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Re: Part 107

Postby Katharyn » Mon Jun 23, 2003 11:43 pm

Thanks guys...



Justin - Glad you liked it. I love to have T/W sweetness in any part - especially after something else which is happening and they do not know about. You will find more of that as we go ahead.



I was unaware of the parallel about X/W until someone reminded me. Was it subconcious? Maybe. Was I just repeating myself? Sure. Did I intend it? As with so much no. Harrowing is a good word. It's certainly not supposed to be easy.



Will Toni get away?



Chicken... Well I have to say that is one of my things about the feet and the walk. I think it would be a Willow obsession though. Thanks



Celia - This is a magnificent reply, given you know what happens for the next 13 parts. Very elusive! Kerry is the one to thank for the smell, sight references. She felt I was not really addressing Toni's senses in balance... I was writing for a hearing person in effect but pretending she was deaf. All credit to her for pushing for changes.



The outsider view was fun - trying to get at what people in the rest of the world should think about vampires etc. Also I did write other PoV's early in SS... but once the girls were there I did away with them. It was fun not only creating Toni, but having chance to get into her head.



SWeet... I love sweet. You keep saying about the little touches I am doing, and thanks, but I sort of thought that was just how they were? How I always did them in love? Natural is good though - because they are. That is what is so lovely about the girls. Perfectly natural. Perfectly together.



Mean... of course it was. Smut is not a pre-requisite in fic. The story is more important.



*Ducks* Heresy!



Grimlock - Toni is a brave kid yeah. It is a horror cliche that her father, the noble one, gets killed trying to help people - but I am cliche girl so that is okay.



As for your guess... all will be revealed, along with more of the plan. It is sad, it will get sadder though.



The second part was partly to show that other things happen... and partly to show T/W in a non-worried light. I will push the worry, I will push Willow's concerns about the future - but they are happy where they are now, Chewster is right about that. And the gloomy thoughts... they are not always there. We will see them alot, but between times they are not obsessed by gloom. I promise.



Thanks



Chewster - Got to have time... good job you started though or else you'd need even more.



I wouldn't want to make you feel there is just guilt in Tara. She is enjoying her life. She has friends, family, love, studies... Its not like before where she had nothing. What Willow worries about now is very small potatoes next to what we were worried about in the First Chronicle for so long. Tara, by part 5, appeared to be on a charge towards death or something.



Darlas as the main villain... well see how she goes.



Glad you liked 116... Oooh I revealed it was 116.



Thanks Paul



Katharyn







Curious to see who gets post 2500...

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If I want a little pussy, I got my own to play with.
Chance in Chance.




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Katharyn
 


Re: Part 107

Postby tiredsoul » Tue Jun 24, 2003 12:00 am

*scampers around for fun*



Fun is important.



Elusive? With that whip being cracked and Kerry protecting her anatomy, you’d better believe it. I may be crazy, but not that crazy :)



I ain’t saying a word … I value what little innocence I have left :p



--celia

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When innocence is shattered
... madness is inevitable

www.gotlicky.com

tiredsoul
 


Re: Part 106

Postby Cicca » Tue Jun 24, 2003 12:12 am

Vampire chickens and kissing bellies!

:bounce



My brain is insisting that the Far-Side cartoons had vampire chickens. Or at least very scary ones.



I think Willow needs to watch Chicken Run. heehee





Toni... That whole section was just angst and fear. Makes me chew my fingers! Which makes me sound like I'm a vampire chicken. Or a chicken vampire. Either or.





Interesting update, thanks :)

The ending was yummy.

“Spirit of Sappho, ... I summon you. Come fill me with your big, dykey power!” ~ Final Exam by Tommo

Cicca
 


Re: Part 107

Postby forrister » Tue Jun 24, 2003 3:37 am

You know I like this . . . I keep telling you everytime I beta some of it. Like the way that you build up the story, and the characters. Our girls are in love - its not something you have to make a point of showing - it shows in every scene they're together. Thats another thing I like.



I also like my bits . . . particularly the tender bits - and I'd like to keep them right where they are. Thats why I won't be giving any spoilers for upcoming parts.



I only have one thing to say . . . well, two really. Down with chickens! Penguins forever!!!



Forrister (and her bits)



Carpe Aptenodytes!

Seize the Penguins!

forrister
 


Re: Part 107

Postby Katharyn » Tue Jun 24, 2003 10:48 pm

Celia - Fun is important. As is love. *HUGS*



Do you not protect your anatomy?



Congrats on post 2500... I believe you said you also took 2000.



Not number obsessed are you?



Cicca - Vampire chickens and kissing bellies. Did you ever think you would see such a combination? This is why we have Pens *S*



Willow and Chicken Run... I think she would think it was cute rather than scary. Real chickens would be another matter.



Toni... Well can I write anything without angst and fear? Sorry bit no. Its what I do. *S*



The ending was nice though and yes I knew excatly what I was doing stopping there. And no there is not a contuation in the next part. *S*



Thanks Cicca.



Kerry - You do tell me you like it, sometimes, when you are not being beautifully opinionated. The love is key... The love has to shine through and it is never going away. That might remove some "drama" to say it now, but I am doing. The love is to stay. Right through. Let the story, the angst and the drama be about something other than them losing or finding each other.



Been there, done that.



Here is a spoiler - you had no way of knowing - but after the chickens, there are penguins. The pengiuns will be along in NOvember/December. Remember you saw it first here.



Part 108 tomorrow - thanks all.



Katharyn

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If I want a little pussy, I got my own to play with.
Chance in Chance.




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Katharyn
 


Re: Part 106

Postby xita » Wed Jun 25, 2003 3:18 pm

ooh, I just love the w/t interaction in this, very sexy. But I love the playfulness here too. They are having a little fun argument about chickens rofl. The interruption of the peck, had me laughing. And a belly kiss :) a sexy belly kiss to end this chapter, just great!

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Leora......Leora....

xita
 


Part 108

Postby Katharyn » Wed Jun 25, 2003 10:48 pm

Hey guys, part 108 below. I am afraid there is no T/W here except by reference. It's all part of the setup of the story. Once we get going properly, soon now, then they will dominate it as they should do. Enjoy.

Xita - I love to write them being playful. It's sexier (in a non-smutty way) to me than anything to have them in conversation about nothing and yet to feel the love as I write it. Rocks my boat. Thanks babe.

Katharyn

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Title: The Sidestep Chronicle – Second Chronicle - Getting it into Order (Part 108)
Author: Katharyn Rosser
Feedback: Constructive criticism is always welcome. katharynrosser@hotmail.com Flames just demonstrate you have a tiny mind.
Spoiler Warning: Pretty limited. The story occurs in an alternate universe as set up in “The Wish” though reference is made to events that occur in both realities. Nothing is referenced that occurs after S5 though. Guess why? Most “spoilers” would be for the first chronicle of this fic rather than the show and if you haven’t read that then much of this will make no sense but you can try and get round it by reading the preface to Part 104 which summarises most of what went before.
Distribution This story was written for Pens. Pens is its home. No archiving off Different Coloured Pens (This applies to all of the Sidestep Chronicle)
Summary: New vampires in town – or very old ones.
Disclaimer: I don’t own any of the copyrights or anything else associated with BTVS. All rights lie with the production company, writers etc, etc. I am making zilch from this series of stories. You know the drill and all the reasons it is there.
Rating: R – a general rating for occasional content. Individual parts might be less than this level.
Couples: Tara and Willow forever – others couples as necessary but nothing unconventional.
Notes: Well this was something I needed to do from the very start of Sidestep – cleaning up after myself and the world I chose to create. I left very few loose ends last time and this time I am aiming for none.
Thanks To: All My Brilliant Beta Readers (AMBBR) (Yeah I just noticed what AMBBR looks like too – I should find an E word to replace Beta) Kerry (Forrister) and Jo (Wizpup) who for some reason signed right back up for this fic after seeing the size of the last one. No accounting for madness is there. And Celia (TiredSoul) who should have known better but signed up anyway. *HUGS* and Big Thanks to all of you. Another of Celia’s and this time she went multicoloured! It was very pretty, lickily. Also Celia was good enough to go back and redo the starting scene cos I forgot to send it to her! Also thanks to Xita for doing unbidden what I should have asked for a long time ago.


The Sidestep Chronicle – Second Chronicle

Getting it into Order

By

Katharyn Rosser


The worst thing for Toni since her Dad had gone, other than seeing him every time she closed her eyes, was that there was no one left for her to be comforted by and to tell her it was okay. In a world of silence not having someone there to talk to was a lonely experience for her. The cell was about the same size as the one that she’d come from but with only about a fifth of the people. It was pleasantly cooler during, in the world above, what was the daytime than the other cell. There was no other difference down here so she just went off her watch. As far as she could tell some surface above absorbed the heat of the sun and eventually that seeped through to this world, down below where – probably because tunnels were sealed for the hunt – air didn’t really move.

Down here there was no real day or night. There was just the cell.

At night though, as the heat escaped back into the world above, the lack of warm bodies made it colder than she’d been in the other cell. The vampires hadn’t provided anything to sleep on or under, not that she had expected them to. Even the food was better here. Gruel had been replaced by actual real food. Bread. Cheese. Bags of chips sometimes.

The others had pounced on the food and Toni had been forced to struggle to get some for herself. She needed to be strong… and actually, she even needed to be picked out. Not right away, food would do her good, but she needed to be picked to get out of the cell. And it seemed they wanted those they hunted fed and stronger than the ones left in the other cells. If they were really hunting. Her Dad had been told they were hunting, which was what all her plans were based on but… She had to concede that maybe they were just eating.

Even so – out of the cell she had a chance. In here she was trapped.

The smallest boy there hadn’t even tried to get some food and even though Toni knew that the food was probably just to fatten them up – or whatever the vampire equivalent of that was – she couldn’t allow him to go hungry… meal after meal. So the third time he’d got nothing she’d given him some of hers.

His smile had been the first one that she’d seen since her Dad had been killed. Not a big smile, but a sad, grateful smile. It had been enough for them to find a bond.

Just a few days there in that place and she’d almost forgotten what a smile looked like. But after she’d given him some food, and as another night rolled around, she’d found him snuggled into her corner with her and they’d kept each other warm.

He hadn’t talk to her and she wouldn’t have heard him anyway. Besides, this was a place that removed the need for words. Sometimes she was glad that she couldn’t hear. Sometimes, as the others winced and she was sure that there must have been a cry or a scream out there. Then they’d started to talk to each other – or at each other – obviously panicked.

But obviously without any idea what they were going to do.

And then there were probably other sounds she was missing. The older boy and one of the other girls getting together in the cell. Whilst they were all there. Needing human warmth was one thing but that was too much for her to see. She’d just had to close her eyes and let them get on with it. She’d shielded her new friend from it on the other side of her. The sounds, if any, he’d had to deal with that alone.

She didn’t try and stop them though – not that she probably could anyway. She just sat in her corner, exercising her muscles occasionally, just in case they came for her, and watched the underworld outside the cage go by. Toni was pretty sure that she’d found out which directions most of the vampires were coming from at different times. She was certain that when she did run, she’d never be turning down those tunnels if she had any sort of a choice.

She still had no idea where to go – but any of those directions were right out – at least at the times the vampires were around.

And as for her friend, the boy she’d snuggled up with, she’d have tried to take him with her. If they’d been taken from the cage together.

But they weren’t.

They’d come in the middle of the night – laughing at the other boy and the girl as they’d been trying, again, to comfort each other through sex and were then forced to scrabble to get out of the vampires’ way. Maybe it was some sort of biological thing. Toni had thought that maybe it would cost one of them their lives, just another example of vampire cruelty. She’d needed to see where they would be taken – some indication. Better either of them, or the other girl, than herself or the boy that had been resting with her at least until she’d had chance to see where they took someone from one of these cages.

But instead their captors were amused by it. Mocking them probably, but mockery had probably saved their lives. Instead, they’d come over to Toni and her… friend?… Yeah, her friend. They’d never shared a word, but they were probably friends. Or had been then.

One of them, both of them maybe, had been in for it. Toni had been sort of ready to make a try to get out, even if she’d wanted a little more time, but she’d had no idea how she was going to help him – if they were both taken. It might have had to be as simple as grabbing his hand and pulling him along.

But what if he’d fought her, tried to go another way? Precious seconds would have disappeared and their loss might have got them killed.

Would she have left him then?

Would they have been better together then or apart?

The decision hadn’t been hers to make. They didn’t stop to think about it, nor did she see them say a word to each other. They’d just both grabbed him and lifted him bodily from his place beside her and the arms they’d linked, warily, together. Toni had dodged a flailing foot as he was carried away from her. She hadn’t heard him scream. She hadn’t seen it either.

But she’d known that it was happening.

And she couldn’t stop thinking about it now. Hours later.

Who wouldn’t scream then?

Well, she wouldn’t.

Not just because she’d never known what it sounded like.

She’d just go with them. She couldn’t risk being hurt before they even let her go. If she was bleeding… well, they seemed to be able to sense blood if that was what they wanted from people. Maybe they could smell it. She could hide from their sight. She could keep quiet. But she couldn’t stop them from smelling her – or finding her in some other way she didn’t know about.

She’d just have to run – and though she was confident she could outrun most kids her age, even most adults, these weren’t natural creatures.

If their obvious strength was matched by their speed and endurance…

She wouldn’t stand a chance in the race for her life if they were superior in that way. If she had to run that race, she’d be dead. She didn’t want to unless she had to. Running was what she did best – but it wouldn’t be quiet or subtle. She just wanted to hide and sneak away. If she could do that. She hoped that she could.

Just get out.

To let someone know.

To find the police or something and get them to shut this place down. And then… then she’d have to have them to find her Mom. She didn’t really want to think about that – but when she closed her eyes, she saw her Dad. Dead. Her Mom was all she had now… if she was even still around. She’d left them before Toni could even remember. Dad had had a very old address for her, but she didn’t know where it was kept.

The police would know where to find her. Wouldn’t they?

Why was she even thinking about a piece of paper that was hundreds of miles away and wouldn’t even matter unless she got out of here alive?

And why couldn’t she be sad that they’d taken the only person in here who’d shown her any comfort and concern for anyone other than themselves at all? She would be… when she got out of here. Now she was paying attention. She had to watch. She had to see where they took him and as she did she became sure that the quiet, seemingly defeated, way was the best. Then she could get them to let her go – push her along. Then to try and hunt her. Then she’d have her chance.

It was… she had to see it as her Dad’s last wish. On the floor, being beaten by them until he couldn’t move anymore, he’d flashed her those fingers with his outstretched hand and she’d issued the scream that she never heard.

L-I-V-E

She fully intended to do that for him. Not even for herself, she was going to live for him. And then she was going to get the police and then, it was them that would get hurt. The police would come down here, hurt the things that had hurt him and let the people out. And she’d watch and enjoy it. After that... then she’d feel sad for her friend who’d been taken from here. Then the idea came to her that maybe he had a plan. Maybe he’d get away too?

