The Right Decision

[RaVeN]

umm me sweet nahh im just me nothing more.. but thanks.. sigh yeah holding a child in your arms and falling asleep is the best I remember it well from my god daughter.. I miss that a lot.. as always to perfect for words..

[BurningWhiteRose]

Oh man...



CUTE!!



Love it.



I was reading this earlier this week when la home got hit by lightning.



The screen was technicolored...



Sincerely,

BWR

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If homosexuals dont reproduce, why are there so many of them?-Jim David

[Stroke of Luck]

I guess we have to thank that lil girl with the name Lydia, for tripping over Tara, eh? See where they are already are! I can see lots of fun and snuggles ahead. And Jules will fall for Tara too, when she knows for shure that her mom doesnt love her less Let it be fast and pls i want their first REAL date hihii, not that this night wasnt nice, it was nearly perfect! But some time for the women wont be bad... hey they are alone when they put Lydia into her bed Oh some alone time heheh talking and talking and.......talking



Next update pls.



Cu

SoL/Natti

"I wish that you were here or that I were there, or that we were together anywhere!"

[WickedReds]

that was so beautiful.. the whole mother/daughter interaction was so sweet... and Lydia and Tara moment was priceless... very sweet.. Oh and Willow's realization .. can't wait for the next update..



-reds



my banana dances for smut

Tara in a wet shirt, Tara in a wet shirt. Tara in. A. Wet. Shirt. “Of course.”-Willow From Remember to Breath By Yellow Crayon



Now that just sucks- me

Edited by: WickedReds at: 8/14/04 5:24 am

[Irishgrl3]

Sweetness indeed! It's wonderful how well Lydia has taken to Tara, falling asleep in her arms. And Willow realizing at that moment she was in love with Tara, what a great end to that chapter.

[Arwen276]

It's great!



I'm glad Willow and Julia had a moment to talk before the little girl's fears became real nightmares.



Tara and Lydia's cuddling-scene was also very cute!



and FINALLY Willow's realisation of what was ALWAYS the truth! SHE LOVES Tara!



now more!



~Arwen

Hear That Baby? You're My Always... Willow

[DreamLover]

This story is so amazing. Especially this update it took my breathe away. I so love the different character of the twins. I can't wait to see what Tara will do with the info from the overheard conversation.

Edited by: DreamLover at: 8/14/04 12:03 pm

[sapphicpoet]

Loved the update . You posted it yesterday, but my withdrawls were so bad that I couldn't get out of bed til about 5 minutes ago. You can't imagine how ecstatic I was to found you had updated! The relationship you're establishing between Tara and Lydia is really sweet, I look forward to seeing it develop further and I'm hoping Jules will eventually warm up to Tara... I know so far the fic has been angst free, but I know there's gonna have to eventually be some bad stuff going on, I wonder what it will be that conjure up for our girls to kick it's ass . So yeah, thanks for the update, I'm now, but I know in a few hours I'm gonna be craving some more , so please update soon!



~Sapphic

"Humanity is measured by the soul, not the flesh." ~ Layla

Edited by: sapphicpoet  at: 8/14/04 6:19 pm

[Tempest Duer]

Willow loves Tara? You know, I never would have guessed... this is just so new and exciting!



Meh. I'm glad she knows. It'll make things easier.

It's insulting to the whole gender[sic] of rap.



~Eminem

[MissKittys Ball O Yarn]

Oh my goodness....That was the sweetest scene ever! Cause with Lydie falling asleep...and Tara with the protective stroking... Im certainly glad that Jules is acknowledging that she could possibly like Tara if she gets to know her. (That's promising) Something tells me it won't be very long before Julia is all snuggly right along with Lydia. (Who could resist that?)



