Zampsa1975 I love your feedback - full of hope! I think the new touch-y feel-y relationship is just getting started; lots of room there for those two to grow. As for Sheila and Buffy... only time will tell there. One thing that's for sure, coming out never goes the way you expect it will; there are always surprises. (Even if the surprise is that it happened pretty much how you thought it would go, if that's not too much of a contradiction.) Suffice to say, it's just something Willow needs to go through to become her true self. Hopefully you'll enjoy the journey. Thanks so much!
The Best Name On The Site Hallelujah to revelations after 53 chapters! Sheesh, took them long enough. And yeah, it's more or less a month, with I think the bulk of the story covering two weeks time. (I haven't checked the timeline in a while, but that seems right.) Thanks re: the sleeping child. He's such a good boy, even though it seems like he can take or leave naps at the moment! Sounds like you have your hands full with kids, too! I still find it funny that in all likelihood, in fifteen years or so I'm going to be working to wake him up rather than get him down to sleep. Very funny, Mother Nature. Thanks so much for the kind words and please enjoy the next bit.
FIRESIGN Thanks so much Cin! I really appreciate the encouragement and kind words!
Sanpfa Aww, lurve is in the air! That's very cute, thanks for taking time out from the mushiness to read this little tale!

I like to think that some of Tara's "awakening" is her finally hearing the chorus of Neverland readers shouting at her. Thanks so much.
taranwillow4ever Thanks so much, I'm so glad you feel like their thoughts and feelings are resonating. That means a lot. And don't I know it about blinking and him being a big boy! It already feels like that sometimes... /sigh
Codyteddyh Time being the operative word! (Both theirs and mine!) Thanks so much.
SylverMaki Hehe that's some squee! One more day of Straight Willow indeed then it's on to the Sheila/Buffy talks; I think Willow hopes for your scenarios too! And I think it's safe to say there will be several lengthy Day in the Park updates. I very selfishly want to experience that day too! I like the way you put it too, very funny. Ah, love. So wonderful, so miserable.

And big blushes. I'm really flattered, truly. Thanks so much, I really appreciate you reading. Please enjoy the next update!
Krokador Wow, thank you so much. That's so mind boggling and awesome that you think you'll find inspiration in this little tale! That's one of the best things about Pens; I know that I've been inspired by the other writers here (though it's still hard to believe something I've written can do the same). I'm glad you're still invested in the story despite the many years it's taken to write and the long breaks in-between. Mea culpa, and many thanks.
Thanks re: the characterizations. I think one of the things that's most important to me when I write is that the characters be as real as possible. Of course, it's always going to come up short, there's only so much you can do but I try to remember that everyone has their own motivations, concerns, reactions, etc. that are ingrained in who they are, and that I'm writing that, not for an audience's reaction, etc. It's not always convenient, but, I think stories should be character-driven anyway. I always think, even if I wanted to I couldn't write them kissing any sooner than when they actually will because it wouldn't be realistic, it wouldn't be true to who they are, true to how they fell in love. I don't know, I've felt since the beginning that this story is not something that I've dreamed up but something that I've discovered, you know? I can't make them do anything, and if I did try and manipulate a certain emotion or action it would probably feel (and read) really out of place.
Re: the other characters, again, I just try to remember that they have their own lives, and that Willow and Tara are not the center of their worlds. They have their own feelings, etc. and aren't there to move a plot along. Their interactions should reflect that, and I try to stick to that. Re: the details - you're probably right. I know for me I like to read that kind of stuff because, while I know how to make a cup of coffee, I'm interested in how Tara makes a cup of coffee, you know? Is she concentrating on the task at hand, or just doing each action on auto-pilot as she is off in dreamland? Does she do the same thing every time or does her routine get mixed up if she's mulling over something? Does she buy cream special or just use whatever milk she has around? I don't know, if it was going up for publication I'm sure half of the story would be cut, but since I'm writing this for fun, I figure I can get away with indulging some of my own interests.