Was it possible? He didn’t look like he had a plan – and pretending he might be okay wasn’t helping either of them.

Once everything had stopped she closed her eyes but not until she’d glared at the other two who’d done the bad thing, amused the vampires and so somehow survived. She wasn’t going to help them. Not after that. If the police let them out… fine. She wasn't going to help them though. They shouldn’t have been doing that – not here. Not now. And they’d lived because of it.

And he didn’t have a chance to.

He wasn’t going to get away. He didn’t have a plan. He was going to die.

The older boy and girl wouldn’t meet her eyes and eventually she closed them. And then, she just her friend – what they were probably doing to him. The image faded and that then she saw her father’s hand spelling that word, before he pulled it into his chest and crossed it over his heart with his fist clenched.

Live.

Love.

She’d lost him. She pulled her knees into her chest and had to keep herself warm as she finally found sleep, knowing that at least she wouldn’t have to hear the screams.

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“Well I’ve got to say that I just love what she’s done with the old place,” Spike commented as he strode through the sewers. Fluorescent lighting? Practical maybe – for a human – but not exactly necessary for vampires who could see in almost total darkness. And the flickering annoyed him humans might not even notice it, but to a vampire’s senses it was just one big, flickering, waste of space.

But then again, Darla had always loved some of the more human traits in her character. almost as much as she’d despised some of the others. She’d never admit it – but she was just as human as Gengis Khan, Alexander and Hitler in some respects. Spike could understand the attraction of human things – as long as you kept a little perspective and remembered whose side you were really on – unlike that big poof Angelus. Angel as he’d called himself up to the moment that he actually did go ‘poof.’ In a cloud of dust and all mopey because he had a soul.

Loser… as the Americans would probably say. It lacked poetry but it was certainly accurate. He couldn’t even say that he missed the old Angelus and their old days together. They’d never really got on – even as far as groups of vampires went – there had been some respect for each other’s strength and cruelty but no more than that.

Angelus and Darla, now they’d got on. They’d wanted similar things, she was his sire after all. Angelus had given her everything she wanted even down to human things. Darla liked her views too – even if that was simply the length of a sewer tunnel as it seemed at the moment.

“It flickers,” Dru replied thoughtfully as she showed him the way into the nest.

Looking at the wiring, Spike could understand that – new it might be, but quality? Nah. He guessed that the guy who’d fitted it was probably looking forward to lunch – or rather delaying becoming lunch. Not likely to do his best work in those circumstances, now was he? Darla would put up with shoddy workmanship simply because she wouldn’t have kept the fitter alive long enough to judge the quality for herself “Yes, Princess it would, cheapest bidder and all that.” Essentially free. Vampires hardly ever paid – not for that sort of thing anyway. There were some, especially in L.A., who actually tried to fit into human society. Of course in a town as parasitic as that one ‘fitting in’ was something which really didn’t require a lot of changes.

“No, love. The future… it flickers,” Dru told him patiently. She was always patient when she was explaining what he couldn’t see.

In as much as she explained anything that was. So much of being her paramour was a matter of interpretation of those things that only she could detect and feel. “The future?” Spike asked with immediate interest. “What do you see, pet?”

“Flickers,” Dru said happily and started to skip along beside him, taking his hand and swinging as they went.

He was sure that the declaration probably meant something to her but he was damned if he was going to spend the time to torture her and get it out of her. Okay, so he was already damned, but he was saving the torture for tomorrow morning when they went to bed. They’d have that sort of fun then – she wasn't going to drive him to it now. She’d just have to wait until the night was gone and they found their way to a place to see out the sunlight hours.

Always assuming there was such a thing as a bed in this underground world of concrete, dirt and flickering lights. He didn’t think he could have stood being here for too long. He was shocked that Darla had been down here for as long as she had been. Years by all accounts.

Besides, it was Dru that had insisted that as soon as he arrived, he had to go and see Darla. It smacked a little too much of showing respect. He wasn't sure what he was going to do yet. On general principle he loathed Darla. That was what came of spending years he didn’t want to try and count, more than a lifetime, travelling the world with her and Angelus. Being put down by her, as the junior member of their little group, for every single night of each one of those years. Even if it had been a hell of a time.

Still, when he’d left – and after Angelus’s departure had already shattered the group and made Darla’s mood even worse - Drusilla, his beloved dark lady, had gone with him rather than stick with Miss Delusions-of-Greatness-Darla. Dru had been with him ever since – at least when she wasn’t on an errand for the lawyers to see her grandmamma. She’d been the only reason he’d stuck with Darla and Angelus at all through all those years. She’d made withstanding their taunts easier because what Dru wanted she’d had to have – and she’d wanted a ‘family.’ And for some reason he’d never been able to fathom Darla had tolerated Drusilla and her ways too. If there had been a maternal bone in the elder vampire’s body, then he’d have said that the Darla had been looking out for her ‘grandaughter.’ The truth, of course, was that Darla had been persuaded by the value of Dru’s visions and the corruption of purity she’d once represented. And Darla had wanted to use them for herself.

Dru’s visions worked for no one but Dru. His goddess might reveal them, but they only really meant something to Drusilla herself. Neither Darla nor Angelus had ever really figured that part of her out.

Visions or not, Darla knew Dru was insane and devilishly strong – and was again the experiences of Prague had faded into memory. Darla had never missed the potential of either of those qualities – and if he could remember the blonde vampire snapping at Dru a hundred times, then were a hundred incidents where she had berated him in the same way for each one of those times. Darla really hadn’t ever liked him. She had never been his choice – he had always been Drusilla’s. Which he was eternally grateful for. Literally.

Which was good because he really didn’t like Darla and he’d never understand the affection Dru held for the Sire of her Sire.

Vampires weren’t supposed to like each other – unless there was the sort of animal love that he and Dru shared. If they liked each, other then there wouldn’t be this whole power thing going on all the time. Once, it had been based on age and experience - that wasn't going to wash now though. Now Darla had the real, actual power. She would probably be all nice and pleasant to them if her followers were there to see it.

And for followers read slaves. She’d had them created, in hundreds by all accounts, just to serve her. That wasn’t the way things had always been done – she’d carelessly tossed the Order’s traditions in that respect out of the window.

But numbers gave her control. She could afford to be nice to him and Dru in front of the rest of the Order because she had the ultimate advantage of being able to have him killed at will. He was good but he wasn't up to taking on a hundred other vampires at the same time – not and Darla as well.

And if her ‘slaves’ weren’t there, in the audience chamber or whatever it was, then she’d just barely avoid being threatening towards him. Just like the old days. She’d be that nice mainly because she knew he could kill her before the ‘Order’ rushed to her defence. Or he could have a damn good try at it anyway. She was a terror when it came to humans but he was quicker and stronger than she was – despite her age.

Dru was too.

When he’d been bothered enough to care, he’d wondered just how much of the Master’s power had slipped down through the generations. Darla, Angelus, Dru and now him. They were all big-bads in vampire terms and that was no mistake or coincidence. The way he’d heard it even those drippy kids had been badasses too. And why not? The pair of them had been sired by Dru and himself the last time they’d come to town – and that trip had been at the behest of the lawyers in L.A. too. Those kids – they must have shown some good level of potential - they’d pretty much kicked Darla out and taken her place alongside Luke as Master’s favourites. At least that was the way he’d heard it.

That sort of humiliation was something he would have loved to have seen. Darla had always been talking up her direct connection to the Master and to have seen two kids – new vampires – become bigger and badder than she was… Well, he’d just have loved to see it. He couldn’t even remember what those kids name had been. They’d burned brightly and now they were gone – and Darla was back.

Something about a tree?

Didn’t matter. There was definite power flowing through the Order and that had to have come from the Master, or even the one who’d created him. But, in general, new vampires weren’t up to their standards.

It was going to interesting to see which of Darla’s Order might have that power here. Especially being as every vampire in this place had, apparently, been turned directly by Darla herself. Give them a century and each of them could be truly dangerous. It was rare that there was an instantly deadly – instantly powerful – vampire. Nearly right from the moment of being turned was almost unheard of. In the eight or so years since he and Dru had last been in Sunnydale he’d seen a lot of new vampires created – he’d even done a couple himself – but those two kids, tree girl and dopey, they’d done last time they were here were the last he’d heard about with that sort of quick, devastating, development. This lot here in the Order… well the way he’d heard it, Darla had just shepherded them through the first few years, keeping them from getting dusted, and now she thought she could turn them loose and expect them to do everything she needed them to.

Good luck to her – she’d need it. He’d had lots of vamps working for him over the decades – tough ones too – but somehow it was never going to produce the results you wanted for yourself.

Besides, he instinctually chafed against keeping vampires cooped up like that because he knew that he could have never stood it himself. He had to admit that it was an interesting idea though. Maybe he’d have to stick around and see how that went – especially since Dru seemed to have her un-beating heart set on staying anyway. He just wasn’t going to be Darla’s bitch whilst Dru had her fun. Not just so he could stay here with Dru – not even to keep her away from the local Chaos demons she had some strange attraction to.

All slimy with the antlers…

He didn’t doubt the love they had for each other – but Dru… Well, his dark lady didn’t have a lot of focus. And if some Chaos demon, and he knew there were some around this town, caught her eye, she’d be off and running after them.

He just had to have a little faith in her. No matter what, they’d always stuck together. Trust didn’t come easily to him – but he trusted her to still want him. He truly believed she’d want him forever. That was the way it was meant to be – that was why she’d chosen him and given him such a glorious rebirth.

He glanced across at her skipping beside him and couldn’t help a possessively self-satisfied smile. It was easy to have faith in her – because she’d always need him to take care of her. She was so strong, so powerful and so vicious… but she needed him and he needed her. Having faith – well that was more a question of which ‘her’ he was having faith in. There were so many of them in there and all of them brought something different to the party.

“Granmama look! I’ve brought someone to see you,” Dru called across the large chamber that they’d reached, branching out on many sides to newly reopened tunnels. New at least since the last time he’d been here - which had been a while ago.

And Spike had to say that he was impressed by it all – but not in a good way. He was impressed by the scale and not so much by the content. This had been the Master’s chamber. The one he’d got trapped in all those years ago – at least it looked like it. The holes in the walls leading to other tunnels made it tricky to tell but he was pretty sure of that. They, he and Dru, had been here back in the forties, and back then this had been a dingy, candlelit… well there was no denying it… it had been a Church which had sunk into the ground during an earthquake.

When they’d last been here it had been a church with a huge pit of blood as a centrepiece of this chamber.

All that was gone as were the religious symbols that the Master had loved to test himself with – or as Spike had always seen it, showing off the ability to resist pain. This was totally changed from back then though. The church had originally collapsed into the sewer works beneath it when the Master had tried to open the Hellmouth and now the old church was long gone and the sewers had been restored too. Tunnels opened out with this place as the hub of a network now. That was just the structure though – the character had been changed more fundamentally than that.

The place was scrubbed to the stonework and the bare rock where it still showed through towards the roof. Large lights hung from the vaulted ceiling and illuminated every corner. There were no shadows – what was a vampire’s nest without shadows? Some corners, Spike mused, needed to stay hidden – especially when they were as featureless as this. Apart from not having the large picture window she would have wanted it was just like Darla was trying to turn it into… well, something like a home.

She’d always liked her pretty things and her creature comforts – that had always just been ‘Darla’. And now she had them here too. A high backed leather chair replaced the Master’s wooden throne. Wall mounted lamps replaced medieval candelabras covered with decades of wax. There were other seats around the edge of the room – carefully placed to show your weakness if you chose to sit whilst in the ‘Great Darla’s’ presence.

“William,” she said almost warmly as Dru went over to stand beside her.

Almost.

Her smile as Dru went to her side was one that reflected the power she supposed she had over his lover. “Spike,” he said. She knew it - which was why she’d chosen to ignore it and use his human name instead. She’d been there when he’d changed his name and she’d heard him insist on it being used about a thousand times. And she’d watched him kill more than one person who’d never learned to he’d that request.

Of course he’d gone there to kill those people anyway so it probably hadn’t made an impression – and she’d never cared about what he wanted. Fair enough, he thought, I never cared what she thought either.

And once again she ignored his correction, as someone in power was likely to do. “Welcome to the new Order. What do you think?” she asked with a gesture around the expensively decorated chamber.

So she wanted approval? Was that it? He could do that. For a little while and in his own way. “New Order, very cute.” He watched the flicker of anger as she reacted to his description.

Okay, maybe he couldn’t do approval.

Whatever she’d detected in his voice it was worse than she imagined… though she went back a few centuries she was still an American, especially in the last few decades. She was taking ‘cute’ in entirely a different context to the one the one that he was insinuating.

It was ‘fluffy bunny’ cute in meaning and he didn’t think she’d got that.

This… well, he supposed it might have been stylish in the fancy magazines humans had, none of which really catered for sewer chic – though he really didn’t care. But it wasn't exactly… well, vampire. Darla never really had been ‘all-vampire’ though – at least not in taste when it came to buildings and homes. She’d never been a typical member of the order – neither she, nor Angelus. Those that had stuck close to the Master had been underground for centuries even before he came to Sunnydale. Darla… Darla had always liked her pretty dresses, feathered hats and the finest lodgings.

And usually she’d gotten them too.

Often, it was because she was of more use to the Master up above the ground - away from him for years sometimes - she’d been able to do things that no one else could have done for him. No one else he trusted that was. The Master had never trusted any of those she’d turned – or those they’d taken in their turn. He’d certainly admired the games of Angelus and the delightfully playful viciousness of Drusilla, but he’d never trusted them enough to make any of them one of his favourites.

Living in the world above, in the grand style her victims’ purses had afforded her, had suited her down to the ground.

But then again, he knew where she’d come from. Angelus had let that slip once when he’d fed off a woman high on opium, which had lowered his guard and given Spike information enough to formulate his opinions. As he saw it, the demon which had replaced her soul… he thought that it was rebelling against the memory of whom she’d been when the Master had found her. Mostly dead, utterly unwanted and unloved - probably since she’d been a child.

A whore by any other name. Even if she’d been selling herself to the richest of men – seeking to live in their lives – she still wasn’t anything but a whore. She’d made herself into that – and in the end she’d revelled in it. It was all that she’d wanted. To die as she’d lived – alone and without sympathy. There had been no sympathy in the Master’s bite, he was sure of that.

And her end had just been the beginning of something else – as was the way for all of them. A better ongoing death than their lives had ever been.

All except, perhaps, for Dru. Not that she would see it that way – but objectively he realised that she’d had to have been driven insane to appreciate the existence that was being given to her. Who knew what she would have thought if she was in her right mind all of the time? Dear, delicious, Dru.

Dru, who stood beside Darla and beckoned him in - no matter what her ‘grandmother’ might have thought of his presence here. Dru was already making herself right at home and he wasn't too sure how he felt about that. She’d been here, with Darla, for a while now. Visits, well-paid visits, on behalf of the lawyers were one thing. Staying on was something else.

“Cute?” Darla said.

