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Re: Butterfly

Postby CrazyTaraWitch » Sat Aug 27, 2005 6:01 pm

this was, just...wow!!!! :clap
I love it :flower
i agree with sarejester, MORE MORE MORE MORE!!!!
"To days to come."
"All my love to long ago.


I hope, we'll have more happy ever after
I hope, we can all live more fearlessly...

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Re: Butterfly

Postby JustSkipIt » Mon Aug 29, 2005 3:56 am

Hi,
I must admit that usually this is not my cup of tea. I'm not into Opera and generally I don't like AUs that are so incredibly unlikely. But...

Another writer recommended this and I gave it a chance. I really like the way you've kept the characters recognizable in spite of their being European and Opera Singers. In particular Willow and Tara seem to be quite theirselves. The italicized section at the end of the last update in which Willow realizes and comes to terms with her feelings for Tara is absolutely wonderful. It's passionate and stunning and accepting all at the same time. I'm quite impressed and interested to see where she goes now that she realizes how she feels.
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Re: Butterfly

Postby tarasgirl » Mon Aug 29, 2005 8:29 am

Good heavens! I go away for a weekend and come back to a marriage proposal? That oughta teach me for spending time away from my computer... :flirt I'll break the news to my girlfriend gently, she'll understand once I tell her I said 'opulence'.
I would love to go to Covent Garden! Perhaps we could have the ceremony there? It seems fitting.
OK, I have to change the stakes here and upgrade from 'adorable' to 'beautiful'. Actually I'd be more comfortable with an entree of adorable, a main course of beautiful, all topped off with a dessert of epiphany. Snippets of things I loved:
'scent of Tara' - this one definitely sits squarely in the adorable category and serves to remind me; where is my highly anticipated 'return of Tara's top with new and exciting Willow-scent attached'?! I defy any possibility of disappointment!
she had been hungry and now she was feeding
Ooooh! I can so relate to this! New love is like feeding the soul - seperation from the object of your desire is like being lost in the desert but when you see them again, it's as if you could devour them whole, get lost in them, drown in their very essence... :blush I may be over-identifying with the sentiment a little.
The soprano closed her eyes and she could hear the sound of her own blood roaring through her ears.
This is definitely winning the beautiful contest! Actually the whole scene where they are rehearsing the duet is just stunning; the shy thoughtfullness of Willow buying the rose and then being embarrassed by her own actions - something I have done a ludicrous amount of times and learned to accept as an indulgent personal quirk - Tara's reaction was just melt-worthy.
Those were of course several words she thought unnecessarily to herself.
I just loved this! Sooo very Willow and exactly the sort of idiotic thing her brain might say at such an inappropriate time, when really, it would be much better spent in leaning over and kissing Tara. I think we can all agree here. It also makes me have a random thought - I wonder if Willow is a Virgo? Virgo's are meant to be ridiculously anal and meticulous, I think it would suit her personality to a tee! Naturally the fact that I am a Virgo has nothing to do with this. :p
But there'll be nothing left of you when she leaves.
Quite frankly, stunning. This could have summed up her entire mental babble.
And the final epiphany that says everything about being in love:
Who said that you get to be able to cope? That's not how this works.
Ain't that the frigging truth.

Agent Pineapple Darling, my hat is off to you. This was an update well worth waiting for. I am more than happy to sit at your feet and gaze adoringly. If this is the product of a bitter and twisted brain, then I will drink to that!

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Re: Butterfly

Postby hermitfish » Mon Aug 29, 2005 9:48 am

Hi Agent Pineapple Bunny...

I like your premise here. No, I'm not terribly familiar with opera (spent more time backstage with jazz musicians myself) but knowing opera is not particularly important for this fic. The reason: you've fleshed out enough of the interworkings to bring us into the story. That is a very good thing indeed. I think the internationalization of characters and other touches are what makes it unique...and not like so many W/T meeting type stories. But you haven't gotten away from the characters. You've integrated a number of canon type situation and made them flow. It's a good mix. Nice job.

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Re: Butterfly

Postby watty » Tue Aug 30, 2005 6:36 am

I must admit I was a wee bit put off by the formatting in the first update. But this was recommended to me by a couple of people, thank goodness for them, I read it again, and I'm glad I did.

Know the ROH well, know the whole of Covent Garden well (did go to that college on the Strand for years and years and years), I can well imagine this group of singers hanging out in that area. Love how you kept a little of the personality of each, so even with the internationalisation, they're true to their character. I was glad for your warning in the beginning, cos I usually don't quite like it when the characters are changed that much. Personally I try to stay away from the obvious Britishisms like flat, trousers, lift and pram (if ever they have a baby), but it's fine here cos the whole story is set in and around the ROH.

Opera is one of those things I wish I know more of, cos I know it's a whole new world of fascination open to me. I'm following the terminology and the setting, they don't interfere with the story in the least. In fact, I'm very excited to learn all about duets and arias and all the various pieces.

Love how their love of music brings them together. Also love how Willow, despite being so famous, is so into Tara, a relative newcomer. The friendships between Willow, Sandro (a great Italianisation of Xander btw) and Buffy shines through too.

I wonder if Tara already knows she's gay. I spy small moments, like the handholding, brushing her hands on her cheek where Willow had kissed her, and holding onto the rose with such emotion. I think Tara already knows, but it's great that you're keeping her side of the story from us right now.

The whole Willow internal dialogue is priceless!
You’re in love, not to mention deaf and blind with desire.

Isn't it so true? How falling in love can render all other senses stupid?

This is great stuff. Looking forward to more.
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Re: Butterfly

Postby Reallybigpineapple » Wed Aug 31, 2005 3:40 pm

Grimlock72: Nope, ignoring how one feels for Tara is just a lost cause, isn’t it :)
It is indeed the other way around in the opera. In Rosenkavalier, Octavian is supposed to give Sophie the silvery rose on behalf of someone else who wants to marry her. But he falls in love instantly and instead gives her the rose as a token of his own love for her. That’s how I thought it might work this time. Octavian was supposed to give a silvery rose to Sophie, but instead it’s Willow who gave Tara a red rose as a token of her affection. I thought it might work to change their roles around there. Tara knows the opera and therefore knew that Willow meant it is proof of her affection. Tara of course doesn’t know yet if its’ platonic or romantic. But we do, so that’s ok! :)
If you missed the jokes, it’s probably because they weren’t funny in the first place :)
Yup, Willow’ll figure it out alright. Darn tootin’!

Safuega:
Oh, faithful reader, thy question shall be answered in due time, so fear not! There are many chapters to go however, ‘ere it shall be revealed :)

The “sing only with you” episode was indeed supposed to evoke the “I am you know”-exchange.
A: I really like that moment in the series. Don’t we all?
B: I really enjoy parallels to the series in fics, even if they are seriously AU.
C: Far be it from my personality to be in any way original 

Oh wow, what a wonderful description of how utterly wonderful and terrifying love can be.

I’m with you, girlfriend. Love kinda sucks.

Geez, I’m really happy to have added a stressful “must study for my exam with system of different coloured pens” element to your relaxing fic reading… Sorry about that…

Yes, Willow is more like Octavian, I agree. But since Willow had to be a soprano because of her dream in the series of being Butterfly, that had to make Tara a mezzo, otherwise there would be no lovely duets for them to sing. There aren’t many duets for two soprano voices. And with Willow being a soprano and singing the role of Butterfly, she simply had to be Sophie in Rosenkavalier. It’s unthinkable to cast a soprano as Octavian, since that’s rather a heavy mezzo role. It just wouldn’t happen. If one is good as Dalila and sings “Mon Coeur s’ovra a ta voix” (As Tara does in chapter 1) you’re likely to have a suitable voice for Octavian as well. Besides, there is a long tradition of very feminine Octavians, looking nothing whatsoever like a boy, so Tara will simply continue that. Besides, if one would be totally faithful to Rosenkavalier, Willow would have an affair with Joyce when she meets Tara, since Octavian is the lover of a woman twice his age when they meet. Willow and Joyce? Don’t think so…
As for kissing the girl, wel…uurmmph. Clamps hand over own mouth.
The angst will come towards the end and I promise it won’t hurt for long, me not being Joss and all… I’ll give due warning so that you can skip those chapters…
Thanks for your dedicated feedback!

Sam7777: Excellent. I wasn’t actually sure weather I was actually going to use that monologue, fearing that it was a bit on the melodramatic side, so I’m really glad that you thought it worked anyway.
Thanks!