Great job girl! I loved the update...and yes..I know I should have stayed in bed and not have snuck out like a But i just couldn't help it. Its all your fault for creating such and enchanting story. I blame you....yes that's right...I said blame...its a harsh word i know...but nonetheless fitting. Okay....now that I have placed the blame it is time for me to make a Hasty retreat. Alas I must go for it is into the wee hours of the morn.....not really...actually its kinda early still....If only I was not sooooo then maybe i could stay up and ramble some more....





xoxo

Emms

The people I'm furious with are the womens's liberationists. They keep getting up on soapboxes and proclaiming women are brighter than men. That's true, but it should be kept quiet or it ruins the whole racket.----



Anita Loos

[kindagay]

Hello dear, sweet, lovely kittens



Once again I am overwhelmed by all of your amazing, encouraging words. Thank you so much for all of your feedback



Sam: Glad you thought it was beautiful Thanks for the kind feedback.



watersong84: Glad you like it. The image of Tara holding a sleeping child really is so cute isn't it? It's the kind of image that makes me wish I could draw, but alas, my drawing skills are extremely lacking.

Update coming soon.



sharleen: Fabulous you say? Thanks, you're so kind.

Part of my fic made you love Tara more? Wow! So, it had the same effect on you as it did on Willow? That's good.



alysagoddess85: Don't worry, Julia will fall for Tara soon.

Hee hee, when I re-read the last paragraph of that update now I get this mental image of a hand smacking Willow round the back of the head, accompanied by a well meaning 'DUH!'. Thanks for that image, it's rather ammusing

More very soon



Wimpy: Beautiful & touching - that's what I was aiming for. Glad you feel that I succeeded.

Oh, see, unfortunately, the drying is no longer required, but now that the twins are asleep, Willow & Tara can have some alone time.



RaVeN: I'm sure you are sweet, don't sell yourself short. Your feedback is always very sweet.

Thanks so much for your feedback, & you're right, holding a sleeping child is the best.



BWR: Cute you say? Thanks, cute is good. Glad you love it.



SoL: Yep, much thanks to Lydia for tripping over Tara. Jules will fall for Tara soon enough.

The night so far has been nice, but you're right, now that Lydia & Julia are in bed there's time for some much needed uhm, talking



WickedReds: Glad you like it, thanks for the kind feedback.



Irishgrl3: Yep, Lydia's taken very well to Tara. She trusted & felt safe with Tara right from the start.

I knew I needed the perfect moment for Willow to realise she's in love with Tara. What better way than to have Willow see Tara cradling & protecting one of her daughters?



Arwen: I felt that Julia needed some 'mommy-time', I couldn't leave her all worried & upset.

Glad you thought it was great & cute.

More soon



DreamLover: Amazing? You're so kind. & wow! the last part took your breath away? Thank you so much for saying so.

What will Tara do with what she over-heard? Keep reading & you'll find out



Sapphic: Sorry for not posting soon enough, I hope the withdrawals weren't too bad.

Glad you like the Tara/Lydia relationship, & Jules will soon warm to Tara.

You're right, it's all been a little too sweet & goodness so far hasn't it? There will be a little angst coming up, but, it's nothing that our girls can't deal with.

Hope this update is soon enough for you.



Tempest Duer: I know, Willow loves Tara... who would have guessed?

I know we all knew already, I just needed Willow to it figure out. Now she has, it will indeed make things easier.



Emms: The sweetest scene ever? Surely not... but thank you for saying so.

Jules will get to know & love Tara very soon. Nobody could resist being all snuggly with Tara.



Now now, there's no need to go placing blame on anyone. Although, I must say, writing an enchanting story is the nicest thing I've ever received blame for.

I hope you continue to enjoy my story.



Okay, a nice long update will be posted a little later on today.



Hugs

Jeanne

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Tara: “Let me guess – you want me to lie on your lap while you feed me grapes, but my sweet, shy, precious, honey you’ve been too shy to ask – yes?” - GROWW by WannaFriendsBe

[kindagay]

Okay kittens, it's long (as promised), there's sweetness, there's a bit of angst and the ending could be deemed by some, as being rather evil



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Willow quietly approached Tara and Lydia so as not to disturb the scene. Sensing the approaching footsteps Tara instinctively tightened her hold on the little girl before raising her gaze to study the approaching figure. Realising that the new arrival was Willow and therefore posed no threat, Tara relaxed her arms and smiled up at the older redhead.



“Hey.” Willow whispered, kneeling down beside Tara.

“Lydie kind of uhm, f-fell asleep.” The blonde explained needlessly.

“So I see.” Willow smiled and lovingly stroked auburn curls away from her little girls face. “You wanna put her to bed?”