With the words was a smile which he’d learned that someone had to fear. Someone that wasn’t him. She had no hold over him. He wasn't one of her flunkies. He’d never been anyone’s flunky. He was here for Dru and that was all.

“Understand you’ve got a job on?” he reminded her. Maybe the ‘cute’ thing had been a little unwise – at least until he’d spied out the lay of the land and where he could exploit her weaknesses. He had no loyalty to Darla. He’d work with her – but never for her – and he’d have his fun returning the vampires of Sunnydale to their ‘rightful’ position. Mainly because Dru wanted to do that and the lawyers from L.A. were giving his lady anything that she wanted - maybe a doll and maybe a fortune in gold doubloons or anything in between.

That was reason enough. Dru was always reason enough for him.

Whilst Darla was no reason at all.

“You’re aware of the little problem we have here?” Darla asked him entirely reasonably, as if she was leading a meeting.

“One of them had been a very bad little girl,” Dru interjected merrily – sounding almost proud of that fact for some reason… and she probably would be.

“Shhh honey, I’m talking to William now.”

Spike watched Dru’s response to that request. More of an order really. He knew that he was jealous of anyone calling Dru by a term of endearment – any endearment - not that it meant anything between these two. He was sure Darla knew all that too. His dark queen just smiled and gave him a look in return that suggested that she knew what he was thinking. Dru always knew what was in his head.

She liked to play her games… and he knew there were Chaos demon’s here in Sunnydale. Dru, for some reason that he’d never been able to fathom, liked Chaos demons. She’d have come back to him of course. But if he’d stayed away from Sunnydale whilst she was here, well then, she’d have had her fun elsewhere eventually – and Darla would have enjoyed that too much for him to stand here and watch her amused, smug face.

But that was just the way they were. They needed to be together to be together.

Apart they were alone.

”You know what I mean, don’t you William?” Darla asked him again.

“Spike. Yeah, I know. This place has got a reputation for being like an iceberg… tiny on the surface but lots more substance underneath,” he replied. It was shocking how blind those ‘problems’ must be to have missed it. Every vampire over ten years old on the West Coast probably knew there was something going on here.

Half of them even knew the details.

And the people who were sitting right on top of the Hellmouth obviously had no idea.

“We like to hide our strength… for now,” Darla told him, as if reading his thoughts.

Which he in no way liked.

“That’s not the way I heard it. I heard you were running scared of the two witches and that you had to stay hidden just to stay here at all.” Now that felt good, seeing her discomfort. When there was such a thing as truth amongst vampires then it was always interesting. “That’s a bad piece of luck,” he went on. “I mean one witch might seem unfortunate. A Slayer doubly so… but allowing one of your own to become another witch…” He trailed off. He wasn’t going to flat out accuse her of clumsiness or stupidity here in her own place – but the implication was very clear indeed. Besides he didn’t have all the facts - like which of them they’d lost even – it was better to stick with less than he’d liked until he knew.

And by being ‘polite’ until he knew who and where the Witches were, there was less that she could call him on – but with a definite suggestion of disrespect all the same.

“That was in the Master’s night. This…” she waved her hand as Dru sat down cross-legged on the floor next to her. “This is my night, William. The Order’s night. My Order’s night.”

“Spike,” he said for at least the third time. It was getting old correcting her over and over again. So she wanted to pin the thing with the Witches on the Master? Fine. He wasn’t the one copped up in here. “And let me guess, you want to make every night your night?” It was always that way. They were all going to ‘stretch forth the hand of darkness and engulf, if not destroy, the world.’ Yeah, yeah. No one had managed it yet and this bint wasn't the one to do it either. Not alone anyway…

But with Dru’s strength and visions - along with his own strength, skill and speed at her side – well, there could be a real future in a town like this. Especially one with its very own Hellmouth and all. At least enough of a future to get it out of Dru’s system so they could then go somewhere with good hunting.

Or maybe just until he could get Darla alone and shove a stake into her heart. Alone and away from Dru – who probably wouldn’t take to that very well. She had strong opinions about her ‘family’ which he didn’t like to mess with because she’d beat the hell out of him.

Besides the Witches here, they were running around like Slayers. Spike knew just what to do with Slayers. It might even be fun to try his luck.

We want the night,” Darla confirmed and ruffled Dru’s hair in a maternal gesture that wasn't fooling anyone for a second – anyone but Dru anyway. So she’d caught Dru’s interest huh? He’d known that. Dru had been acting as messenger for the lawyers – mainly because Darla was slaughtering all the humans they’d sent – and now Darla had sucked her in.

But Spike knew that he was the only person who’d ever really caught Dru’s attention for any length of time.

She would get bored with Darla soon enough. Though soon, in vampire terms, was a relative thing.

“I get bored staying in, Spike… I want to see the stars whenever I like,” Dru told him.

And they all knew that he was lost. Dru was staying here with Darla and he was staying here with Dru. And if Dru wanted to go out into the night, here, to rule it… then he wasn't going to do anything but help her do that. Even if it meant helping Darla.

“Okay, okay Dru… I’ll give your pretty stars back.” He just wanted to make it clear whom he was doing this for. Not for Darla. Never for Darla… always for Dru. If Dru wanted to do it for Darla then that would be just fine too though.

Besides, he’d never squared off against a witch before. It should be interesting. The way that he saw it in his mind, they died even easier than Slayers – it was just that you had to get right up close to them to make it happen. Sort of like a Slayer with a crossbow. Difficult to get close into killing range, but once you were, there then it was going to be easy. “You tell me everything I need to know about them and I’ll kill your Witches for you,” he told Darla – but he was really talking to Dru, of course. He wasn't going to do it right away, there were the obvious question of ‘who’ and ‘where’ they were. Not to mention what the hell they could do to him if he screwed up. “Then we’ll talk about rewards…” And this time he was talking to both of them.

Not that he needed a reward but it was fun anyway. Dru’s black eyes lit up with anticipation whilst Darla’s flared with anger. But she couldn’t say a word. She needed him now. The Master would have had him roasting over hot coals for a month for suggesting that he should be rewarded for obeying what would have been a command.

What Darla needed to realise was that she wasn’t the Master. It was obvious to everyone but her.

She was just some blonde bint who dropped into the role by not being there at the end of the old Order.

Darla didn’t agree or disagree with his assertion about rewards and that told him everything that he needed to know about her and her power. She certainly wasn't the Master. She was probably running this whole show – and he had to admit it was impressive how loyal the vampires in L.A. and the rest of California were to her – through the promises of rewards or the withholding of them.

Of course every vampire who’d worked for the Master did so because there was a tiny share of his power there for them in the absence of pain, but she was probably offering them more earthly pleasures.

Once a skanky ho, as the people around here would say, always a skanky ho.

Such was her way and so he decided to throw her a bone. To make himself appear beholden to her. “So whom do you have to see to about getting a bite to eat around here?” he asked. He was looking forward to testing out the hunting range they’d managed to put together to keep the edge on the food, whilst they still maintained their secret. Besides, asking her for food could only help her feel in control. And letting her think she was in control remained important – for now.

“What do you think you might like?” Darla asked with a proud smile on her face. “We have quite a selection. I never know what I’d like either. So difficult to decide.”

Spike looked at Dru. “Young… female… dark hair,” he replied absently as Dru did her dog barking impression. Oh yeah. Young, female, dark hair would do nicely. First he’d play and then he’d get to the serious business of loving and satisfying his black-hearted princess. “Want to share Dru?”

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Re: Part 108

Postby tiredsoul » Wed Jun 25, 2003 11:36 pm

A scampering fool I am ... or simply a fool :)



Oooh, welcome Spike :) He is a weasel but a fun weasel, especially with Dru and Darla. A nice conflict set up there between them. Should be interesting in how that plays out.



I like how strong you’ve made Toni here. A very determined teenager. That is great to see. And I said this before, but it warrants saying it again … you just broke me up with that final moment between Toni and her Dad. :( (



And lickily, I like the pretty colors too :p



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Re: Part 108

Postby justin » Thu Jun 26, 2003 2:14 am

I really liked the parts with Spike in. It was fun watching him and Darla facing off against each other. :lol



But again the part with Toni in can only be described as harrowing. I really want her to escape but I can't see how she will. Especially as she's most likely going to be chosen for Spike and Dru. She might have stood a chance of escaping from Darla's lackeys, but not from them. :sob

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Re: Part 108

Postby Katharyn » Thu Jun 26, 2003 11:06 am

Celia - SWeetie... you are only a scampering fool. Nothing else will do *S*



Spike... I liked Spike up until S5 when he changed from someone genuinely evil into someone genuinely evil but allowed to be. A rolemodel for doing bad thing and everyone being okay with that. Bleh. This is old Spike. The bad guy... Darla and Spike's dynamic - all from Angel with some of my own twists.



I wanted Toni to be strong. As you realised in the beta, and certainly Kerry did, the danger was that she appeared too grown up. I hope that is not the case, strong yeah... but it's written so you feel something to her.



You guys all know me well enough by now to know that when I write this much about someone they have a part to play - at least for a little while - and its one that might surprise some people.



Justin - I'm glad you liked the parts with Spike in, just so long as no one likes Spike as a character in this. Hey... he's against the girls - so its a no-brainer 'boo-hiss.'



As I mentioned above... Toni has, some, part to play in the way this fic gets going. I am sure you have speculation and as you say it is tough for her to get away, I think you are right there. There will be no "they left the cage open and they all went away" moment. No... I look for "realism" in my writing. Where something happens it has a reason. Chosen for Spike and Dru... doesn't look good. It will take more than one part to resolve her fate though. We will see her again.



Thanks so much for feeding back guys, even though the girls are at home kissing bellies, and other places, whilst this scene takes place.



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Re: Part 108

Postby Grimlock72 » Thu Jun 26, 2003 1:24 pm

Spike makes it easy to voice my opinion about Darla, heh. I agree with pretty much all of his thoughts regarding Darla. " Miss Delusions-of-Greatness-Darla" sounds about right. That does make Spike more dangerous though, he's very calculating here.



The idea that most of the vampires in Calif. know about the Sunnydale operation but Willow and Tara don't doesn't sit well with me. I would expect them to have better intel than that, it's like vampires are that good at keeping secrets. I don't think Darla and co. have been under Sunnydale for several years... just can't see that happening without attracting attention.



Toni... I like her, I like her a lot actually. Such determination and good thinking. Her well thought-out approach might very well get her out alive. This is rather crude, but I was somewhat relieved when the boy Toni fed died or was taken without Toni. I could just see her plan go to hell because the boy wouldn't tag along. Sure she *thought* about that problem but I'm not to sure she *would* have left him.



That problem got solved for her, which is good. Blaming the man/woman who were doing something nc17-rated in the corner isn't very usefull or justified. Besides, they'll only live a day longer or so.



It's nice to see Spike thinking about Dru, but I get the sense that he's somewhat deluding himself. Dru doesn't appear to have enough focus to attach to Spike as much as he thinks she is. If the thought makes him happy, good for him.



It's still sad to read how isolated Toni is. I'm not so sure that would have been much different if she weren't deaf though. Seems like a shy type anyway. I do like her reasoned planning... I *like* plans :D . The moment where her father said goodbye to her was painfull to read, hopefully Toni draws strength from his last word to her... live girl, live!



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Re: Part 108

Postby Katharyn » Fri Jun 27, 2003 11:52 pm

Grimlock - Spike was always a way of seeing past Darla's pretensions. He wouldn't be dazzled by authority but very aware of the lack of it.



Lets remember what always has to be said about my writing - it is ALL Point of View. Therefore, in Spike's thoughts, if he thinks half CA vampires know that doesn't make it necessarily so. It's like at work, when I know something I cannot believe everyone else doesn't. His impression, if he knew and didn't try to, is that everyone must. Then again he is with Dru who has known for some time. And if he met a few of Darla's guys and girls from the rest of CA...



You see where I am going here?



Glad you like Toni, it's important to me - when I try to make a character likeable for a reason - that the reader buys into that. My reasons for needing her...? Well I won't say. I think the kid would have been a bad thing if she tried to escape - holding her back.



Spike and Dru's "love" is a mirror of the Tara/VampWillow thing from the first chronicle. I refuse to accept vampire "love" and Tara was in love with all that she had of Willow, not VW at all. I will say though that Spike and Dru might be as close as vampires get to each other.



Toni's isolation - there are people who are isolated by choice. Certainly her deafness is not an isolating factor as I wrote it. She comes from a town with a school for the deaf, where more people in the population would have sign skills than most others. If she is isolated it is her interests and attitudes (her choice) I think. The cage is an extension of that. L-I-V-E... will she?



Read on!



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Part 109

Postby Katharyn » Sat Jun 28, 2003 11:07 pm

Here's hoping anybody likes it...

Title: The Sidestep Chronicle – Second Chronicle - Freedom or Fate (Part 109)
Author: Katharyn Rosser
Feedback: Constructive criticism is always welcome. katharynrosser@hotmail.com Flames just demonstrate you have a tiny mind.
Spoiler Warning: Pretty limited. The story occurs in an alternate universe as set up in “The Wish” though reference is made to events that occur in both realities. Nothing is referenced that occurs after S5 though. Guess why? Most “spoilers” would be for the first chronicle of this fic rather than the show and if you haven’t read that then much of this will make no sense but you can try and get round it by reading the preface to Part 104 which summarises most of what went before.
Distribution This story was written for Pens. Pens is its home. No archiving off Different Coloured Pens (This applies to all of the Sidestep Chronicle and any of my other fics)
Summary: Tara and Willow are still unaware of what is going on under Sunnydale. Someone else is all too aware…
Disclaimer: I don’t own any of the copyrights or anything else associated with BTVS. All rights lie with the production company, writers etc, etc. I am making zilch from this series of stories. You know the drill.
Rating: R – a general rating for occasional content. Individual parts might be less than this level.
Couples: Tara and Willow forever – others couples as necessary but nothing unconventional.
Notes: Once more I must say that I go to a character here whom I have no firm idea how to write well. My mistakes are my own and I apologise for them and would welcome any pointers those in the know might have.
Thanks To: Thanks To: All My Brilliant Beta Readers (AMBBR) Kerry (Forrister) and Jo (Wizpup) who for some reason signed right back up for this fic after seeing the size of the last one. No accounting for madness is there. And Celia (TiredSoul) who should have known better but signed up anyway. *HUGS* and Big Thanks to all of you.
This one is one of Kerry’s beta’s. Credit in this part too for an idea from an old fanfic challenge from way back. I forget who set it, but some of you may remember and see where a little part of this came from – though it was my own response to that challenge so I am allowed to use it.