Sarejester: MORE!? More you shall have!! Thanks for reading.

Artemis: I bow to thee, oh Smut Bunny General! Being named a credit to the ministry by the greatest smut writer of all times brings humble tears to a lowly Bunny’s eyes.
The überficness will continue to present itself to your Smuterific Highness on a silver platter weekly, Oh General! And there shalt be smut ‘ere long, as the gods are my witnesses!

:bow :bow :bow :bow :bow :bow :bow :bow :bow :bow :bow :bow :bow

CrazyTaraWitch: MORE!? Then more you shall have!


JustSkipit: I know exactly what you mean. When I started reading Survivor: Ash Island, I wasn’t sure I’d be able to fully appreciate it, since I know very little about reality TV and found it difficult to see any of the characters (with the possible exception of Faith and Kendra) as likely contenders on a reality TV-show. As it turned out, I really loved the story, so there you go! That’s the appeal of AU isn’t it, at least for me. New world, new situations, same people we know and love!
Thanks for keeping an open mind. Let’s hope I can keep your interest alive.


Tarasgirl: Brilliant, I’ll consider us engaged, then! Just tell your girlfriend that you win some and loose some, eh? We’re totally having the ceremony at the Garden… I think Amber should sing at our wedding…
Three courses? Excellent, I’m a greedy bitch :)
My personal favourite phrase in your feedback was “melt-worthy”. I can definitely get used to being called melt-worthy…
I’m glad people seem to think that the monologue worked, because I wasn’t so sure about that myself…
Astrology isn’t quite my cup of tea, but I am a Taurus with Venus in Taurus, so that might perhaps explain my obsession with smut 
Did anyone say drink? Excellent. It will go down a treat with my three courses! Head waiter, I should like one of them to be melt-worthy, please!
Thanks for your encouraging words, Girlfriend! I’ll send the silvery rose in the post.

Hermitfish:
Thank you very much! Me glad you like. Me write more chapters.

Watson: Yeah, I know, chapter one was large with the suckage…
Know the Garden well, eh? That’ll keep me on my toes…:)
To be quite honest, I’m not sure that I could write American English that well, so I decided to stick with what I know. I figured that since they’re living in Britain they might have picked up an expression or two… Hopefully, the characters aren’t changed so much that you wont still recognise them.
My thought about Willow being into Tara was that she'd immediately recognise how talented Tara was, so that she would have a genuine professional interest in her as a singing partner even before she discovers her romantic interest.
Yup, love sucks :)
Thanks for reading

Chapter 7: Vissi d’Amore

For Tara, it was never complicated. She knew what it was and it’s implications right away. The stab in her chest when she realised, not many minutes after seeing Willow from afar the first time, that she would fall in love with this ray of light was dull, unsurprising and familiar like a worn old coat. This was her normal state of mind, she told herself, only a little more. Only a little… But it wasn’t a little. Now she loved Willow desperately, fiercely and unhealthily. Nothing else mattered any more. When she looked into those shining pools of green she thought her heart would stop.

Of course, she never even thought about the possibility of getting her.
She piled her feelings for Willow on top of the other paper thin joys she had managed to hold on to, knowing that they would soon be ripped apart.
Then she would be the one to break…There had never been anything in her life that didn’t break. Music was the closest thing, but that would break soon. Tara knew, because she was counting the days, and they were getting fewer. She tried to tell herself that this was just a little bit of basking in the sun before she disappeared like a rather unremarkable flower that died from the first frost. She realised how bad it was when she felt like throwing up at Bloodsworth’s mentioning of Willow’s new boyfriend.

If she be married, My grave is like to be my wedding bed…

Juliet’s paraphrased words echoed through her head as she struggled to breathe.The sense of relief when she had denied it… Her trepidation when the director started taunting them about holding hands during rehearsals. She just got so terrified that Willow wouldn’t let her any more, but she did. And more… Willow had slept in her bed and made it smell like her. She had lain on Tara’s chest as if it was the most comfortable pillow imaginable. Did Willow really think that she had slept through something so mind bogglingly wonderful? And she had embraced the compliant body and damned the consequences. How badly she had wanted to kiss her when Willow had said that she looked pretty in the morning…

Willow made the colours return to her world and that was dangerous, Tara knew this… But on the other hand, she had known that if would be bad for her to indulge in the music, but she had anyway. Because she was bad… She knew that as well. She had been told this many times. Knowing that the shadows were coming closer, she became brave. She wanted some pretty pieces to hold in her hand, to remember things by when she had gone. That’s why she had held Willows and when she saw that she was frightened. The old Tara wouldn’t have, but as the days got fewer, she felt a greater need to gather something bright and shiny to bring with her. No feeling could possibly have been brighter than holding Willow’s fragile hand in hers. It had felt like singing one of her favourite arias. Like one of those impossibly floral scented texts about things that wouldn’t be hers. Almost instantly she had regretted it. She had regretted allowing herself to feel like that. But now it was too late. Now she was happy. She was so happy that she thought her mind would explode from joy. This would of course make it unbearable to leave. So she tried not to think, just to feel. It had been years since she had felt the urge to fight it. It was very bad that it came back, it really was, but she was just so goddamned HAPPY. The old grey coat was still there, but sometimes she almost forgot…

She was ecstatic that Willow actually seemed to find her constant need to touch her pleasant instead of offensive. Tara had gotten what she wanted only once before in her life. Her desire to be a singer had been so strong they had been, well, caught of guard of sorts, she supposed, and actually let her go and study. She would have gone anyway, even if they hadn’t let her. They had reproached her, of course, but she was way beyond that.

But the thought of getting Willow, of being hers, was just too absurd. Tara tried not to think about it. Sitting on the sofa, she tried to create a solid sense memory to keep. She inhaled the gentle scent and felt it fill her up. Willow smelt so clean and bright. She liked the way the soft velvet of the sofa felt against her neck. With Willows scent invading her senses, she could almost pretend that the velvet was her hands on her neck. Or her lips…

Her fingers gently touched the red rose’s petals. So impossibly soft, like Willow’s skin. She had gotten her a rose… It had been the best moment of her life when Willow brought out the rose from behind her back and it had been red and beautiful and she had given it to her like a lover would. A lover…

She had been certain that the rose was from Willow and not from Sophie to Octavian. Tara was so rarely certain about things… There were no acting skills involved when she sang Octavian’s lines about never being so happy before in her life.


Willow usually dealt with her problems by obsessing about them, trying to be logical. Sometimes she made lists, which used to amuse Buffy to no end. She was rarely a woman of action. Or so she had thought until today. She walked up and sat down next to Tara, willing herself not to kiss that soft, exposed place…

“Tara?”

“Mmmhm?” She said without opening her eyes.

“Let’s be normal!”

Tara’s eyes opened with a startled motion.

“Normal?”

“I mean, let’s do what normal people do after work. We should stop rehearsing and go out to dinner!”

“Eh…I mean, if you don’t have other plans or anything”, she finished a little sheepishly.

“No plans… “

Tara had to work hard at stopping her grin from becoming impossibly wide. Willow wanted to spend the evening with her… Not hidden away in her hotel room, but actually to go out with her. She could be childish and pretend it was a date… She would spend the evening with the woman she was in love with, who had given her a red rose…

Willow put her arm through Tara’s in the now familiar manner as they left the opera house.

“Where do you want to go?” Willow asked as they walked companionably through the Covent Garden.

“I don’t really know London very well, so I have no idea.”

“You’re joking? Surely you have been to London for the opera and things like that?”

“Actually, I’ll be singing at the Covent Garden without ever having seen anything there as a member of the audience”, Tara admitted.

“And frankly, I can’t believe that I’m here… I can’t believe that I’m the one who got to replace Diana Montague…” Tara said, her voice filled with amazement.

And I can’t believe that you’re here with me, her mind silently added to itself.

“You’re the only one who is good enough to replace her!” Willow said heatedly and took Tara’s hand between hers.

She forced herself to let go again.

“Ever been to Wagamama?”

“Wagawhat?” Tara said, puzzled.

“You’re gonna love it!” Willow exclaimed.

I’d love anywhere I got to go with you, honey… Tara thought to herself, hoping for a long walk so that she would get to stay close to Willow for a little longer. In this, she was disappointed. The restaurant was just on the other side of the square. The upside was that there was a queue. A long one. In a confined area. Tara got to stand so close to Willow that it was almost a hug.