Re: typos, etc. - that's what I get for not having a beta! And haha about buying it as a book. Such a bizarre thought, I almost can't imagine. Seems wrong to think of it being anywhere but the Kitten on the blue background... (or on Uber and the black!) And shoot, if anyone can go 100 chapters without a smooch... let's just hope it's not me! Thanks so much!
vampyregurl73 Thanks so much! I love to see the dancing elephants! The end of Straight Willow is nigh, though probably not as nigh as most people would like. (Blame me, I'm long winded!) But definitely more nigh with each update. I totally understand re: comparing coming out experiences; it's really hard not to. I think Willow's coming out, both with her mom and Buffy, are going to be fairly recognizable to a lot of Kittens. It's hard, and anyone who has gone through it is a brave soul in my eyes. And driving! Good lord. Can't even imagine. Seems so far in the future but I know it'll be here faster than I like! Thanks again, I really appreciate the feedback.
Mrs. Pineapple You said it, lots of thinking going on in this chapter. Things are changing and it's high time that the girls move into that next phase. It's like when the flight attendant tells you to power down your electronics for descent. It's imminent, now you just gotta wait for touchdown. I'm glad you liked Buffy's part. I hesitated including it, because this story has been like 99.9% Willow and Tara POV, but I really felt like it was important to include, because Buffy's thoughts are a) in part, Tara's thoughts like two months ago and b) a glimpse at what Willow might be encountering when she comes out. Go Tara indeed - she's really grabbing on and running with things. I liked your thoughts on the quoted text, especially re: Tara's confusion over where Willow stood. Crazy how closely fear and love are sometimes. Thanks so much, I really appreciate it. Enjoy the next part!
fhiwda Thanks so much! Hopefully you'll enjoy Willow's last day as a "straight" woman. She definitely has a lot to look forward to!
inspiron Sorry to tease, totally not my intention! I'm glad you felt the last bit was necessary though. It felt like the rules needed to be re-established, you know? Tara is indeed cluing in and starting to really wonder. And Buffy, I'm very relieved that you liked that. She is totally in limbo, and I wanted to show how far off she is because she's missing a few key pieces of information. I'm glad you liked the mentions of previous events. I really do that for myself, more than anything, to reorient and touch base. I hope that it helps keep the characters consistent and honest, as well. And, that's how I remember things, how I experience life, by remembering and reliving. Seems right that they would too. Tomorrow (their Saturday) is indeed a big day, and you're so right to think it'll be 10 chapters (at least, cause we alllllll know I'm wordy and meandering). The way Willow has coming out planned is dinner with her mom on Saturday and picking Buffy up from the airport Sunday, so two different encounters. And wanting Xander to show! I think you might be the only one out there that wants that!

Thank you so much for the incredibly kind words.
Agilulfa Yay for first posts! I hope you stick around and post many, many times; the Kitten board is such a fantastic place, and there are so many great writers here. I hope you enjoy their stories, too. I'm so glad you liked the last update and thanks so much for the very kind thoughts! I'm really, truly flattered. Please enjoy the next bit!
shiraz No need to apologize, I know how it is when life goes nuts. If only life would let us take a time out every now and again to do the things we wanted to do, not just the things we needed to do! I'm glad you're glad that I'm not rushing. I couldn't even if I wanted to, Willow and Tara just won't allow it. This is their life, and they're living it, damnit.

Thanks so, so much, I really appreciate you taking the time to drop by. Means a lot.
mstrykl Thanks so much, and so sorry for the slow pace. I really wish I had more time to write; I get so happy when I can sit down and devote time to this story, however, time is just something that I am in very short supply of now. That said, I hope I'll be able to get more done soon. Please enjoy the next part!
SickSadGirl Happy birthday, though very belated indeed. Your thoughts on Buffy are so spot on. She definitely is missing the Willow side of things, and she is trying so, so hard to see what is going on. I truly believe her heart is in the right place, even if her conclusions aren't! The flirting will definitely continue; no turning back there! I hope you enjoy what will surely be a long weekend of updates. I don't want to miss a thing. Hopefully that's okay with everyone else. Thanks so much!
WillowRulez Buffy, Buffy, Buffy - so close, yet so far away. And Tara is indeed cluing in, which, I think everyone here is happy about! (Took her long enough, right?) And as for the coming out - it's coming up... you know... eventually. (Hopefully not too much of a wait though, I'm as eager as everyone else.) And another request for info on that day in the park? Your wish is my command! Thanks so much!
wayland Thanks very much. Re: feedback, I really enjoy the conversation, it's a lot of fun to sit down a consider everyone's thoughts. I just hope I do them justice! I totally agree with you re: how screenwriters do it, and agree so much falls on the actors shoulders. It must be so frustrating to write something great and have it totally botched by a bad actor. So exactly about Buffy; she's going to definitely feel hurt once she finds out what's going on. I think it's safe to say there will be bumps along the way as this story winds down. I mean, that's life, right? When do things go smoothly and wonderfully all the time, especially when dealing with something as life-altering and controversial as coming out? I think the thing that's important for me though is that it's realistic, that their experiences fit them as characters and fit in the journey that they're taking. Or, something less cheesy. And you're right, they do get knocked down but keep hoping for better days. I think that's love. Thanks so much Clare, I'd love to hear your different endings some day!
JustSkipIt I'm very glad that you liked the last update. And yeah, I think I've had more "comebacks" than Cher at this point. I always feel awful when I look at the calendar and think, holy crap, that much time has gone by!? However, it is what it is at this point, you know? I just keep plugging away with the knowledge that this story will be finished before my son starts college, hell or high water, damnit!

