It's Secret Crush Monday MKF 9/02

[urnofosiris]

I do have a crush right now. I have crushed on my naughty nurse. Not in love like I remember it to be, but I must admit to a crush. The signs are there, when she worked I was happy to go to work, when my shift ended and she was there I would hang around. She has a sadistic wicked sense of humour which I love, she sends me disgusting emails, she tried to strangle me twice and I let her put an IV needle in my arm. Oh who am I kidding, this is true love if ever there was such a thing.

If only hell would freeze over...

[ruby]

I have a secret crush on my yoga teacher. She is beautiful, kind, and very bendy.

Not that I've spent too much time thinking about it. The bendy part.

[BytrSuite]

Ooh, bendy. Ahem.

Yes, xita, several girls on the board. I think there are many more who just never say anything.

And some boys have crushes too from the looks of this thread.

[darkmagicwillow]

Crushed garlic...I didn't know we were talking about food here, even one as essential to life as garlic.

Bendy yoga teachers...definitely something to add to the "what's my fetish" thread, especially as I'm missing my yoga class tonight.

[quarian]

hmm, secret crushes.

Few years back, I had a crush on this gal at school. We're totally different types but somehow ended up hanging together with a mutual friend and she was/is just gorgeous. Delicate cheekbones, slim, beautiful eyes etc. etc. She had a gf outside of school at the time. And somehow we drifted..

Last I heard she's with a guy now and I saw her reading at a table, I was thinking to myself, phew, I am uncrushed now..lucky me and she doesn't seem to remember we used to hang coz we never even say hi anymore. She looked up, made eye contact and gave me this smile..floored me. But yeah, really, I'm over it..lol!

And then there was my professor, erm, totally straight (it came up in conversation once) she was in early 30's, a few years ago, we spent a lot of time together in her office, she was so nice and I needed someone at the time.

Everytime she gave a lecture, the front rows of seats would be packed (unprecedented)..with boys. Anyway, once she sat opposite me in class and erm, flashed her underwear (unintentionally) and sometimes with those loose shirts she wore in her office, she would lean over for something, I would blush, study the ceiling..

Anyway, she left, she's very much a high-powered mover-shaker in a huge company now but we meet up like twice a year.

So..currently crushless unless you count a certain freckled redhead.

[Taras Shadow]

Ok Kitties. This is the story...*clears throat*

It starts back seven years ago when I was twelve. I had a crush on this one girl. She was so sweet and kind, and she liked the same things I did at the time. We were close friends, and we'd share stupid little secrets, but to us, they were like...the world's most precious information. But she moved away because of her parent's divorce, so that was sad.

At thirteen...I was crushless, until I met this young girl, a year older then me. She looked beautiful, so...lonely though. I was the first of the whole school to introduce myself, (not that she was weird or anything) people didn't know what to say to her when they saw her. Her stomach looked so bloated. So I walked up to her one day and introduced myself. She looked a little skeptical, thinking I was a rich school girl wanting to throw in a low blow. But she smiled and introduced herself, Leah. I found out that same day, she was pregnant, and her life story. Made me want to stay with her forever.

Now, this is where it get's quite interesting. Fifteenth birthday comes along,and I have, *gulps* a bf...hehehe. But Leah lived with me and my family with her baby. And that same night, on my b-day, she kissed me...like right on the spot. I melted, and no, I did not pull away. She was my secret crush...since I was thirteen.

Now, I am with her and happy. But I do have secret crushes...can't help those damn crushes right? So...here it goes...Amber Benson has to count. There is this one young woman, she's great, I won't say her name...just in case...

But I have Leah now, so I'm happy. But secret crushes will always be around...whether you like 'em or not.

~Holly~

Show me where to touch youTara-It Ain't Fickle

[MadeinNZ]

I think this thread should be retitled "I used to have a secret crush but today I reveal the name MKF". Cause I read all these wonderful posts and by the end I'm dying to know who it is.

[fallingstar]

I wasn't going to post on this thread but She was there again this morning.