The Sidestep Chronicle – Second Chronicle

Freedom or Fate

By

Katharyn Rosser


“Do you think you could focus for just a minute on the task at hand?” Tara asked the woman she loved. It wasn't like she was asking for too much or they hadn’t arranged the nights events that very morning so that everyone knew what they were expected to do. They had to get ready to go out hunting vampires. Rupert and Jenny were having a night in alone, whilst the kids were with Ira, which obviously meant snuggling for their friends and it also meant that it was the two of them that were going to swing through the more dangerous places in town tonight. There were places, despite this being a quiet town now, that none of them really wanted to go alone so when their hunt was scheduled, and there was a Willow-made schedule in different colours, to take them through those places they went in pairs. So with Rupert staying in tonight that naturally meant she and Willow. Willow who was insisting on doing this now but would still want to stay up snuggling when they got back, even when they both had class work to be doing before tomorrow afternoon’s lectures and needed to get up reasonably early?

“Come on admit it!” Willow insisted. “Ad-mit-it”

“I’m not going to admit it because it’s just not the way that things were for me,” Tara told her. She wasn't going down this route right now. She’d never hear the end of it for one thing and for another… Well, she’d never hear the end of it and that was enough.

Oh yeah, the other thing. They had to go out and hunt.

“It is sooo the way things were, baby. It was the way things were for everyone until they figure out who they are and make the decisions that guide the rest of their lives. You know its true. I know its true. I know you know its true and I know you know I know its true because I just told you that even if I didn’t know it before. All in all it’s pretty much true and the way things were for you back then. Now come on and admit it to me. Unless your ashamed of it…”

“There’s nothing to admit Willow,” Tara insisted once more, not wanting to think about the shame. But then… there it was anyway. This had been going on for ten minutes – ever since she’d said the words that had kind of doomed her to fascinated interrogation. “Now can we get ready to go? There’s bad things in the world and it’s our job to stop them tonight.”

Every night was her night… She just had wonderful, devoted, help.

“And you don’t want to answer my, entirely reasonable, question,” Willow suggested.

“And I don’t want to answer your entirely off the point question when we should be out killing vampires,” Tara said, but not impatiently. She always had patience with Willow – when she needed to. What they were talking about wasn’t something she was proud of or looked back on with a lot of pleasure. She was ashamed of how she’d enjoyed it then. It had just been the once and she’d never, ever, done it again – or thought of doing it again. Once… Well one… What did you call it?

But it was a part of her past.

And because it was part of the past it was a part of who she was too – that was true enough.

“You know I did it too,” Willow said. “I went down that road and… well it was something like it. I tried it, kind of liked it at the time but I ultimately decided it wasn’t for me. It wasn’t who I was – and I’m woman enough to admit that. You should be too.”

Willow had changed tack. Oh, she was a clever one, but then Tara had known that long, long before this conversation. Just because Willow was clever though, didn’t mean that Tara couldn’t match wits with her now and then did it? This was something… Well it was somewhere she really didn’t want to go. She was… She hadn’t been the same back then. She hadn’t realised what she was doing and how much she’d regret it later. The person she was now… Well it didn’t bear any resemblance to the person she had been back then… when. Tara shuddered. She actually shuddered. Okay… she was willing to admit that shudder… And yeah there had been something there she liked. Back then. Before she knew any better. Before the opportunities she had now had presented themselves.

Better opportunities. Once she’d had the freedom to express herself a little more freely and hadn’t been reliant on the expectations and permission of others.

Freedom of thought… Freedom to like who you wanted to like rather than who you felt pressurised into liking because of who you were – that was something which was really important in life. Choices. And she couldn’t believe that Willow was so insistent on forcing her to confront an unpleasant part of her past. A time in her past where she knew she’d made absolutely the wrong choice.

It wasn’t like she’d done it more than once. Once had really been more than enough for her. She just wasn't that kind of girl. Once was a mistake. Even twice would have just been a coincidence. Three times – that would just have made her guilty as charged now wouldn’t it?

But there hadn’t been three times.

Or even twice.

There had just been the once and Willow had to believe that was all it was.

Okay, so the once had been more of a process, building up to that terribly humiliating climax but that was how these things worked. No one just… got down to it.

“I’m not going to tell you about that sweetie. You know I’d never lie but it was… It was long, long before you. Long before I made some of the big choices in my life and well before anything really bad happened,” Tara said. After all she’d never fallen for those charms again.

“Just because its long ago doesn’t make it any the less important in figuring out the puzzle that is you my love,” Willow insisted.

She really did want to know and Tara just didn’t get that. She’d never have dreamed of, deliberately, raising the subject. They were happy. They were together. Why would Willow want to force an issue like this? This was the kind of thing that divorces were made of – not that they were married… crushed expectations. But this was, or had been at the time anyway, stellar stuff.

Not so big now but…

How could she admit that part of her past to the woman she loved?

Perhaps she needed to hear it from Willow first?

“Are you really refusing to let us go out until I tell you?” Tara asked. “Are you going to really push this that far? Is it so important to you, to know?”

She sat down on the edge of the dorm bed they’d pushed aside to make room for the double futon. Okay… So it hadn’t really been… once. There had been just one time she’d… done it. But there had been, she had to admit, a whole phase which went with that. Phase - that was a good word for this. That was the sort of word that explained everything away and would make everything okay – even before she actually admitted to anything. When Willow nodded in response to her question she used it and felt better for getting it out there. “It was just a phase.”

“That sort of thing isn’t really a phase baby,” Willow said. “It was just who you were back then. You shouldn’t be ashamed of that – not in the slightest.”

“But that’s not who I want to have been then,” Tara said as if that would make any difference at all. Given what Willow had already told her – the way she saw it as being - it was the worst thing she could have said. There were choices that you made during you life and they obviously seemed right at the time… Or at least those choices, if not right, were all you could have done at that moment… Even if you regretted them later and wished you hadn’t done that at all.

Because someone else hadn’t made the same choice you had. Someone that you loved had chosen something different – a different path. And what they were talking about had been a pretty monumental choice. “I mean… If I tell you then what will you think of me?”

“I promise you baby,” Willow said. “It really won’t change a thing.”

“But it will,” Tara insisted. “It has to.” You couldn’t just say something and never have it affect anything – that wasn't the way that people worked. And this wasn't the sort of thing that you could admit without there being repercussions. Every time they had ‘words’ about something – no matter how rare that was it still happened – Willow would always be able to throw it back at her. She’d never be able to get away from what she’d done. Phase or no phase.

“It’s not like, being as you are going on about it like this, I can’t guess your deep dark secret anyway.”

That was a valid point Willow had. There was really only one thing this could be. Willow had told her what had happened to her. Not wanting to say made it pretty clear Tara’s choice – back then at least – was obviously the complete opposite of her love’s. Even if that had been something to do with rebelling against everyone’s expectations of her.

Willow did know what it was she was reluctant to say.

There was no way, after all this that she couldn’t – even if she hadn’t been Willow who had the key to her heart, her soul and, yes, her deep dark secrets. Willow had all the keys… All the ways into her.

Her love sat down on the bed next to her. “I know it already, well, now I do, and I don’t love you any less. I don’t desire you any less than I did. And I don’t want you out of my life just because I know… So that’s okay right? You can say it – because I already know.”

“Yeah,” Tara said quietly. That was good. Willow was being sympathetic and that was nice of her. She didn’t have to be when it came to this. This could really have gone wrong between them. Well, it could if they’d been together back then, or even just friends. This… it had been like the biggest choice in her world back then. And in Willow’s eyes now she’d obviously made the wrong one.

She’d thought it was right at the time but it so very much wasn't. They would have fought if they’d been together then… made such a choice. Tried something like that… been through that phase…

She’d just been… She’d just wanted to fit in a bit more than she had been doing. But not with all the people who’d taunted her at school. Not with the ‘cool’ girls. She’d wanted to fit in with the people who didn’t care about being cool. And so they were even cooler. At least that was how it was supposed to work. The things… She’d done something bad to try and get them to like her... Something the non-cool cool kids were doing with each other. She’d made herself part of that… It was a bad, bad choice.

No, that wasn’t fair to herself or to the choice.

It wasn't bad-bad. It had never been bad-bad. Most people made choices like that. It was a matter of preference, that was all. Other people – well they might not have made her choice. But there was a choice to be made by them. A choice not everyone would agree with. That was why it was a choice. And she’d been young – experimenting with who she was and that had seemed to be who she was then.

Even if she was ashamed of it now.

She’d been finding out what she’d liked. And she’d thought she’d liked that, or at least could like it… If the crowd she wanted to be in accepted her because of it… She could have got to like it.

She definitely wouldn’t have made that same choice now – but nor would she have made Willow’s choice either. A choice Willow was still living with.

Did she have any more reason to be ashamed of it than Willow though? She’d made her own choice just as Willow had. Willow’s had just been a different one to hers – one that managed to fit in with expectations a little more - and she’d stuck with it throughout her life. Willow was still enjoying her choice.

Tara had left hers far behind – which was why she saw it as a mistake. A mistake from the perspective of being here with Willow, looking back.

And that was how this whole thing had started off – asking Willow about her choice and just why it was still her choice today, years later. Tara hadn’t been able to see how she’d have made that choice, so long ago, and stuck with it – at least when she regretted her own decision. Didn’t people have to make bad decisions?

Even if she couldn’t quite understand it, Tara certainly had to admire that. Willow had been true to herself… whereas Tara had really… well she’d just been experimenting with what she was expected to be – rather than discovering who she really was.

She’d never have expected that choice of Willow though. If someone had shown her Willow back then and asked her what she’d thought – this wouldn’t have been anything she’d have considered. She’d always sort of assumed that Willow had the same background as she did in this regard. It was… Willow seemed to have much more… defined and well thought out tastes than she did.

Not better, because Tara refused to say that Willow’s choice was definitely a better one, it had just been better for her. Then.

Willow… Now, Willow just held her hand and offered her the support she should never have needed. It was then Tara knew that it really wouldn’t matter between them. When she admitted what Willow already knew it wouldn’t change a single thing between them – not in any way that mattered anyway. Maybe Willow would be a little disappointed, but at least she wasn’t going to be hurt by it.

There might even be some teasing.

Oh yes – there was bound to be lots of teasing. This was a very teasable subject and they both liked a little teasing.

Sometimes they even liked a lot of teasing.

Everything would still be just about the way it was before – even when Willow knew as much about her as she already knew about Willow. She was trying to be strong. Trying to be unafraid of the truth but it was tough to do that when she was just… so embarrassed.

“It’s okay babe,” Willow said. “You can always tell me anything. You know that.”

And she wanted to. Telling Willow was the way to make everything better. It was just the way things were – they told each other things and the problems went away. But this was an old truth. A pre-Willow truth. If she’d have known Willow then… she wouldn’t have made it… But maybe she wouldn’t have been true to who she had been then. Maybe she needed to have done that thing to find out who she was. “I know. And I want to… but it’s hard to admit something like this – especially when I am who I am now. Admitting that I’m not the sort of person you thought I was. That I did something like that once upon a time.” She didn’t know if she could actually say it. Not until Willow kissed her and showed her that what she’d done, just the once… or when she’d once had a phase… didn’t matter to her.

“Okay, okay… Here I go. I… Well, you chose Debbie Gibson and I chose… I bought… I was a Tiffany fan… I had a record and a signed poster… because I went to the Mall once and saw her there.”

There that was one of the hardest things she’d ever admitted to. There had been that whole hyped up rivalry thing and she’d even bought into that. She’d thought she was so much better than the Debbie fans.

Than Willow by inference.

At least she wasn’t still buying her records like Willow though. The new one had been delivered that morning. Tara hadn’t even known that Debbie Gibson was still making records.

Let alone that anyone was buying them.

Now if Willow didn’t get ready to go… She’d have to remind her of that. Teasing definitely worked both ways. The truth had given her some perspective on this whole thing. She’d had a phase – and yes there had been a visit to a shopping mall where a video had been filmed. Yes, you could see the top of her head in that video – if you knew where to look.

But she’d been young then.

Willow was still buying into it and that was so very much more teasable.

Wow. She’d said it all and the world hadn’t ended.

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Was her world over now?

Her life?

Finally they’d come for her. It was nearly a week now since she’d been taken from the place where her Dad had died and been put into that smaller cage. One of a few such smaller cages she could see if she pushed her head right up against the bars at the front. It was a week since she’d decided she was going to use their own greed to get out of here. She’d let them take her and then she’d run. She was good at running.

Once she’d made that decision things had moved slowly, which had given her lots of time to think and ‘be within herself’ as her Dad had used to put it. He’d been the only person who’d ever been able to get her out of a snit… So yeah, she’d been sulking and so what? She deserved a little sulking. Everyone was dying around her and she was stuck down here. Her Dad was… dead. Dead. Dead. Dead.

No one was coming to help her and she’d started to think they’d never come back for her either. It had been someone else, just cos of numbers usually in another cage, each night – never her. They probably remembered her reaction to them taking her ‘friend’ and wanted to give her some time to think about that.

Bastards.

She’d made a friend and they’d taken him – probably just to get at her. To hurt her. That was what they did. They hurt you and then they killed you. Bastards.

First it had been the other, older, girl who’d been taken, and then the cage had been ‘restocked’ with some fresh, just as scared, people. She didn’t recognise anyone who was brought into it from her old cell, the one that she’d shared with her Dad and all those others. And good. They’d let him die because they wouldn’t help him. She didn’t want to be anywhere near any of those people. Either not everyone was being brought here or there were far more of these smaller cells than she’d been able to see.

It didn’t matter much. She just had to get out of here – then she’d tell the police and that would be that. The police would know what to do – Daddy had always told her that – stressed it. If she was hurt, or lost, she could always trust a cop to help her. Her family – and that just meant her Dad – and a cop. That was it.

After the only person, in any of the cages, to try and be nice to her had been taken away by the vampires she hadn’t thought about taking anyone else with her.

The only person she’d been nice to in return… Gone.

Definitely dead.

Evil bastard things.

She’d help the rest of these people, even those who’d failed her Dad, when she got out. Besides if she was running… She preferred to run alone. At her own pace – not held back by someone else. That was how she was best – alone and out front. She’d been left alone and now she was going to get out of here alone.

Or not at all.

But she couldn’t see why she’d waste another moment’s thought on anyone else. Thought was using energy right and she needed all her energy to get away.

The newcomers to the cage, after the older girl had gone were a young man, a girl in her late teens and another younger boy. They were all left alone too though. They were all being fattened up. Well, not fattened so much as given enough food to live on. It probably helped the taste of the blood or something. Toni wasn't much of a science student and she only knew what she’d seen about vampires. That and stuff in films. Films like that weren’t supposed to be true. Dracula wasn’t real. What the… Why were they here? Why were they real? They shouldn’t be any more damn real than the elephant with the big ears that could fly. Why were they here?

Science, religion and the supernatural pretty much passed her by. Athletics were her thing – that and art. She could draw pretty good and she didn’t mind history if she was pressed in ‘liking’ something academic. Outside of those three things school was pretty much a chore for her even if she was getting okay grades. It was still a chore.

Apart from the geeks, school was a chore for most kids she knew.

Where the hell had vampires come from? And what was going on down here? Why wasn't someone doing something about this? Why was it being allowed to happen? Didn’t anyone care what happened to her?