Tara carefully stood up, adjusting her hold on Lydie to make for easier carrying. She crept slowly across the landing and into the softly lit room. Walking around Tara, Willow made her way to Lydia’s bed and pulled back the pastel coloured fairy quilt. Lydia gave a soft grumble as she was lowered to her bed; she rolled on to her side and curled into a tight little ball, her head resting right at the bottom of her pillow.

“Sweet dreams princess Lydia.” Willow whispered pulling the quilt up to the girl’s chin and placing a gentle kiss on her cheek.

After ensuring that Julia; who was sprawled out across her bed; was also fast asleep, Willow and Tara tip-toed out of the room and closed the door quietly behind them.



Once downstairs an awkward silence fell upon the two women.

Tara wondered if she was beginning to over-stay her welcome; Willow worried that she was keeping Tara from other plans. Yet neither woman was willing to part company so soon.

Being the hostess, Willow decided that she really should say something.



“Erm, would you like a drink? I can boil some water for tea or coffee, or there’s juice if you want something cold. Or, or I usually indulge in a little glass of wine once the kids are in bed, you’re welcome to join me if you like? Oh, unless you were wanting to go home? I don’t want to keep you if you have plans. Do you want me to call a cab?”

“Uhm, n-no. I mean, I’d l-love a glass of wine, i-if you’re having one.”

“Really?” Willow grinned hopefully. “You don’t need to get home or anything?” The redhead checked, wanting Tara to know that she was free to leave whenever she wanted.

“Oh god, I-I’m taking advantage of your h-hospitality aren’t I? Y-you want alone time, a, a glass of wine and s-some peace and quiet. I’m sorry, I’ll g-go.” Misinterpreting Willow’s intentions, Tara began to panic. She made a move to gather her things before Willow’s hand on her arm stilled her movement.

“No, no, Tara, I don’t want you to go.” As Willow’s words registered with the blonde, she turned to look into emerald green eyes. “I just, I didn’t want you to think that you have to stay and keep the sad, lonely single mom company. If you want to stay, you’re more than welcome, but, you don’t have to.” As her words trailed off Willow’s head dropped timidly.

After considering Willow’s words for a brief moment Tara placed her fingers under the other woman’s chin and gently tilted her head up.

“I would love to stay Willow. A-and you’re not a s-sad, lonely single mom.” The blonde’s voice was soft and full of a sincerity that melted Willow’s heart.

Placing her hand over Tara’s, which now rested lightly against her cheek, and looking deep into soft baby blues, Willow whispered a heartfelt

“Thank you.”



The intensity of the moment and the feelings being silently communicated between the ex-lovers was interrupted by a remarkably loud clap of thunder which caused the women to jump apart in surprise.



“So, erm, wine?” Willow asked suddenly, giggling at the absurdity of being startled by the storm.

“Right, wine.” Tara echoed, not fully registering the redhead’s words.



Willow made her way to the kitchen, leaving Tara stood in the hallway, lost in hopeful fantasies of sharing kisses and gentle caresses with the red haired goddess.



“Red or white?”

“Huh?” The blonde shook her head a little, clearing her mind of the delicious daydreams to actually pay attention to the beautiful woman that was asking her something… something about, wine? Yes, wine, that was it. “R-red for me thanks.” Tara called as she followed the sound of Willow’s voice into the quaint, homely kitchen.

“An excellent choice madam. I have a bottle chilling nicely in the refrigerator, I’m sure it shall meet your approval.” Removing the bottle from the fridge Willow held it out for Tara to inspect the label, faultlessly impersonating an enthusiastic waiter.

“Ah yes, that one will be perfect.” Tara joined in the light-hearted skit.

“Would madam like to sample it first?”

“Y-you don’t expect me to s-swill it around my mouth a-and spit it out do you?”

“Well, you could, but that just seems like a waste of good wine to me. Or okay, it seems like a waste of reasonably priced, run of the mill wine.”

“I agree.” The blonde giggled.

“I’ll just get some glasses then we can go through to the living room.”



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They sat close together on the couch, close enough to allow ‘accidental’ brushes against one another’s skin. Soft music filled the room; small candles provided most of the illumination, except for the small lamp that lit up an opposite corner of the room.