“I don’t give a rat’s arse about what kind of food they have here, this is still my new official favourite restaurant,” she thought happily to herself.

To her complete and utter joy, Willow put her hand behind her back and offered it to her. This was the second time they had held hands without the excuse of a rehearsal and she found it difficult to contain her excitement. To her surprise, a young waiter carrying something that looked like a palm pilot and Japanese flag-patterned headband hurried down the line of people waiting and took drink orders.

“Plum wine”, Willow said without hesitation.

“You don’t mind, do you?” She asked Tara as an afterthought.

“They serve you drinks while you’re waiting in line?” She asked in surprise.

“Yes. This is a very effective establishment!” Willow said contentedly.

Tara smiled fondly at the soprano’s love for anything structured.
She felt a little disappointed in how fast the line was moving. It soon rounded the corner to the actual restaurant and Tara’s eyes widened in surprise. The extremely crowded room was filled with people sitting close together in long lines along shared tables. Along the walls were open counters where kamikaze-style cooks were whisking things into cooking vessels at a break-neck speed. Tara very tentatively lent her chin on Willows shoulder.

“This is an original concept”, she whispered in her ear.

“It might look a little crazy, but the food here is great!” Willow assured her, leaning slightly backwards and letting the back of her neck rest lightly on Tara’s shoulder, much to the mezzo’s delight. The intimate moment passed too soon as they were handed their plum wines. The amber beverage was delicious, and, stronger than it seemed, Tara suspected. The space got even more confined as more people entered the restaurant and the mezzo found herself blissfully pressed against her colleagues back.

Willow sent a grateful thought to the person in front of her, who suddenly stepped back to let one of the waiters pass with drinks and forced her backwards and into contact with Tara’s body. Tara then had to put her arm carrying the drink around Willow’s waist so it wouldn’t be in the way of the passing waiter. Without having to wonder how to achieve it, she found herself embracing the soprano. She silently inhaled and felt drunk from Willow’s body scent before even having had more than a sip of the wine. She pretended to be crowded by the person behind her and inched just a little closer.

Oh, darling, if you just knew how you make me feel…How beautiful you look with your head on my shoulder…

Images of what the delicate woman might look like lying naked in her arms made the mezzo drift back to a private and cherished place where her mind lived most of the time.

Willow had opened the Pandora’s Box of her own desire by admitting her feelings for the mezzo. The fire in her body had started when she had held Tara close on her return and had blazed ever since. Her heart pounded mercilessly in her chest when she felt the mezzo pressed against herself. She closed her eyes and tried to imagine what Tara’s breasts would look like cupped in her hands instead of pressed deliciously against her back as they were now. She had never touched another woman’s breasts, but she felt disproportionately aroused at the mere thought of touching Tara. She realised that she wanted all of these people to go away and leave them alone.

Hello, assume much? Why would you think she’s the least bit interested in you romantically? Or physically, for that matter? Maybe she’s just naturally tactile and just likes having someone to rehearse with? Maybe you’re just being a big pervert for thinking about her breasts when she thinks that you’re a good friend? But she held my hand and let me sleep in her bed? Well maybe that’s just what she does with her friends, you don’t know that, do you? Just don’t drink too much and say the wrong thing or kiss her or anything and everything will be fine…

She was shaken from her inner monologue by Tara saying her name. The sound, and the feeling of the sound, moving through the mezzo’s chest sent shivers down her spine. She unconsciously lent heavier into Tara and opened her eyes to see a waiter looking questioningly at her.

“Excuse me?” She said uncertainly.

“Two?” He enquired patiently, obviously repeating the question.

“Two what?” She asked confused, missing Tara’s arm which withdrew from her waist.

“There are two of you? Party of two?” He said very slowly, enunciating clearly.
Willow felt like an idiot.

“Yup, that’s right, party of two, that’s us alright. Just the two of us, on our own…”
Tara effectively silenced the babbling by gently caressing her arm. Willow had to take a swig of her plum wine to bring some saliva back to her suddenly very dry mouth.

Tara felt her spirits soar even higher as they were taken to their places. How easy it was to pretend that this was a date. Actually, she didn’t have to pretend. She behaved like a lover towards Willow, and she seemed to like it. They were acting like lovers with each other… She tried not to read anything into it.

The soprano busied her self with explaining the intricacies of the Asian fusion menu to Tara.

“Ok, I give up! So the starter sometimes comes after the main course?”

“Yes, everything is served as soon as it’s finished.”

Tara just shook her head and smiled widely.

“You order, then. I trust you…”

“Do you want to get a bunch of different starters to share, then?”

“I’m all for sharing”, Tara said, realising that it came out as flirting without her meaning it to.

“Good…” Willow said, all thoughts of food temporarily leaving her mind.

“Are you sure you want me to order your main course as well?”

“I trust you”, Tara repeated.

Her mind simply could not manage interpreting a menu at the same time as the sensory overload of having been so close to Willow.

Willow moved her foot under the table so that their legs touched. Tara moved her foot closer as well so that their legs and feet were pressed closely together. In the noisy restaurant, with cooks yelling at each other in a bunch of different languages and waiters were running between the tables like their lives depended on it, Willow’s last cynical doubt about her ability to fall in love again faded away as she looked at Tara’s face, cheeks flushed from the difference in temperature and the fruit wine.

“A face to launch a thousand ships…” Willow quoted to her self, feeling embarrassed at her own arousal.

“Or sink one Willow Rosenberg”, she thought ruefully, as she tried to avoid staring too adoringly at her colleague.

Tara took a pen out of her bag and scribbled something on the paper place mat. Willow leant over to read it. “Octavian was here”. She smiled widely and took the pen from Tara’s hand. She scribbled “Sophie was here” on hers. She didn’t return the pen. She scribbled something else. Tara leant over to look at it. Willow tried to be discrete about smelling her hair, but was only partly successful in her own judgement.
Tara looked up at her after reading “Sophie + Octavian = true”. Before she had the time to regret it she took the pen back from Willow.

“Don’t think, just don’t stop to think”, she held her breath in trepidation as she wrote “Tara + Willow” and drew a heart around it.

Inopportunely, this was when some of the food arrived and inconsiderately covered the declaration in steaming goodness. Willow wondered if she could trust her eyes, but she had only seen it for a short moment and she wasn’t sure.

Tara was both disappointed and relieved that Willow never read her bold statement. She so desperately wanted to immerse Willow in declarations of love, but this was such a beautiful dream. She didn’t want to risk waking up to face reality. Tonight was for dreaming… Like the thoughts that went through her head of running her hands slowly up those shapely legs nestled in so close to her own under the table, of moving them further up… Of sleeping so near her, hearing her heartbeat and her steady breath…

Looking at the amount of food on the table, Willow realised that she had probably panicked a bit when she ordered.

“Hungry?” Tara said and cocked an eyebrow. Again, she realised just as the words left her mouth that she had managed to make them sound very suggestive.

“Very…”

The response put butterflies in her stomach. How she wished that Willow hadn’t been talking about food…

“Geez, down, girl! At least try to sound like you’re still talking about food!” Willow silently told herself.

Her hands were unsteady as she picked up the chop sticks.

“So, where do we start?” Tara smiled at her from the other side of the numerous dishes.

How about you lying down on the table with me and letting me kiss those lush lips of yours until you don’t remember your name anymore? Willow thought to herself, looking at her hungrily.
“The dumplings are great”, she said, hoping that her face wasn’t quite the open book she knew it usually was.

“Which ones are they?”

Tara looked questioning at the collection of plates on the table. Willow realized they were right next to her hand. She picked one up and extended it across the table. Tara cupped her hand around Willow’s holding the chop sticks and brought it to her mouth.

Why did suddenly the sight of Tara’s lips closing around the food make her think of other activities those lips would be suited for? Why did Tara’s sweet blue eyes suddenly seem like deep pools of sensuous promises? The mezzo made a content humming noise in the back of her throat at the taste.

“I wonder if that’s what she would sound like in bed? Get a grip woman! This is a meal, not a make out session! Unfortunately…” Willow tore her eyes away from Tara’s lips.

“These are great…” Tara said contentedly.

“You’re not eating. Have one?”