Her Dad had cared and look what had happened to him. Perhaps the vampires had killed everyone who cared?

It had become obvious that they could have just fed on the in the cages and that was what happened sometimes. They just grabbed some poor idiot who stayed too close to the front of the bigger cages and… ate them. Sucked them dry – till they were all pale. But that wasn't what happened most of the time. Dad had thought that they liked to hunt. Mostly they were taking people away to feed on them – but the stories Dad had heard said that there was hunting. It was all about the taste for these filthy creatures and hunting them made the taste better or something.

Could she believe that? It didn’t matter much… As long as they let her go then she could run. Have a chance. Otherwise she was already dead – just sitting here waiting to join her Daddy.

She missed him so much…

They liked to taste people being afraid. That was what people thought and had told her Dad. She hadn’t seen anything to say it was wrong – what people had said to him. People who’d been there a while longer and so were obviously ‘experts.’ She watched things and she learned. She’d already pretty much figured out how this place worked – well in her head anyway. Where the vampires came from at what time. What they wanted. What seemed to be going on – this was a cage for young people obviously. There was one for older guys a few metres away, probably more further on for some other type.

When they wanted young people they’d come here though.

She hadn’t been aware of what people ‘said’ since her Dad had… Bastards.

She wanted him back but…

He was gone…

He’d passed her enough of what they’d told him for her to figure it out though – and how she was going to get out of here. Or try to. She knew she was watching more than anyone else in this cage – she had to make up for what she might be missing in sound. They’d even seen her watching – the vampires and the other people in the cage.

One lot had been amused and the other had just ignored her.

That was fine for both of them. She didn’t need her companions. They didn’t think they needed her – why would they? They’d given up and it was going to kill them. As for the vampires… Let them underestimate the little deaf girl if they even knew she was. She’d leave them far behind and get the police to bust this place up.

She’d never seen her friend from the cage again once he’d been taken. But that didn’t surprise her. She’d never seen any of the people that had been taken from any of the cages. The ‘couple’ had been split up next after her friend had been taken. The boy had been taken first and Toni supposed that they might have been taunted or warned… Their activities in the corner, at least trying to be discrete now, had become even more frenzied and desperate. She had to think it was some sort of natural reaction or cry for comfort. That wasn't comfort though – it was just sex and she was pretty sure that wasn’t the same thing.

Anyway… Most of them, except for the new young man, initially, had looked away. If they were trying to be discrete then there was an unspoken, or in Toni’s case at least unheard, consensus that they’d respect that. Besides she wasn't interested. She’d seen it too much in the last week to have any illusions about it making anything better for them. The more they did it the more they needed it – just to get by without cracking up probably. If anything they weren’t doing as well as the rest of them.

The new guy seemed to be enjoying watching it at first, despite the circumstances, but then he’d got bored and tried to speak to Toni.

Someone had actually tried… That was new in itself.

He might have been the first one, other than her friend, who’d figured out that she wasn’t just withdrawn, she was actually deaf. And he’d tried. He really had. He’d tried speaking slowly and clearly – but Toni wasn't much good at lip reading in the best of circumstances when she actually cared what was being said. He’d tried drawing things in the air and finally, in a lonely moment when she’d been missing the kind of closeness she’d had with the only person who’d been nice to her down here, she’d tried to show him finger-spelling but his fingers wouldn’t cooperate quickly enough to make even that practical. She dimly remembered how much it could ache at first. He’d lost interest after maybe a couple of afternoons and moved onto one of the others.

He’d never wanted to try and keep her warm – or to be kept warm. She hadn’t liked how he’d watched the couple that were screwing in the corner, but he’d never tried anything with her – or the other woman in there. In fact he seemed to be pretty much set on avoiding anything that could be thought of as ‘wrong.’ Even though in this circumstance nothing was more wrong than where they were and what was going to happen to each of them. She knew that, if anyone had tried anything, she’d have kicked him in the nuts and kept kicking him until he learned his lesson. There had been no need though. He’d even jumped when she’d first touched his hand to pull his uncooperative fingers into a ‘Q’.

He was probably a good guy in the real world… it was just that he was still a guy and she knew guys liked things like that. They were very visual, at least as Dad had told her they were and she knew he’d had some magazines hidden away in the garage. Her own experience of boys was pretty slim. Her friend, the one she’d found here in the cage and who was gone now, was the nearest she’d really been to a boy.

Toni had never had a ‘boyfriend’ so far but not for a lack of interest in general terms. It was just that despite being at a school for deaf kids, there was no one there she really liked in that way. It was a small school… not many people in each class. And the hearing boys in the neighbourhood… Well, there was a language difficulty that only some had been willing to try and get over. Because even if she could have lip-read… Toni wasn't a talker – with words anyway. It wouldn’t sound good to others; she’d been told by her partially hearing friends that it never did.

And that was one reason that she didn’t try to work with the teachers who offered lip-reading classes and even classes in how to talk like a ‘normal’ person? Her Dad’s impression of that was conflicted.

Had been conflicted…

On the one hand he’d thought that she needed to be able to get on in the world – just to have the best chance to do anything she wanted to. On the other hand he’d always been asking ‘what the hell normal was anyway.’ She agreed with that one… What the hell was normal?

Teachers and most parents at the school never mentioned ‘normal.’ They knew better. But the rest of the world used ‘normal’ all too much. Used it, meant it, thought that everyone should be ‘normal’ and took you as stupid if you weren’t.

Toni hated ‘normal.’

Anyway, not talking or lip-reading had kind of limited her options boys-wise though. Maybe when she went to her next school… then maybe there would be a guy she could actually talk to and whom she liked that way too. A miraculous combination because she was looking for some sort of perfection. The kind of boys that made her feel… that way… well they were all on the TV and stuff. And the real guys weren’t anything like them.

And now she wasn’t a ‘normal’ girl for another reason. She had no Dad and vampires wanted to eat her. Suck her dry.

Toni had been curious about things like that, boys… what happened but… what they were doing, the boy and the girl in the cage, shouldn’t have been going on then and unlike the older guy she’d tried to teach sign to, she hadn’t watched them at all. Glimpses – she hadn’t been able to avoid glimpses – but... She was the only one who’d stand up to them. The three of them had been there longest and they’d become the default authority in the cage just because of that. Age didn’t matter. They’d been here longer that was all that counted. It was easier to get food when you were senior – in fact the vampires threw it nearer to them - deliberately it seemed. Toni wasn't going to argue with that even though she was sure it was just so they could get them out next.

They wanted her to eat and she was hungry. She’d need her strength too. She never shared again after her friend was taken from her. What she got was hers and hers alone.

They wouldn’t share with her when she didn’t get any so why should she have given any to them?

Her ‘student’ had just been starting to get it, to be able to spell – hesitantly and slowly… with a few errors… when he’d suddenly just stopped and barely even looked at her for the rest of that day. A vampire had come. Thrown them food. And said… something. Then he’d stopped practising.

That had been the only clue that she was going be taken soon. They, the rest of them, knew it and watching their reactions, the way they averted their eyes from her, meant she knew it too.

That ‘change’ had been her only warning that they were coming for her that night. Once she knew she’d tried to rest. Her coach had always insisted that she rested before a big race, and there wasn’t going to be any bigger race than this one. She didn’t even know how far it was. If only she could just go straight up and run cross-country for the nearest lights.

And just like those race occasions – she hadn’t actually been able to sleep at all. She wanted to get back home – to be able to start running again. She’d already missed a track meet and… why was that even in her head… with all that was going on here?

But whatever happened she wouldn’t be going back to Fremont. To school. She had no family there, even if that was the one of the only two schools in the state. She wasn't even sure that her Mom was still in California. Or alive.

Her Dad was dead and her Mom hadn’t cared about her when she was alive. She wouldn’t give a shit now and Toni didn’t want her to anymore. The dreams she’d had of Mom coming back to them one day, for years after she ran out, were just that. Old dreams.

Toni knew that she could end up anywhere, but it wouldn’t be home – or anywhere she could call home. And first she had to get out of here – win herself a race. Win herself a future. A life that Dad had wanted her to have. It hadn’t taken long for the thoughts of a home she’d probably never get to see again – and how fair was that? - to turn to the practical matter of how to actually get there.

Her mind had been racing faster than she could ever have run. Whirling with possibilities she could think of but never know if they were even likely until they took her. She’d made plans about what she’d do if they came to pass though. But she knew that she couldn’t really know until she was there, in that situation. It was like running a race – she thought of it like that. It wasn't just you. It was you, the weather, the other competitors, the track or the ground. Everything came together and she’d learned to react to that. She was going to do that again.

At least one last time.

Confronting them wasn’t going to get her out of this. Big kids had picked on her when she’d been smaller.

That was when she’d started to run – not to get away as much as to be good at something and respected for it. Dad had made it clear that standing up for yourself was all very well, and Toni had done that when there was just one of those bullies around, but not when she was overmatched. She’d learned to run – not like a kid but properly. She’d been able to get away unless they trapped her and gradually she’d been less of a recluse and more of a team player – in other kids eyes – more so because she’d been good at it. She’d been looking to trying out for the State in her age group. It was something she could do.

So she knew she could do this. If they didn’t have some super, fast than a speeding bullet, speed or something that she couldn’t compete with. And if she could just get a good section of tunnel to run in. She’d never been a sprinter except at the very end of her races. She could turn on the speed when she had to – but she’d rather leave them far behind and get right out of their sight and hearing before she stopped and took stock of how she was going to get out into the world and into the one they’d taken them from.

She was going to have to leave her Dad, whatever they’d done with him, his body, behind.

Toni just hoped that there was a town or something up there where she could find the police quickly – that the vampires weren’t all up there too. Sewers suggested a town or city – why else would they be here? She didn’t know that though. But no matter what, she was better up there, in the open, than down here. Just a couple of weeks ago she’d run five miles in her personal best time. Okay so she’d not been able to train since then, nor had she been eating anything like properly, but she’d been pretty near her peak then.

She could get away from them… She could do it. She believed that as long as the route she left on gave her an even break.

Then she’d bring some sort of justice down on all of them. The vampire that was leading her to her either freedom or her fate and all the rest of them too.

She wanted them all to suffer. To be hurt. That was what she needed. For herself. For her Dad. For her friend who’d been the only nice person here. The person she cuddled with for warmth. Shared food with when either of them had been lucky enough to get some…

They’d killed him and he was just a little kid. Those damn animals had killed him and he hadn’t been able to get away. That wasn't fair at all. She had to get away for him so that the police could come and rescue everyone. She had to trust the police to be able to help. She had to…

Daddy had told her to trust them and he didn’t ever lie.

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Katharyn



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Re: Part 109

Postby tiredsoul » Sun Jun 29, 2003 12:03 am

*sneaking in … scampering quietly*



Forget work … I have a scampering schedule to adhere to.



The spreadsheet said so :)



I so loved this part.



All through it the beginning, I thought of every possible scenario of what they could be talking about, it seemed so serious, and then ... well, that just cracked me up.



Ah, the memories of being a teenager :p Though sometimes, some of those memories really should be repressed.



Speaking of teenagers, poor Toni.

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She knew she was watching more than anyone else in this cage – she had to make up for what she might be missing in sound.


I really like how strong Toni is, especially as now she is alone, and how you continue to explore her senses, not only in the descriptions of sight and smell, etc., but also how she uses those to her advantage. And most likely picking up much more around her than if any one of the others used all of their senses.

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She dimly remembered how much it could ache at first.


And then, when I think of how strong she is, I am reminded of how lonely and scared she is. I mean, she should be scared – people are dying all around her but somehow it’s not only that as you’re also giving insight into her past, making her so real.



And really, “what is normal?” is such a true question with no pat answer. It is impressive that you’ve taken on such a character and provided so much depth into her.



Now, let her get away from those mean ole vampires :)



Do you mind if I scamper around here a little longer?



Thanks :)



--celia





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Re: Part 108

Postby notl33t » Sun Jun 29, 2003 1:52 am

OH, my....that was incredible.



First off: You are a vixen! You, yes you, you wonderful writer you, are a vixen! Absolut vixen! Vixen-y vixen from vixenville!



The build-up to Tara's admission of guilt over liking Tiffany (gotta love the 80's) was wonderful. There I sat gnawing away at my fingers, completely nerve-wracked by the nervous chatter going on in Tara's head. Did she kiss a boy? Did she experiment with drugs? What's going on? Then, I realize that you aren't going anywhere strange with Tara, you're actually presenting a Tara I can believe in . . . and she liked Tiffany. And Willow liked Debbie. And it was funny because to me, their mutual like of 80's popstars (who some would say were rivals for teen and pre-teen affection) meant that they were really destined to be together. Hee hee.



Second: You take me to places that, although I'm scared to be there, make me a braver person.



You're really making me care for Toni. The last updates featuring her in the evil lair fill her out as a character. I want her to escape. I'm sad that her father is dead. I'm sad that her friend was taken away. But I'm also proud. I'm proud that she's deaf and she's scared and she's coping on her own. I'm proud that she is a strong character. It's so rare to find a writer who can present three dimensional characters. Especially three dimensional characters I can care about.



Thanks for what you're doing for Willow and Tara and the Buffyverse. It's nice to read . . . and sometimes get nervous about . . . you vixen you.



-Noe

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Re: Part 109

Postby justin » Sun Jun 29, 2003 3:04 am

The start of that update was great :rofl Even though I have no idea who Debbie Gibson or Tiffany are.



Then again you make with the transition from light to dark.



Toni certainly seems to be building up a lot of hate towards the vampires, which makes me think that if she escapes, then she's going to go down the same path as Tara did.

I understand, you should be with the person you l-love


I am


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Re: Part 109

Postby forrister » Sun Jun 29, 2003 3:46 am

I told you so. . . . .



I said people would like Toni . . . and they do. So do I. She has a tenacity - hanging on to life in the face of overwhelming odds. I also like what you've done with T&W. They are together. Living relatively normal lives and loving each other with everything in them. That's how it should be and how I like to see them. I know that bad things will come, but I also know that so long as they're together they can always face the future - they are each other's strength and courage. And you bring all this out so well - it feels right when I read it.



Keep up the good work!!!



Forrister



Fortitudo est domina et regina virtutem.

(Courage is the mistress and queen of all virtues)

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Re: Part 108

Postby Grimlock72 » Sun Jun 29, 2003 9:09 am

Back to the eighties indeed :-) You do know how to circle around an issue don't you ?? There I was thinking of possible scenarios when I realised that would be pointless, bit short on patience here though :D .



Toni has a lot of faith in the police, that is kinda worriesome. It's understandable her father told her so, but the circumstances are well... rahter different now. Her unshaken belief that the police will destroy all the evil vampires does serve as a good reminder that she is still 14 year old girl, frightened and alone even.



Toni is very reliant on her running abilities. However, vampires are pretty fast as well. Combined with better eye-sight and smell... I wouldn't say Toni can *just* outrun them and be done with it. Unless she reaches a manhole and climbs up to daylight real fast. Seems some days have passed for Toni, I had expected her to be hauled up to be hunted by Dru and Spike when the request was made. Obviously that didn't happen, more prep. time for Toni... all for the good.