“I-is Julia okay? You two seemed to be having an uhm, i-intense talk?”

“Well, I wouldn’t say, intense, but… She’s fine; she just needed a little bit of reassurance.”

“Some qu-quality mommy time?”

“Yeah, a big hug and a reminder of how much I love her.”

“They, they’re both very special little girls. J-just like their mommy.” Willow smiled at the compliment. The same compliment Tara had paid her the first time they had ever talked; well, the first time they’d talked properly; oh so many years ago.

“Y-you’ve done an amazing job of bringing them up Will.”

“Oh, I’ve done okay, thanks to the rest of the scooby’s. They’ve all been right there for me from the day I told them I was expecting. Even more so after Oz walked out on us.”

“H-how old were the twins when he l-left?” Tara wasn’t going to push the topic; she just wanted to communicate her sincere interest.

“They were six months old.”

“Do, do you w-want to talk about it? I-I mean, y-you don’t have to, but, i-if you want to…” She really hadn’t wanted to have this conversation, not just yet, but she was going to have to hear the story at some point and now was as good a time as any.

“I, I don’t know why he left, I just, I woke up one day and he wasn’t here. There was a note, it, it just said ‘I’ve gone, please don’t hate me. I’m so sorry, but, it’s for the best.’ I’ve heard nothing from him since then. No call, no letter, not even birthday cards for the girls.”

“I, I’m sorry.” Tara offered gently, brushing the single tear off Willow’s soft cheek.

“It’s okay, I, I’m not upset for me. If he’d just walked out on me, again, it would have been okay. It would have hurt, but, it’d be okay. But, but he left the girls, he walked out on my baby girls and, and he’s never made any effort to contact them. It, it’s just like, like they don’t even exist for him.”

“Do, do they e-ever ask about him?”

“No, not any more. They used to, when they were younger, but, I think Buffy told them all they needed to know. I’m not entirely sure what she told them, but, after they talked to her, they lost interest in their daddy.”

“It, it must be hard, r-raising twins on y-your own?”

“Well, there are ups and downs, oh, but mostly ups. And like I said, the gang help, but, well, they can’t be there all the time. I mean, Xander and Anya have their own little family. Dawn’s in LA, Giles is in England and Buffy, well, Buffy’s off saving the world and teaching gym.”

“That… It sounds kinda, l-lonely?”

“Sometimes it is. Oh god Tara you have no idea, I sit here alone almost every night wondering where it all went wrong. I mean, I have a good job, a nice house, a circle of really good friends and two beautiful, wonderful little girls. I should be happy right? I’m just so lonely, I have all these friends and family, and I’m lonely. If you weren’t here right now, I’d be having this conversation with myself.”



Tara sat listening to Willow, as her lost love released all of the pain she had kept to herself for so long. Until now that is.

The reason Willow had walked away from Tara had walked away from Willow, and now here Tara sat comforting the redhead. Irony was ironic like that.

The blonde couldn’t believe that Oz had done it again; he had left Willow, again. Only this time he had left so much more behind; not just a broken Willow, but their baby girls as well. Tara had listened as Willow told her of Oz’s sudden, unexplained departure. She couldn’t help but feel so angry.

All that time... all the lost time. They could have been together.



Any part of Tara that had been unsure of her feelings towards the redhead had been dismissed the second she had heard Willow’s voice call out the twins’ names in the park earlier that day. After having spent almost the whole day with the redhead’s family, enjoying every moment and not wanting it to ever end, she had fallen in love with Willow all over again and she was well on her way to falling completely in love with Lydia and Julia too.



Then there she was, sat in the redhead’s living room, as Willow paced around letting out all of her hurt.



After a few minutes Willow had suddenly stopped pacing, overcome with emotions and feeling incredibly embarrassed. She was turned away from Tara, visibly trembling.



Tara stood and closed the distance between them quickly. She slipped her arms gently around Willow’s waist holding her close as she softly whispered words of comfort and reassurance to the redhead.

“Shhh, it’s okay sweetie. I know it hurts, just, just let it all out. It’s okay to cry, just, let go, I’m here for you.”