(And yes, he's doing great - still proud mom over here.)
And you are so spot on re: the "in love with Xander" lynchpin. It's reality for both of them (or for Buffy now, at least). You are so right re: asking the question "is this true?" I think Tara is well on her way to doing that, but Buffy has no reason to, you know? Willow just simply hasn't given her enough information for her to consider that "huh, maybe Willow is gay." Willow, despite her heart-shaped eyes for Tara, is severely closeted. Maybe not to Sheila, who she's been priming for years, but to Buffy, I think whole-heartedly she is. I think Buffy thinks she's probably a little frigid, burned by Xander and Oz, but just cautious about men. She's in for a big surprise, that's for sure.
I always imagined Buffy the Slayer being insanely bored by her nighttime duties, so wanted to kind of bring that over here with her waiting out the morning. And Buffy and Dawn, I love them together, so wanted to get at least one more interaction in. And yeah, that day in the park. It's going to become more and more in their minds. It was the beginning for them, hard for them to not constantly look back. Plus, there are some flashback updates ahoy. Re: Willow's coming out order; yeah, that's Willow's order, what she has planned in her mind. Whether it happens that way is another thing. Tara is the wild card, for sure; Willow can't control everything, as she may see, despite her best laid plans. And as for Willow, I can guarantee that she's never considered that Tara might be hurting over this. It quite literally has never crossed her mind. I think she thinks that two weeks ago, she picked up her game and within the last couple of days Tara has started to think, 'huh, she's kinda cute,' and that Tara's flirting is fun banter, and not a sign that the girl is falling in love (or has fallen in love) with her. It's incredibly naive, and I think goes to how focused she is on her own situation. (I think Willow has an inkling, there have been glimpses of an understanding but she isn't willing to really critically look at it, not until she's out, and even if she did she'd probably see it as exciting, not potentially hurtful.) And prize for the lady, you pretty much wrote the next update in a sentence.

I'm nothing if not predictable. Thanks Deb, so, so much!
dtburanek Welcome back yourself! I owe you some feedback, I believe. Was thrilled to see the "fairy" tale resumed.

Thanks so much, both for the kind words and your own update!
marlaman22 Amen, things are definitely moving along - now someone just has to be brave and say it! Thanks so much!
BuffyFan4ever Thanks so much. And if you love stories where it takes forever for them to get together you are definitely in the right place. (Cause you know, I'm slow.) And re: the ginny oil slick comment, I so totally laughed, before feeling sad about the real situation. Ain't that the truth. Thanks again, and please enjoy the next update.
DaddyCatALSO I mentioned to Deb earlier that Tara is a wild card, but I think Buffy is even more of a wild card. She can be the most well-meaning person in the world but if she tries to help she'll probably stick her foot in it somewhere. Whether she will remains to be seen! Thanks so much!
LonelyTara On the one hand, I'm sorry that you were in pain when you started reading this little epic, that's certainly no good, however I'm so relieved to read that things seem to be looking up now that you're all caught up! If the good stuff keeps up, I'm thrilled that this story could be a good luck charm. And thank you for the very flattering words, I'm blushing over here. I'm just glad that it's resonating, you know? Best of luck to you and the missus and please enjoy the next bit.
PalomaMartinBR Thanks for understanding Paloma! And while it would be cool to brag, I'm not sure I want my very curious son to read this little tale, no matter how old he is at the time. It's a bit too spicy!