I also very much liked the fact that her dad told her to run when clearly overmatched. Wise man that.



Best to avoid the sign-language vs. lip-reading debate here, over here in the Netherlands we pretty much have two factions of deaf-school based on that debate. Finger-spelling can be very tiresome yes, which is why sign-language was invented. Spelling out everything you want to say just takes forever :) .



Grimmy

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"You hurt Tara," Willow said too calmly. "The last one who tried that was a god. I made her regret it." -- Unexpected Consequences by Lisa of Nine

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Re: Part 109

Postby Nation » Sun Jun 29, 2003 1:23 pm

Okay Katharyn,

I'm all caught up. That includes re-reading Sidestep 1 and I have read all updates of the new story. I really had a good chuckle with this last update. I knew where you were taking the whole "choice" issue, but I figured it would be over something like New Kids on the Block. I laughed when it was Debbie Gibson and Tiffany. I was a Tiffany fan myself, although I wasn't totally against Debbie Gibson. Is she really still making records? :)

I'll be the first to admit, I don't give the best feedback. I just don't have the time to sit down and analyze a story's good/bad points. But I can tell you this, I really have enjoyed this story. You write so descriptively and so emotionally that it just makes me drool while waiting for updates. :) This is one of the better fics on this board IMO. Thanks for writing this, I look forward to more.



Nation

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Re: Part 109

Postby Cicca » Sun Jun 29, 2003 10:40 pm

Yes, I do believe that Deborah Gibson ;) is still somehow in the music business. I know she was on Broadway a while back.

Tiffany! :rofl

Horrors!! I definitely preferred Debbie Gibson to Tiffany. Poor Tara!

And that whole section read a little bit like one of Sass's vignettes. I just knew it had to be something silly. Yay me! ;)



Toni... I'm anxious. Definitely anxious.



Thanks Katharyn.

(and the last update was great too, I just didn't get a chance to say anything)

“Spirit of Sappho, ... I summon you. Come fill me with your big, dykey power!” ~ Final Exam by Tommo

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Re: Part 109

Postby Katharyn » Mon Jun 30, 2003 12:32 pm

Thanks muchly guys!



Celia - Hey there hun. Dreaming of screen print girls?



The scampering schedule is no laughing matter. Be here or be... less than round.



Ideally I would have ended the part on T/W, doing Toni first - but the power and the transition demanded I do T/W first - plus it stokes their drama before Toni's fate egts everyone down.



Licky teenage memories... something to be explored!



I think I am incapable of writing a woman, or girl, who isn't strong. I swear, it is so difficult to inject vulnerability into a character I find myself, unfortunately, liking so much.



Normal... I thought that would strike a chord. Which was why it was there of course.



YOu can scamper till you are too tired and have to go to bed.



Thanks



Notl33t - Incredible? That will do me nicely.



Vixen? If you say so... To be honest the buildup to Tiffany was tricky and a bit forced. I had to use language that really didn't fit the conversation to preserve the mystery and guide you another way. It was the only way to go though and still have you ask those questions...



Scared to be there? Good. That is perfect. And if you feel stronger cos you are? Even better...



Making you care for someone is a writing trick I never had to do before... because you already cared for T/W and Jenny Rupert to some extent. I suppose I tried to make you care for Faith, the Slayer, before... but this is a new character. No baggage, but no equally no prior investment. It is scary. And making her deaf... scarier. I like her though... Which might be problematic. I am so glad you care, it validates the effort (and you will see soon there is some effort involved) I felt I had to go to so I could get her right.



Your nerves should fade soon. For a while at least.



Thanks for the lovely feedback.



Justin - Debbie Gibson and Tiffany, there was a rivalry there as I recall which I played on in a fanfic challenge (which I lost somewhere.) I liked it so much I re-did it here though.



It is very interesting what you say about hate. Of course it is predicated on one thing you also mention....



Thanks!



Kerry - You said so. You are so right. You always are. Which is why I keep asking!



T/W are living relatively normal lives... More so, arguably, than Buffy ever did in Sunnydale. Yes there are problems but they have each other above all.



*HUGS*



Grimlock - I do know how to circle an issue - it is my style (if I had any!) It was supposed to make you think, wonder. I never thought you would think I would make anything too bad, but always worse than what it actually was.



Toni's faith... She has nothing better to hold onto and you are so right about her. She is very alone.



Vampires running... Okay. I will address this as it tweaked my interest. We have seen vampires, some vampires like Angel and the guy who was his "protegee" move very, very quickly - but only rarely and (in Angel's case) not as often as they need to. I see the "blur" movement as very limited in that case. Afterall, a fast moving Angelus would have run Jenny to ground in seconds, though perhaps he didn't want to. BUt we have lots of examples of vampires just... well running. Like people, and very few of them crossing a room in a heartbeat. I figure there is some limiting factor on that.



As for Toni being faster? Not what I am suggesting, but vampires need not be faster than humans over a distance IMHO. Strong does not equal a fast runner. Nor does quick reactions. JUst my take - thanks for giving me the chance because some of that stuff in canon bugged me!



Sign v's Lip - Okay... my take on this is that it is very political. Toni has, in my mind, made a political choice though she would not see it that way. I admit I never checked what the choice of her (real world) school was, but I also made up a public attitude in Fremont too. I am sure in reality the people in that town are much more supportive than I suggest that they might be. This is her reality though. She signs and is uninterested in lip reading. As for sign... Yeah fingers are slow *cough* but you have to walk before you can run and all the people she has met are... very uninterested.



Personally I am upset by the "genocidal" way in which the hearing medical profession hearing parents who want the best for the kids (quite properly) have lurched towards implants for deaf kids. There is a whole deaf culture there which needs, as any culture does, new members. To some extent, in the western world, it is starting to be starved of new life. I know that, if we can, we should help kids hear. I get that, I really do, but how many hearing parents offered that choose not to risk an operation (which always carries risks) and instead allow their child to grow up, choose for themselves after they are part of that culture?



It is a tricky question...



Nation - You read all of one... wow. I never did *S* I never read that fic through... I think Debbie is making records, at least a couple of years ago (which was what Willow had delivered.) I just liked Tara choosing the red head and Willow the blonde. I wonder why?



Feedback is feedback and feedback is good. You take the time you have and just say what hits you, or what interests you or you want to know... No need for philosphy! I promise.



Thanks for liking this.



Cicca - Broadway? Wow... I thought I heard she was producing and writing music for otehrs now, I could be wrong. Whatever happened to Tiffany? Serious answers appreciated. And comparison to Sass? Well that is a good thing! I was aware of it as I wrote it... but I did the fanfic challenge along time before the vignettes so I feel good about myself.



Toni... Anxiety is good. Shows you care - which is better.



Thanks so much!



katharyn

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If I want a little pussy, I got my own to play with.
Chance in Chance.




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Re: Part 109

Postby Cicca » Tue Jul 01, 2003 12:26 am

Ask and ye shall receive!

Scary page here.





Tiffany in the 1990s was another victim of the Rap evolution, and her album sales went down

considerably. In 1992, she married make up artist Bulmaro Garcia and in September 17 of that year

she gave birth to Elijah Garcia. In 1995, she moved to Nashville, and in 2002, she was the subject of

an E! True Hollywood Story television show. She is currently trying to make a comeback and she is

on tour. She also had a greatest hits album released in Singapore and three in Japan, and she posed

naked for Playboy magazine.







Ah yes. Posing for Playboy. It's a classic for women who are trying to remain in the public eye. That is so screwed up.



That biography is very amusingly written by the way.

Quote:
In 1977, Tiffany's mom married a guy named Dan Williams, and in 1979, Tiffany's sister Falicia


Pure poetry!

;)



I may have missed it, but the Debbie Gibson and Tiffany thing was originally written as a challenge? An evil challenge! heheheheheh



It could've been scarier. Vanilla Ice vs. Milli Vanilli.







Toni... Yep, I'm still worried.

“Spirit of Sappho, ... I summon you. Come fill me with your big, dykey power!” ~ Final Exam by Tommo

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Re: Part 109

Postby Grimlock72 » Tue Jul 01, 2003 12:35 pm

Katharyn,



Vampire speed has never been consistent on BtVS as far as I know. If anything they're shown as being quite slow, even Xander or Dawn can stake them and besides lack of strength they really shouldn't be able to do that. Both being sort of normal humans.



Freemonth has a website, they seem to mix both Sign language and English in a usefull combination with as main aim to let the child/student communicate as well as possible with his/her loved ones. Reasonable approach that, over here we have schools who do mostly Sign and ones who focus on English/lip-reading. Imagine that, such difference in such a small country (the Netherlands) :-). I would love to reply to some of your other comments on this but that would get this thread off-topic too much I think.



Back to the speed-issue, due to the way you write it's never that you imply that Toni would be faster than a vampire. It's just worrying me that she seems to think so, coupled with the fact that I'm not entirely sure how fast vampires are in your universe. (I recall the last vampire, which Tara staked using a tree, was fairly fast).



I don't see a 14-year old girl outrun a vampire for very long, they don't even get out of breath :( . I'll just :pray she'll find an exit to daylight really fast, or hides really well.... (would that work with vampire smelling so well?)



Now look what you did, I'm all worrying about Toni again :D .



Grimmy

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"You hurt Tara," Willow said too calmly. "The last one who tried that was a god. I made her regret it." -- Unexpected Consequences by Lisa of Nine

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Re: Part 109

Postby Katharyn » Tue Jul 01, 2003 12:53 pm

Hey Grimmy - there is no "off-topic" in reponse here. Its not like it would be chat, so if you want to say something then please go ahead. One thing I learned from feedback is that it can only help you understand stuff, including what you wrote, better. Characters, plot, issues... anything.



So please... feel free to say what you wish, then I will get back to you on the rest.



Katharyn

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If I want a little pussy, I got my own to play with.
Chance in Chance.




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Re: Part 109

Postby Grimlock72 » Tue Jul 01, 2003 2:00 pm

Heh, ok... (do you LIVE on this thread by the way ? I just did a refresh before leaving and saw you already replied...:-)



It's just that I (non-deaf person here, my dad works as a teacher on a school for the deaf (lip-reading oriented)) view being deaf as a disability/handicap. As such I feel it should be either fixed (implants) or overcome. To say deaf have a culture is true, but to say said culture "needs new members" is almost hoping more deaf people will be born (I'm fairly sure you didn't mean that but I'm funny and read it that way). In an ideal world we would HAVE a deaf culture since no-one would be deaf....



I tend to cringe a bit when deaf-people vehmently deny that deafness is a handicap. It's fun to see but it gets tiring in speeches.



The sign-language vs. lip-reading also makes the switch between "hearing adapt to deaf" and "deaf adapt to hearing". I favour the latter since I would prefer deaf-people to be part of overal society as much as possible. No bonus-points for guessing how I feel about the deaf-only University in New York.



For me it boils down to intergration or seperation (yes I know nasty memories are attached to those words, sorry... don't know other ones).. people are free to seperate themselves anyway they like from society as a whole. As long as they don't demand of society to adapt to them.



And contrary to the above I *do* know sign language. Mainly for convenience /need and because it's not THAT hard to learn with qualified help :) . It's just that I wish for most deaf people the best of life AFTER leaving the protected environment of dedicated deaf schools and all. I don't know if there is sufficient work specificly for deaf people in the US (there sure is at the University I mentioned:-) but over here in the Netherlands there surely isn't. So eventually deaf people will have to interact with non-deaf people in society. I don't see why they shouldn't be as best prepared as possible for that, relying on sign-language only after the age 8 isn't helping them.



Again all in MY opinion of course :D . Have had much fun discussing this with my dad and some of his collegues. What most struck me is how there is such a clear divide between the two camps, something which the school you mentioned doesn't seem to have.



Funny thing; I once met a deaf boy which I could speak with fairly well, just as long as I listened REALLY hard. Deaf people don't make 'tones' when they speak, you would be suprised how different that is to hear. But I managed to understand 80% of what he said and combined with signs and pencil/paper we went along fine.



Turned out it was a student of my dad, one he considered to speaking VERY well :D . Sure, depends on the standard you start at. He looks at from a deaf person's point of view and as such I suppose the boy really DID speak well. Still... it took a lot of concentration to understand him. Which is why I can understand how people wouldn't spend to much time trying that under slightly more difficult conditions (heh).



End of kinda-off-topicy-rant/spill :-)



Grimmy

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"You hurt Tara," Willow said too calmly. "The last one who tried that was a god. I made her regret it." -- Unexpected Consequences by Lisa of Nine

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Part 110

Postby Katharyn » Tue Jul 01, 2003 11:15 pm

Hey all, thanks for reading and feeding back. I am afraid I do not have alot of time right now for responding to Cicca and Grimmy but I will do so tonight - I found what you both said interesting though.

Part 110 is below.

Enjoy Kittens.

Kat.

Title: The Sidestep Chronicle – Second Chronicle - Trouble with a Capital ‘T’ (Part 110)
Author: Katharyn Rosser
Feedback: Constructive criticism is always welcome. katharynrosser@hotmail.com Flames just demonstrate you have a tiny mind.
Spoiler Warning: Pretty limited. The story occurs in an alternate universe as set up in “The Wish” though reference is made to events that occur in both realities. Nothing is referenced that occurs after S5 though. Guess why? Most “spoilers” would be for the first chronicle of this fic rather than the show and if you haven’t read that then much of this will make no sense but you can try and get round it by reading the preface to Part 104 which summarises most of what went before.
Distribution This story was written for Pens. Pens is its home. No archiving off Different Coloured Pens (This applies to all of the Sidestep Chronicle)
Summary: Tara and Willow go looking for trouble and it does its best to find them.
Disclaimer: I don’t own any of the copyrights or anything else associated with BTVS. All rights lie with the production company, writers etc, etc. I am making zilch from this series of stories. You know the drill. All original characters and situations are the product of my fevered mind and those of my beta readers.
Rating: R – a general rating for occasional content. Individual parts might be less than this level.
Couples: Tara and Willow forever – others couples as necessary but nothing unconventional.
Notes: Once more lets just say I would be shocked if I write Toni convincingly and correctly. As a character she is a huge gamble for me. Not only is she an original character (gasp) but she is also deaf – which I have no idea how to write well. Believe me when I say it is tricky to avoid all the ‘hearing’ references which are common practice in writing characters who have use of that sense. I made this rod for my own back though. Lets see where I can carry it. Anyone who is deaf, has deaf relatives or friends who wants to chip in though I would be delighted to hear from you – not only in terms of opinions but also in terms of the standard terms etc which are applied to literature featuring deaf characters. My ignorance is my only defence.
Thanks To: All My Brilliant Beta Readers (AMBBR) Kerry (Forrister) and Jo (Wizpup) who for some reason signed right back up for this fic after seeing the size of the last one. No accounting for madness is there. And Celia (TiredSoul) who should have known better but signed up anyway. *HUGS* and Big Thanks to all of you. This is one of Celia’s – not quite so multi-coloured as her last one though.