“I, I’m sorry you have to waste your time with me when you probably have someone special waiting for you to get home.”

Tara took a deep breath and tightened her grip on Willow.

“W-willow I’m not seeing anyone, I told you that before. There’s nobody waiting for me. I’m, I’m all alone too.” Tara’s close proximity and gentle words began to have an affect on Willow. “I, I don’t need to be anywhere except where I am right now.” Tara lowered her voice, not sure if she was strong enough to say what truly needed to be said. “Willow, baby, I need to only be with you. I, I have always just needed to be with you, don’t you know that?”

As quietly as Tara had spoken, Willow had heard every word. Her heart leapt in her chest and her stomach gave a happy little flutter.



By this time, Willow’s tears were falling, unchecked, down her face. Tara led the other woman, who had made herself so vulnerable to the blonde, over to the couch and held her in a strong, comforting hug.

They sat for endless minutes, the blonde providing unconditional, silent support to the trembling, sobbing redhead. Willow cried until she was couldn’t any longer. She cried herself to sleep in the protective arms of the only person she had ever truly loved.



Tara felt so good holding Willow close to her as she slept. After watching the redhead for a short time Tara joined her in peaceful slumber.



Willow was the first to wake a short time later as the thunder storm picked up again. She lifted her head to look into Tara’s sleeping face.



“I am you know?” She whispered, tracing her finger tip along Tara’s jaw-line. To her surprise Tara had answered, her voice heavy with sleep.

“W-what?”

Taking a deep breath to steady herself, Willow had answered with heartfelt conviction.

“Yours. I’m yours Tara.”



Soft blue eyes fluttered open to be met by love filled green ones, burning with truth. Their faces were so close, lips millimetres apart, their breath mixing between them. Both women’s lives had led to this moment and slowly they leaned forward. As they closed the distance between their lips Willow’s fingers had reached out to entwine themselves in silky, golden tresses. Tara gently cupped Willow’s cheek, her own fingers revelling in the softness of the skin she had missed touching so much.



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I did warn you that the ending was evil.



So, uhm, considering I've never really written angst, was my first attempt okay?



Hugs

Jeanne

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Tara: “Let me guess – you want me to lie on your lap while you feed me grapes, but my sweet, shy, precious, honey you’ve been too shy to ask – yes?” - GROWW by WannaFriendsBe

[AmbeRocks]

awww, finally, sweet!

just enough angst, i'm sure we'll have lots of smoochies in the next update though, right?!



keep on the good work



jen

There is such a variety of well-invented things that the earth is like the breasts of a woman: useful as well as pleasing - Nietzsche

[MissKittys Ball O Yarn]

Quote:

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Willow’s hand on her arm stilled her movement

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How subtle without being too subtle....That was so romantic.

and the almost kiss at the end....was just...wow.





Im glad that Willow told her about what had happened with Oz; it was a much needed conversation. It worries me though, that, once again, oz has left Willow without the benefit of closure. It's reminiscent of how in season 4, he was gone without word for months and just as Tara and Willow were bringing their relationship into the next level he reappeared to wreak havoc. I hope he doesn't follow familiar patterns and show up again. If he does, Tara might have a few choice words for him...



spectacular update Jeanne! You deserve a cookie. here *holding out hand* I baked one just for you...it's sugar free!! *waving cookie under your nose* What? you say that a sugar free cookie sounds just dreadful and tasteless?? *sighing* oh alright...here...* handing you a plate of fudge brownies* Better? Well there is more where that came from...but first I need some updatey goodness!





xoxo

Emms

The people I'm furious with are the womens's liberationists. They keep getting up on soapboxes and proclaiming women are brighter than men. That's true, but it should be kept quiet or it ruins the whole racket.----



Anita Loos

Edited by: MissKittys Ball O Yarn at: 8/15/04 10:44 am

[Stroke of Luck]

Grrr ur ending is indeed mean! But i know that u wont waste too much time to show us the next update, right? U wanna be a good kitten, RIGHT? this was a lovely update, i love to see them so close and in love...and Willow said this time this incredible important sentence...



Cu

SoL/Natti

"I wish that you were here or that I were there, or that we were together anywhere!"

[watersong84]

Yay!