Tara caught one between her chop sticks and offered it to Willow, who mimicked Tara’s gesture and cupped her hands around the mezzo’s. When she let go she couldn’t resist brushing her thumb across the silky skin of Tara’s wrist. The mezzo stopped breathing.

Willow had to make a conscious effort to concentrate on the food with her senses flooded with the presence of Tara. She moved her legs so that their knees connected as well underneath the table. Tara’s skin felt so warm through the fabric…

Everything was fine up until Willow noticed that they had forgotten about their green tea. When she raised the cup to her lips, her eyes met Tara’s and she suddenly thought of the two lovers’ tea ceremony in Madame Butterfly. Tara just looked at her, wordlessly, with an intensive gaze. A strand of hair fell in her face, but she did nothing to remove it. Willow swallowed nervously. Then she held her own cup out for Tara, who covered Willow’s hands with her own and brought the cup to her mouth. When she was finished, she lifted her hands off Willow’s and looked at her. Willow turned the cup and covered the mark that Tara’s lips had left with her own and drank from the same place.

In that moment it dawned on Tara that possibly, just possibly, her feelings for Willow weren’t entirely unrequited...

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Re: Butterfly

Postby Katez0r » Wed Aug 31, 2005 3:55 pm

Oh, yay! I love this. I know nothing about opera, even though my grandmother was an opera singer, but you make me want to learn. This type of setting is so perfect for them. I'm all content and fangirly now.
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Re: Butterfly

Postby Safuega » Wed Aug 31, 2005 7:09 pm

Aaaawww this was so sweet. You realize that this lovely update is putting you more into the 'incurable romantic' rather than into the 'bitter and twisted' category, right?

Nice update from Tara's POV. I really liked the green tea part of the update when Willow drinks from the same spot not just from the same little cup. Very romantic way of expressing their feelings by proxy. *sigh* I also liked how you created an atmosphere of intimacy between the two with their measured actions despite the fact that they were in the middle of a crowded Asian fusion restaurant. Way to use the sharing a table with strangers moment to make some body contact! And the 'Octavian was here' thing on the placemat? Really sweet too.

You know, it dawned on me after I wrote the feedback that the musical ability of Willow (a soprano) and Tara (a mezzo) would dictate who was Sophie and who was Octavian, but decided to let you, learned one, explain it. :-D

Finally, 'stressful element to fanfic' reading? Nope, not here. I'm on vacation and have tons of time to vegetate and to research and read interesting stuff before I go back to work in September. I'm also a geek with graduate degrees in Social Sciences and recently Law, so research is my middle name, especially for stuff that I enjoy. :)

Great update. Looking forward to more.

Thy faithful reader,

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Re: Butterfly

Postby grimlock72 » Thu Sep 01, 2005 4:20 pm

Tara must have had a rotten childhood. We don't know much about it but if a child is repeatedly told stuff like "Because she was bad. She knew that as well. She had been told this many times"... can't have been fun. Not exactly she sure how she thinks all her life as it is now will end. I do hope she doesn't do anything radical to get it over with, though having Willow around seems to have given her some additional motivation to overcome her (perceived) troubles in life.

On to the fun stuff; Tara sure fits the tradition of choosing a woman 'who looks nothing whatsoever like a boy' for that role. Would take some mayorly restrictive costume to get that to work out :lol.

Those japanese open-counter restaurants are actually quite fun, but horribly expensive over in the Netherlands. At least you get to properly see your food being prepared, though neither Willow nor Tara payed much attention to that I guess :) I'm all for Willow giving Tara some sunshine in her life, Willow's life certainly could use some Tara as well, heh.

Now all Willow has to do is either confess her never-dying love for Tara or at the very least stay by her until whatever time/holiday Tara seems to fear/dread has passed (without incident of course).

:wave

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Re: Butterfly

Postby sam7777 » Thu Sep 01, 2005 5:20 pm

Flirting over food is always fun and nice use of the "trust you" line.
In that moment it dawned on Tara that possibly, just possibly, her feelings for Willow weren’t entirely unrequited...

Uh yeah.. I'm surprised that they aren't scorched by the heat coming off of one another. ;) Lot's of fun.

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Re: Butterfly

Postby watty » Thu Sep 01, 2005 6:00 pm

Very nicely done. From the depressing (but intriguing, why?) thoughts in Tara's head to the very open date. And I mean open as in the restaurant and the opening of their eyes and hearts.

Returning to Tara's thoughts. Not surprised that it only took her minutes to fall in love with Willow, ties in with canon and Tara's character.
She piled her feelings for Willow on top of the other paper thin joys she had managed to hold on to, knowing that they would soon be ripped apart.

I find that sentence very powerful, the description of paper-thin joys, it's so wonderful. I can't help but wonder like grimmy about Tara's childhood. Why does everything she love get taken away? By other people? By circumstances?
she was counting the days, and they were getting fewer

is she under a timetable? or is this just metaphorical, that she thought it'd end eventually?

Willow herself, also uncertain, but approaching it in a more logical way. You know, this is so true, that you find yourself attracted to someone, but not knowing if they feel the same way and if you even let them know about your feelings you dread commiting an awful faux pas and losing them forever.

Wagamama as a venue for first date? At first glance not such a cool idea. But then
a queue. A long one. In a confined area.

is a good thing ... as is the deceptively easy to drink plum wine, easy to lose one's inhibitions.

Well now, are they on a date? If the two of them think they are, albeit separately, then they are. Their legs touched, didn't they? And Tara basically writing out her love on the paper mat. I'm sure Willow read the "Tara + Willow". The food sharing, the action with the tea,
In that moment it dawned on Tara that possibly, just possibly, her feelings for Willow weren’t entirely unrequited...

awwwwww. And then they leaned over and kisses, right there in the middle of the crowded restaurant, and everyone applauded. That's the next part, right? Right?

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Re: Butterfly

Postby Artemis » Thu Sep 01, 2005 10:00 pm

Wow :x I'm really impressed at the intimacy you've created between Willow and Tara, with nothing more than glances and standing close and touching knees and so forth - such everyday things, and yet they're amazingly close and tender and hot :blush They themselves may have been unsure of whether they were on a date or not, but it definitely seems like their bodies have got the right idea. The two of them standing together in the queue, with Willow leaning back on Tara, that was just... wow!

Tara's thoughts were very sobering - her life has taught her to expect to lose anything that makes her feel good. It's so sad, especially the way she's so resigned to it, as if she's concluded that this is just how her life will be, and doesn't see the point in trying to change it. About her 'counting the days', is that a reference to her career? I got the notion from somewhere (reading Maskerade, mainly) that opera singers have a limited 'career expectancy' much like athletes, and the span of time at which they're at their prime can be quite short sometimes. But not that short, is it? - with Tara only being in her mid 20s. Or is she expecting/fearful of something else interfering with her singing? Surely she can't be kept from pursuing her career if she wants to? Poor insecure Tara. What she needs is some good old-fashioned Willow-kisses :wtkiss And now that she's got the idea that, perhaps, Willow is into her, she can go about getting some :D
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Re: Butterfly

Postby willowspiritus » Fri Sep 02, 2005 11:25 am

Love your story! It was really nice to see this update from Tara's point of view. So sad that she doesnt think someone as wonderful as Willow will look at her twice and so great when at the end she realises that maybe she does! Very nice :)

You have me worried about Tara's family with the whole time's running out theme she has going in her head. I hope they will stay far away ;)
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Re: Butterfly

Postby CrazyTaraWitch » Mon Sep 05, 2005 9:40 am

yay!
this was really good and brought up alot of questions about Tara's past, which i hope will be answered very soon!!!!!
great story, i'll be anxiously awaiting ur next update
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Re: Butterfly

Postby sarejester » Mon Sep 05, 2005 5:04 pm

*Grin*
Yay, I likes what I likes and I likes this,
so please indulge my selfish need for that warm fuzzy feeling your fic gives me,

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Re: Butterfly

Postby spells42 » Mon Sep 05, 2005 5:28 pm

RBP
Hi! I typed up some enthusiastic fb last week but lost it in the posting process. (I think my network dropped out at the crucial moment.) I didn't have time then to re-create it and wasn't sure I could anyway.

Unfortunately I'm still short of time, so I'm just gonna say.... I'm really enjoying this fic! You've given us a wonderful insight into the working world of opera production and the life of the singers. I love your portrayal of our girls: the way Willow is so honest in her inner monologues; their sweet reactions to each other and their dawning realisation that their feelings may be reciprocated; their tentative but increasingly daring (for them) moves towards each other; and even the hints of possible angst to come in Tara's thoughts and her self image.