The Sidestep Chronicle – Second Chronicle

Trouble with a Capital ‘T’

By

Katharyn Rosser


“I spy with my little eye…” Tara started quietly. Willow watched as her love looked around for something suitable to bamboozle her.

Again.

Tara was pretty good at this game, when she wanted to be. The truth was that Tara couldn’t really relax when they were out hunting. Not totally. Even in the lightest moments there was a wary eye on the world around them. Nothing much had happened for ages, but that didn’t mean it wouldn’t or couldn’t.

Willow knew as much about what was out there as her girlfriend – she just had to have faith that it would be okay. They were good, strong and resourceful enough to deal with whatever came after them. No matter what it was. Tara knew it too and so they could hold hands, whistle jaunty tunes or even have a game of I-Spy.

“You know,” Willow mused. “Sometimes your eyes seem quite big.” She paused as she saw Tara’s reaction to that, and then tried to clarify what she’d meant. “So it’s not so much ‘your little eye’ as ‘your lovely blue eye which isn’t just isn’t so little.’” Great recovery… she was pretty impressed with that one and it didn’t hurt that it was all true as well. “And you have two of them. Which is double the wonderfulness that is you.”

Okay, now she realised that she was pushing that recovery a little too far towards desperation. She would have thought, four years in to their love, she’d have stopped worrying about Tara taking things the wrong way. Which Tara would never do, Tara always knew.

“I spy with my little eye… something beginning with H,” Tara said, looking at Willow pointedly and refusing to bend the tradition in favour of Willow’s new definition.


Willow had to admit it was better than her version, tradition was good too. Now… ‘H.’

“Hole?” Willow squeaked, barely even hesitating. They knew how each other thought and felt. Knowing when she was in a hole was key to that – one way or another. There were all sorts of holes… though she was sure that Tara had more of a metaphorical one in mind than anything which went through her own head at that moment.

Besides, there really were no others on view.

“Well done. The hole that you just keep digging yourself into my sweet,” Tara told her and pulled them closer together by their interlinked arms as they walked onwards and carried on hunting.

It was, in theory, a patrol. Calling it a ‘hunt’ wasn’t strictly accurate anymore, especially when compared to the bad old days when Sunnydale had been full of all kinds of hunters. But things had been quiet for a long while and neither of them was really expecting any trouble at all. On the other hand, Willow knew the simple fact that it was so quiet worried Tara – for more than one reason.

In the first place, and Willow could certainly understand this one, there was the inescapable notion that if it was quiet now, then it was definitely going to get more dangerous later. The calm before the storm as they said. It was only logical. It wasn’t like all the vampires and demons in the world had gone away, was it? No. They were still out there, still drawn to the power of the Hellmouth. They never lost interest. It was just that they saw far fewer of them at the moment.

A few loners a week. That was all they were seeing and all they were killing. Gone were the days when Tara and her Slayer friend had been able to kill two hundred and fifty each in a few weeks or a couple of months. If you had that many vampires in a town then they’d be organised – or at least some of them would be. There would have been a dominant vampire. Another Master, though maybe just one who was stronger than the rest.

And hence Tara’s frequently asked questions. ‘Where was the organisation? The plans? The plots?’ Willow thought that maybe, since they’d defeated the Order of Aurelius, it was just that no one else who was organised had moved into Sunnydale – or that they’d nipped problems like that in the bud as their ‘members’ started to arrive one by one. In other words, it had never had the chance to get as bad they remembered it being before.

And Willow had been a part of the ‘bad’ once upon a time so she knew very well what vampires were like. What it took to motivate them.

She understood Tara’s fear – and the part of her memories which told her about the Order and vampires in general, knew that ultimately her lover would be proved right about that. But that didn’t stop her appreciating the lull for what it was – no matter how long it had lasted. It was a good thing.

Tara’s other concern was, in such a prolonged lull, they’d get careless or complacent. Willow supposed that might be characterised by starting to enjoy hunts as ‘walks’ together – sometimes romantic ones, even if they’d always tried to treat it like that. Or playing childish games whilst they were supposed to be hunting. Maybe Tara was sort of right about that, but Willow also knew that the duties that they took upon themselves with Rupert and Jenny’s help weren’t easy ones. At least one of them coming was out nearly every single night – to patrol the same town – whilst they had both sleep to get, time for themselves to fit in and schoolwork to do as well.

Somehow, when things were quiet, they had to make things a little more fun. Or enjoy the peace and quiet for what it was. Even if it just meant walking hand in hand, rather than digging herself into that hole Tara had referred to.

“Is that the only hole you were thinking of?” Willow asked with a grin that she knew was doing nothing to get them back into being totally, one hundred percent, focused on the hunting. Well, boo hoo.

“No,” Tara retorted gently, “the other one is that occasionally filthy place you call a mouth, sweetie.” And then she kissed it, just a quick one, and they moved on again. “Your turn,” Tara added.

“Was that a serious one then?” Willow checked. There hadn’t been any actual hole for her to see, even if she had known it was there. And was, as Tara had pointed out, rapidly enlarging it with additional use of that other hole. Still, she’d won that round.

“If you have a go then I get more time to think of something else,” Tara admitted.

“Something I’ll never get. Again.” Tara knew some of the names of the moths and insects and things that were around at night. That was the result of a short course that she’d taken over the summer and it made ‘I-Spy’ much less fun when ‘D’ wasn’t ‘dog’ but instead ‘Diamondhead Moth’ or something obscurely similar which Willow would have no idea about without a convenient reference book to check in.

“I’ll keep it simple,” Tara promised her.

The fact Tara had to stop and think about her selection at all suggested that her mind was elsewhere. “Okay then…” Willow started to think about it, looking around her.

“Do you ever think it’s gotten too easy?” Tara asked her before she could come up with anything beyond ‘grass.’ Which was pretty easy as these things went. And she’d already used it too. ‘More Grass’ maybe?

“I just don’t like it when you get all ‘Time Life Guide to Sunnydale Flora and Fauna’ on me,” Willow replied. “I mean… I can guess for a month and not get some of those. At least, not without going and doing the reading for myself, and by the time I’ve done that, then I think that… well, chances are whatever you saw will probably be dead.” In the case of the bugs though, that wasn't going to worry Willow too much. Flowers were pretty. Maybe she’d get Tara some tomorrow. It had been a little while since they’d had some fresh flowers in their room. Bugs on the other hand… She knew the part they played in the natural world, but they could do their part as far away from her as possible, please.

“That’s not what I mean,” Tara replied, “And, anyway I promised not to do that again. I was just enjoying being the knowledge girl…” She paused and looked straight at Willow, “…for once.”

The meaning behind that playful remark was pretty clear – and she knew that her baby loved her just as she was. Including being the knowledge girl. Most of the time – because Tara was hardly a dunce. There were times, like I-Spy, when the breadth and depth of knowledge of the woman who wanted to be a teacher was astounding to Willow.

Tara didn’t mind her being ‘knowledge girl’ though, it was part of who she was. She liked it. Tara loved her like that. There was no bad there. “So what…?”

“I mean… do you think it’s gotten too easy to protect the town?” Tara asked her. “To hunt the vampires and demons down and keep things under control?”

Willow thought about that. She knew Tara’s concerns. And they’d had this conversation before – but she wasn’t sure that even Tara knew what she was looking for as an answer. ‘Yes’ or ‘No’ were equally ambiguous answers in terms of what was best for them and Sunnydale. At least in Tara’s eyes. “It’s good that it’s easier,” Willow told her. “I don’t want us to be in danger all the time.”

“Me neither,” Tara promised her. “But…”

“I know,” Willow said. And she did. “We can only take on what’s there, baby, and I for one appreciate it not being the end of the world.”

Tara squeezed her hand in thanks. “I do too. I just don’t want us to be caught out - when something bigger and more powerful comes along – because we’re just so used to being able to deal with the odd vampire or demon… you know? Is that really obsessive?”

“Yes,” Willow answered. “But in a cute way. We’ll deal with anything when it comes,” she promised Tara. “Together. And nothing can stop us when we’re together – you know that.” There was always something that would threaten them. But that was part of the reason she was out here hunting at all whilst Tara had insisted that she didn’t need to be.

She didn’t want her baby facing anything alone.

Okay, so there were nights that she or Tara were alone – when one of them had to do something else - and there were nights that they might be out with Rupert rather than each other. Or it might even be all three of them.

But mostly it was both of them that came out here on the hunt.

Besides, these walks together were more quality time with each other – quiet being a higher quality than dangerous. And quality time was always good. Being together was where they should be. And Willow wanted them together even more… in her heart she wanted something that was even more than what they had now. A new level of closeness – if that was even possible. A… future.

But now… peaceful walks, interspersed by only the occasional inconsiderate vampire, were a wonderful place to start for working up to more. The thing she, like Tara, appreciated was that they were the protectors of Sunnydale and she was more than happy to live with duty. They had to do it because no one else here could. In a few years though - Willow just couldn’t see them still doing this. Not and still have a life that gave them everything that they wanted.

The thing which kept going through her head was how Tara couldn’t see them not doing this and if it was quiet… then Willow was willing concede ‘maybe.’ But she didn’t want them, especially Tara, in danger forever. Tara had been doing this for years. Nearly eight years. That was close to a third of her still young life.

It wasn't where they were supposed to be - she was sure of that. Guilt had driven Tara once, perhaps there was some of that left too, but when she’d started to look after the people of this town just because it was right and it was something she could do… Willow had always thought that Tara, they, could stop when they wanted.

It was a question of wanting.

And Tara wasn’t the kind of person who’d want to stop. To just take a moment to be selfish. Willow knew that wasn’t her love at all. There wasn’t a selfish bone left in her body – at least not one that could keep being selfish for more than the time it might take to wonder about something.

The guilt about the past might have faded, but Willow knew they’d both feel the pain if someone was hurt after they’d stopped doing these sweeps through town. How could they not? So she didn’t want them to be still doing this… but she realised they might be.

Tara paused at a fork in the path… looking down towards the park. Their hunt had brought them down the side of the James Street cemetery – but they already knew there were no new graves here. Scanning the obituaries in the local papers seemed morbid, but… well, the local authorities knew better than to delay a burial, which could, altogether likely, turn out to be a vampire. So people were still buried pretty quickly in this town. No one had died last night… so usually they would just have headed back through town instead of swinging through the cemetery which was quite a diversion. This was how quiet it was… Tara, her Tara, reduced to checking cemeteries. It was something Tara had never really done before when she’d been hunting the more resilient and dangerous vampires. The ones that cause the damage.

It had been a wasted effort – new vampires were less dangerous than the ones which had survived a few years. They tended to get themselves killed through inexperience and stupidity. The ones that had survived a few years, they were the dangerous ones – with delusions of grandeur.

But, Willow could tell that Tara wasn’t thinking about that. Not the past. Not the cemetery. Nothing but…

Tara was looking towards the park. Then she took a step that way, seeming about to lead Willow down there, but Willow stood her ground, wondering what was going through her love’s mind. It was the lack of following which stopped Tara, who looked back at her.

“What is it, baby?” Willow asked. She recognised what was going on generally, if not specifically. Tara was having a feeling. And feelings were pretty much what had gotten her lover through those years on the streets, as well as bringing Willow to her. Not to mention ending the Master and the Mayor’s reigns of death.

Tara’s feelings were definitely something to be valued. She trusted them as much as she did her own more logical, scientific methods. Willow just wanted to know what they were and where they were leading right now.

“Do you…?” Tara shook her head. “I… It was like a dream, just for a flash, there.”

Willow went closer to her, trying to meet her love’s eyes but they kept being drawn up the path instead. She followed the direction of the gaze and again wondered where it was leading them. “What did you see, Tara?”

No response. Tara was caught in a moment. She was right there in front of her, but she wasn’t entirely right there. A part of Tara was somewhere up that path – wherever that led. Something was telling her… and she was listening.

“Sweetie, we have to go this way,” Tara told her and started off without even waiting to see if she would follow. The grip on Willow’s hand tightened to urge her to follow though and she allowed herself to be taken off up the path. She trusted Tara’s feelings even if she would have liked to know a little more about what exactly they were.

“Nothing ever happens in the park,” Willow reminded her. “It’s too far out for people to go – at night anyway.” The people of Sunnydale remembered the rules even if they didn’t have to adhere to them quite as tightly anymore. They knew what was safe and what wasn't. Pretty much no city was really safe at any time of the night – it was just that the bad things in Sunnydale would bite the unwary rather than just mug you.

“Something’s happening,” Tara told her as if Willow couldn’t have seen it in her eyes.

“Are you sure it’s there, baby?” Willow pressed. If they missed something elsewhere… if someone got hurt where they should have been, then Tara wouldn’t forgive herself easily. But the same could be said of ignoring the feeling about the park.

“Something either is happening, has happened or will happen… I just know it,” Tara continued as they went forward. “I-Spy with my little eye,” she said quietly.

Willow listened for the letter wondering what it would be.

“Something beginning with T.”

Willow could hear the capital. Well, that was bound to be ‘trouble’… wasn't it? Getting people out of trouble – or avoiding them ever being in it – was what they did. What else could begin with ‘T’ that would be worrying Tara?

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Toni just ran.

She’d never run so hard as this in her life, her heart was pounding with fear as much as the effort. It was tough going too. This wasn’t a track, street or some sanitised cross-country course, cleared of hazards by the organizers. There was stuff down in the sewer tunnels, logs, overturned shopping carts, crates, dead animals… and dead people too. One of them she’d recognised.

About a mile back, she’d passed the slumped body of the girl who’d found her solace in some ‘companionship’ in their cell. She could only guess it was a mile from the time she’d been running since then. But even the time was a guess. All she really knew was that she’d, at least, made it much further than the other girl. Toni had no idea whether the vampires thought that was a good hunt – one that went as far as that – or a disappointing one. It was important though – what they thought. It would have been an indication of when they might give up.

Or when they might really start to try and get her – stop playing around.

Surely they’d give up some time?

She’d always had an instinct for when people were gaining on her in races and she felt none of that sort of awareness now. When she’d glanced back, there had been no one there – at least there was no one obviously after her. She didn’t worry about leaving a trail. Better to be fast and far away, than stealthy and close to them. Far away was safe. Hidden but close was still in danger.

Besides she was a runner – that was what she was good at. Hiding… It was a lack of ability in hiding which was a part of why she’d become a runner.

It had taken a lot of effort to control her fear but she’d managed to just walk away from them when they let her go. She hadn’t wanted them to see that she really knew how to run. Everyone could move fast – but as her coach had always told her, not many people knew how to run. If the vampires had appreciated that, figured it out, then they might have chosen to slow her down – probably in a painful way. If they’d thought there was the slightest chance of her getting away - of getting past the vampire, or vampires, she thought was going to be hunting her – she was sure they’d have done something to her. Cut her feet or something. To slow her down or make her easier to find. Something. She’d wanted to run right away – but she’d forced herself to walk to the first bend in the tunnel. She’d just been playing to the stupidity they probably thought went along with her not hearing.