There's a woman who rides the same subway I do (she's in my car about two-three days a week during my morning commute). Extremely tall, perfect figure (too much for a model and too little to be maintained without serious exercise or a seriously high metabolism), dressed to accentuate but not be obvious, a mane of dark hair (when not pulled back into a professional bun, high cheekbones, large eyes, full lips, just a hint of shadow and blush, every feature perfectly chisled without being too sharp. She carries herself with absolute confidence (the way I attempt to but inevitably think I fail due to inherent clutziness). The first time I saw her on the platform I felt like I had walked into a wall the shock was so palatable. I stood there and stared (while my mind was bouncing back and forth between absolute dazzlement and screaming at myself (you're staring). So far as I can tell, over the past year we've been riding together, she hasn't noticed me (or wasted more than the usual glance you give other riders to assess your surroundings) but she certainly has impacted me and my office. My demeanor in my office is definely lighter every morning I see her (and my staff just think I had a good night). Good thing we've never spoken or I'd easily make a complete fool of myself (or worse, discover she's straight and ruin all my little three subway stop fantasies).

As a side bonus, I'm much more tolerant when I catch somone staring at me on the subway (If I do it, how can I mentally castagate someone else for it).

[Dumbsaint]

Okay. Kitties... It's time for me to come clean.

I know the identity of the secret crush Kittens. They are near and dear to my heart. And other parts of me, too.

It's... Gertrude and Trevor. Forever may your love be as deep as the boundless well of whoredom that dwells in the soul of the Kitten.

[SlayerSydney]

My first secret crush was on my college roommate. That ended up being my first relationship with a woman. I guess her secret crush was me! Worked out pretty well don't ya think?

My secret crush now is actually one of the staff members I supervise. I've had to work very hard not to show favoritism! But, I suppose it is no longer a secret crush because I told my gf about it. Stupid me. Now she constantly teases me about it. Which I guess is good because now I don't feel as intense about her as I once did.

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MichelleBranch:"And when I catch my breath, it's you I breathe." ---Everywhere.~~How I feel about my gf after writing this post!

[ruby]

fallingstar, I have a subway crush too. We get off at the same stop, and today I figured out that she gets on just one stop after me. It's astonishing how often we're in the same car. How do you not stare?

Picture Avril Lavigne, but with blonde hair and close to 6 feet tall. Grrr.

[darkmagicwillow]

I don't use subways enough to have a subway crush, but I always meet the most amazingly beautiful women waiting at the baggage carousel in the airport. I don't know if it counts as a crush as I never seem them again, but sometimes you're there for quite a while, especially when they lose your luggage. The last time was in Atlanta on my way back from Milan. I'd noticed this Italian girl with beautiful long black hair and a classic Roman acquiline nose ever since getting off the airplane. Initially, it was because her handbag mewed at me!

I turned around and saw a cute kitty face looking through the mesh opening of her bag at me, then I looked up and saw [b:7ce9a426f7]her[/b:7ce9a426f7]. Somehow we made it through Customs at the same time, despite taking different routes, and ended up at the baggage carousel at the same time. We waited until we were the only two people left, then we waited some more. Finally, she turned and asked me what I thought happened. I didn't have much of an idea so we went to talk with some airport personnel and found that our baggage was back in Italy.

I never saw her after that as we went to different concourses for our connecting flights ... maybe I should have changed my destination. It would have been educational. I knew at least few Italian phrases by then and I'm sure she would have been a good incentive to learn more.

[frau rosenclay]

I had a secret crush all through photography school, on my friend. I would always model for her, and she for me. I never had the guts to tell her, this was when I was 18-20 years old. There was something about her, I always would do whatever she asked, and I am usually a very independant, non- following type of woman.

Anyway, she moved away, and when she did I felt like a part of me left too. And all of this beautiful love was never expressed, I never expressed it, and what makes it even more sad is that We were both aware of it, I know this now. It was subtly under lying our every talk, every look. She was beautiful and intense, and I have never loved anyone how I loved her, we still talk. I randomly ran into her at a coffee shop a few months ago.

We were both visiting the same town, the town we went to photo school together in. And I realised how much i have missed her, and i felt all of the emotions back in my body, fresh, from my first look at her. And she was wonderful, she was so full of love, but we still did not go there. And right now She is in nothern California, she is studying to be a director, and I am in Southern Ca, acting, we are not in the same area at all.

But we promised to make beautifull art again together one day, and one day, I hope I can tell her how I feel about her, or how I felt, or whatever. It is important.I believe that you should honor your emotions, not hide them, no matter how hard they are to face. I learned to say what I mean, and mean what I say. I hope to have you in my life again, my love.

[Mrs Vertigo]

Frau rosenclay thats well, sounds not so much a crush and more of, yknow, the big ol L word. Holding my fingers crossed for you.

And by the way, a total LOL at the name. Its awesome.