I'm so glad you liked the last update. Definitely starting to see the truth, even if in bits and pieces. I hope you like the 'day-after-talk and the LDAASW!' And yay on maybe writing a new fic, that's awesome. That's why I keep coming back to Pens, I love that we're always sparking new work in each other. Thanks again, and enjoy the next update.
ssc1980 Oooo Owl City, jealous some more. Really, I'm just jealous of anyone who gets to see live music; it's just not happening for me for a while, not until my son is a little older, at least. And wow, third re-read! Wow. And thank you for the compliments, I'm so glad you feel that way. And don't be sad, knowing me and my need to write every last detail of their lives it'll be another six years before I get to type the words, 'the end.' (But seriously, let's hope it's sooner than that!) Thank so much!
irishgrl3 Hola anna! Summer has treated me well, you? Buffy definitely is a big question mark - she can go in some many different ways. I think Tara is more confident in her growing thoughts about Willow's not-so-straightness... but whether she's confident to admit those thoughts to Buffy is another matter, especially if Buffy were ever to insist that no way Jose, Willow is s-t-r-a-i-g-h-t! I'm glad you like seeing Tara in Willow's dreams. Willow desperately wants the dream world to be real and she's so close to having that as a reality. Just needs to take a few brave steps before it can happen. Thanks so much, truly appreciated.
SMGOVAN Welcome to the board and wow, thanks very much! I hope you check out some of the other great stories here - there are really great writers here, and a lot of great AU stuff out there. (And no worries - CAPS ARE FINE SOMETIMES.)
truck_driving_magic_mama Thanks so much, I'm glad this little tale could help make exam week a little more bearable! Buffy and Tara are definitely diverging in their thoughts about what's going on with Willow, that's for sure! You know, I can't believe it's been six years. And wow, when you laid out your life in relation - I seriously said to my wife, "Jesus, I really need to finish that story!" It is so beyond crazy is it bananas. Thank you Melissa, both for the very kind words and the reminder that this story has been kicking around for a loooong time!
Phoenix Another reminder that it's been six years! Oh man, so embarrassed. I so totally thought when I started writing this thing that it would be six months, tops to get to the end. Then life slapped me around a bit and here we are. I'm married, I have a baby... I didn't even know my wife when this story started - so crazy! I'm just so glad that the story has brought some happiness. That is so insanely gratifying to read, thank you. And wow, favorite chapter? Things are indeed shifting out of neutral; they are definitely looking at each other differently. Low angst in this chapter, though a warning that there will still be angst before the story is over. Coming out is hard, you know? But thank you, thank you for the very kind words. I'm so flattered and hope that you enjoy the rest of the story. Thanks.
wimpy0729 Wimpster! As I told a previous poster, I think I'm the queen of comebacks these days. Sure, I may disappear into the ether for a few months (year?!), but damnit, I always pop back up. I'm so determined to finish this story! (And another driving mention - shush! Too soon!) Thanks re: the update. I'm so glad you liked that paragraph. Haven't we all woken up like that at least once? I love writing those moments, trying to describe what it feels like to do something as simple as waking up. It makes me happy, and I'm glad you liked it. And Willow is coming out in a jiffy... Neverland jiffy-time, mind you, but jiffy nonetheless!

Thanks so much!
pipsberg I think I should take naps more often.

Thanks so much for the very kind words, and no worries at all. As I've said before, the only person busier than me is you! I'm really glad you liked the update. I like what you said about Buffy - I imagine her being a very complex person; she always seemed that way to me on the show. Ditzy but smart, strong yet weak, etc. and it's fun to write. I'm glad you also liked the girls' growing realizations. The coming out is nigh (as a previous poster said), and I like your thought that even if it is rough it's necessary. It's time Willow admitted who she is, you know, for herself more than anyone. Thanks again, means so much. xoxo
Naeryn Two years? Sounds like you had a me-sized vacation! So glad to have you back, truly. I really wish I could claim credit for teasing but I'm not clever enough to be that kind of writer! I see writers talk about planning angst or a certain emotional reaction and I just think, how in the hell do they do it?! I just write what feels natural for these two, how it seems their life is unfolding. As I mentioned earlier, I don't think I could make them do or feel anything they didn't want to; these girls are doing their own thing, damnit, and I'm just writing it down as it happens!
Thanks re: the Morgan awkwardness. I didn't want anyone to be "the bad guy" but I did want to highlight how hard it must be for closeted Willow to watch what may happen if she kept closeted. If that makes sense? I'm glad you like how it unraveled. And your feelings on Willow's coming out, especially to her mom - I think Willow is starting to feel that way too. Just get on the other side and see where you stand, you know? Thanks very much, both for the kind words about the story and for the family well-wishes!
edob Aww, shucks. Thanks!
bluewillowwitch Sorry to tease, definitely not the intention, though I'm glad you seem to like! And I'm glad you like that it's taking a while for them to get together. I couldn't rush it if I wanted to. Thanks so much, and please do enjoy the next part.
LittleBit Do'h for no notification, though yay for you seeing it now! Thank you so much, I'm so glad you liked it. Tara is finally getting a clue but you're right on, jumping in with both feet is insanely vulnerable. And I'm glad you like how Willow is evolving. Thank you so much - please enjoy the next update!