Sometimes it could help to have low expectations thrust upon you.

And her act had all been based on the presumption her Dad had actually heard something which was true from the other guy in the cage. Maybe they hadn’t been about to hunt her… He had been right though.

There had been a dark haired woman the others seemed to be afraid of from the way they looked at her. She hadn’t been a woman at all, not really. She’d been another vampire, but a strange one. She’d stroked Toni’s hair as she’d gone past her and when she’d held her hand to her head after the caress, Toni had found it slick with blood. The vampire had cut her but she’d never felt any pain. Not until after something had sliced her skin – like a paper cut.

All of that care not to end up bleeding… it had been wasted. She’d even glared back at the vampire as she’d licked that razor sharp nail and tasted Toni’s blood. And when she’d done that the vampire had stared right back at her – no, not back – it was into her. Toni had never felt so violated as she had right then. So helpless, unable to look away. Not even when someone had broken into their house and stolen some of their stuff.

Not even when the vampires had come for them that night.

Not when they’d snatched her from her bed and forced her to get dressed, laughing at her gangly, half-grown body. At least she’d been allowed to get clothes – and shoes. Shoes she could run in. If they hadn’t… That would have been bad.

If she’d been barefoot here? Some athletes chose to run on a track barefoot but… She’d have been down in the filth with glass ripping her feet apart within a hundred paces.

She hadn’t even felt so violated when they’d killed her Dad. When they’d stood watching her reactions as she, in turn, had watched him being beaten to death. His pain had been kind of irrelevant to some of them. They’d wanted to watch her suffer. Not him.

But what the vampire had put there had been… it had been right in her head. Right inside her where everything should have been private and now nothing was anymore. Not rummaging around like a crack-addicted thief - instead the vampire had stroked the layers of her mind aside gently, getting deeper and deeper. She’d only come out of the state the vampire had lulled her into when she’d realised that the other two vampires, the ones who’d collected her from the cage, were shouting at her. She’d only been able to see their exaggerated movements and gestures telling her to get away. She could tell always tell when people were shouting at her – as long as she could see them, they looked so stupid. Shouting at someone they knew was deaf?

At least she assumed they knew…

They weren’t the only ones who’d tried that though.

Deaf. They should have looked it up. Absence of perceived sound. Volume made no difference to her. Or tone. Or speaking slowly. None of that. D-E-A-F. It had always pissed her off.

And there had been someone else there – someone who wasn't shouting. A bleach blonde male vampire, kissing the neck of the dark haired woman even as she’d stared right inside Toni.

The woman had been waving her finger like a pendulum and somewhere in her head there had been a thought. A thought that was just as bad, worse, than just feeling that vampire was in there. She knew it was the woman, not because of what she felt but because it had been at the core of her brain. In every one of her own thoughts. Though, in fact, thought had ceased. Except for feeling those words.

That vampire had been in her head. Able to put thoughts into her head. That… That wasn’t right. It shouldn’t happen. It was wrong… The things she’d seen, thought and felt. Pain. Nightmarish suffering. Terrible fates.

And so much blood as people died.

No other vampire had done anything like that that to her. Just the dark haired woman with the… friend… who’d turned and flashed an evil grin at her.

Tick Tock little mouse. Tick Tock.

Run if you want to. Run like a turtle.


It wasn't just those thoughts that were suddenly in her head. She wished it was. She didn’t think them… they were just…. there. There had been the sights and feelings too… somehow she knew that they were the past – the past as seen by this vampire. Terrible history. There’d been other people dying. Being bitten. Other people the woman and the man kissing her neck had killed. More and more and more. All of them maybe. All that death, all of that blood. Toni hadn’t been sure if it was supposed to be her future. She hadn’t accepted that – horrible as it had been – and she still didn’t. It had just told her that she had to run even harder. Never stop running, she’d told herself. Never stop. There wasn’t enough running ever to get away from that.

Because it was still there, right inside her thoughts. Every stride she took it was there with her. She could, if she let it, feel every moment again and again. If she’d let herself, she might have broken down and just cried like some little kid.

If what the darker vampire woman had done was supposed to have scared her then it had definitely worked. But if it had been supposed to make her give up and quiver in fear, then it hadn’t done that at all.

The dark haired, female vampire, had been in her thoughts, as the blonde one had grinned and looked her up and down, his face shifting into the nightmare that had been his real, vampire, face. The one they had when they were feeding. She thought it was the ‘real’ face – monsters had masks. He’d intended to enjoy her – she was sure he still did. Somehow. That, as much as wanting to be away from the sights and feelings in her head, made her want to run from them right then. But she’d forced herself to walk – at least until she was a little way from them. Eventually she’d hurried to the first bend, but she’d made sure she hadn’t got into her stride until she’d been away from their sight.

And he hadn’t followed her. Not whilst she could still see that far back anyway.

Either he’d been giving her a head start – playing with her – or right now he was tracking her through another tunnel. She’d been taken through enough junctions on the way there and when she was being moved between cages to know that the place was like a warren of large, man size tunnels. Some of them were even bigger. Some of them were smaller. And if she got far enough, maybe she could use one of those smaller ones to get out.

Or at least away from him before he did hurt her – or enjoy her. Before that evil vampire woman put more stuff in her head.

All the tunnels she’d passed so far had been sealed off with gratings that were a lot newer than the rest of the sewers obviously were. Which meant that the ‘game’, the ‘race’, or whatever this thing was supposed to be was rigged against her. She wasn't supposed to have a chance. But maybe - she was pretty small and she could probably run better than most people – even most of the people in the State junior track team. Especially over distances. Distances were her thing. She hadn’t been allowed to run really long distances competitively because kids just weren’t, but in her training… she pushed herself then.

She’d done a half marathon once in a respectable time for a novice, though it had sapped her energy for more than a week afterwards.

She knew she could’ve beaten them anyway.

She might get further than they’d ever thought anyone would. And if she did, there could be a way out that they’d never thought anyone would be able to reach. She could do that. She could win the race. She’d never given up until she reached the finish line yet and she wasn't about to start now. Would that blonde vampire give up though?

The way he’d looked at her… well, she thought not. He hadn’t just been looking at dinner - he’d been looking at playtime with dinner as an optional extra. And that was if it was just him. There could be hundreds of them…

All wanting to ‘enjoy’ her – she had no idea how their games worked.

And that just made her run even harder. She wasn't going to be anyone’s plaything. In any way at all. Daddy would have liked that. He wanted her to live… had wanted her to live. That’s what he’d told her. She had to do what her Dad told her. Always.

Damn it! Another sealed off side tunnel. She still hadn’t gotten far enough. But until she was out, safely hidden or ran out of room to run, she was going to keep running.

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Damn, this kid had some legs on her and not the kind he sometimes used to look at. She was way too gangly and young to be of that sort of interest to him. Pain, sure – he’d torture the hell of out her. More than that… He liked his other pleasures to be a little more mature and well formed. Then again, at least, he didn’t enjoy biting legs like the big poof Angelus. At least not to feed – he was a neck kind of guy. No, these were the sort of legs that were giving him trouble. Somebody had ballsed up the plan all right. He’d come down here for dinner and maybe for a little fun with his food. Kind of like a happy meal – with a little toy in the bag.

Dru had even promised him that the tunnels could be fun places to hunt – that he’d never forget it. That was what his goddess had said ‘you’ll never forget it.’ Though it had seemed strange when she said it. But Dru knew about these sorts of things, she’d hunted in places he’d never even dreamed of, but this… to him it smacked a bit too much of cowardice – rather like existing on bags of chilled blood stolen from a hospital. Or even going down to the slaughterhouse. Vampires, he knew, did strange things to exist when they were afraid. And, so far as he could tell, Darla was afraid. That was what caution was. Fear. Plain and simple. After all, it wasn't even a Slayer that was up there on the surface, just a couple of damn Witches and a Watcher.

Someone should just kill the hell out them. Maybe with an axe. That always seemed to work. A little cleaving of skulls. How much mojo would they be using when the two halves of their heads were hanging on different shoulders? He’d wager on ‘not very much.’

If Dru insisted on sticking around then he might just have to go and kill himself some Witches sooner rather than later. He’d already promised, and fully intended to go through with it, but he wasn’t about to stick around down here for weeks or months - waiting. Dru was just Dru – perfection itself - but he’d never liked Darla. She was crazy too - in her own way – just more dangerously and less attractively so than his own dark goddess.

And all the shit, fortunately not real shit, in this sewer was going to take forever to clean off his coat. Stupid, damn girl – running? Really running? What the hell was that about? Still, she’d taste pretty fine – there had to be a whole lot of fear in her to get her to run this far, this fast. Adrenaline… he was a junkie for it in many ways. He gasped for air.

When he didn’t need to breathe, how could he get out of breath? Reflex reaction from his body he guessed – he hadn’t had to run like this since Prague and Dru’s close encounter with a mob.

He could get tired, true, but surely some little girl wasn’t going to be able to keep outrunning him. She was human – just human. Wasn't she? The distance she’d built ahead of him made it easy to wish she wasn't – it would be a good reason after all.

That would be damn embarrassing though – to have to go back to Dru, let alone that bitch Darla, and admit that he’d been too tired to catch the girl. Just a kid. He was a big fierce hunter – she was just a kid and, they said, some sort of retard too. He hadn’t paid enough attention to know one way or the other. It would take a couple of lifetimes to live it down either way.

Which was why he was just going to have to catch her now, wasn’t he? Besides he’d always liked the chase almost as much as the kill. And he could still smell her. Dru must have known something – as she so often did – to stop and cut the girl like that. There wasn’t much chance of her getting far enough ahead down here to be able to stop him following the scent of her blood. It pretty much screamed to him.

Except in a smelling way. . It wasn't even really ‘scent’ in the same way he could smell onions cooking from a mile off. It was a feeling as much as anything – an instinct for where the blood was. Probably a part of his demon. He loved that little dude – which was how he thought of the creature that had set up shop in him when he’d died.

As he ran on after her, he wondered just how much of the sewer system Darla had arranged to have sealed off for this mockery of hunting. The grates would let water flow through them, which would stop there from being any suspicious floods or anything, but the place was an unnatural maze. That was half of whatever fun there was in the hunting – but eventually, at this speed, this kid was going to get outside of where Darla would have expected her to be able to get.

Some sort of athlete, maybe? No one had ever outrun him before. Hidden sure – but she wasn’t hiding. She was running and she was still widening the gap if his nose was any judge. Slower than it had been opening up though – now he was putting the effort in. How much room was there for her to run?

Darla, like the Master before her, pretty much had nothing but contempt for humans. So it might not be that great.

Well he had contempt too – it was just that he was contemptuous whilst realising that sometimes they could surprise a guy – like this kid was doing.

Dru? Who knew what she thought of humans from moment to moment? That was what made her such fun over the decades. She could be like a new person every day and still his dark goddess.

It was probably why he so desired the parts of her that remained constant.

Just a bite to eat and he’d be back there with her. He ran on after her, anticipating the taste of the girl’s fear on his lips. She had to be very afraid to get this far. In fact, he kind of hoped she’d struggle too. If he could ever get his hands on her that was. She was faster than a bloody greyhound. A taste of that much fear though…

Then he’d have to admit there was something to this controlled hunting.

Dru was right. He was never going to forget it.

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Re: Part 109

Postby Cicca » Tue Jul 01, 2003 11:47 pm

oh arrrggghhh!

What happens now?! What happens now?!



Oh boy.



Very interesting stuff with Dru. And of course with Spike!



Dru being able to hypnotise... I guess I've forgotten. Is that what she did to Kendra? I do remember those lethal fingernails. Yikes.



Willow and Tara... :) It's wonderful to have them as Willow and Tara and together. Yes, I loved the first story, and VWillow and Tara were fascinating. But Willow and Tara even moreso.



So... Yay!



Thanks :)

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Re: Part 109

Postby notl33t » Wed Jul 02, 2003 12:30 am

Mmmm...nice.



I liked this update very much. It seems like the beginning of a payoff that you've set up very carefully.



I think its the way you chose to write this that makes me not feel completely nervous. Tara is suspicious, but not in a panicked way. Willow is suspicious, but not in a panicked way. Toni is running, but she's trying to do it systematically so she can get away. Spike is hunting Toni, but he has doubts about his prowess. You do characterization and character motivation really well. And horror. Eek, Dru-zilla.



Effectively, I hope T/W get to Toni as she gets away from Spike, but maybe she doesn't, but what if she does, but...but I suppose I'll have to wait like a good Kitten.



So, here I am waiting....good:kitty

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Re: Part 110

Postby tiredsoul » Wed Jul 02, 2003 3:19 am

*Scampering quickly into the thread*



I’m late. I’m late...egads! I’m not gonna get written up or sent to the principal’s office, am I?



*backing quietly into the corner, quivering*



I do see trouble with a capital T. Nice title by the way. I really like how you’ve shown how Sunnydale has lessened in the past four years with the vampire population though that would bother me too if I were Tara. I worry at the quietness of it. And Tara's feeling there ... makes me wonder.

Quote:
That vampire had been in her head. Able to put thoughts into her head.


That Drusilla still creeps me out, yet I am still fascinated by her. Most likely because you write her so well :) I can only imagine, scarily so, what horrible images had been forced into Toni’s head by the insane vampire. The fact that Toni is scared is so real but once again, her strength takes the lead. Where will it lead her though? You’re so racking up the tension in this part.



So the hunt is on … what happens next I do not know :p



And again… He loved that little dude …I still love that Spike line :)



Thanks.



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Re: Part 110

Postby Grimlock72 » Wed Jul 02, 2003 5:16 am

Ah... is Darla so arrogant that she didn't make the maze secure on all ends ? That was I was troubled about pretty much from the start of the maze scenario. Surely if you want to hunt someone you make sure they can't get OUT of the hunting area... it does give Toni a chance though.



Dru is cheating and I don't like it. Toni could try to cover the bleeding wound, that would at least weaken her signature. I would feel better if she could get UP as opposed to running forward, Spike will eventually catch up with her if she keeps running forward. Unless Willow and Tara intend to go into the sewers.



Strange that Tara does seem to sense Toni but not the hundreds of vampire pretty much below their feet. Have to get that slayer-radar fixed :-)



I very much agree with Willow on this quote:
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In a few years though - Willow just couldn't see them still doing this. Not and still have a life that gave them everything that they wanted.
She should talk to Tara about that, can't have such thoughts fester between them.



Is there ANY reason that cremation isn't mandatory by law in Sunnydale ? They KNOW the likely source of trouble and vampires need a body. So make sure there are no bodies to vamp back to unlife. Sounds easy enough to me.



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"You hurt Tara," Willow said too calmly. "The last one who tried that was a god. I made her regret it." -- Unexpected Consequences by Lisa of Nine

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