Can't wait for more. Thanks for a great story.
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Re: Butterfly

Postby tarasgirl » Wed Sep 07, 2005 12:21 am

The Bull and the Virgin are very comfortable together, making this a very natural and easy combination. In fact, it's likely to be a case of love at first sight!
Well there you go! It was clearly meant to be. :flower
I would like nothing better than to have Amber sing at our Wedding! Naturally, I will order the roses - red - in honour of Octavian and Sophie.
I await my silvery rose in the mail and sincerely hope it will be undamaged by flying to Australia...

This was another gorgeous installment in your so far, extremely poetic homage to opera! I love that you chose to use Tara's voice this time, it made for a lovely change. The way the two women think is so different and yet manages to cover the exact same topics, it's wonderful to read.
I loved reading about Tara's acceptance of her love for Willow and how she never entertained the possibility of getting her. Until my girlfriend (she will remain my girlfriend until I make it to Covent Garden :kiss ) came out and we ended up together, every single woman I had fallen in love with had been straight; so I can completely understand Tara's feelings on this subject!
And see, then you go and quote Shakespeare and make it much harder for me to not fall in love with you. Quoting Shakespeare is on my list of must haves in a partner. Well, it certainly helps anyway!
Tara's phrasing when saying that Willow made the colours return to her world is both beautiful and exquisitely sad. So much of her inner dialogue here is cryptic and telling at the same time. I look forward to you revealing the cause of her pain. I also love the way you describe her wanting 'pretty things' and 'something bright and shiny' to take away with her. Moments like that do seem to stand out much clearer than the rest of the world; like the focusing of a camera where all the edges seem much sharper around that one thing in your mind.
And then you made me laugh out loud when she said, [blockquote]I don't give a rat's arse about what kind of food they have here, this is still my new official favourite restaurant[/blockquote]
Heeheehee! :applause
Willow offering her hand to Tara and then the leaning of heads on shoulders...here is your melt-worthy moment for this chapter! This one has personal resonance for me too; I have a very close friend whose physical boundaries are just that lax, she has actually done both of those things to me on several occasions so I can relate to exactly how it makes you feel! She is also drop dead gorgeous but sadly for me, completely straight and with a partner. Still, that whole
She tried not to read anything into it.
thing - I'm totally there. *Sigh*
Loved the reference to Pandora's Box! And "A face to launch a thousand ships." First Shakespeare and now Greek myths?
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Re: Butterfly

Postby Reallybigpineapple » Sat Sep 10, 2005 9:49 am

Hello!

KatezOr:: Hi! Sounds exciting! What kind of things did your grandmother sing and where did she sing them? Opera is the best thing, like, ever, dude :-D
Content and Fangirly? Excellent, just what I was aiming for…
Thanks for reading!

Safuega: Incurable romantic!? Oh my gods! Why did you have to go and say that for!? Now I have to commit traditional hara-kiri in my pretty little garden full of cherry blossoms! Darn it… Right, since you’ve ruined my bitter and twisted street cred… :happy
The place mat thing at Wagamama is a thing I used do with my friends when we go. Seriously geeky. There’s something about those pristine white place mats that call out for defilement!
Aha, research geek? Moi aussi! I have written two theses on Wagner and one on Macbeth, so how’s that for research geek? I google anything that doesn’t run away…
I think Obsessive would be my middle name rather than Research, but I can totally see where you’re coming from…
Here be more for Thy reading pleasure.
Thy faithful writer,
RBP

Grimlock72: Oh, you know, she just wouldn’t be Tara without a little bit o’ rotten childhood… :-D perceived troubles…? Hmmmm… Kapten Klanning says nothing, as you would say where I’m from :-D
As for Octavian costumes, the opera audience is used to girlies playing boy’s parts, so I don’t think anyone actually expects Octavian to look like a real boy, so Tara’s probably in the clear…


Sam7777: Yeah, I know, but I couldn’t have them jump in the sack on day one. That would have been a very short smutfic indeed :eyebrow
Me think fun good. Here be new chapter! No fun, lots of fluff.


Watson:: Why? Stay tuned !

is she under a timetable? or is this just metaphorical, that she thought it'd end eventually?

Aaah… Would I get metafory on my readers? Never!
I promise the angst in this story will be a little like losing your virginity: Not as painful as you thought, over with quickly and probably a bit disappointing after all the build-up :-D
I love Wagamama. So many of the best moments in my life are in some way or other connected to Wagamama, so for me it would be a totally plausible date, actually. Good vibes, that kind of thing. Besides, their tamarind sauce is great...
Of course the next part includes their first intercourse being applauded in a crowded restaurant! :))


The Smut Bunny General:
I bow to thee, oh ….thou.
High praise indeed. You’ve pretty much summoned up what I hoped to achieve with this chapter, so me glad!

Opera singers have a surprisingly long career expectancy, especially for the lower voices (Mezzo, alto, barytone and bass). The great Birgit Nilsson (one of the greates Hildabruns in the Ring of the Nibelungingung :-D ) sang her first performance as the dyer’s wife in Die Frau ohne Schatten when she was 63 (the character’s about 22... )
Nope, Tara’s not worried about her career… But, you know, can’t have Tara without a nice big dose of trauma, or what do you reckon, Joss? (Growling)
Love Pratchett, but as an opera parody, Maskarade kinda sucked…
Don’t think Pratchett knows opera either. Honestly, opera is perhaps the most grateful subject in the world to parody and the best he could do was to shuffle the syllables around in ‘Brünnhilde’? Instead I warmly recommend Anna Russell, who is the only one for opera parody. She’s on CD and so forth. Go listen!
Getting some? Even I was like: Come on!! Stop fluttering about and get with it! My stories kind of take on a life of their own. I don’t seem to have a whole lot to say about it…
Reporting for duty with new chapter, general!

willowspiritus: Thank you, excellent! I can’t actually answer any of your questions, since that would mean closing up shop and going home, basically :eyebrow
Thanks for reading, though!

CrazyTaraWitch:Thank you! Here be fat update!

Sarejester:: One fuzzy feeling coming up, ma’am!

Spells42: Thank you very much! And here it is!

Tarasgirl: Tara’s girl? Sweet, but obviously has got to go once we’re married :-D
Unless she’d join in… Oh my, did I write that out loud!?
Of course we’re meant to be! Opulence meets Shakespeare, what could be better?
The silvery rose is actually made from silver in the opera, so the worst that could happen is that it gets a little dented…
Well, I’m in Sweden, so it’s probably easier if I just dig a hole in the ground and drop it down that way…
I’ve never been engaged to someone with a girlfriend before. Interesting…:-D
After this chapter, I’ve received a series of e-mails looking like they were playing twenty questions: Why? Why!? WHY!? It’s nice that someone just assumes there to be some sort of explanation coming ‘ere the end…
In my mind, physical boundaries are over-rated. But then I wouldn’t know, since I have none myself :eyebrow Lax is nice. Me like lax…
As for the rest: UUMMHHMM. I relate. I’m the Patron (Matron?) Saint of Unrequited Love. Until now, that is :eyebrow
Farewell, my sweet cookie face! Have another cherry!
Thy betrothed.



Notes: I've had a few questions about the titles of the chapters.Yes, they are indeed either the titles of, or lines from, opera arias or other vocal pieces. Some have also commented that they wish they could hear the music. If you can't download, but have a big inbox, let me know, I can send you mp3's if you're interested.



Chapter 8: : Viene la sera

Willow suggested at the end of the meal that they’d go for a walk in the wonderful Indian summer night and have ice cream in the park.

Or perhaps on your naked back? She thought to herself.

She nearly said it out loud and realised that the second round of plum wine might have been a bad idea…

They made their way at a leisurely pace to St James’s Park, walking closely together shoulder to shoulder, arm in arm and totally oblivious to everything else around them.

“Mmm… I’m full… I might not manage dessert”, Willow sighed contentedly.

“Willow, there’s always room for pudding, you know that”. Tara said sternly.

“I know, but my stomach is full of dumplings that some evil person fed me…”

“I totally agree, it’s horrible when people give you nice food”, Tara said seriously.

Without thinking, she brought her hand to Willow’s stomach.

“Is your poor tummy too full?”