As for myself most recently sporting a tiny, harmless secret crush on a blue-eyed English gal. Shes intelligent and cute beyond anything that could possibly be legal. And she has an accent. *shiver*. And no, its not you, Ruth. And she looks just like Tara when she wears her hair down. Seriously. My best friend brought it to my attention when he started singing Im Under Your Spell every time he caught me gazing dreamily at her...

But, yknow, Im not her type, anyway. In the sense of not having a penis. Oh well . But Im still enjoying this crush immensely. Its so I danno, cute? I actually blushed on occasions. Didnt even know I could.

[darkmagicwillow]

Today as I was swimming, I realized that I do have a long term crush. I just never thought about it that way until reading this thread.

Every week I see her, but blind without my glasses, I've never truly seen her. Just waterproof lenses and her face a mystery. She could be 20 or 40, I can't tell. She's long and slender, sleek and graceful, a dolphin in the water. Her every flip turn perfect, she can swim a fast 50 meter butterfly. She's strong and fast, with broad shoulders and long legs, but I'll never know her name.

[ChaoticBliss]

i had a crush on a starbucks barista once. she was so sweet, always said something that made me smile. the occasional free drinks were nice additions to the eye candy.

come to think of it, i had a crush on 3 out of 5 of the baristas that worked there at the time. lol. *shrugs*

[frau rosenclay]

Hello Mrs Vertigo

Thank you. And you are right.

Good luck with your secret crush. I would like a crush right now, here, down south, in Ca.

I like your name too.......

[jaycatt23]

Two secret crushes at the moment:

the first is on my bosses daughter: I keep finding her very attractive, but today, she decided to read me a children's story. She put so much expression and thought into it and... half way through, she said 'I'll stop now, cos I'm boring you.' But no, she was actually turning me on a rather large amount.

Second secret crush is I fell in love with the checkout girl at the supermarket yesterday. So pretty, such nice hair, and eyes and smile, and so sweet. So, when my housemates said someone had to go to the shops today, I jumped at the chance, in the vague hope she would be there. I didn't think she would be, but as I got to the checkout, I saw her. Heart goes boom. So, some gratuitous staring happens on my account. And despite my excitement, I manage to buy the shopping. But them I forget to pick it all up. I set off out of the shop and realise I've forgotten it all. So I have to go back, and I feel like a fool. Just to see her flash the most amazing smile at me. I'm hoping my idiocy imprints itself on her mind, and she remembers me. Unlikely, though.

Still, I might have to go shopping tomorrow, though.

[Consolata]

also in danger of losing my lesbo street cred..my biggest crush of the moment is of a co-worker. He's really sweet and supportive and I noticed that I liked him about a year ago because I was being not nice to him (very brief) and then I noticed that I wasn't looking him in the eyes when I talked to him. I always look in eyes and so anyways I've had to make my peace with that I really like him and he's unavailable and have asked myself why? since I haven't crushed a guy in like 9 years. He's always talking about his nephew and things he does with him and for him and last week I asked 'when r u going to have kids?' 'cause he would make a super dad and he said 'in april' and I was happy and sad at the same time and said congratulations and teased 'ow S..'s going to be a daddy? That night I dreamed I had 7 kids, names and all. It's funny how the subconscious works. Before I had been sometimey about the idea of kids and now I definitely know I want them.
I also have a crush on a friend I've known for years. It's more of a fantasy though because whenever I'm in the same room with her in real life I have no sexual feelings for her I get all these playful feelings. Like we're little kids. I want to bump heads with her and/or push her, tumble around. Physical but not sexual. Weird much.

[areslei]

I very much suck at keeping crushes a secret. Something about going all nonverbal and melting whenever i'm near them. My crush forever....Amy Ray. Everyone knows it. She is and will always be. What was once my secret crush is now my not so secret crush...like i said...very much with the suckage when it comes to keeping a crush a secret. That's ok, though...so long as you always know how i feel sweetie.