That was absolutely beautiful (just like the previous chapter). And your attempt at angst? It worked, very well.



Please update soon!

[DreamLover]

OK, I thought the last part was amazing but this part is just super! super! super! romantic. The candles, the confession everything was just at the right amount. It's so sweet of Tara to wait for Willow all this time.



Your right it was indeed evil but I know you will make it up to us.



Henny

[RaVeN]

breathing again... brilliant and excellent

[sam darls]

Wow..that was so beautiful and so frigging amazing . Love sam xx

"Sometimes things happen between people that you don't really expect. And sometimes the things that are important are the ones that seem the weirdest or the most wrong. And those are the ones that change your life." - Jessie Sammler (Evan Rachel Wood)

[Arwen276]

Oh my!



This update blew me away! It's so intense and beautiful!



The end wasn't very evil, you know, it was more like tension-kiss-fade out.



brilliant! lol



more?



~Arwen

Hear That Baby? You're My Always... Willow

[alysagoddess85]

another great update!! there was a couple of things i really liked about this one in particular.



first off...i like the way when tara sensed someone approaching her first reaction was to protect lydia...it was subtle, but still her way of keeping the girl safe.



secondly...i like the angst. it wasnt as sad as i thought it would be, but it was enough to get them to the point of tara comforting willow and opening up to each other.



and thirdly...we ended with small smoochies...which means more are called for in the next update!! yay for smoochies!!



update soon please!



~mel

Willow: It's horrible! That's me as a vampire? I'm so evil and... skanky. And I think I'm kinda gay.

Buffy: Willow, just remember, a vampire's personality has nothing to do with the person it was



Sure it doesn't

[WickedReds]

wonderful update... so romantic too.. It was good to see Tara comforting Willow about Oz, that basturd. Oh and u work sublte so well.. tara protecting lydia... it was just great.. and i got a smoochie... yay!! hopefuly more next time...



-reds



my banana dances for smut

Tara in a wet shirt, Tara in a wet shirt. Tara in. A. Wet. Shirt. “Of course.”-Willow From Remember to Breath By Yellow Crayon



Now that just sucks- me

[amberbensontotallyrules4e]

Wow that was perfect. wouldn't have guessed that it was your first time writing angst, you did it perfectly... just enough of it to make my heart ache for Willow and Tara but not so much that I just wanna curl into a ball and cry. It was amazing. And yeh, you warned that the ending could be considered evil, and it was, but it was also a great place to end it. F@*#ing OZ! God I hate that guy. Seems like just the sort of thing he'd do. I'm glad things are looking up for them though. And the "yours" line in there. Makes me melt every time, and it was so perfect and sweet and awwwww.

Thank you so so much. Looking forward to more.

Rachel

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So much of this world is based on illusionary temporariness and disposability that I think its important that our closest relationships reflect what is real. ~ Gillian Anderson

[sapphicpoet]

First off, let me just say was an amazing update.

I liked the dialogue you established between the two of them and the intimate atmosphere you created with the wine and the storm. Another big plus in this update is that you addressed Oz which I was getting really curious about since we haven't heard much about him since the start of the fic (BTW, Oz leaving her twice? What the hell was he thinking, especially with two beautiful daughters.)

Ok, that ending was just cruel. You had me all worked up and then you end it??? You set the stage with the emotional exchange and then you cut me off? Why must you be so cruel?

Oh, final note, I really like the way you worked the famous line into the story ("I am you know..."). Made me nostalgic for the good old days when Joss still treated our girls right...

So yeah, please update soon, do it the sake of my poor body, I'm not sure it can withstand these withdrawal symptoms much longer *brings knees to her chest and rocks back and forth*



~Sapphic

"Humanity is measured by the soul, not the flesh." ~ Layla

[Irishgrl3]

Great long update! I'm glad that they got the Oz talk out of the way. And now that the twins are asleep, we have candlelight, wine and an almost kiss. Woo-hoo, can't wait for the next update!