Her land landed on bare skin, since Willow’s light top had a tendency to slide up and her trousers rode quite low on her hips. Tara hadn’t taken the idea of bare skin into account and stopped dead in her tracks.

When Tara’s palm connected with skin, the soprano felt a jolt of passion cursing through her body. She wanted to push Tara up against the marble portico and kiss her until she lost her breath. An intense throbbing started in her lower abdomen.

Tara looked down on her hand on Willow’s stomach and tried to will herself into removing it. Instead she moved it slowly, caressing the area just below the belly button.

“Poor Willow-tummy”, she said gently, feeling her own arousal growing with every tiny motion. The silky white skin provided almost no friction for her roaming hand.

The moment was interrupted by a noise.

“Excuse me?” A middle aged man tried to look anywhere but to Tara’s hand on Willow’s stomach.

Embarrassed, Tara removed it as she realised that they were blocking the way for other strollers, standing in the middle of the pavement. Willow’s breathing was laboured as they kept walking. Tara’s mouth had gone desert dry and her legs seemed to be made from lead. She didn’t dare to put her arm through Willow’s again, since it was becoming more and more difficult to not just spin her around and kiss her.

They went into a shop on Trafalgar square to get ice cream, talking about music and every day matters to calm them selves down and regain their composure. Both women’s bodies still tingled with the sensation of the physical moment that had just passed.

“What kind would you like?” Willow wondered. Tara could have said ‘snail flavoured’ and Willow would have complied. It was the new focus of her life to please her.

With you, honey? Every possible kind… Tara thought, looking at Willow’s exposed stomach again...

“Cherry Garcia”, she said decisively.

“Is that your favourite?” Willow wanted to know everything about her, every little detail.

“Yes. Cherry ice cream with a touch of chocolate. It’s a win/win situation. Best ting to come from America, that ice cream”, she concluded.

“Second best thing”, she corrected herself quickly and revelled in the warm smile she got in return for the compliment.

They walked down the Pall Mall to St James’s park and sat down under a tree next to the lake. Fat grey squirrels were gathering food behind them. In the lake, a pair of swans swam by them disinterestedly.
They sat closely together, half facing each other. Willow had folded one leg under her so that she could get closer.

“Look, it’s a weeping willow”, Tara said dreamily as she looked up into the branches.

“Actually, I’m fine”, Willow joked as her eyes gazed longingly on Tara’s lips.

“But you could make me feel even better, baby…”

“Oups, seems like I’ve only brought one spoon…”

She could honestly not remember if she had done it on purpose or not. It was however likely that her subconscious had done it for her.
She put the spoon into the ice cream, scooped some up and proceeded to feed it to Tara. The mezzo obediently closed her lips around it. She made a contented sound at the taste. Well, actually the sound of contentment had more to do with having attention lavished on her by Willow in these romantic surroundings.
She smiled and took the spoon from Willow’s hand and mirrored the motion.

“You’re right. This is a great ice cream…”

Willow wasn’t really talking about the ice cream, even though it was good. She was talking about Tara being great and the whole situation being large with the greatness. The ice cream was already starting to melt in the warm August night.

When Willow brought the next spoon to Tara’s lips, a few drops of it ended up on Tara’s lips. Willow stared at the stray drops. Raising a slightly trembling hand, she softly ran her finger tips along the lush softness of the mezzo’s lips and gathered it up.

Tara’s eyes widened in surprise as Willow put her fingers in her mouth and licked it off.
The mezzo suddenly felt hot and cold at the same time. She had to turn away from the leafy green of Willow’s eyes.

“Spilled some…” the soprano said unsteadily.

She inched a little closer to her on the wooden bench. Her left knee was placed lightly on top of Tara’s thigh. Willow tingled with the feel of the mezzo’s body heat. Her throbbing body made desperate pleas with her to just ask Tara to come back to her flat and stay the night.

“I can’t just say that, can I? I’m still not sure how she feels? What if she doesn’t…?”

She decided that this was the time to start being a little more daring.
She looked into Tara’s eyes, forcing her self not to look away despite feeling self conscious, and put the next spoonful of ice cream to the mezzo’s lips. Tara was leaning closer and hungrily swallowed the offering. Willow knew she had to touch those lips again. She leant slowly forward and ran her fingertips along their softness. As she put them in her own mouth and tasted the cherries she searched for something that would be the taste of Tara, but that was of course too much to hope for without actually kissing her.

“I seem to keep spilling…”

Tara looked at her with feverishly bright eyes and then slowly licked her lips. Willow looked attentively into Tara’s eyes to try to figure out what her reaction would be.

The answer was given more clearly than she had expected. When she moved her hand again, Tara seized her wrist and brought the fingers to her mouth. Willow could hear her own breathing becoming impossibly laboured as Tara opened her mouth and slid her lips down Willow’s fingers. They both moaned softly as Tara’s tongue ran along the length of the soprano’s digits. Willow’s brain stopped functioning. All she could do was feel. It was one of the most sensual things she had ever experienced. Tara’s mouth and tongue were so impossibly soft and warm. She wanted to beg the mezzo to kiss her, but couldn’t bear to risk ruining the moment.

Tara didn’t want to let the delicate hand go. She wanted to kiss every inch of her, to run her tongue over her skin again and again. Finally, she did let go.

“Me too… she said hoarsely.

Willow was on fire. She leant over so as to almost kiss Tara’s ear.

The mezzo’s arm instinctively went around her waist and pulled her closer so that their bodies touched. How would Willow react if she asked her to come back to her hotel room?

“Let’s go to my place, Willow breathed in Tara’s ear, and sing.
The neighbours are away, and Buffy’s with Riley. We won’t disturb anyone…”

Willow didn’t want to kiss her here. She wanted her tucked away somewhere private, where she was for her eyes only.

Tara tried to make a sound, but her throat was to dry.
She cleared it slowly and deliberately. Willow seemed to interpret this as hesitation and looked at her anxiously.

“Tara…?”

“Right now?” She managed after getting control of her voice.

“Yes”. Willow didn’t know where she got this assertiveness from, but she heard it in her own voice none the less.

“Yes”.

Tara’s answer was equally short.
She took Willows hand and got up. They walked in for them uncustomary silence through the park, holding hands. When the reached the Pall Mall, Willow hailed a taxi. The silence continued during the trip to Willow and Buffy’s shared flat. Their fingers were still entwined. Willow’s hand was nestled safely between both of Tara’s.

Willow’s other hand gently stroked the white, soft inside of Tara’s arm. Tara leant her head on Willow’s shoulder. Willow closed her eyes and let the sensations and scents flow through her like water.


“I’ll make some tea. We’ve been out in the night air for too long. We don’t want anything to happen to those wonderful vocal cords of yours, do we?”

Willow said tenderly, putting her hand against Tara’s cheek and letting it slide slowly down her neck. She had become quite brave in her euphoria. She needed a few minutes to collect her self and get her raging hormones under control after the intensity of what had taken place in the park. She revelled in the feeling of Tara’s quick pulse against her fingertips. The mezzo looked up at her, face partly obscured by hair. Willow smoothed the hair back over her shoulder and tangled her fingers in a few shiny strands. Tara took her hand and kissed the palm reverently.

Ok, not doing so much for the “calming down-factor” here…

She reluctantly let go of Tara’s hair.

What if she turns me down? Willow thought in a moment of temporary panic as she made her way into the kitchen.

The things we did today you only do with a lover, she reasoned with herself, as she carefully picked out the cherry scented tea and put it in a pot.

She likes cherries. And bitter chocolate. Now I know something else about her...

Willow smiled an introverted smile and stored this information away in her rapidly expanding Tara database which her brain updated on a very regular basis.

Tara was starting to really panic in the living room. What did Willow feel? What did she want? Was there any chance of her having completely the wrong idea here? She accidentally caught a glimpse of herself in mirror on the wall. Her hair was tousled and her cheeks ridiculously flushed from the hot sun.
Was that ice cream on her cheek?

Willow went out into the living room, and found Tara by the grand piano, unnecessarily studying the score of Rosenkavalier. Willow knew she didn’t need to. She had thought of nothing but this duet for the last week. She hoped that it had been the same for Tara. Hell, she had thought about nothing but Tara for the last week. She didn’t put the tea cup down for her. Instead she extended it holding it with both her hands, to see if she would repeat the motions from earlier in the evening.