[mollyig]

Wow [b:886e31219c]areslei[/b:886e31219c] what are the odds on you and I having the same not so secret crush. [img:886e31219c]http://homepage.eircom.net/~mollyig/winkgreen.gif[/img:886e31219c]

Wouldn't it be so funny if we liked the same band too? [img:886e31219c]http://homepage.eircom.net/~mollyig/revolve.gif[/img:886e31219c]

[dreiser]

my crushes aren't so secret. anyone in kitty chat knows that they're pretty blantant. eliza has been a fixation of mine for a verrrry long time and now dina meyer is slowly making her way higher and higher up my list for playing barbara gordon on birds of prey. ahh, the life of a comic book fangirl.

the rest of the not so secret crushes, sadly enough, are animated girls who good lord help them if they were real. i would probably be in jail for stalking by now.

it's pretty easy for me to get a crush on you. just be 1) hot in leather pants 2) kick ass butch 3) have swords and know how to use them. rofl. i don't know... i love chicks with sharp weaponry. it's a strange obsession and i don't wish to ever attempt to explain it.

oh... and moof, don't forget michelle rodriguez. =p

nic

[Mrs Vertigo]

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it's pretty easy for me to get a crush on you. just be 1) hot in leather pants 2) kick ass butch 3) have swords and know how to use them.

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[/quote:30d1b310d2]
Sure, I know a ton of girls like that! right off the top of my head! Exactly. So I take it you're heavy into Lucy Lawless, eh? Can't blame ya, really.

Oh, dammit, my crush flew to England for two weeks... Well. at least that means I have time to get over her. I probably will.

Yeah, right.

I'm spineless.

[Xanadu21]

Okay, I used to post here a lot, on the other board before the big move so I'm kind of a newbie. An old newbie...a newbie in theory...or something...anyways
I met a girl on the kitty who I have a secret crush on. We started e-mailing about a year ago, but she lives far away, and is in love with sombody else. I'm definatly crushing on her, though She's sweet and supportive and has been a great friend. And now I'm trying to decide if I am hoping she still lurks around here...if she reads this, she'll probably know it's her...to post or not to post, that is the question. I guess I'll take the leap!amy

[Mrs Vertigo]

Wow, kitty-love! Cool!

Did you get the pun there? Y'know, kitty-love, like puppy-love but heavy on the lesbian. Cause that was a pun there. I'm witty like that.

Good luck to you, you theoretical newbie.

[aimbly]

ooh secret crushes...ive only had 4 real ones:

1: my geography teacher - wonderful, witty...just a lovely lovely woman, i got some courage from somewhere and we started joke flirting (well it was a joke on her part!) it lasted for 2 years and i loved every minute of it! I did everything i could to spend more time in her company. She was completely oblivious to my affections!

2: A beautiful girl from a Catatonia (ex welsh band ) website. We'd been talking online for a month and were both dying to go to a concert in cardiff but had nobody to go with. We decided to go together so we shared a room in a b&b for the wkd - in seperate beds despite the attempts from the sweet old lady to put us in the double cus that room had the sea view! I fancied her from the first day i saw her and we actually tried to make a go of it, a visit here and there....but alas nothing was to come of that seen as she lived 200 miles away.

3: Hmm well this was kinda a slutty crush, another catatonia girlie. Although the crush stage really didnt last very long, i think we'd talked about 3 times and we were into fully fledged whore status...thousands of miles away this time - but hey it was all good while it lasted! Shes now my best friend!

4: Some girl (i cant even remember her name!) in the year below at school. She was cute, and confident, and had these sexy glasses and wore stripey socks! Yay! I used to follow her into town with my pal Becky after school.....although that was pretty much an excuse to go to the pub after school..you know we're in town now, we may as well go for a drink! *g* I'm not a stalker honest!!

hehe and thats about it! Btw, i narrowed the distance to zero miles for girl number 2 when i came up to glasgow for uni about 2 years ago. We've been together ever since and living together since august! ahh sweet bliss!

[Wytchi Grrl]

Well i have a secret Crush on my Hairdresser, Although the fact I go all silly around her might mean its outta the bag. But it is great that I get to experience her running her fingers through my hair on a 6 weekly basis

[Mrs Vertigo]

ok... *drum roll*

question to all kitties: has anyone ever had a *secret* crush on you? How did you find out/react?

[ruby]

In college I once had someone pursuing me who left letters under my pillow.

When I left the house locked up tight as a drum.

Oh, I'm sorry, I thought you said "secret stalker." *snicker* As for a sweet crush...not really. Except for my current gf (8 years strong!).

[Xanadu21]

Thanks for the luck Mrs. Vertigo! Well punned(to quote a Glory minion)! I like the kitty-love. It's going to be my new lesbian love catch phrase. I've already infultrated "Oi with the poodles already!" from Gilmore Girls into my friend's vocabulary, this should be a snap

I don't think anyone's ever had a secret crush on me...if so, I guess it's still a secret!

amy