall never wear a mask and tights



Anyways, be good and be safe, on that i say adieu

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There can be no rainbow without rain, you cannot know true happiness until you know sadness first.

[SJ]

That poem is great

[skittles]

Robotguru, can I use your poem?? I will give you credit, but I like it... I really like it. If I get a middle school class, I want to post it, but maybe I'd even post it in my HS classroom.



I completely understand the motivation behind it, too.... oh, how I wish they would just pay attention!!



I love the other poems, but this one hits me where I work.

skittles



"The problem with political jokes is how often they get elected."



"Closed minds always seem to be connected to open mouths"

[robotguru]

SJ: Thanks for the props.



Skittles: Of course you can use it, feel free.

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There can be no rainbow without rain, you cannot know true happiness until you know sadness first.

Edited by: robotguru at: 1/23/05 8:23 am