[shuyaku]

It's not a big surprise that Tara is so great with Lydia. Jules will come along - I'm sure Tara can win her over. This was a very sweet chapter. (even with the evil cliff hanger )



More soon

-shuyaku

Oh God, Willow—you’re giving me the gift of Karen Carpenter. Just when I think I grasp the full extent of your love." - Tara

"Why do birds suddenly appear? It’s because, you are queer…" - Willow (Gods Served and Abandoned by AntigoneUnbound)

[wimpy0729]

Absolutely beautiful. From Tara holding Lydie and putting her to bed until the wonderful and teasing ending.



Great job!



More soon please!



Wimpy

"There was plenty of magic." ~ Tara

[My Always]

It's sooo beautiful Please continue!!



-LR

[kindagay]

Hello lovely kittens,



So much wonderful praise & support again. I really can't thank you enough, your words mean so much to me.



AmbeRocks: Thanks for the feedback, glad you liked it.

More smoochies? Oh, okay then



Emms: I'm so glad you enjoyed that last update & thank you so much for saying it was spectacular

The Oz conversation was indeed needed & your speculations are very interesting (I'm not giving anything away though )



Oh, fudge brownies, don't mind if I do. *takes a brownie and bites into it.* Mmmm, yummy, this is really good. Thank you, you certainly know how to make this sweet-toothed writer happy



SoL: Uhm, sorry about the ending the update will be soon I promise. Am I a good kitten?

Glad you liked the last update, thanks for the sweet feedback.



watersong84: Thanks for the sweet feedback & I'm glad you felt the angst worked well.



DreamLover: 'super! super! super! romantic'? Thanks, glad you thought so. I'm also glad you felt I got the right balance of uhm, everything.

& I will make up for the evil ending.



RaVeN: Thank you for the lovely feedback, glad you liked it.



Sam: Wow, Thank you so much for your sweet words.



Arwen: Your feedback is so kind. Intense & beautiful - Thanks for saying so.

More soon



alysagoddess85: So sweet of you to point out the parts you particularly liked.

Tara protecting Lydia just felt right, it seemed so... Tara.

Glad you liked the angst & yes, more smoochies coming up, very soon.



WickedReds: Thanks for the feedback, glad you liked it.

You seemed to particularly like Tara in this update, she was rather sweet throughout wasn't she? But, that's Tara for you, always such a sweetheart

Yep, more smoochies very soon



Rachel: Perfect? Wow, thank you.

I'm glad you were impressed with the angst & yeah, there is much not liking of Oz in this fic.

Thanks for saying that the "yours" line was perfect, sweet & awww... That's the effect I was aiming for.

More soon



Sapphic: Hey, Hope your withdrawals aren't too bad. I'm sorry to put you through those withdrawal symptoms, I'm posting updates quick enough right?

Glad you liked the dialogue & the atmosphere. And I'm happy to have addressed the Oz issue for you.

Sorry about the ending, I'll make it up to you in the next update, which will be posted very soon.

I'm glad you liked how I worked that, oh so important, famous line in.



Irishgrl3: Yep, Oz talk out of the way, twins in bed & we get... romance & an almost kiss (that will, naturally, lead to a proper kiss, many proper kisses in fact...)

Update very soon



Shuyaku: Tara will win Julia over soon.

Glad you thought this update was sweet. Sorry about the cliff hanger.

More very soon



Wimpy: Absolutely beautiful - Quite a few people have said that... It makes me & .

The teasing end - see, that's much nicer than calling it evil.

More coming soon



My Always: Aww, look at that - happy tears.

Continue? Of course More coming soon



Okay you beautiful, wonderful kittens, the next update will follow very, very shortly



Hugs

Jeanne

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Tara: “Let me guess – you want me to lie on your lap while you feed me grapes, but my sweet, shy, precious, honey you’ve been too shy to ask – yes?” - GROWW by WannaFriendsBe

[kindagay]

Okay, some of you felt that the last update's ending was rather, uhm, mean, so, I beg your forgiveness & present you with this to make up for it....



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The kiss was slow, tentative, almost uncertain. Closed lips brushed together gently, lightly, again and again, for mere seconds at a time. So many emotions and uncertainties raced through the two women, but right then, in that moment, they both needed this.