Without hesitation, Tara put both her hands on top of Willows and brought her lush lips to the brim of the cup, in an imitation of what had happened at the restaurant, and sipped the hot liquid carefully. She looked up at Willow with heavy lidded eyes when she did it and slowly removed the cup from her lips. She gave Willow the hint of a smile, still cradling the soprano’s hands in her own.

Willow already knew that Tara could make her body catch fire just by being in the same room as her, but this look… It was altogether different. It was private and reserved. The kind of look you give a lover in the bedroom before you rip her clothes off, or between kisses. It was a different Tara and the most sensual thing Willow had ever seen. She was sure her face was an open book.
She turned the cup around, so that the slightly moist mark that Tara’s lips had left was turned towards her. The other cup stood steaming and forgotten on the table. She looked at Tara as she raised the cup to her own lips, drinking from exactly the same place as she had done. The mezzo looked her deep in the eyes as her thumb caressed Willows knuckles. Then she let go and turned to the piano. She struck the right note to get her bearing and turned to Willow:

“Mir ist die Ehre widerfahren…“ To me is fallen the honour of presenting to the highborn bride…

Willow panicked for a moment.

Does she really just want to sing!?

Then Tara took Willows hands in her own. Willow stepped closer to her when it was time for her line.

“Wie himmlischen, nicht irdische…” Like roses of heaven, not on earth…

She looked into Tara’s eyes… She started to relax. This was familiar territory in the midst of this heavenly but strange new assault on her senses. Singing was her strength and safety.

It’s like a greeting from Heaven, it’s already too strong to bear …

Tara moved as close as to almost embrace her and inhaled her scent….

Where and when have I been so happy?

She encircled Tara’s waist and slid into the embrace. Tara’s arms came around her shoulders.

Where and when have I been so happy?

Octavian echoed Sophie’s words. They held each other through the final phrases of the duet. Willow’s voice lacked its usual radiance. She simply found it difficult to breathe being close to Tara like this.

Tara felt stronger than anything she could remember. Willow kissed her cheek. She continued along the finely sculpted cheek bone, placing light kisses on every part of her skin. One of Tara’s hands went around the soprano’s waist, pulling her even closer. Willow felt Tara’s chest heaving agitatedly against her own and continued her kissing along her jawbone. Finally, the need to taste that which smelt so delicious became too strong and she opened her lips and gently let her tongue out to just barely touch the skin. Willow knew that she was crossing a line at that moment.

Tara drew a ragged breath at the touch and turned her head. And then finally… Goosebumps on overheated skin happened, blood racing like waterfalls happened.
Love happened.

Willow couldn’t even have begun to describe how Tara’s full lips felt against her own. There were no words in her head; just sensations in her body. The mezzo slowly parted her lips and let her taste them. It was the most erotic moment in her life so far. Tara’s lips seemed to hold the direct connection to the rest of the soprano’s body. And her body raged and burned...

Tara had turned her head and kissed Willow with a slight sense of panic. She still couldn’t believe that this was happening. Life wasn’t’ supposed to work like this. You didn’t just get what you wanted the most. She held her breath as their lips met. With senses acutely aware she heard in amazement a soft moan against her lips and felt the beautiful pale body lean heavily into hers. A wave of sensations travelled over her skin.

In a flash, her nervousness was gone and was replaced by a sense of wild elation. The most attractive woman she had ever known was physically aroused by kissing her. By kissing HER… Nothing in this world could be greater. She parted her lips infinitely slowly and sensually and claimed what she now knew would be hers.

I knew they would be like the petals of the rose…

Her heart beast so fast she thought it might burst through her chest as she took Willow’s scarlet lips between her own.

Willow feasted voraciously on the soft flesh that had haunted her fantasies. Over and over again she nibbled and tasted the mezzo’s warm and yielding lips. But she wanted more. She craved tongue. She softly let her own brush over the other woman’s lips. This time it was Tara’s turn to moan. She wasted no time in giving her answer. The touch of the mezzo’s tongue made Willow wet and trembling with need. Her hazy brain registered that it was different from kissing a man. It was so velvety soft and compliant but strong at the same time. She felt the slight friction of Tara’s tongue against her own and the difference in texture when she touched the underside of it. The sensation spread like lightning to other parts of her body. She felt like a starving animal. She wanted to push herself against Tara’s body, tear at her clothes, feel her wetness in a joint desperate quest for release. But the overwhelming feeling of adoration made her try to make this most intense of moments last forever.

The voice of Tara’s body had been forced to keep quiet for so long. Now it was screaming out at her to get closer, more… She focused the tiny piece of her awareness that wasn’t preoccupied with feeling Willow’s arms around her, the texture of her lips and the wonderful tongue so lovingly caressing her own, on not touching too much, too soon…
Their tongues withdrew slowly only to seek each other out again and again. And the taste…

“You still taste like cherries”, Willow whispered hoarsely against Tara’s lips between laboured breaths.

“You taste like heaven”, Tara whispered back.

Willow deepened the kiss and felt a rollercoaster rush of arousal in her stomach.

The feel of Willow’s scarlet, agile tongue and busy lips exited Tara like nothing in the world. The soprano kissed like she sang, with a mixture of passionate abandonment and easy elegance.

As a kisser, Tara was in a league of her own.

Or maybe I’m just head over heals in love and consumed by passion…” Willow thought as she deepened the kiss even further. She wanted as much of Tara as close to her as possible.

The moon shone its white light over the roofs of London as time rushed by. Neither woman had any concept of how long they had been kissing for. Time lost its meaning.

What if she’s going to want to stop? What if kissing is all she will want? Tara thought wildly.

When the soprano slowly let her lips slide down Tara’s tongue and sucked hungrily on it, the mezzo couldn’t hold back anymore. One of her hands tangled itself in Willow’s hair and the other went under her top and again felt the naked skin on her stomach.

Willow had always been a quiet lover. By no means unenthusiastic, just quiet. She had never felt the need to groan at the top of her lungs all the time. Until today…
Their collective moans resounded through the room as Tara’s hands reached the coveted goal of naked skin and red hair covering the nape of a delicate neck. Willow leant slowly forward, relishing the moment before she finally got to kiss the nameless place where Tara’s neck met her chin. Trembling, she put her lips to the softest skin she had ever touched. Compared to the texture, her own lips felt rough. As she let the tip of her tongue out to touch it, she knew it was the beginning of an addiction to the ivory beauty of Tara’s neck. Slowly and ravenously she made her way down it. Her breathing got increasingly heavy as Tara’s hand moved in small sensuous circles closer to the waistband of her trousers. Willow used her body weight to push Tara gently toward the piano stool until the back of her knees met with it. She applied a light pressure to her shoulders and made her sit down. Willow straddled her and groaned at the feeling of Tara’s waist and thighs pressed against her own body.

They started kissing again with reddened but tireless lips. Tara took Willow’s earlobe in her mouth and suckled it gently. Willow’s grinding down on her hips testified to her response. Willow ran her fingers trough Tara’s heavy brownish tresses and pulled cautiously. The mezzo leant back against the piano and moaned. Willow leant forward and resumed her exploration of Tara’s neck with the diligence of a scientist who has discovered a new continent.

“Mark me?” Tara said between ragged breaths. The sound was almost a chock in the quiet room.

“Why?” Willow managed to get out while kissing Tara’s wildly beating pulse point.

“So I can look in the mirror tomorrow and know that I haven’t dreamt this…” Tara moaned as Willow pressed into her.

“You won’t need a mark for that, baby. You’ll know it wasn’t from the soprano who will still be attached to your lips and wrapped round your waist by this time tomorrow, if I have anything to do with it”, she whispered as they moved slowly against each other.

Her heart ached at her gorgeous new lover’s insecurity. Looking into the blue eyes to show the burning desire evident in her own, she reclaimed the mezzo’s lips and let go of all self imposed restraints.

Tara ran her hands down Willow’s back, making shivers course through the soprano. Willow pushed the mezzo’s shirt up and pressed her palms against the bare skin. She closed her eyes so that she could focus all her senses on the miracle of human velvet that was Tara’s skin. Her palms felt oversensitive and hot as she moved her trembling hands under her shirt. Her hands sought out the feminine curve of the waist and brushed upwards, touching the under sides of the ivory mounds that she ached to touch. Everything was so soft and made her feel sick with desire. She was trying to take things slow, and not just devour like a predator, but it was becoming impossible. She was usually so good with self restraint, but where had it gone now? The throbbing between her legs made it increasingly difficult to not just push Tara onto the floor and rip her clothes off.