Willow’s lips parted a little, the tip of her tongue flicked out to taste the sweet wine on Tara’s lips. Both women moaned softly, Tara’s lips opened to allow the venturing tongue to taste them more fully. Brushing her teeth lightly over Tara’s lower lip the redhead nibbled and sucked gently on the sweet, softer that soft lip. Second after excruciatingly wonderful second Willow’s mouth made slow, gentle love to Tara’s bottom lip. The blonde melted into the other woman’s attention. Feeling light headed from the experience of their second first kiss Tara could no longer remain sat upright. Holding firmly onto the redhead, Tara leaned back to lie across the couch, pulling Willow down on top of her. Their bodies pressed together as Willow slowly released Tara’s lip. The blonde boldly slid her tongue into Willow’s warm, soft mouth, kissing her with a passion and fire that had been locked away for the past eight years.



As eager hands frantically ran over bodies and under clothes both women knew that they were close to the point of no return. Assessing that getting carried away wouldn’t be the best course of action right then, Willow half-heartedly pulled away from the blonde’s fiery kisses, her breathing heavy and a thin sheen of sweat covering her body.

“No, Tara… Stop… Too soon.” Willow panted weakly. A tiny part of her hoped that Tara would convince her otherwise, but she knew without any doubt that the blonde would respect her wishes.

“O-okay, sorry. That, that probably w-wouldn’t be the, the best idea anyway.”

“I, it’s, it’s not that I don’t want to, I do want to. Oh god I want to, but, us, this, it’s too fast. With, with the girls and Oz, and, everything, I just I need to be sure. Does that make sense? Uhm, do, do you understand?”

“I do, I understand Will. Uhm, you, you want to? I mean, u-us, there is a-an us?”

“Well there could be, if, if you want there to be an us, then we can definitely be an us. Do, do you want there to be an us?”

“Oh yes.”

Willow gave an award winning grin that lit up her entire face.

“Great, me too.”



Resting her head lightly on Tara’s chest Willow quietly listened to Tara’s gentle heart beat. The redhead lightly stroked Tara’s arms as Tara ran gentle finger-tips up and down Willow’s back.

After a few moments of comfortable silence, Willow finally plucked up the courage to reveal her feelings to the beauty that was holding her so lovingly.



“Tara.”

“Yeah sweetie?”

“I, I really enjoyed today, spending time with you. I’ve missed you, a lot, more than I could begin to tell you. You, you know how I said that, that I spend every night wondering where it all went wrong? Well, in truth, I know. I know exactly where it all went wrong. That day, the day I chose Oz, that’s when it went wrong. I never stopped loving you Tara, I never will. I know I hurt you, I hurt you so much and I want to, no, I will make it up to you.”

“Shh, you don’t have to do a-anything. Willow darling, look at me.” Waiting patiently until green eyes turned their gaze towards her, Tara then continued what she needed to say. “What happened that day, i-it’s in the past, it happened and, and we can’t change that. But Willow, it didn’t change how I feel about you. I, I’m in love with you Willow Rosenberg.”



A deep kiss preceded a necessary silence as both women allowed the other’s words to sink in.



“So, so we take things slow right? We have eight years to catch up on, and, and we need to give the girls time to get used to uhm, us. I mean, I know Lydia adores you already, but Jules, I think she needs more time to get to know you. She’s a little more, uhm, cautious than Lydie, not so open with her feelings. And, and I need to be sure, you know? I mean, I do trust you, but, but after Oz… I won’t have anyone leaving my girls like that again.”

“I know sweetie; we’ll just take things slow, it’s okay. I, I don’t know if it helps, but, I uhm… Even though I’ve only known the twins for, for less than a day, I, I don’t think I could ever walk out on them.”

“That uhm, that’s… Really? Tara, you have no idea how much that means.”



More soft, sweet kisses followed, interspersed with declarations of love and the sharing of their deepest emotions and fondest wishes. After hours of holding, kissing and talking, Willow and Tara finally fell asleep curled up together on the couch, both women happily dreaming of a future together.



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Awww...

& now that our girls are sleeping, I'm off to dream land myself, 'cos it's rather late here in the UK



Hugs

Jeanne

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Tara: “Let me guess – you want me to lie on your lap while you feed me grapes, but my sweet, shy, precious, honey you’ve been too shy to ask – yes?” - GROWW by WannaFriendsBe