It drove Tara crazy how Willow’s delicate hands moved so lightly yet expertly over her skin. Like she just knew…
When she ran her hand all along Willow’s leg, cupped her backside and pressed her even closer Willow decided that enough was enough. The question had to be asked:

“Come upstairs with me?”

“Do you mean…?” Tara looked questioningly at her with a heaving chest and lips ruby red from kissing.

“Stay?

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Re: Butterfly

Postby cohen101 » Sat Sep 10, 2005 11:42 am

Yay, :wtkiss ! :applause

Will she stay?..think she will.

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Re: Butterfly

Postby grimlock72 » Sat Sep 10, 2005 3:50 pm

So sweet and hot, I do miss my cold-shower-smiley for these occaisions :lol. Our ladies surely seem to be enjoying themselves. Don't why Tara wouldn't stay, she clearly likes Willow :bow Maybe she's a bit insecure but I doubt Willow will mind, heh.

For some reason I thought Buffy and Riley would burst in at the worst possible time. So far so good, long live privacy :)

Neat trick with only getting one spoon Willow :devil Liked this quote as well:
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Re: Butterfly

Postby tcurti3 » Sat Sep 10, 2005 4:35 pm

new to the board. just wanted to let you know that i am really impressed with this fic. the love scene at the end of the last chapter was simply beautiful. can't wait for the next update.
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Re: Butterfly

Postby binky » Sat Sep 10, 2005 5:38 pm

I just got around to reading this from the start and read right through, time I probably should've been cleaning my basement. Much lovelier way to spend a Saturday afternoon. Thank you! Looking forward to avoiding more housework in the near future with this.

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Re: Butterfly

Postby spells42 » Sat Sep 10, 2005 6:15 pm

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As I lay in bed this Sunday morning, pondering the day ahead, the thought came to me...maybe Butterfly has been updated. Now, I'd like to be able to say I sprang out of bed and immediately checked my computer, but I cannot tell a lie ...(well, actually, that would be a HUGE fib, but in this instance I'm gonna go with the truth)..

Anyway, once I'd organised some breakfast I settled down with Butterfly, which was a lovely start to the day. This is my favourite romantic fic on the board at the moment.

At last, the girls are kissing and yet you still leave us hanging by ending the chapter at the move to go upstairs. All I can say is, Buffy better not show up before W/T have safely made it into that bedroom, or there'll be some sort of mental tsunami sweep the world as all the kittens reading this fic go 'Nooooo! You can't do that!'.

Seriously, this is a great update. The way you switch between the POV of Willow and Tara builds the scene for us and increases the tension. It was a good move of Tara's to use singing the familiar piece of Rosenkavalier to allow them to resume their more intimate position... hard to kiss someone who's standing a few feet away. The repetition of the tea drinking ritual was sweet .. a nice low risk way of saying I want kiss you. I particularly liked

[blockquote]In a flash, her nervousness was gone and was replaced by a sense of wild elation. The most attractive woman she had ever known was physically aroused by kissing her. By kissing HER… Nothing in this world could be greater. She parted her lips infinitely slowly and sensually and claimed what she now knew would be hers.

I knew they would be like the petals of the rose…[/blockquote] :flower

There is nothing like the feeling of triumph and wonder when you first know your feelings are returned, and you capture that wonderfully. Hopefully this will give Tara the courage and incentive to fight whatever it is she perceives to be her unhappy fate. Which, btw, I'm dying to find out more about!?!

As always, looking forward to your next update.
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Re: Butterfly

Postby beanie » Sat Sep 10, 2005 8:29 pm

Holy Mother of :thud

That was so intense. Passionately intense. My nose was pressing against my screen as I was reading it intense. I gotta say, I love the way you weave in the singing and the loving together. And having them make out on a piano bench . . . :applause yummay.

“I seem to keep spilling…”


I was just completely dumbstruck by the actions that followed that moment. Sounds so benign, harmless. But really those five words were words of all-consuming passion. Which is very very very yummy.

blood racing like waterfalls happened.
Love happened.


I ADORED the way you structured that. The sentences leading up to it and then the waterfall and love. God it was all aflowing!

“So I can look in the mirror tomorrow and know that I haven’t dreamt this…” Tara moaned as Willow pressed into her.


I like how even in the throes of passion, Tara has that nagging doubt, that insecurity. How it's never really thrown to the wind as is the case in many a story. It makes it much more real in my opinion. Because even when you're all hot and steamy, thoughts wander. Minds wander and everything comes flooding in.

In short, it's beautiful.

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Re: Butterfly

Postby sacinema » Sun Sep 11, 2005 1:48 am

Wow. :flower. That is so wonderful and romantic. The way you described this love scene just made me speechless.

In the beginning I didn't think of reading this story because the idea of the scoobies as singers - well it's slightly unusual. But you got me with the first chapter and so I read everything in one rush. Really nice how you kept Willow and Tara so much in canon and the others, too. And I also like it very much how you put original events from the show in an adapted scenario in this AU-Fic. Like the events of being together as old friends and Xander brings Anja, Buffy Riley and his friends.

The only thing I don't agree is that you plan on bringing Buffy and Spike together. Please, think about it again. For me this is the most unbelievable couple in the show. Spike is at his best when he is the bad boy.

But anything else like I said before: wonderful. Please, keep on writing and I totally love your constant updating. Thanks :clap :clap :clap
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Re: Butterfly

Postby sam7777 » Mon Sep 12, 2005 7:44 am

Oh I love the anticipation!!!
Willow already knew that Tara could make her body catch fire just by being in the same room as her

Indeed. I love the passion between them over dinner and song and soon in the bedroom. Love how you have built up to this moment proceeding from their musical interests to much much more. Also love Willow and Tara referred to as the soprano and mezzo. It all just works. Wonderfully.
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Re: Butterfly

Postby comicchick » Mon Sep 12, 2005 1:43 pm

Hi there!

I'm kind of new to the board and never respond due to being completely shy and feeling as if what I have to say will make no sense and I wouldn't come close to getting my thoughts across on how much I enjoy a story. It's rather frustrating. But I must say, and I apologize if it seems like a small gesture of my feeling towards your fiction (but believe me..it's not), but I need to say WOW! TERRIFIC! EXCELLENT! AWESOME! BRAVO!! I absolutely love this story. You are doing a terrific job and I eagerly wait for new postings. Yeah...absolutely love this story.
I must say that the latest post with Willow and Tara FINALLY kissing was the greatest. I read it...and then read it again...and then read it some more. The way you wrote them finally letting their guards down and going for broke and giving in to their feelings....it was great. I think on some level we've all been in that situation and can totally relate to it. Granted, not as awesome as their situation, but on some levels.
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Re: Butterfly

Postby VixenyTarasHot » Mon Sep 12, 2005 3:07 pm

man. very rarely do i actually get turned on by reading on here.. but this is one of the few that have gotten me worked up. I could totally feel the tension and anticipation, and heat, and everything.. like they would be feeling it. And i really have no knowledge of opera and really wouldnt even be interested in seeing one, but you've got my attention and have so far held it with this story. not just the sexiness but their chemistry and their passion for the music and all of it. very well done indeed.

I plan to read more and hopefully soon :D
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Re: Butterfly

Postby watty » Mon Sep 12, 2005 5:43 pm

This is getting better and better. The story and your writing and the UST and its resolution. It's just one kiss, yet your build-up is handled so beautifully. You've captured the "buzz" that you feel when you're first falling in love and the first electric physical contact. It's not a cliché. I was at the edge of my seat throughout the walk and the ice-cream eating and the going back to Willow's place.

Lovely framing of the drink scene, a nice echo of what happened at the restaurant. Just a small gesture, but with so much meaning.

And then finally… Goosebumps on overheated skin happened, blood racing like waterfalls happened.
Love happened.

Not sure if the single line spacing was deliberate but I love the transition and how this was the moment, the moment they should celebrate as the point where they know of their love.

“You still taste like cherries”, Willow whispered hoarsely against Tara’s lips between laboured breaths.

“You taste like heaven”, Tara whispered back.

This? Was simply ... hot.

Good work, looking forward to the next part. Surely Tara will stay? :P
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Re: Butterfly

Postby ShyTemptress » Mon Sep 12, 2005 6:04 pm

More more more more more more more more... more more more!!!
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